kamwalker

Are you sure you know you’re awake? Or do you just believe you are?

I've done periods of it to see what kind of effect it would have on me. They usually last about 2-3 weeks, but the longest I've gone was 4 months. I didn't feel it changed my life in any significant way. I think it's useful in the short term if you notice fatigue in your life as masturbation can have you feeling drained if you do it too much.

I think that's a reasonable take for why someone would be consuming alcohol and is true much of the time. My point of the post wasn't really supposed to be about alcohol though, it was just an example of how I've found it helpful for my own growth to occasionally dabble in what people view as hedonistic pleasures. I agree with your second point about consciousness. It ties into what I said about recontexualization of reality. The content of that experience is dictated by the awareness of the experience itself.

So I know that most people here like to discuss high consciousness and almost tend to demonize low conscious states, but I want to take a second to give my take on how being in these "low conscious" states are actually not something to write off. It's easy to get very lost in the spirituality realm and go through moments of crisis before coming to a certain awakening. You might think powering through it is the only option. In my experience going through periods of just letting all of it go are incredibly helpful. I've just sat home, took some edibles, drank some alcohol, put on some dance music, raved out of my mind, and induced states of euphoria most people probably won't ever understand. I've gone to a club and grinded on a stranger with the same feelings being felt. After doing stuff like this it has actually helped me with continuing the work of feeling true Self. Having said that I was only able to experience these moments through recontexualization of reality via spirituality. It confirms to me the importance of balancing it all. One foot on both sides of the field. Everything.

You are literally mixing the two right now. And will continue to do so for the rest of your day.

@Preety_India if you are under the assumption that engaging in materialist pleasure is not part of the process then you and a lot of people are going to have to rethink a lot about your life

MDMA, E, Molly they are all referring to the same thing in regards to the primary compound. But pure MDMA is different than MDMA mixed with an assortment of other junk. The usually comes in the form of a pressed pill and is referred to as ecstasy or E. You also definitely committed one of the most rookie mistakes of taking another pill thinking the first one is a dud. Please never do that again. It’s also worth pointing out that a person’s interpretation of what is happening to them under the influence of a drug is very very dependent on the experiences they’ve had in life. It could have had psychedelic effects on you, but wouldn’t do the same for another who has had a different life experience.

Too much thinking. When socializing there shouldn’t be much thought at all. This is where the flow of interactions are generated. Right now the anxiety is coming through and dictating the interaction instead.

But that’s exactly all everything is. This moment is existence and everything. That’s it.

For me I notice it in my chest and I become more conscious of my heart rhythm.

The thing is even my most like minded friends don’t necessarily care about the realizations I have. Not everyone is ready to face certain truths at that particular point in their life. But you can use the truth to come through you and illuminate the friendships you do have in other ways.

Such a beautiful video from Leo

Single life can be very comfortable. But what's comfortable is also just what you are familiar with. Some can't stand the idea of not having a partner. Both states are good to experience as it gives you both perspectives. I don't see myself ever getting married (trying to create permanence doesn't end well in my opinion), but having a partner I can relate to on many levels that I can spend time with would be a good experience.

Yeah it's pretty slow most of the time. I just give up and close the browser after a certain point

The relative exists within the absolute. Mistaking the relative for the all absolute is where people get it wrong and gives them existential panic when this is challenged. When Leo says your mom does not exist this threatens the ego, but that's because you are still thinking of it from the point of view of you and not as You. Once one separates themselves from the identification constructed within the relative it brings great peace actually.

The only thing that matters is the moment you are in right now. As you are reading this post. Don't think about the things you think you need to do to get to a certain place or time. In this moment feel however you need to feel and once you work through those feelings the answers about what to do next will start to become obvious. Making projections about who you are or what your future is a fruitless endeavor. Don't get caught up in that.

I'm careful with how I absorb content these days since there is so much of it. While I resonate with much of what Leo speaks about I try to stop frequently to question it instead of just nodding in agreement. Regardless of absolute truth we still have to go back to living in practical reality where spiritual knowledge can damage you here if you don't apply it correctly. As such I also listen to as many people as I can to prevent the mind from attaching and assigning too much value to one source.

Truth can be terrifying. Shattering everything you've constructed up until this point is not something most people want to acknowledge. I don't think I am ready for that yet either otherwise I would be conscious of it right now in this very moment.

The Last of Us Series series is absolutely amazing. I don’t play a lot of games, but those games completely sucked me in. The second one was even better. I couldn’t understand the negative feedback.

I think they are immensely helpful, but I don’t feel I necessarily “need” them anymore. They were great to propel me to where I’m at now, but my last few trips have left me feeling like i am at peace with where I’m at and can now explore consciousness without them. But if you haven’t had much experience with them I think you’ll find they will catapult you past a lot of the issues newbies encounter with spirituality in the beginning.

I basically listened to the first one 5 hours straight as I had a long drive to make, but it was so enjoyable time flew.

Eckart Tolle actually says women are naturally closer to enlightenment than men:

I don't use Snapchat much anymore, but I was curious to see what this guy said so I looked for the video. I get a kick out of the everyday person's reaction to things beyond materialism Not sure if it's the just the nature of how these Snapchat videos are, but it's one of your typical biased editing videos where he shows clips of Leo talking and then taking things he said out of context in order to prove his point. He also refers to 5-Meo having a high potential for abuse as it is a schedule 1 substance which is just ridiculous. Nothing much to see here. Just another typical person who is too sure of themselves to be opened minded enough to explore something beyond what they think they know. I don't blame him or judge him for that, I would have probably reacted in a similar way if psychedelics hadn't opened my mind up to other possibilities.

Semi-old thread but I'm going to give my take on nitrous as I have a fair amount of experience and experimentation with it (3+ years of use, typically do 100-250 carts in a sitting at a time while using psychedelics). Was doing this about once a month at my peak. Fully aware of the dangers. Most of the risks are from frequency of use rather than volume. Speaking strictly for myself I have not experienced any noticeable lasting damage from it. Not saying this is the norm what will happen with you. I would not advise anyone to experiment with it in the way I have. I might potentially see health defects years from now, who knows. By itself it loses its magic very quickly. However once combined with a psychedelic it will catapult you into a level of consciousness at a rate far faster than any other drug I have used. People that claim it has no value because of how short lived it is are saying this off the premise of only doing 5-10 of them at a time. Once you get up into the 50-100 range it transforms into something entirely different. Combining LSD, MDA, and nitrous in this fashion was by far the most intense and beautiful psychedelic experience of my life. The dissociative properties rip away any attachment to your objective self so abruptly it is almost frightening. Oneness is felt so rapidly it borders on ruining all your psychedelic experiences after because you sort of always have this feeling that you know what it is missing when you don't use it. I like to say that whatever dose of substances you are doing, nitrous essentially doubles or triples that dose for a period of time. I actually really enjoy doing it in this fashion as I can somewhat control the intensity of the experience. I would recommend someone just not get into it at all though if you aren't already deep in. Not only is not the safest it is really expensive.

MDMA therapy would help a lot with the fear of intimacy and lack of vulnerability