Jannes

For some reason I put my real name on this forum. I would like to change it because I sometimes post some really private stuff and I don't want to be identified. I would choose: mind-splinter

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Pretty interesting. But before that that even so many games have some kind of god.

"Ego death"

Doesnt really work for me unfortunately. I just do it cause it's easy, cheap and healthy. Last night of dreamt of the fried junk I ate that evening and how bad it sat in my stomach.

How would it feel like when all the suffering you felt in your entire life would get compressed into 1 sec? Or one millisecond? If the suffering of the entire universe would be compressed into it? How would it feel like to get a very low percentage part of that super compressed suffering? How would I feel after it? Is it a good exchange, your whole life suffering in one second and then you are free from all suffering the rest of your life. It's probably the mind thinking in strange loops, nothing is won or lost in that. Still I am so curious how that would feel like. For some reason I wondered about this for years so I finally wrote it down. But I have no idea what the source of this curiosity is..

But the leg or belly would be a lot stronger right?

I think there are more nerves on some parts of the body then others although there is genetic variation to a degree of course. But also some body parts are just more intimate than others. The leg especially the inside of the leg will be a lot more intimate then the arm or the shoulder. So that's why I think it can be applied as a strategy, because where sensitivity and intimacy on body parts is is still relatively similar for most people but correct me if I am wrong.

2kg of carrots. At about 700g I get stomach pain, below that is fine.

You need experience with physical escalation. I am really unexperienced with it as well which is why even a move like this could come accross as awkward. It should be casual/ natural/ not a big deal. Start with less sensitive body parts like the arms or also the shoulders and see how she reacts.

I always mostly smiled when Leo mentions in his Blog how women are more connected to reality through their vagina. But maybe because the saying is so catchy it stayed with me and I developed a curiosity of what is meant with that. Especially how literally it is meant. I came up with the explanation that because women can give birth they are a lot closer to the existential, not in a philosophical/ outzoomed/ abstract manner but literally. And in my observation that's true as they dont loose themselves in it so easily (like scientists/ rationalists/ gamers/ ...), like they dream "properly". Maybe that makes sense lol. What do you think is the meaning of that saying? I am curious.

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@Shrooms_Alvarez How is this information valuable for you? If you want to try a new psychedelic you should always start low and work yourself up.

I made an oversimplification but it's a spectrum of course. There are women who study math and physics for example but in general it's more men. I like that. And mens survival depends on women's grounding in reality? I think they both ground each other. Men ground women in their delusion because as you said a proper amount of delusion is needed for survival.

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Jordan Peterson talks about how the feminine is chaos and needs grounding from men. But men need grounding from women just alike. Maybe both forces try to reach the absolute. When the opposites meet and relative love happens, the world gets moving. (mental masturbation)

No risk no fun lol. But you can use condoms then there is very little risk I think.

@Someone here Have you thought about doing it with a guy for real? I think getting sex with a guy with online dating is a lot easier than with girls but I could be wrong.

Is the chicken egg problem a strange loop?

I have had concentration problems/ ADHD all my life. I think I got the concentration problem from my mom as she also couldn't concentrate well. And sometimes I have problems understanding very basic things like simple tasks. My dad is similar in that regard. He is good at math and logical tasks which are clear but in many basic life aspects which aren't presented to you in "clear circles" he often doesn't understand things. But it's not like he is hyper left brained, he can grab emotional/ psychological problems really well sometimes he is simply overwhelmed when things become "wishy washy". So I probably got a weird mix of that. Many people told me that they think I am really intelligent but then sometimes I have such embarrassing retard moments. So I am hopping between those two fronts often. This makes me think that there are just certain aspects of my brain that may be deficient and I would like to pin point those to work with that. So I thought about doing a brain scan. Is that worthed or are there better alternatives? As for other possible causes: There are traumatic emotional problems of being an outsider in early childhood which could cause stress which could be partly the reason for some of my misunderstanding. And I will also give heavy metal chelation a shot but as I said I had these problems all my life.

Interesting topic in a talk with a psychologist: In the pursuit of complete authenticity what are we when we work through all traumas and all labels that we put on ourselves? Will we even be real then? What is an apple without the name apple, without the label sweet and fresh, without a picture in our mind, without science lenses, ... ? Well it will be reality. An apple is not its symbolic forms it just is ... reality. When we take away all our identification we will just be like an apple is. We will be reality. Whatever remains then. It's not a bug that this can not be grasped because if it could be then that would be a concept.

Very very interesting. Thats literally so valuable of an insight for me. Watched the video. What is his approach though? Just reflect a lot how childhood experiences must have been and cutting through bullshit (different examples explained in the video) ? What do you think of psychedelics for healing trauma? My most recent LSD trip opened me up a lot.

From the distance objects can seem "mushy". Yet if you zoom into everything no "mushiness" can be found, it's all concrete objects. Mushiness is simply a lack of consciousness.

His deeply romantic relationship. And his acceptance about life from the trip how stars are supposed to loose their shine over time. That was so beautiful. A story worth telling.