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This is not a joke. I would like your email or something in case you want to do a collab. This looks longer than 686 mm, and reverse headstock... with remaking of the nut you can get away with very low tunings. And looks incredibly fanned too. Would love to know what you come up with. I plan on going along with music aswell.

Listen, I am not going to expose you, i am not a youtuber, BUT i will say this. You know what I meant with bad. Similar meanings to bad would include (at least in my mind) - inappropriate (to post publicly for example), and the term "sexual exploits". So I will never get the answer to that I guess.

How about you acctually answer my questions regarding why is it bad to post his sexual experiences with women that remain anonymous and his toughts about them publicly so you could therefore answer to your question as to why he should post publicly? Is this not reasonable? And that is besides calling out him on his "sexual exploits", as judgmental as it sounds.

How are these sexual exploits, may I ask? Where is her identity shown or ivankiss identity for that matter? How is this exploitation? The bottom three are none of our business.

Peace of mind is only found in God. I resonate with this aswell. There was a hindu sage who had an ancient book, similar to patanjali's work. In the beginning of the book it says something along these lines: "...And now yoga." So we tried everything and yet are unfullfilled, so it is time for a consciousness.

Yes, I would like to talk but not publicly. I have similar problems. Are you a musician?

This is the essence of projection, so that the individual doesn't have the burden of feeling to self-reflect. Know a lot of people like that, the entire conservative agenda for example.

I only seek out pepople who don't drink regularly. It's ok, you can do a lot of things. We plan trips to the sea, we always have smth to talk about, even with some light drinkers, it's ok. Otherwise I am seeking out for people with similar interests and hobbies. For example I tend to hang out with musicians more.

Yes, if you get rid of the attachment (not in true/false sense, but whatever extent to it you manage) you will game naturally, I have noticed this by experience. Even tho I don't game it is so much easier to go an talk to people and I feel comfortable with myself around them.

I find one thing particularly in male circles. Maybe two. One is the sense of humor and the careless attitude humor, when I meet some collegues at work that happen to be male, they will usually start the conversation with a joke, some of them are so funny it's illegal. When something bad happens also the same thing happens. They will also tell you very funny stories which leads to the second point. Men can be very bold (also literally) and make such weird life choices which acctually work. Some can make their life so hard, it's oncredible, meanwhile creating something bigger than themselves. This also reflects on normal division principles in people. Men have more idiots and more geniuses than women. There are some qualities I can't name but I like about this. I am very much the same way. While a people pleaser, internally, very disagreeable, avoidant and tend to vision and work on it. For example if somebody eats a snail or there is a broken window or if somebody won a gaming tournament or got arrested because of being in a mafia, it was probably men.

Yes, there is the other part of the spectrum. I was refering to the path without psychedelics, I am saying this from experience. I am using this forum mainly for entertainment. When I really seek "whatever that means", then something genuine always happens, there is no urgency for extra explanation, though it can help and keep inspiring and convincing you, BUT I would like to stress one important point about quality time lived in a day. That is if you just reduce the amount of internet exposure and messaging people, exposure to TV, masturbation, computer games, other forms of entertainment and find time for yourself to just sit, it will really gather momentum.

I am sorry to admit for alot of the users, as much as this seems a troll post, there os truth to this - the same old to much theory, too little application kind of thing, and the side effect on or being coming here for entertainment again and again for a high.

Don't bother, no need to justify, if anything, go fall asleep, go do something you want to do. This is usually a problem, because of lack in direction in life or in trust with yourself. Some people will always think you are bad. Why do you want to have a good image in their eyes when they are probably full of self-hatred? They don't even like themselves, why be liked by them?

I have had multiple women physically touching me and hinting at me, meanwhile I know they have a boyfriend. And I have had a few situations where I have continiously reached out for multiple reasons, not just the intimate stuff and got rejected, yes still got the hints.

Almost too heavy for me.

Thank you very much, makes me want to go further.

This is hard. Some guys like him and i do fall into this category may not be so easy going when it comes to hanging out. He could be polite because of his principles and he probably enjoys an opposite sex chatting with him. From the perspective of self-dev, if you want to build the life you want and there is something you want to satisfy, go for it, approach, but you may get rejected. A non-sexual, wholesome method to break the ice is to invite him to a dinner made by you, if you decide to do so.

That is not much different to what alot of the guys I know are doing, but then again toxicity doesn't have a gender. I think the most popular behaviour in husband-wife relatipnship for toxic femininity could be inducing "guilty for who you are" type of gaslighting and taking no accountability... nah, i acctually dislike mamy behaviours from conservative folk, like using gender roles as an argument for not taking responsibility e.c.t.

The GIGA CHAD has entered in the lobby. But on the other hand, i see it aswell.

Thanks man, it is weird indeed. People are so complicated, including me.

I didn't think of a nice guy syndrome. It is always stemming from trauma, no? Even the manipulative kindness or playing good. Acctually the guy is being needy. But that's a different point. About point zero, untrue. Everybody has somekind of fragmented bottom lines in different areas. If you have a purpose, people may walk all over you, till you get somewhere else or do it in secret and you achieve it. It is unlikely you will stop, i didn't, I evolved some of my response mechanisms and adapted to the situation, or cheesed it.

Nice gaslighting btw. If you acctually look in to the issue, yes it is hard. Especially if you were abused in childhood. I acctually recommend reading @soos_mite_ah lastest yournal entry and see what am I talking about. I had some people being authorative and drunk parents so you will say yes to their bullshit for the greater good and not to start an argument that can potentially turn into violence, on a pretty recurring basis. It is really rich and somewhat arrogant to say what you said. Btw it's not like failing to the point zero also and may I ask WHAT hasn't even begun? May I ask what is the point zero even as I can't see it in my ever changing and complex value system that i am not even aware of for the most part and which is primarily guided by my emotional responses which include past traumas which explain the push over mentality.

Very solid points here. I have noticed that this is working and some people are attracted to me because of me being authentic and embracing who I am. A few examples would be. If there is somebody who is trying to guilt me into finding love and making children I will insist on the opposite. And I will highlight on the fact that I don't want to have children and it is ABSOLUTELY ok to not want children. Or that I sometimes play video games and then I respond to any indirect shade about that topic with "I really love playing video games". Or if it's me making weird music nobody gets then I will anyway try to make it happen. It really does attract the right people, for who you may need to say no also sometimes, but it filters all alot of the dangers regarding neediness. You might have few confrontations, but those are worth your own authentic self expression which is far more than any number of insecure folks feelings.

Wow, i am really sorry for you. I would strongly advise to get away from them, if you live with them. You are obviously very bright and more emotionally mature than them, even regarding your issue. In terms of hating yourself for telling your dad how you feel. You don't have to hate yourself for mismanaging emotional abuse projected on you. Being gaslit for long periods of time is why this mentality errupts. And having that bad experience gives you valuable hints like, i should move e.c.t. I am in the process of moving and I can tell you by experience, that kind of abuse is not worth a single second for your happiness and personal growth, quality time e.c.t. Take this analogy for your issue with the body. Just like frequent junk food manifests as cancer, emotional abuse does too, but in different layer or expression. Guilt tripping yourself is just feeding the cancer, hating yourself is also feeding the cancer. Shadow work, acceptance work, spiritual practice is what can help, BUT not in the very short term. Listen, you are acctually capable, smart with your unique strengths and weaknesses, but given the time you can do whatever you want, it is true for just about every one, who hasn't got a pathology or something, and I am talking about really few people. And it is the truth. You will commit to something and you will see, it succeeds. Even regarding the emotional problems. This is solvable. First of all you could work with people like Emerald, but I also have some meditation techniques I know I can share that have relieved me from years of gaslighting. Only immature people gaslight others. The one who are incapable of looking in consistently and deeply. People who are capable of self-reflection, have their principles and can detatch, those people are very beautiful to hang out with. Best of luck. Please be careful with blaming yourself because of the way you feel and that you feel it's impossible to control. Be very clear, it's a rotting blob vommitted on you that you CAN and visibly WANT to get rid off.

Which is why it is so sad to hear that.