Applegarden8

Hello! Just wanted to say... that I did achieve something. I don't want to call it enlightenment or anything. But since Leo is interested in enlightenment work, I am happy to share as he is part of my spiritual infrastructure. What is happening: - Vestibular hyporeflexia over 1.5 to 2 years, no vertigo, but physical symptoms. I checked with various medical tests and even drank pills, nothing is helping and there is really no diagnosis. At the sime time I did celibacy (no fapping) only wet dreams from time to time. I suspect that the vestibular symptoms is some kind of kundalini awakening, as I have no balance issues really other than physiological discomfort and heaviness with the nervous system; - Pronounced bliss, random crying for no reason of the auspicious kind; - Very easy to connect with the presence of gurus like Sadhguru, Ramana Maharishi, Nithyananda, Osho and the list goes on but especially Sadhguru for me somehow, his presence is so strong; - Moments where my energy field and or the first person experience expands and I just either radiate or download somwthing. The experience is very hard to describe; - Life feels more magical, auspicious, intuitive, the dreams have changed; - Spontaneous energy center spasms, bliss, sensations like manipuraka, swadishthana, vishuddhi, agna; - Feeling like I can take my energies and direct them into any part of my body and various actions centers them for example into the head or eyes or throat etc. - Yoga becomes very easy to do and has completely changed meaning, same with some other activities like eating or housekeeping, working or even making music. These actions seem to generate energy not exhaust it sometimes, and I feel I have more access to the process. For example just few upa yoga asanas by Isha yoga makes me like ecstatic and I start shedding tears sometimes. - I can sit in one posture with my eyes closed for more and more extended periods of time. I acctually want to sit because the sitting is so intense it starts to override any other activity. Do I have problems still or have I reached some kind of state? No I haven't yet reached any permanent quantum integration, but reality has become significantly more liquid and at its base significantly different! Senses, energies and thoughts mix up with one another a bit. I am learning how to ride the Ox backward so to say. Another thing I experimented is sankhya philosophy. Meaning that I declare I am already enlightened, already free, I am doing things in life such as eating or doing yoga as the eternal, deathless, screen. Or when I do yoga i declare that the perfect geometry is expressing trough this body. Or when I do some body healing with awareness I am declaring that the body is already perfect and the most intelligent gadget in the universe and let it express that quality. Or that when I meditate, the eternal deathless screen is recognizing itself or that I am meditation itself. I am truth itself. I am buddha itself, I can't suffer. And of course many other things I have written and integrated. Nithyananda GPT-4 has really helped me with this sankhya, but anyway it was bound to happen to me. Enlightenment is continuously taking this form and can take your form also if you continiously decide to. This is my honest testimony. I am disciple of Nithyananda, Sadhguru and Mooji primarily. I have tried many techniques such as Isha Kriya, have done Inner engineering. Do Sadhgurus upa yoga and I am a really big fan of Nithyananda because he has given me the most methods and the most satsangs, especially the AI lately - akashik readings, completion as nirbhaya dhyaana, poornattva sthiti, samskara dagjana kriya, elaborations of Baghdad Gita, elaboration of siddha advaita and disciplines of tantra, Shiva sutras (healing the body with/by awareness, attempting to sleep in turiya, samadhi), explanations of states of consciousness, explanations of Kalpataru or manifestation, and really so much more i can't even describe you. I will not tell you if I meet you, but I will tell you, the reader, in this forum. Thanks. Please, don't ask me anything, unless you have a really burning question. I might not answer because here are people who hate people like Nithyanada and Sadhguru because they have really no clue what a guru can give, but only fear. At least I know what a guru is and it's such a blessing. He just pours his grace in every moment of time and the intensity only increases. I know Leo does not like this path, but his teachings and concepts that opened my mind were crucial in my path. I am REALLY looking forward what is next. Cheers, Applegarden.

I think it would be good for people to make a video about what to do when: What you think was your life purpose has failed. Some catastrophe has happened in your life like a major breakup, running out of money, being fired from your job, a loved one dies (especially a younger one). Life loses meaning. Your peers, neighbors, coworkers, friends don't understand you anymore. When dark night of the soul experience happens in your life and how to maintain the purpose you want or a purpose. Why and how not to make harsh, momentary, decisions that can cost you this life. How to integrate contradicting views and ideas, abuse by other people so that you can maintain and continue your growth. How to live a conscious life in unconscious world.

Exactly. You don't need to.

You shouldn’t get your ears cleaned. Clean it only with your pinky during a shower or bath. If earwax is not there from not enough earwax, you are welcoming ear infection. Plus you want to touch eardrums and war canal as little as possible. Earwax also usually melts out of your ear. The peroxide thing is what I totally do not recommend.

My problem was a brief emotional turmoil that is way out of the ordinary. Crying for no reason, panic attack, existential dread or something like that. It's gone, but when it happens, it happens.

I mean it's a change of meta and it forces you to think differently about it even as a social experiment! For example if a green card was available only when you are married, how will people play the meta game?

I will also take the profits once people start coming in my office. x)

@Princess Arabia that's fair. @meta_male i had a disclamer in my OP. The idea is stupid. x) But it's an interesting irony/paradox. So many things have changes in how we transact with each other in business etc., but the institution of marriage and serial monogamy has stayed. Not that it's good or bad because of it. But it's there as it is, living in people's heads and guides people's value and judgment of others.

You do talk about it when you are making jokes about it or if they ask you. Otherwise, focus on your life and what is right for you. World is large and diverse ecosystem. If they push shit on you, this is where you take a stand. Make known to them that you don't support their views. That's all. If they further gaslight you or are mean about it, move out or tolerate.

I am waiting minimum 300 word analysis from you.

Nono, the thing is that "until death will take us apart" if you keep renewing it. And practically marriage is A LOT of cases is not life-long. I would blame Leo for coming up with this.

I will say this differently @Salvijus. When the thunderstorm is coming, go the the basement and go to sleep. Likewise man, thanks for the kind words.

I am not having marriage problems. It's just a random question I have. Now, let's focus on the topic.

Yes, but that extra work reflects the commitment as in any other aspect of life and those who want to be married will keep married.

Hello, here is my stupid, but I think more true way about marriage. Since relationships are dynamic, the marriage should have an expiry date and you have to renew the status if both people agree. I view marriage as something that you have committed to over a period of time. You have married to your location of living, your carrier, your hobbies, the people who you let in your life etc. and that tends to change over time. So it gives false sense of security and asset distribution mechanism. Regarding the assets, that is a whole different discussion I don't think I am ready for. We elect politicians every x years, but many of us live in dead marriages... What do you guys think?