RMQualtrough

I only see the aftereffects, which I am.

I experienced no-self directly. Any "thing" which includes the ego and self is an appearance subject to change. Only awareness as pure awareness is unchanging. All elements of self are appearance.

Everyone is awake suckaaaa. Even being asleep is a modulation of the same awareness into form. The only problem with Neo Advaita is not in any form of untruth, just spiritual bypassing. Obviously in the absolute sense it's true.

That's what everything is though. Rationalisations at most.

U mirin' son? But srs last time I went out some randoms I met talked about DMT with me.

Good, good, let the good posts flow through you. (Saved, thanks).

This should help illuminate the teaching of Advaita Vedanta regarding ideas of Self etc. which is prevalent among various teachers of the nondual tradition (as this is being discussed here currently), where every "thing" and every "nothing" is the same "substrate" so to speak.

Of course, please forgive me Herr Himmler. This thread is locked for further replies.

Leo had one awakening, which was from SMOKING a full dose of 5-MeO-DMT. He proceeded to make a video about the "absolutely infinite!!!!"... Then he decided to instead use it like a reccy drug almost, plugging threshold doses and jacking it to porn in the tub. His actual insight was from vaporizing a release dose of 5-MeO-DMT. He's never had a "further awakening". He never came back from that first trip which was the real deal. All this further shit is delusion. Srs. Check his blog and his trips on this weird shit are chatting with God about narcissism. And now the Tai Lopez cult type crowd of weak pauper tier pilgrims are coming in like "omg Leo I took 1/10th tab of acid and realized I'm alone then an angel appeared and said 'it's not a bug it's a feature' and I saw how it's all love and I'm creating this. P.S. $1000 is too low, charge me $100,000 daddy."

This will explain it entirely.

Base consciousness is nil and void. The only thing that can actually change is the appearances within that void, like images on a screen. This is one of only a few overtly verifiable facts. There aren't "levels" of consciousness and there never could be. What must be meant is does it alter the pattern of appearances. It does alter it, but not necessarily in an illuminating way. When a heavy and very intense trip ends, you can expect aftereffects for a while, but eventually the memories and such wear off and you will find yourself back where you started. Trying intellectually to somehow maintain a grip on that old fleeting state of being.

IME when the mask dissolved I felt to be one with what I now understand would be termed Brahman. As the ego came back and I gained the ability to talk again, I felt a split where my ego self was simultaneously there and was below Brahman, and yet I as sheer awareness was Brahman entirely. I hallucinated a goddess at that point. I spoke to the goddess. I mention this as the goddess entity I spoke with felt to be above my ego self which I spoke to it through, but below and part of what had been behind the ego mask. That's my own encounter with what I felt to be the divine.

Don't just on faith parrot some random dude who gets high on threshold amounts of drugs and jerks off... See for yourself what you think. (Leo's first trip with 5 was an actual "release dose". The video is titled Leo becomes infinity or something. I don't know if he's ever done that again since then which was years ago). My interpretation of the experience was aligned with Vedanta. On Leo's last video (maybe deleted?) I'd say he hasn't achieved some magical place beyond anyone else who goes through intense high dose psychedelic states. My interpretation was that there could never be anything outside of Brahman. When my mask was removed I felt to be one and the same as Brahman. As the ego slowly came back, I started to feel simultaneously below Brahman (the ego self as it came back online), and yet also Brahman in totality (the maskless consciousness which was temporarily the only thing when the ego mask dissolved). The more the ego came back, the less I felt to be the totality of Brahman. I interpreted it exactly like a tree. I did not then know about all this bullshit, that was an unadulterated interpretation, no influence from external expectations.

He understands it well. He is teaching the Advaita Vedanta tradition. What he is saying, is that there is nothing outside Brahman. That is our true nature. In Vedanta they have an "Atman", which is the Self. And Atman (the Self), is Brahman. Everything is Brahman. Atman is an expression of Brahman. Close metaphor would be a tree as Brahman, and the leaves as Atman.

Did you delete this audio? I've seen him discuss similar topics before. Solipsism does not align with the type of monism I encountered... How do you describe experiencing oneness with "Brahman"? Maybe analogous to having a mask removed which was this person. If everyone had their mask removed we are the same entity which is Brahman. Something like that. The ego and the appearances are finite. A solipsist will take, say, a measly 5 senses and some contrasts, and think that clearly limited appearance is the totality of all possible appearances contained within infinity. It doesn't make sense.

At the time, I was addicted to using psychedelics so very used to handling higher intensity trips. On 5 tabs I was near paralyzed, when I did get indoors (I went walking while waiting for it to kick) I could barely operate my key to unlock the front door, was falling left and right like a drunk going upstairs, and collapsed onto my bed. I had the DMT and vape pre-prepared. I used the MIGHTY so it was just press a button, wait, and inhale. I took two big drags and that was it... Now I can barely handle 1 tab, physically speaking. The nausea etc is bad.

“At around 3am, the night before we buried my father, I heard his voice, loud and strong and as clear as ever. Maybe it was my own deepest voice, my intuition, my very own heart. My presence, his presence, one and the same. Who knows. He said, “Don’t worry about me, son. I’m okay. I didn’t need that damn body anymore! It was old and exhausting and too small for me. I am relieved to be free of it.” “Don’t look for me, my boy. I haven’t gone anywhere. I have lost the body but I was never that. I have only come closer to you. I am what you are. I always was.” “May I ask you a favour, son?” “Sure, Dad. Go ahead,” I replied. He said, “I no longer have eyes. If I need to see, may I look through yours?” “Of course, Dad. We can look at the things of this world together, whenever you feel like it.” “And your ears, son? May I use them, sometimes? I no longer have my ears.” “Of course, Dad. We can hear the sound and music of our days together. I will offer you my ears, whenever you need to hear.” “And your mouth? To taste, to speak words? Your nose, to smell, to breathe? Your arms and legs? Your body? Your heart?” “Yes Dad. You can feel everything through me. Sense everything. Be alive. I will let you in, whenever you need to experience this materiality.” And then I thought - no, no, even that isn’t true. “He” cannot experience the world through “me”. That is a false division made by this human mind. “He” and “me” are not divided, not two. We never were. It is Presence that lives, sees, hears, smells, thinks, feels. Dad is not talking “to” me, or living “through” me or anything crazy like that - love is prior to language and all of these illusory, mind-made divisions. I was Dad. I always had been. Anyway, the next day, “we” sat together, watching the sun rise before his funeral. It felt so ordinary. We were alive. I was he and he was I, beholding a sunrise for the very first time. We existed in pure intimacy. There was no separate body to get in the way. No mental division. No death anywhere to be found. We enjoyed the funeral, if truth be told. We laughed and wept together, missed each other and found each other closer than ever, said goodbye to a body and said hello to an Infinite Now and it made no sense but it all made perfect sense. We live together now in perfect harmony. Dad sees what I see, hears what I hear, feels what I feel, thinks what I think, misses and finds himself through me. He writes these words to you now. To remind you of what you have always known: Death is nothing, only a mysterious collapse of time, distance, memory. Or, to put it simply, Love cannot die. Goodbye, Dad. And hello. - Jeff Foster”

@SgtPepper If you can handle it well, drop 5 tabs and then smoke DMT at the peak. Watch what happens. And please post about what happens lol. I did it with 4 tabs and also 5 tabs... 6 tabs of acid alone never came close to either. Would recommend.

Acid kind of sucks, to be honest. It presents truths in very bizarre and abstract ways which cannot be comprehended unless you already understand nondual teachings. It's just presented in sort of "word association game" manner where the abstractions sort of point at a certain idea but in a riddle-ish manner. Acid trips of the past start to make sense when you gain that understanding. You probably already do understand nondual teachings to be here... But that is what I found with that substance. But whatever the case, the only real point of acid IME is to potentiate DMT. The trips otherwise are way too long and without as much insight as just smoking DMT where you will be up and down within 5 minutes. With acid you're in for like 6 to 8 hours. I don't plan on ever taking it again even though I used to enjoy bopping to electronica on it.

@Inliytened1 The Self was that absolute total nothingness. Literally nothing, and that is what I became. And "I", even the I thought, became something appearing to the nothing. But that specific experience was relatively dual as I became nothing as opposed to experiencing the oneness with the appearances. If the same nature of Self was realized, which is nothingness, with that oneness with appearance simultaneously (another type of psychedelic experience), I think the Buddhist doctrine would be realized. What Leo and many others discuss from first hand experience is very much Vedic instead. My own experiences have all been Vedanta heavy and thus there was some essence of me (not the ego but awareness). Me as everything or me as nothing. I don't doubt people could experience first hand the vanishing of that Self viewpoint, leaving just "appearing" by itself.

@Inliytened1 No self was when I was laughing saying "who the fuck is RMQualtrough?" as there was no person present at all. Anything that was, was just changing appearance. That appearance was constantly annihilated as thoughts and feelings and anything else would disappear and then re-emerge. The thing that was me and unchanging was not me anymore, but as said literally nothing in the true sense of the word. There are other trip types which intermingle you with everything taking place, so there's no separation between you and what is appearing to you. If I recognized the self to be nothing AND experienced the self intermingled with everything at the same time, I can see that I might not perceive any self but just appearance alone appearing to itself and nobody. I see how both could be valid, though my personal experiences have largely been Vedantic as fuck (even the hallucinations were Hindu, which is strange because that was before I knew about Vedanta even).

Be careful, I can already see the Actualized version of Himmler circling this thread waiting to lock it to appease his power fetish. No-self is the classical Buddhist teaching. No essence of self that is unchanging. IME, I've been more in touch with Vedanta. I found a self it's just that that self was actual literal total nothingness. All the somethingness was constantly transforming. The nothingness was static and stood in opposition to what was changing. But I can see how another person could experience total no-self. Maybe they are correct.

Posting hotlines is banned on the subreddit for suicidal people, because they are dogshit. Suicidal people do not feel helped by boilerplate copy-paste responses of hotlines. My response (btw) was to see a medical professional and get on medication. I've dealt with suicidal ideation a lot. Only medicine and actual medical professional help works. I've been on Zoloft for years. This thread is locked for further replies. I am so enlightened that I have a higher ego than Donald Trump.

Uh oh, be careful what you say around narcy egomaniacs or you'll be in for a banishing.