Julian gabriel

When I try to go deep into meditation or listening my body convulses and my head twitches as if to pull me away from doing so. This started after what I think may have been a kundalini awakening when my body was filled with energy and my hands had magnetic fields around them. I have no idea why its happening or how to stop it, anybody know what's going on?

Is it because we're all lonely deep down? and we're obsessed with it because its so relevant to what we fear? Maybe loneliness is the ultimate thing to overcome in this, because its the craving for duality between self and other and once that duality no longer exists then the self can't exist so ur done game over ur whatever u wanna be god mode activated goodnight bye bye. Why are we also obsessed with it? why does solipsism so efficiently cut through the bullshit of the illusion? Does the mind hide its power from itself primarily by imagining that there are others? and partially identifying with them but having them as friends and lovers and seeing similarities between you and them? A similarity is a connection then a connection is a way for the power to be transferred to the other, sorta offloaded onto them to save for later instead of confronting it now.

It seems to me that while on my phone my mind is being contained so that I don't have to deal with its freedom. And this sedated state is comfortable but robs me of my creativity. Anyone else have any insight into why screens are so addictive?

Similar to why eat from the tree of knowledge? Deconstructing reality is opening pandoras box like as much as possible. Why do humans open a box of chaos even when in the perfect guardian of eden? Is existing without drama just too boring? Even pain seems preferable to boredom. wtf, why?

Possibly above all I fear losing control of my mind and body, even though I don't really feel like I am in control of it now. I still don't want to let it go and be conducted by intuition. Why is having control so satisfying? being able to feel that you are the doer of your actions is so pleasurable but stands in the way of surrender. I want to surrender and stop this dumb mind game of pretending I have control. actually I kinda like the dumb mind games

now ur just showing off

Anyone have any insight on what is so special about the number 3 and what the ancient pyramids were used for? I heard that they were used for a type of meditation where one wouldst in the middle in a pyramid stance cross legged and the pyramid itself would mirror the 3 points on the body of a meditator. I'm wondering what this may have done for the energies in the human doing this.

Iv'e seen many techniques people use to move energy up the body like shaving the head and abstaining from orgasm, and of course psychedelics do this. Any other ways?

I fall in love with passions and people but once a certain lever of depth is achieved its on to the next project, onto the next person. Falling in love with a girl is so exciting but once I know that she's mine I'm bored. Falling in love with truth is so exciting but once I know what it is, I'm bored. What is happening? this seems to be true of so many people, they can't master anything because they're always just dabbling.

In Leo's video where he explains why he took down the solipsism video he also takes on the question of why would someone go to such lengths to see the truth of life and become omniscient and see all as imaginary. He said "because it is so beautiful" But if you truly know how to play like a child then wouldn't you achieve a state of beauty that cannot be topped? not even by omniscience? Christ said to enter the kingdom of god you must return to the state you were as a child. The times when I feel like I have arrived at heaven is not in my most conscious states, its when I stop searching for higher and instead play like a child loving this for itself. Am I just deluding myself because I don't want to put in the work? I feel like maybe Leo just doesn't know how to play as a human and needed to escape the human state to play. But maybe just the normal person has already arrived, when they play with their kids or make love to their wife because they feel that they are where they want to be rather than caring so much about climbing mountains. I already know that ultimately once I get to the top of this mountain the only thing left to do will be to let myself fall back down. Maybe to be awake is to love sleep.

ok so my recent forum posts obsessing over what is happening in Leo's mind and what he's doing next have shown me that I am much too attached to using him as a means for reaching higher truth. I think I latched onto him as a way of remaining asleep to absolute aloneness right after he showed me that I'm alone. Any tips on how to cut this umbilical chord? not because I dislike Leo but because I want the truth at all costs. So severing the attachment is a cost I'm willing to pay.

I seem to have the most hate for those who are similar to myself. Jung said that our dislikes of the other are just projections of our own flaws. Is this dimension which we are in a dimension we are sent to to deal with self hatred/disownment? It seems the greatest torture is to be shown ones self without all the curtains and walls to hide behind. the greatest torture and yet the greatest liberation is to be alone. Why is the unpredictability of the the illusion of other so addictive? so stimulating to have around?

everything is paradox so the ultimate end has to also be the beginning. just like when you get as high as you can go you are also at the bottom

I am being born into a world of intuition and I need some guidance because i've used logical step by step plans to operate 99% of the time in the past. can anyone recommend a YouTube video or something about how to navigate these weird instances of being guided by what feel like a "higher self" or whatever I don't understand how to navigate this. I'm in over my head, vibrating too high to keep up with it mentally.

Disclaimer: THIS IS JUST A THEORY! My theory is that Leo has realized the relative nature of truth to such an extent that his main priority is no longer "truth seeking", and rather constructing reality in a way that suits him personally. I don't know Leo personally, but I think the fact that he's being more choosie with the info which he shares, and the fact that he has realized that nobody else can suffer since he is the only one in existence, has put him in a position where helping others and lifting them up as well as lifting himself up isn't really his outlook anymore. I think Leo's new vision is probably more about constructing the best life for himself, and exploring what interests him personally and sucking the rest of us into his black hole of love comes far second. What i'm saying is that his audience is no longer a priority, they've just been along for his ride, for some time now. I think He does this for him, not us. Which will probably come back to bite him at some point but whatevaaa (ik this is kinda obsessive, I just find him to be a very interesting person lol)

Iv'e recently had some psychotic episodes as a result of questioning reality as deeply as I could and reaching a euphoric joker like state that comes with acceptance of solipsism and nihilism. My dad was very scared by this and has try and put pandora back into her box by quickly blaming this on psychedelics. he is usually very open minded but also pretty scared of truth, so he doesn't go out of his way to explore it. How do I show him that blaming my mental state on psychedelics (instead of blaming it on the way in which I explore my mind) and fearing them as a result is stupid?

@Aleister Crowleyy I think you’re right. I’m projecting too much of my shit into him. Naughty me.

@LastThursday Yeah good point, I forgot that he said that

@Leo Gura why do you assume that I know what is right

@AuroraDream I don't know

Look, I understand that Leo doesn't want anymore questions on this topic, and that's fine. But don't make a topic taboo because you fear it. I watched the whole thing in one go, for me it was Leo's best video yet. It only got problematic further towards the end when he started giving advice on how to confront specific relative problems, as if they can only be confronted in one way. Leo knows that a relative problem never has one solution, and that different humans literally live in different universes. Therefore prescribing a solution to a relative problem in that fashion is not stylish. It took a lot of Bravery to upload that video, maybe also a lot of stupidity. But one thing is for sure, it was fucking awesome. Did you see the video? what did you get from it? Was it too much for you to handle? There is no need for Leo to personally engage with this topic, I just thought it would be good for the community to still have a place to discuss Solopsism, instead of just making it taboo. Think twice before Locking this. (I didn't realize before posting this that Leo had already created a topic about taking down the solipsism video, so I guess this isn't needed haha)

A "Psychotic Episode" seems to be the term that psychiatrists use for something that they don't understand whatsoever. What is it? I've recently had a couple, it felt like my sense of self was being transferred from my eyes to my ears then to my body and back to my eyes again. But I really have no idea what happened to me. I think it was me trying to split myself into parts.

@Carl-Richard Because when my psychiatrist uses the term psychotic episode he uses it to describe every single one of my weird mental breakdowns without acknowledging any difference between them. Also it just seems that modern day psychologist and psychiatrists don't understand the human mind as much as they'd like to believe so when they use a term like psychotic episode they don't really know what it is that they are referring to in my opinion.

@patricknotstar easy, become rich

The modern world isn't a bunch of external events, its literally a manifestation of your own personal beliefs, biases, and ultimately your own mind manifesting as a crazy drama seemingly external but actually neither internal or external. Anyone else found this shit out? cause its fucking mind blowing. It's an insight that comes with a deep understanding of solipsism, and could get a lot of people into trouble. But it's definitely quite kewl. By this I mean that every single "worldly" event, like for example Russia invading Ukraine is happening because of you personally and your own psychology and mind. If you were more conscious you would intemperate the Russian invasion as a sign of something happening with you personally, because you are the entire world. You are "the one" from the matrix, it's all connected to you and the matrix can't run without you in it.