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Today I received 2 000 euros from good friend of mine.With that money I will start business together with my brother. Networth:2048 euros

I lost desire for personal development work.I beated all addictions I had and this morning I woke up unmotivated.

Journal is open for anyone to write here.Thanks for support wishing you well too.

Didn't worked as construction worker these days,had some expenses now I am at: 89.85 euros

Today I woke up 5:30am.Worked until 3:30 pm as basic construction worker.For these 3 days I earned 102.42 euros . Nothing to be disappointed about . Networth 152.42 euros

Ever since I quitted smoking cigarettes I started to experience panic attacks.What to do?

Today I woke up at 9am.I have no job anymore.Maybe in future I will work as construction worker more.But I am planning on opening my construction company myself. I don't have any vices like smoking , coffee, alcohol and drugs.It feels good to be healthy. I read how taking off of benzos is hard so I bought 2 packs of lorazepams so that I don't run out on them.

Woke up at 6:00 am. Was working as basic construction worker.Job started at 8 am and finished at 3pm.I am feeling sore muscles .

Woke up at 5:30 am. Was working as basic construction worker.Job started at 9 am and finished at 4pm.I am feeling really tired. Have contemplated how important is my free time.

Today I received 50 euros to my PayPal.

Yeah it does,haha.Hey I am an illusion and so are you lol.

Can't wait for Leo to close this thread 😞

False.

I am ESTJ personality type.

I have schizoaffective disorder. Meds I am on: Olanzapine (Zyprexa) Ativan(Lorazepam) Tegretol(Carbamezapine) Currently I am unemployed.

I managed to beat all of mine addictions and in return I got this feeling of emptiness inside.What to do?

How I managed to beat all addictions?Or how I managed to get this feeling of emptiness inside? No problem.

I think everything is BS in life.It destroys my motivation for life.I can't find any purpose or meaning.

@Princess Arabia @Thought Art Go get a coffee or something.

Thanks.

How this what are describing has anything to do with my question. Thanks guys for all your responses,I find it very helpful.

Interesting video.

Journal Entry - August 2, 2023 Today marks another day in my relentless pursuit of finding a job. As the days turn into weeks and weeks into months, the process becomes more challenging and draining. Despite my best efforts, the perfect opportunity continues to elude me. The job market remains fiercely competitive, and I find myself constantly revising and updating my resume, customizing cover letters, and attending networking events. Each rejection letter I receive feels like a small blow to my confidence, making it harder to stay motivated. Sometimes, I catch myself questioning my skills and qualifications, wondering if there's something more I could do to stand out among the sea of applicants. But deep down, I know that I am capable and determined, and I refuse to let doubt overpower my determination. The support from friends and family keeps me going, providing encouragement when the days seem darkest. They remind me that this is just a phase, and with persistence, the right opportunity will eventually present itself. In the midst of this seemingly endless job search, I also take time to focus on self-improvement. I have been enrolling in online courses, sharpening my skills, and learning new ones, hoping that this continuous growth will set me apart in the eyes of potential employers. Despite the uncertainties and rejections, I strive to maintain a positive outlook. Each day brings new opportunities and challenges, and I am determined to embrace them with an open mind and an unwavering spirit. As I write this journal entry, I find comfort in expressing my feelings and thoughts, as it allows me to process the rollercoaster of emotions that come with job hunting. I will continue to stay resilient, patient, and hopeful, believing that my dedication will eventually lead me to a fulfilling career path. Until then, I remain steadfast in my quest, holding on to the belief that the right job is out there, waiting for me to find it.

Journal Entry: Embracing Masculinity Date: July 4th, 2023 Today, I find myself reflecting on the topic of masculinity and the significance it holds in our society. In recent times, there has been much discussion about the concept of masculinity, its limitations, and its impact on individuals and relationships. As I explore these thoughts, I believe it is essential to emphasize the importance of embracing masculinity in a positive and inclusive manner. First and foremost, it is vital to acknowledge that masculinity, like femininity, is a social construct that has evolved over time. It encompasses a wide range of characteristics, behaviors, and qualities traditionally associated with men. However, it is crucial to recognize that masculinity should not be seen as a rigid set of rules that confines individuals to a narrow definition of what it means to be a man. Instead, embracing masculinity should involve fostering an environment that encourages men to develop and express their authentic selves, free from societal expectations and gender stereotypes. It is about celebrating the diverse ways in which men can express their emotions, engage with their communities, and build meaningful relationships. Embracing masculinity means recognizing that vulnerability is not a sign of weakness but rather a strength. Men should feel empowered to express their emotions openly and seek support when needed, without fear of judgment or rejection. Breaking the barriers that discourage emotional expression can lead to healthier and more fulfilling relationships, both personal and professional. Moreover, embracing masculinity involves rejecting harmful aspects of traditional masculinity, such as toxic masculinity. Toxic masculinity perpetuates harmful stereotypes and behaviors that can negatively impact both men and those around them. It is crucial to challenge these harmful norms and encourage a culture that promotes respect, empathy, and equality. Furthermore, embracing masculinity should not exclude or diminish the importance of femininity. Instead, it should involve recognizing and appreciating the value of both masculine and feminine qualities in all individuals, regardless of gender. By embracing the full spectrum of human characteristics, we create a more inclusive society that allows everyone to thrive authentically. In conclusion, embracing masculinity is about redefining and expanding the concept to foster healthy, positive, and inclusive expressions of manhood. It is a call to empower men to embrace their emotions, challenge harmful stereotypes, and build meaningful connections with others. By embracing masculinity in this way, we can create a world that celebrates the diversity of human experiences, allowing everyone to reach their full potential. Reflecting on these ideas, I am filled with hope for a future where masculinity is not viewed as a burden or a limitation but as an opportunity for personal growth and positive societal change. Let us strive to embrace masculinity in its truest form and create a world where all individuals, regardless of gender, can live authentically and find fulfillment.