Zeroguy

While these Leo's concepts offer profound comfort and a sense of deep connection to the universe, it is equally important to balance them with our shared human reality. In everyday life, we still experience vulnerability, limitations, and the human need for connection, care, and community. So chop the wood carry the water and calm down.

The cosmos is a heavy sleeper. Before there was time, there was only the One. It was infinite, formless, and entirely alone. In its absolute completeness, there was no sound to hear, no light to see, and no other mind to speak to. Absolute perfection, it turned out, was indistinguishable from absolute nothingness. To escape the crushing weight of eternity, the One chose to forget itself. It closed its eyes and fell into a deep, deliberate slumber. The dream began with a violent, radiant explosion—a Big Bang of light, dust, and potential. The One fragmented its infinite consciousness into countless tiny, mortal pieces. It became the swirling nebulae, the burning cores of newborn stars, the cool crust of emerging planets, and eventually, the fragile spark of biological life. To make the dream real, the One built rules into the fabric of the illusion: The Rule of Time: To create a beginning, a middle, and an ending. The Rule of Space: To separate things so they could look across the void at one another. The Rule of Amnesia: The most vital rule of all. Every fragment must completely forget its divine origin. Now, the Creator lives as the creation. It is the wolf hunting in the snow, and it is the deer running for its life. It is the tyrant on a throne of gold, and it is the beggar starving in the street. When you look into the eyes of a stranger, or a bird, or your own reflection in a mirror, you are looking at the Godhead, wearing a mask, utterly convinced of its own mortality. Sometimes, the dream grows terrifying. The fragments experience real pain, profound grief, and terrifying isolation. They cry out to the heavens, begging for a creator to save them, never realizing they are praying to themselves. They build religions, philosophies, and sciences, all driven by a haunting, subconscious itch—the vague, phantom memory that they are far more than what they seem. Every now and then, a fragment comes close to waking up. A meditator on a mountaintop, an artist lost in inspiration, or a person looking up at the night sky feels a sudden, dizzying wave of unity. For a split second, the illusion cracks. They realize they aren't a drop of water trying to survive the ocean; they are the entire ocean contained within a single drop. But the dream is sticky, and the amnesia is strong. The mind snaps back in place, the ego reattaches itself, and the Creator wanders on, beautifully and tragically lost inside its own magnificent masterpiece.

Today I have not experienced paranoia and psychosis. House is in real mess. I have to clean it up. Got some clothes from my rich neighbor. I'm waiting for him to offer me remote job for an American company, he knows the owner of business. When company owner from New England comes to Serbia he will ask him for a job. I am robotics technician.

I am an ISTJ personality type. In this journal I will track my life progress. Since I am introvert I love my alone time . While I am alone I research. I need to set my goals.

Hey guys I am asking you a single question. Do you share your beliefs (solipsism,I am God etc) with your family and friends and why?

Still paranoid, I will try surrender meditation. Maybe talk about it with my psychiatrist because I got my Clozapine doubled and it still doesn't work. Clozapine is used for treatment resistant schizophrenia.

Still paranoid. I want to become better son.

I am in psychosis and paranoia it started 40 minutes ago. We will see how much it will last. I am not feeling well.

Paranoid thoughts and feelings are real problem. My psychiatrist doubled my dose of anti psychotics but still they don't work. I take haldol and Clozapine. Clozapine is for treatment resistant schizophrenia.

I haven't spoke to J. and S. today. I started being into personal development started watching his old video.Soirituality and epistemic stuff I will skip. Suffered paranoia today for few hours.

Listen to me. Isn't whole spirituality just psychosis.Psychosis is losing connection with reality. You guys hold beliefs like I am God, delusions of grandeur. Solipsism, only my consciousness exist, others have no experience of their own. Those are all delusions. So enlightenment is losing touch with reality so it's not different than psychosis. I want you to visit and tell psychiatrist about these beliefs and get anti psychotic medication.

No.

I don't care if I am God, that this all is hallucination,that I am only being in existence. I transcended it and now I am just living my human life. I returned back to materialism and atheism. This path will get you nowhere and will not improve your life. Waste of time.

Just got delivered new washing machine. Started chatting with S.

😂

I told my psychiatrist about everything I learned from actualized.org and she wrote delusions . I got prescribed anti psychotics and they worked.

Maybe you are deluded but it's hard for you to realize it. You surrounded yourself with ego manics , narcissists, mentally ill people etc. Try for 28 days to not listen (and talk about) spiritual content and just do normal human things. Bye bye forum welcome freedom.

Bring strawberries, champagne and ice cream.

I still would wish to be epistemic pervert then to accept "the truth" people were (just 🦜ing Leo) trying to push on me.

See even if it's that you picked just one line you are still using it.

0 % I don't believe I am God. Just random human , thinking and doing human things. I don't need ego bust of Godhood to have self confidence or be effective in this world.

Woken up at 6:00 am. Took a shower, brushed my teeth and made coffee for me and my father. Went to mental hospital to take some documents and reports I need to claim disability. Went to grocery shop. Cleaned bathroom. Made lunch. Talked with J. over the phone.

Started collecting documents for getting disability payments. Right now I am in mental hospital to get some papers needed.

@Someone here Thanks. I understand this place a bit better. So do you believe in solipsism, that you are God? What is your own perspective on things. What is your truth?

I agree . Well put.