Kuba Powiertowski

Some time had passed since the first glimmer of grace. One thing is for sure. There is no longer a permanent return to what has been, although the ego - the mind does not give up. Fighting is pointless, and the one who fiercely wants to fight the ego is the ego itself. The narratives he creates, the logical structures he builds are amazing. Incredibly sophisticated on the one hand, and incredibly stupid in essence. Nevertheless, I am sitting here watching this process. I'm learning patience. Nothing else remains but to watch this incredibly intelligent program burn out to the end. One thing I noticed is that the ego completely gives a shit about your health. The body is extremely intelligent and is in constant contact with the environment, with the Source. The ego doesn't like it. The ego wants to be in control of literally everything. Even now, the ego writes what it writes. Another trick. The only and true "I" is the Silence. What a time ... Yes, the only reason we exist together in this dimension is precisely to let the ego burn out to the end. All the ego's dreams and desires that it does to our bodies, this whole version of reality that it serves us exists only to make us, through painful experiences of different types, become aware of the total illusion we are stuck in. Exactly, not in which we live, but in which we are stuck. Life is outside this cage that we have created ourselves, we entered it ourselves, we fell asleep in it in order to wake up at some point and leave it once and for all. This process is not a piece of cake. This is the most difficult challenge a human being can face. This is extremely serious. I am aware that there is still a lot of suffering ahead of me, many excuses, many tests, and trials in which the ego will give me a ride on the gang. But it's okay, that's exactly what it's supposed to be. The Universe experiences what it is like to forget that it is the Universe The endless process of experiencing. There is no chance of boredom I have a dream that repeats itself from time to time and in a way, I share it with my dad. I stand by the shore, the sea is rough and dangerous. The water appears black. More and more powerful waves crash with a roar, taking away the last pieces of land on which I stand. I am scared and I wake up. Sometimes it's not the waves, but the black rocky mountains shrouded in thick fog rising above me as if they are about to collapse on me. The feeling of fear is suffocating. I have thought many times about what it all means. I have a good friend with whom we share our ego observations. Recently, he suggested that I watch the Fight Club movie again, which I did. I remember that the first time I was most impressed by the final scene, from today's perspective, the artistic vision of deconstructing the ego through one great letting go. Now the penguin cave scene hit me like a hammer - the main message - SLIDE! And I stand back on eroding land carried away by black waves. I'm trying not to panic. I'm figuring out what's going on here, what to do. Suddenly I have an epiphany: surf on them. Do not run away because there is nowhere to go, do not throw yourself in hopelessness or you will drown. Just learn to surf on them, that's what they are for. Was that what this was about? Surf the waves of reality? "I" smiles The lightness of being, endless joy, unity with the ocean. If God is a surfer the best what we can do is to surf with Him:)

Realizing bliss and joy during hard times of suffering of whatever kind is the key I would say.

@Space Totally agree. Materialists dream is deep. There's no point to argue with them. There are few scientists nowadays who have truly realized implications of the greatest discoveries in math, physics, biology and chemistry not as some intepretations but as obvious facts. Patience and compassion are all we can do.

I wish You all my Friends ressurection of Your inner SELF. That's what is ALL about???.

@tatsumaru Ground YourSELF in the present moment. Ego constantly swings like a pendulum between past and future and is not able to run its processing in present moment as it's a constant change which ego hates. Therefore it uses any excuses to drag You off present awarness. Observe it, and let it be. It's hard and take as much time as You individually need to figure it out. Don't give up. Be calm, quiet and observe. You'll make it someday my Friend.

Leo, you're here. You are sincere and kind. Most of us are still asleep. Sometimes I still fall asleep and take a nap. I see it. But it is ok. Everyone will wake up in their own time. From our perspective, of course, the ego has evolved over an extremely long period of time. Not everyone will wake up in this life, and maybe the next. I don't know when I stop wanting to sleep. You have to let everything be as it is and let everyone be as they are. Everything happens in its time. Take care of yourself, about the health of your biological avatar. This is the temporary holy house of your Self. The ego uses it as a car in corporate leasing. Years of this treatment led my avatar to serious spine problems. For several weeks I have been learning to live with severe pain. This pain is a catalyst for further development in further learning. It teaches humility and patience. It's okay, Leo. Don't worry about the sleepers. They are part of You. Just like You are part of them. Patience. Everything is fine. Truth is one, paths are many. Surrender to all, never gives up my Friend.

Look at it this way. Great artists, great audiences merge into one. A self-experiencing universe sings. Sings about joy, about being selfless, about nothing to be afraid of. Sings about giving yourself to others. A beautiful, lively moment where you can truly feel the power of unity in diversity. The world today badly needs it. It doesn't matter that now there is no Christmas. In a metaphysical sense, they are there every day. Let this power stays with you forever.

@seeking_brilliance I really don't know how to answer your question... I just don't know. Everything and nothing has changed. I run my business, I have a great family, I eat, sleep, etc. I do not levitate in meditation for hours I have my emotions, I feel physical pain, I suffer when I see brutality and violence against people, animals, and nature. Only that it is all like, I don't know how to describe it, momentary. Everything is constantly changing, it is in constant motion in the present moment. The moment you think you have grasped something, that has already changed. And it is absolutely natural. And beautiful, more and more beautiful. How long will I stay in this state, where will it take me? I honestly don't know, I don't worry about that. Thinking about everyday matters is ok, it's kind of faster, more efficient. On the other hand, thinking about existential matters, about God, Awakening, and Love is like a distraction. These are just concepts, and trying to grasp them with your mind is pointless. Jiddu Krishnamurti's words about the Truth resonate in me. Truth is something alive is not static, and therefore any attempt to set out a path to it is doomed to failure, just as closing it in some definitions. This Truth is everywhere, it is in us, loved in each of you, and in everything that surrounds us. I can feel it with all of myself now. With all my heart, I wish this to each of you, my beautiful friends:)

Yes, I may be wrong again. I have not meditated. I didn't take psychedelics. Spontaneously, I suddenly let go of absolutely everything. And it clicked. But what clicked? And what do I feel? Yes, everything and everyone is made of infinite love. I am not infinite love. I am part of it. And it's ok:) I am also not God. How could I be? I do not need to be God at all, for I have no needs at all. Everything is fine. Nothing and no one are more or less important because everyone and everything is equally important. Everything and everyone is just as perfect. As it is. There is no need to know, no need to name or define anything. Dualism, non-dualism, awakening, God - what does it even mean? All attempts to describe reality in one way or another, to frame it in some way are pointless. Everything is fine:) Maybe I'm developing a glioblastoma or some other brain tumor? Honestly, I don't care No tension, no resistance. Everything is really fine I go back to work and then go for a walk with my dog. I greet everyone with all my heart And thank You all, especially You, Leo:) It is a beautiful world:)

@allislove Well said:)

Space and time are truly relativistic concepts. From the perspective of a photon, time and space do not exist, and the principle of equivalence in general relativity proves that the observation of any observer is not something fundamental, but just relativistic. Ergo, to put it simply, space and time do not exist objectively outside of you. I know it's a scientific approach, but realizing its consequences and significance, similar to Bell's or Godel's Theorem, disarms your faith in the objectivity of this illusion at a very basic level and helps a lot in your work on the development of consciousness. Real unification, real holism

Jim Carrey?

As Pablo Picasso once said: "everything You can imagine is real"?

But de gustibus non est disputandum:)

God is leading the art:

erratum: ... Trilogy in five parts, of course:)

I think that from our, very low perspective pleasure is an extremely difficult word to define, so we'd better be very careful with that:)

I have found these words of Bruce very true and powerful:

Do Your best and let things be. Then, both defeat and success are just a momentary fluctuation that doesn't really matter. They are both equally important part of life, but as You expands Your perspective their meaning becomes less and less significant. "Up and down, and in the end it's only round and round" pink floyd, dark side of the moon All the best to You, my Friend

Stanislaw Lem "Solaris", Michail Bułhakow "Master and Margaret" Douglas Adams "Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy. Trilogy in fire parts"

And I'll probably be blind in the next life. To learn humility. I apologize to anyone with physical blindness.

I thought about this post for a long time. And I came to the conclusion that whatever I wrote, it would always be too little, not entirely clear, and maybe it would be best if this text would inspire you to… well, Looking But from the beginning. I have been attracted to physics and mathematics since I was a child, and although I literally do not deal with any of these fields professionally, I still love them. Especially that the last, over 100 years, has been the discovery by outstanding practitioners of these sciences of laws and truths of nature, the implications of which most of us, including academia, do not see, do not want to see, do not understand, do not want to understand or do not accept. The problem is both in our nature and in the education system, which has its roots in it and at the same time strengthens it. Such a strange loop. Quite simply, Newtonian physics with its Enlightenment determinism is taken as the basis for teaching physics in primary and secondary schools. The same is true of biology, where equally deterministic Darwinism reigns supreme. But as we know it is already passe. The last 100 years of physics, mathematics, and recently also biology (sic!) have been discovering laws and truths that less and less often fit into the description of the reality we like so much, fully reducible, predictable, over which we will one day achieve complete control. General Relativity, Quantum Mechanics and Kurt Godel's Incompleteness Theorem, and the last Big Bell Test blew up irretrievably our dreams of power. So to the point. For as long as I can remember, I have been fascinated by light. When I was little, at night, when I was camping, I was sending the light from my flashlight into the sky, towards some star and I asked my dad when it would get there. The mere awareness that, while observing the night sky, I am looking at the past of the stars and a different past, different in time, amazed me and amazed me to this day. There the Past and here the Now. When studying the General Theory of Relativity, one gets the impression of the striking scale of this relativity. The relativity of time, the relativity of space. For time to exist, it is necessary to project energy into the lower energy states as matter having mass. Each particle with a mass is a kind of watch (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matter_wave_clock). The only "particle" without a rest mass is a photon. The photon, of course, is a very imaginary particle. It is actually the smallest possible quantum of energy. Paradoxically, string physicists to be able to physically examine a string (if it actually exists) that is 10ˉ³³m in size, the so-called Planck size, would have to generate energy in accelerators close to the Planck energy of 10¹ꝰ GeV, ie close to the energy of the Big Bang. Meanwhile, there is no point in talking about the size of the photon. It is a dimensionless, massless point, energy in its purest form. Yet, it's here:) Light and its medium played a leading role in Einstein's idea from the very beginning. It was just thinking about the motion of the light wave that young Albert had found a trail leading him to open a new chapter in physics. I am interested in the perspective of the photon itself. Imagine that we are not dealing with a simple, soulless particle, but with a being that can share its impressions with the world. What will a being, chasing at speed c, see and measure? At this point, you need to refresh yourself on two basic concepts related to the special theory of relativity. The first is time dilation. It means that two observers moving in relation to each other will feel the passage of time differently. The proton accelerated in the tunnel of the Large Hadron Collider "ages" much slower than the physicists watching it. This phenomenon has an important practical aspect. Many elementary particles normally decay after a millionth of a second: due to time dilation, from our perspective, their lifespan is extended many times. The second keyword is a contraction, i.e. shortening the distance. The summoned proton will perceive the accelerator path as much shorter than the scientist standing next to it. Although designers can cut off both hands, the device is 27 kilometers long, for an object approaching the speed of light it will become shorter and shorter. Now that we know how relative the concepts of time and space turn out to be, let's go back to the photon. It's a bit counterintuitive, but between the 99.99999…% c that massive particles achieve in accelerators and the full speed of light available to a photon, there's a colossal difference. If we put a watch on a proton from the accelerator and watched its indications, we would see the effect of dilatation - the hands would move slower than on the clock on the wall. The closer to c, the greater the difference in measurement. However, a proton has mass, so there is no force in the world that can accelerate it to the speed of light. So what would a time from an analogous watch "worn" by a photon look like? This is probably not a particularly demanding conundrum. At 100% the speed of light, time… stops. Logic suggests that since approaching 300,000 km / s causes the clocks to slow down, reaching the limit will slow it down completely. In the eyes of an outside observer, the photon remains an object frozen in time. The second hand of his imaginary watch would not even twitch. As for contraction, we come to a no less fascinating conclusion. Since acceleration shortens the space accordingly, then reaching the full speed of light should reduce the distance traveled to ... zero. When you turn on the flashlight and aim at the opposite wall standing 5 meters from you, it does not cover any distance from the point of view of the light beam. Let's not be so modest! Even a photon emitted by a quasar 10 billion light-years away sees this monstrous distance as non-existent. From its point of view, the journey to Earth would not take even a second. If the massless particle could tell us the story of its traveler, we would probably not hear anything special. In any case, we would have a hard time understanding its relationship. The beam of light perceives all available space as compressed to zero. The moment of take-off de facto coincides with the moment of reaching the destination. Time does not exist for a photon, so it travels instantly between any points. At the same time, space remains infinitely contracted for it. Both points "lie" on each other, so the journey may not take time anyway. Contraction and time dilation merge into a relativistic whole. Now think of the primordial photon born in the first gamma-ray burst, right after the big bang. Amazing as it is, from our perspective it hasn't aged a second. In turn for him, the entire history of the universe seems to be accumulated at one point. Nothing has ever happened and all that was, is, and will be, happening NOW. And now for the best. I'm sitting in the car park. I still have half an hour to meet the client. I look at the play of light, shade, and colors of the city houses and trees surrounding me. I think about the physics of the surrounding reality. The last Big Bell Test confirmed HIGHLY that for so-called local realism to exist, conscious observation, a conscious act of creating this realism, is necessary. As one of the main researchers, Carlos Abellán of ICFO explains: "Thanks to extraordinary machines, physical systems built to test the laws of physics, we know that there are gravitational waves and the Higgs boson. But the question about local realism cannot be answered with the help of a machine. That we ourselves must be part of the experiment for the universe to remain. " Scientifically, we also slowly come to what mystics discovered thousands of years ago. It's just a roundabout and with great hesitation, I think to myself. And suddenly a flash. This eternal photon, from the perspective of which I do not exist, is absorbed by the receptors in my eye, it reaches the visual cortex of my avatar, which creates a unique probabilistic version of my reality. My Dream. I sit in the car and look at It. My Dream. It pushes me into the car seat. When I get home, I open Word editor on my computer and start writing my memories in the present continuous tense. The past comes alive. I keep writing over the next few days and thus reach very small details of my distant past. The story continues. It never started. Everything happens NOW. It is a story of Consciousness written with a Photon.

As always, I have to add something else. This insight is available to anyone at any time. With a little reflection and understanding of what's going on here, you'll understand that every time You look you are looking at Your Dream REALLY

I don't know Leo personally. I first saw his YouTube video while browsing videos on Kurt Godel's Incompleteness Theorem. And I was flabbergasted by his in-depth understanding of the subject. I asked myself: who is this guy? I started watching the contents of the Actualized channel and I thought again: where did He come from? From outer space? The scale of his understanding of the nature of reality is indeed extremely rare. Then I found Outrages Experiments in Consciousness, Self - Love and was struck. But I already knew this feeling in my life. This is how I found this forum. For the first time, I felt a strong will to finally embark on this journey. As for Leo ... I don't know him. I am some guy from Poland thousands of kilometers away and that's it. But I know he is a brave man. Much braver than me. As you begin this slow awakening process, believe it, the ego does absolutely everything, uses all the tricks, uses all criticism and excuses to yourself. That is why it is so difficult to start incorporating the Truth into your life. To go out with this Truth, to people, to the world, is to expose yourself to any possible fire from every direction. It's fucking hard, it must be painful, and it's very brave. I admire Leo. He radiates good. I wish Him and all of You such courage to follow your paths towards this one goal, which is Truth and Love. Keep on going, Leo