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@mojsterr yeah, I've read Neville pretty much, and I feel like he also can be helpful for me, perhaps, yeah. But I've already read a lot of all of that, so I need to put it into action, I guess, I don't know. But yeah. I need mental clarity somehow, to even be able to know what to do, I guess, you know.

Yeah, you're right, it's been a long time, but I've, perhaps, demonized them so much in my mind that I'm frightened about talking to them, feeling like they can go crazy, haha. And I've demonized them so much in my mind, I guess, that them being noisy etc is making me feel like they again are attacking me. I might have become some sort of a pathological case in that sense, perhaps, like obsession, perhaps. And in some situations, one or two, we had some positive ish brief interactions with them even, but yeah, I need to work on my beliefs and thoughts about these things with more clarity, I guess.

Yeah man I understand, well they've not done that since then, and back then I was like trying to be spiritual or something like that so I didn't call the cops. But they just did it once, twice in one day, and since then, for about two years or so, they've not been doing something like that. The husband even seems to be sorry really, perhaps, for what his wife did, but the woman never said sorry or something like that. And I'm feeling like if she didn't even say sorry, then she may be, I don't know, and I don't say this to the cops because this happened about 2 years ago, but them being my neighbors upstairs, them always being there, is itself irritating me a lot, because I cannot trust that woman, I feel like she may go crazy again, and maybe being obsessive here but, yeah, you know, I'm feeling very uncomfortable. And yeah, I understand that in order to be clear about what to do, probably, my only option is to raise my consciousness, because otherwise I'm just, in a sense, perhaps, torturing myself in my mind. I'd love to be able to move out, but I'm, I don't know, feeling like frickin paralyzed, but when I meditate or work on my mind, I'm sometimes feeling more clarity.

Anyways, thank you all, probably I shouldn't have written this here, but yeah, anyways, thanks for your advices.

Yeah, but I can't just love who once threatened me with a knife in her hand and saying all sorts of bad bad bad things to me and my mother for no frickin reason other than her being a dangerous and insane person. That was about two years ago, but I still cannot forget that, and she didn't even frickin come and say even sorry about that. How can I frickin love that shit? If someone asked me about this situation, saying that they experienced something similar, I could say them all sorts of "enlightened" things, believe me, but when you are in the situation yourself it is not that easy. I'm so frickin confused about what to do, and what I can even do about that, and my only hope, I guess, is alignment with Source directly, otherwise it is all just blah blah blah. And I'm not able to move out for monetary reasons, and some other weird reasons that I'm experiencing. I don't know what to do, and calling someone a pathological case without knowing what they are going through is, I don't know, but I cannot judge you also, you probably are trying to be helpful or I don't know. It is just that I'm feeling so lost and confused, and I don't know what to do, and I don't even know why I wrote this here.

Yeah, it's best to communicate with Source directly. Unless I'm connected to Source directly, it is all just confusion after confusion after confusion after confusion.

I haven't read your question, only the title, but yeah, if you are able to ask that question then yeah, there is more.

I shouldn't forget that I'm talking to my imaginations here. And also, yeah, maybe I can follow a different path of least resistance. But people saying that everything is a dream, and then saying that "oh what you're saying is pathological" is just weird. People, I guess, are not really awake at all, so they just follow the words of "enlightened beings", with some degree of awakening. And yeah, me thinking that the answers I receive here are but my imagination also is weird. Me thinking that people here are but my imagination is weird. That probably shows me that I'm not so awakened yet, yeah. "What do you think about this, people who are being imagined by me?". And the eternal loop starts again. But yeah, I myself am not very awake also, because I'm arguing with beings who I'm imagining. "Do you think this is possible, do you think that is possible?", and the answers, inevitably, are reflecting what I'm expecting to hear. I'm feeling weird and wrong etc, and it's being reflected to me, yeah. I'm feeling hopeless etc, and it's being reflected to me, yeah. What else was I expecting really? Believing that there are authorities of whatever sorts, and it is being reflected to me "Dear master, do you think me doing this is possible or good?" Then I'm imagining "masters" of some sort, beings who are not my imagination, answering my question. "You're not so awake at all yet" says my imagination. "You're going crazy haha" says my imagination. And oh, it is authority, so I should be good with them. This is all so weird really. "What would Bashar say, what would Abraham say, what would Rupert say, what would dada say?". Well they obviously say what I imagine them to say. They obviously be what I imagine them to be. Haha. Noone knows why they are saying what they are saying This is all so weird, me searching for those who know the truth Me imagining those who know the truth Then I understand that oh, they don't exist. That's the frickin paradox.

But the thing is I'm a wizard.

If I'm creating every being and thing and memory and history and timeline and all that shit, everything about everything about everything, in this very moment, then I can create all of that shit in any way that I want, if I become high enough in my level of consciousness. And if you guys make fun of what I'm saying, because you don't understand me perhaps, like why I'm saying these things etc, then okay, anyways, make fun of me. It's okay if you make fun of me, or say I'm low quality, or whatever, it's okay for me if I dream you guys like that, that's alright. But I'm so frickin tired, so frickin tired, and I'm feeling tortured for frickin years in this situation, and I'm gonna do what I say, I'm gonna delete those neighbors from existence, replace with new neighbors, and change our memories one hundred percent about them. I'm gonna change the last few years fully, gonna create a completely different frickin timeline. And yeah, of course, I'm all that is, I'm God, but yeah, I know, I need to frickin be in a high consciousness mode to be able to do that, because otherwise I will keep dreaming the same thing, I know, yes.

If all that exists is your awareness, then how can it stretch out infinitely in all directions? Isn't it an abstraction that you are making?

It's more fucked up than that, there is nothing on the scene also.

So you're absolutely certain that I don't have my own sensations? That's what the absolute truth you've awakened to says?

If I write a novel and create my imaginary characters and world in the novel, are those characters and world as real as this world and people in this world? Is it possible for me to dream that dream world instead of this world?

So I already am the memories and beingness and all of each being. Their consciousness and beingness already is me. This is all me dreaming, and everything and everyone and everything about everyone, as infinitum, is me. Good and bad and every level of all that is is me. Yes is me, no is me, every level of all that is is me.

But how do you know what death is like?

I think it is like the idea of putting a frog in a boiling water, then it will freak the frog out, but if you heat it up bit by bit by bit, then it can even be a comfortable process of total awakening, a comfortable process of "dying" perhaps.

So you can become any dream that you want, if you become infinitely conscious, if it is what you want. You can become any dream that you want for all that is basically is nothing. But it would require high consciousness. That would require high consciousness. The dream can turn into anything that you want. Any timeline, any universe, any "reality" that you want, at the relative level. It is, however, all nothing at the ultimate level. Hmhm. Hmm.

Does what I'm experiencing right now really exist, or is it another illusion also, at the ultimate absolute level?

Why did you say no to "is it true that you are the minds and awarenesses and sensations, and all, of all that is, of all beings in existence?"? If I am the only one then I must be the minds and selves and all of all that is, at least at the ultimate absolute level. And also I must be the entire existence of my building and house and neighbors and family and all, because I'm the existence of all. Then I must be creating the smaller scales of my reality just like I'm creating the grander scale of my reality, for everything is one thing, in a sense, like a hologram. 45=44=43=42 etc etc etc etc etc. Then all physical forms and selves etc must also be like physical forms and selves of Frodo and Gandalf. People and worlds and selves etc must be not more real than Frodo and Shire etc etc.

It is absolute nonexistence, it is absolute nothingness.

Are you creating your and "other people"s histories and memories and bodies and selves in the present moment? Is there such a thing as a self, an awareness, a consciousness, other thank you? Is it true that your bubble of awareness is the only bubble of awareness "in" existence? Are you the void that is appearing as the world and people and space and time? Are you the void that is appearing as sight and sound and all other senses and all that is "in" existence? Is there anything at all other than yourself "in" existence? If you are watching a movie or reading a book, is it true that you actually are imagining it in the moment, and it actually, at the ultimate, absolute, level is not coming from a history and any background? And is it true that nothing that you can perceive, nothing, actually is coming from a history and any background? Is it true that you are the minds and awarenesses and sensations, and all, of all that is, of all beings in existence? Is it true that you are every aspect of every aspect of every aspect of all that is? And is it true that, at the ultimate, absolute, level you have all knowledge of all things, and all, of all that is, for all knowledge and all that is is what you are imagining in the moment? Is it true that you know all knowledge in all existence, because you are the creator of all knowledge in all existence in the moment, and assigning a socalled background history and so on to all of that to create the experience of space and time and history and continuity and so on?