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i'm looking for cute men I can dominate...

what am I, God? i don't feel so

Some gay person told me that I should really drown myself, even better get under a train, because I am such fool and fools like me should not exist in this world. He told me to do it as fast as I can and save others from myself. I'm not endangering anyone but the likes of him. If he didn't block me maybe he would have motivated me enough. How do you get over your fear of death?

Of course I do, but I can't have these attachments and I'm losing it all. Of course.

But why prolong a life without growth and happiness, with lots lf suffering when you can probably get another life after this one ends.

I mean that I could hang myself without failing at it, except if others stop me. But I don't want to for some sentimental reason or because of fear or love or whatever.

Does anyone know where I can get encouraged or motivated to commit suicide?

Well, the past and the future is here and now. It made the present moment the way it is. I felt so good here, now I have to leave. Future is commanding me, screwed up by the past or vice versa. If I died, maybe I would go to heaven and you probably wouldn't miss me here. Yawning If only I could

Those dating sites always get me at night, lire me in until I literally take nudes and think about having sex. I should have just focused on sex in the past, I shouldhave been less ashamed and more confident. You never know if you'll get from life what you're expecting from it in the future. Looks like I'll get unexpected bad luck. But I don't really know for sure how everything will work out. Although my odds are bad.

I want to hang myself. I don't want to go back to worse. I don't know, maybe I can give life a chance for another 5 years, but I'm afraid I won't get another chance later.

I'm afraid of failing or losing control

Maybe he's a bisexual, Idk

@Princess Arabia I regret not doing this challenge in the past when there were more opportunities in life. Right now I have issues with a monster from my family who wants me all the worst.

3 things that I like that are happening in my experience: I like the place I live in, the peace and quiet and cleanliness. I like the bed I'm in and blankets covering me, the smells and sounds. I like the scenery and birds. 3 things that I am imagining doing right now that I would like to experience: Making a fire and heating the place up. Making my favorite meal of all, warm oatmeal with fruits and almonds. Driving a car to work in a coffee processing factory.

Making love...

3 things that I like that are happening in my direct experience: Sun set rays and wind on two beautiful trees on an empty street. Beautiful hungry and calm dog. My home. 3 things that I would like to see in my experience: Safety from my family member Safety from psychopaths Happiness I'm away from him forever, untachable by psychopaths and happy in peace, looking at the stars, breathing fresh air.

Thank you so much. You are that multiplied by a great magnitude of infinity. 3 things that I like that are happening in my experience: Driving a car. Looking at the stars while the wind is blowing some fresh air. Connecting with many of you over the forum. (But I regret not contributing positively, etc.) 3 things that I would like to see in my experience: Safety in society. Well functioning body and mind. Success at some educational or fun job. Everyone wishes me well. There are just good people around in the country I moved to. Everyone is doing their job to the best of their ability, truthfully, accurately, fairly. My body and mind is so well functioning, I run and swim every day in a group of friends. We do yoga together, we read, write, do maths and philosophise. We are growing and developing together. I don't have to worry about money because I have good bosses and managers and collegues that want to keep me and feed me, that want me to succeed. Sounds too good to become true.

Wow, amazing art.

I'm inviting everyone to come and join this boring chat group aimed at helping me pass through the day, through harsh and boring times when even pills against anxiety I drink don't help.

3 things that I like that are happening in my experience: Walking outside (not currently) Greeting good people (not currently) A guy standing by to let me pass first in such a respectful and kind way, but I wasn't that bad either, I switched sides so he doesn't fall in mud in case it gets too tight. I regret not thanking him or saying something, or looking at him and giving him an approving gesture. I just freezed and walked by in fear because he was cute. (The other day) 3 things that I would like to see in ny experience: Security Health Travel Acting as though I am experiencing the things I would like to experience. I am secured by incorruptable police of the best quality and guards. My finances are secured allowing me to stay in a good place where good protection is offered. I'm healed, I performe wonderfully and speak more than three languages. Taking a trip around Europe. It's gonna be so fun in Frankfurt and Berlin. Ah, Rome, Paris, and smaller cities of France and Italy as well. Ibiza here I come!

@trenton oh that song reminds me of watching Dr. House. The last scene when they go off on motorcycles officialy pronounced dead, one because he has an arrest warrent, the other cancer, made me cry back then. And they go ofd with that song "Enjoy yourself, its later than you think".

Oh you are, you speak English and probably at one point in your life you wanted to be American just like I wanted. When I said Americans, I just meant common people. Everyone around the Earth that speaks English and has problems in life. No way. What is the reason I made this thread? Okay, okay, okay, maybe I'll open up. I understand.

I don't think Americans are of that nature to talk to every stranger online that behaves a bit weird. That is correct. Why did you do that? Am, okay. You can't motivate me to solve it. Try motivating Palestinians to solve their issue or something like that. I'm trying to say that you can't motivate people that are being bombed to solve the issue that easily. Maybe I'm not literally being bombed, but it is similar or worse.

Another guy wants to point out that the only issue is me. Fucking stupid forum. I can't open up. Take me to safety and I'll open up.

Yeah, see you around. You tried nothing.