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In about 3 weeks I‘ll have one of the most important exams I ever had at school. If I started studying tomorrow or at least this week, I could still easily get an A or an A+ for it. I know exactly what I need to do and how to study. Also after this exam, I won’t have school anymore, so I‘d only need to push for these last 3 weeks. The problem is: I literally can’t sit down and concentrate. For the last 2 months I‘ve been wasting my time with YouTube Shorts or normal YouTube videos after school every day. After that I won’t ever have to study for an exam again while having school, so I‘ll have a lot of time for life purpose and self-actualization. How can I push one last time and finally get myself to sit down and do the work?

So I’m having trouble to find a tangible definition on “Intimacy”. Mine is so far: “I have a gf who I see 3 times per week. I work on becoming a better boyfriend.” And to live this value fully I wrote down: I have a girlfriend with whom I live together most of the time. I can say that I am fulfilled by this relationship. I read or consume at least 3 books or courses per year on relationships and sexuality. … (basically other tangible actions like trips and having sex x times per week follow) But I really have trouble to define it in a more tangible way and this definition doesn’t feel right since I find it hard to measure it and it is more of a feeling for me that I would share with someone. Also I have trouble putting this into words. Could you provide some inspiration for me? I feel a bit lost with that one…

What healthy meal would you make, if you had to eat lunch at school? It should be cold, since we have no microwave at school available and it should be portable in box(es) in a school bag.

You can try it out if you want for 90 days for yourself. If you find that it works for you then keep it, if not try to masturbate healthily. I did it for 30 days and it did not work for me at all as I have a high sex drive. It literally had the opposite effects of what every Nofap guru was telling. (Edit: I quit after day 21 since it had bad effects on my performance at school and never went back to it)

So, I absolutely hate school and can not bring myself to do homework or to study for an exam when I am at home. Although if I get myself to sod it I produce exceptional results. But I do not have intrinsic motivation for school work and it feels like a time waste. Because of that I have trouble concentrating on a simple task and requires me so much mental energy to do it when I am tired after school. Actually the task itself is very easy but the process of doing the task drains mental energy from me as it really bores me to do it. Also I just hate the German school system because all exams make up only a third of a grade while participation in class matters 66,6% in every subject, so the extroverted kids are getting a good grade for free if they care about school a little. I hate that so hard because I have strong social anxiety and a slow thinker so that it is very hard for me to participate the class because other kids can put their hand up in the air faster to answer a teachers question while I am debating my own answer in my head and thinking if I should try to answer it (my answer is almost always right but I am always thinking that it either too simple or I think that the question the teacher asked is too stupid). Because of that I always end up getting a B if I do not mess up an exam. I can not pay attention in class because it is just boring and the teachers do very much small talk with the students so I end up playing video games on my iPad. So my question is: Is it possible to resolve my hate for school or get myself to do the school work even if I hate it?

@Noahsteelers34 That sounds interesting. I will try it out. Thanks!

@integral Ok, got it. How can I then just sit down to get the tasks done so I can focus on other things with the time left? Because I usually procrastinate on school and it only takes me maximum 5-6 hours in a really busy week.

@integral I am a high school and I got about one year left. I have not fully decided yet but it will be most likely be something like a software or ai developer, soccer player/coach or a career path to improve the educational system (I am in the process of doing the lp course).

Maybe for extra information: I am an 18 year old student. I usually play 2 times per week soccer and do home workouts besides that. But right now I need to do physiotherapy after being recovered from a shoulder dislocation. Because of school I have to get up at 6:30 am. How can I find out, how much sleep I need? Looking forward for your replies!

Thanks! Luckily my holidays start next week so I can try it out. I guess I should go to sleep at the same time when I try this out or am I wrong? I guess I am a night owl based on my experiences with going to bed early cause of school. It kind of sucks, but I guess I have to somehow use that for my advantage.

So normally masturbation feels awesome and intense (like it should) but since 2-3 weeks the act itself doesn’t feel pleasant anymore. While masturbating I (18yo) feel like getting away from the orgasm instead of reaching it. It takes me far longer than usual to reach it and the orgasm feels far less good than usual. Because of that I’m getting stressed out. I have no problem with erection but have a less good sex drive although that is not too extreme. That happened to me a few times before but to a smaller degree and a 1 day break would make masturbation perfect again. But this time even a several day break couldn’t solve it. Do you know what is going on or what to do? Thanks for reading! (Extra info: I can’t exercise because I had a shoulder injury. Although it is healed I have to wait until my physiotherapie starts to regain its range of movement)

@integral No, I am not. No weed and other ,,drugs”, no smoking and no alcohol.

So right now I am in the middle of the core concepts section but I have been putting it off in the last weeks. Today I watched Leo’s video on increasing results of self help programs by 10x and some questions arised in my head. How much time should I plan for the lp course? Right now I am a student and can spend some hours a week on the course and doing the assignments but I don’t want to rush it. Also Leo said in his self help products video(title mentioned above) that you should retake self help courses at least 5-10 times. How frequently would you retake the lp course? Another question: How much time a week should you spend contemplating and journaling about the questions and concepts of the course and following my bliss? Thanks for reading!

Today it excited me to watch the video about “the 30 ways how society f**ks you in your a**”. In the middle of the video I stopped and played with my dog. But after that I fell off again. Kinda sucks. I think I should question my beliefs to get in a more positive state when I realise I’m not following my highest excitement right now. But I got back in the evening and watched the video until the end. Now it excites me really hard to do a week of detoxing while contemplating my life for a week as mentioned as an action step in the video. Although I will stop if it becomes too forceful from my ego side while my higher self wants to do something else. But I wont start with any expectations into it.

Purpose of this journal: I‘m starting this journal after watching Leo‘s video on being decisive. Because of that video I made the decision to focus more on Bashar‘s content in the next weeks/months than Leo‘s as my intuition told me so. So purpose #1 of this journal is to keep track of the changes that happen to my life, how I am feeling and what I do during this time (I view it as an experiment and it will last for at lest 5 weeks). Another purpose of this journal is to make sure that I follow through with it as I have realised that it is easy to get off track and watch YouTube all day while bullshiting yourself that it excites you. So, what is excitment? Bashar‘s defintion: Excitement is your higher self, pointing you in a particular direction, hoping you move in that direction.(Source:https://iasos.com/metaphys/bashar/#valid) The core of this experiment is to follow this formula as much as I can: #1. Act on your excitement, your passion, whatever is most exciting to you, in the moment. Do this every moment that you can. #2. Do this to the best of your ability. Take it as far as you can go until you cannot take it any further. #3. Act on your excitement/passion with absolutely no insistence, assumption or expectation of what the outcome should be. #4. Choose to remain in a positive state regardless of what happens. #5. Constantly investigate your belief systems. Release & replace the un-preferred beliefs: fear-based beliefs, and the beliefs not in alignment with who you prefer to be. From tomorrow on I will spend every day 15 minutes every day to writing posts about how following this formula goes for me on a daily basis.(Also this is the only exception in this experiment because I will do it even if it doesnt excite me for documentation porpuses)

Today started really awsome. I woke up later than I usualliy do and did a sprint training outside. But after that I fell off and forgot about following my highest excitement at first until the evening. In the evening I planned the itinerary for my london trip and after that I procrastinated through watching youtube. So it is really easy to fall off folowing your highest excitement and follow negative ego instead. So I was believing that watching Youtube was more beneficial to me than following my highest excitement. I will try to replace that belief tomorrow with a more beneficial one.

Day 0-05.09.2021 Would like to start again. Tomorrow I’ll write some longer but today a little plan for tomorrow: In the morning: do short meditation or yoga do visualisation read goals In the afternoon: Do sport do a ying activity (sth like doing nothing or relaxing) do homework Study Watch actualized Video on humor In the evening: at 8pm write in journals at 9pm read a book at 9:30 pm do a meditation Then do affirmation,read goals and go sleeping

Today I start my first journal. A few days ago I watched Leo’s video about true value and I realized that actualized.org (especially the videos and the forum) could have much value on my life if I put the content in practice. So I decided to use the opportunity to just start a journal. Maybe it will have an impact on my life, maybe not. To introduce me: I’m an 16-year old German guy. To be honest: since more then 3 years I’m a mental masturbator with personal development. But the analysis with my goals will come tomorrow. So my goal for tomorrow: put Leo’s video on goals into practice and to transform my desires into strong goals. Also I will create a plan to put some other videos into practice. I will post this plan tomorrow. I love this community❤️

Day 37-05.09.2021 1.❌ 2.✅ 3.✅ 4.✅

As I have problems with changing my routines I‘ve bought the book „Tiny Habits“ by BJ Foggs. Normally I‘d start one habit and try to do it for a week and then do the next. But this approach didn’t work long term for me. So I decided to give this new approach a chance. After 365 days so on the 05.07.2022 I‘ll draw a conclusion on how well it worked. My current routine (summer vacation): Getting up at 9am Doing stuff like eating breakfast until 10am Then solving math problems (my parents fore me to do that) but the most time procrastinating on my phone (screen time 5-6 hours a day) at 4pm playing video games while watching actualized.org videos at 8 pm watching Netflix at 11pm going to bed while scrolling on my phone at 12 pm sleeping My aspirations: 1. increasing mental abilities 2. finding lp/vision/escaping wage slavery 3. build muscles My Golden Habits (Tiny versions) 1. Meditating for 30 sec 2. Open One Note and a video about spiral dynamics 3. do 5 push ups on knees Goals for these habits: 1. Get to meditating each day for 20min before going to sleep using the doing nothing technique 2. Study for at least an hour each day 3.Do a callisthenics workout 4 times a week Note: if I put a ✅ behind meditation it means that I did it yesterday evening because I did it before going to sleep

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