samijiben

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  1. Are you blind, Princess?
  2. That is undifferent from anyone else, only difference is breakingthewall has insight, and you don't, you are a fool.
  3. See, it "got you good" It "got me good" too, like seeing a cute baby, ahhhhh how cute. But I didn't cry like a baby WITH TEARS COMING FROM MY EYES! That's what I'm concerned about. I haven't cried with tears like, ever. I mean a tear fell from my eye some years ago, but since then, nothing. (Unless I am coughing the smoke out my llungs but thats a diff matter) This why I asked if I should post on health forum. I cannot force a tear. Nothing will make me cry. Is my connection to God not deep enough? Is there more resistance inside me? If I let it go, would I be crying (tears coming from my eyes). WHAT will make me cry? If my parents are tortured in front of me? Is that really what it takes? Or getting castrated or something terrible like that? I just wanna know if a healthy, enlightened human cries, and if not crying is a sign of an insensitive animal barbarian, not a compassionate awakening human. Yes, I struggle with resolving this duality, my concern remains, about the crying with tears.
  4. Lol is pretty funny post bro, you gotta understand that this does not warrant a response, it speaks for itself, but that being said, I do acknowledge you, right here. These fears all come from drifting away from the source from which all this creative beauty came. But you get lost and attatched to it. It is understandable.
  5. @Someone here is not a shitposter. He is going thru sum tuff times & just wants love, but you are shitting on his shitfest. But bro, don't criticize @Breakingthewall like that, dude has got insight, after all, his name is breaking the fucking wall.
  6. I get the idea is attractive of being a family man, or simply just having a family, or baloney fucking sandwhiches wrapped in seran wrap that you eat on the curb outside chipotle where you work while smoking crack with your friend, Bob? But the goal is never marriage itself, for that is a cultural implant — it means nothing. A woman, on the other hand, if she sticks around (after you put the ringer of the finger) can give you all sorts of things — we're talking consistent blowjobs (hopefully), baloney fucking sandwiches, affection & care, a sense of self-worth, and obviously children. So, I take back what I said. That actually sounds quite nice. Best do some game & "play around." Then, afterwards, you can get serious. Or you can just skip the playing and get right to the real deal, or reverse the equation and JUST HAVE FUN, NOW!!!
  7. Hey, just curious — I mean, I wouldn't mind a wife myself... But WHY? What will a wife provife for you in terms of betting your life & deepening your connection to whatever it is that you are after? For the Wife is not the end goal. You don't even know what she looks like yet! That raises the question I was asking, "whatdya hope to get outta this, man?"
  8. I think its because it is tabboo if everyone were more conscious & didn't supress their sexuality, perhaps we would inhabit a world of spontaneous orgies and increased openness to weird shit that in today's world would get your ass incarcerated. Just a thought.
  9. Thank you, Hojojohoho I almost cried watching that video.
  10. Because everyone is one blahblah and animals don't have seperate consciousness blah blah It is true, Princess... It is not because humans have some developed neofrontal cortex or some shit like that, but rather because the Princess is an awesome storyteller, and the evidence is above and on the pages before. You have written a cute little story within which Everything is contained. Bless.
  11. You don't need to let her go. You were never in love with her. You were in love with the fantasy of her which is still very much alive so you can either choose to fall back in love with that or choose a new fantasy to envelop yourself in, or go for a ride and hit one out the ballpark, since there is a possibility of leaving all fantasies behind you indefinitely, especially if you trip on shroomies
  12. @UpperMaster Your OP is VERY relatable. It seems an apt description of our human condition: getting confused. In short, your problem is that you exist still, and you need to remove yourself from existence by doing nothing, but this is anotjer story. I comment on this thread to say how grateful I feel for all the above posts from the kind, insightful, imaginary folk of Actualized.org who extended their hearts out to you with such simple and illuminating explanations that I sincerely believe will, if you follow them in earnest, lead you to the well of gold that you have been searching for. It is easy to see where another goes wrong whom we do not know well or are already aquaintded with, since we aren't familiar with their habitual iosyncraticic tendencies & behaviors: it's like, "Oh, that's where your going wrong! Obviously!" But it is so much more difficult for oneself because one is totally mired in his habituation. To get out, he has to become someone else. That is the Only way to see what it is that you are.
  13. Lol it's a sneaky question because it is designed to be answered as no. Obviously, right? Yet there is a possibility that one can be cursed from a spell. Like in a movie, Harry Potter. This is a fantasy. The point is that fantasy is real.
  14. Infinity is infinity is infinity is nothing and all of the above. Infinity is absolute honesty. Being attached to the human form: the curse. I can only escape once I die. It dies into the field of every mother fucking thing. Behold infinity, if you dare disintegrate before its almighty wrath, so gentle and Lucious on the inside, but just like a cactus or a barbarian on the outside. The teachings all point to something that is equivalent to clarity and understanding. The pursuit of truth for the sake of truth and only truth at all costs is the one way to get out of the dark alleyways of fucked up shit. Only by turning inwards and going nowhere can the individual cease to maintain its assumed identity. For assumption is the mechanism of the devil Furthermore, in the interest of not getting off the tracks, be in such a way that is nonreactive but rather entirely in the moment, leaving the possibility of decision open and free, unbound by the constraints of Maya. The truth is so radical, so enormous, that you can't see it yet unless you do massive amounts of work through sheer dedication and willpower — not as a fantasy but as action taking place right now — without movement, thought, or even the possibility to go wrong. This is perfection. Wow. And yet it is alone. No one to grasp the perfection but the perfection itself. Too big for words. Too big for ideas. Too big for the character that persists with its demands and agendas. Too big for the assumptions, expectations, and desires that usually inform what should be done and why things are the way they are. That things are the way they are in the first place is a common misnomer that pervades the normal, usual, and unspectacular dimension of existence that pertains to the self, the center of the universe, the bastard writing these words. No such distinction is made but by him, the sneaky fucker that is the son of God and evidently God itself. Look no further, the answer is in front of you, behind you, and surrounding you from all sides. The truth is so pervasive that it fills up your entire being from head to toe, ocean to desert, galaxy to galaxy and the all the stars imagined to exist, up in the heavens, above. Concept, language, and all that shit is a barrier to accessing the infinite. I am not interested in the infinite, I am interested in canned tuna fish with lemon juice and mayonnaise and a bag of tortilla chips to go with it. My goal and desire and purpose here on earth is anything but being truthful and honest and departing at once from the game of pretending that I am. I am not, and my life is a lie, and everything I believe reinforces that perpetual though loop. No amount of resolution or solution will bring an end to this problem. For this is not a problem. This is the best thing ever.
  15. @Daniel Balan Bullshit can be more obvious when you see it in a place closer to home. It is easy to see that witchcraft is bullshit. It is harder to see that your critique of witchcraft is also bullshit.
  16. Wilhelm, brother, let us conclude our definitional dancing on a positive note. Let us agree that it is impossible to prove that what is happening in Gaza is genocide (or not). Can we wrap it up there? That's a positive note! Without downplaying or reducing the enormous weight of what's happening, can we acknowledge that neither of us truly know? I take back everything I said. How about it, Wilhelm?
  17. Which craft is witchcraft? Surely it isn't a monolithic system. And even it were so, what makes witchcraft more true or less false than anything else? It's hard to take you seriously when you clearly haven't studied witchcraft before. Take a deep dive into the field. You might find some truth in it. You consider witchcraft hogwash-nonsense-bullshit, right? I can dig that. So what do you consider to be the opposite? What is an example of an epistemically sound meaning-making system that is NOT bullshit? Who is the real bullshitter here? The witches? Or the Christians? Or the Actualized.org followers? What is the truth REALLY, without pointing your fingers & making distinctions between epistemically sound reason versus complete & utter bullshit?
  18. Yes, my mind is somewhat fixed that it does not fall under the legal definition of genocide that already exists. Kinda like how Nilsi in this thread told Hojo that schizophrenia can't be so loosely defined BECAUSE WE ARE WORKING WITH A PRESET STANDARD DEFINED BY SOCIETY (consensus agreement definition of genocide) According to that definition, yes, I am quite sure that it is not genocide. In regards to what is REALLY happening in Gaza, including the ACTUAL INTENTIONS of the Israeli government, I don't have a fucking clue, nor do you, so step down, Wilhelm. That is, until you provide a well-reasoned case for why it is genocide WITHOUT twisting and contorting the definition provided by the UN. Of course, according to your logic, you have. So this is going nowhere. Agree to disagree? Lol. The line is completely blurred between pure self-deception and cleanly categorizing this catastrophe into any limited notions or encapsulations given by others. So, in the end, let the mystery be, but don't call it a genocide, for it is much worse than that — and more nuanced.
  19. Blaming Israel or even Bibi is just as dumb as saying this is a just war, for he who is truly at fault for this catastrophe is a much uglier beast than Bibi. It is the Deep State. Lol.
  20. I read Raze's post. I looked at all the articles linked in this thread. I actually spoke with Amos Goldberg, but that was before the genocide. I am familiar with the intellectual position of those who regard Israel as the Evil Zionist Entity that occupies & colonizes & indiscriminately butchers its targets in this calculated, machiavellian genocide. Not saying that Netanyahu isn't a deranged animal My point in this thread in terms of motivation was to implore you to gawk that, despite this being very hard if not Impossible to accept. this is not genocide, that is, it does not fall under the legal definition of genocide according to the logic I provided above which I believe to be flawed and imperfect. THE ACTUAL SITUATION ON THE GROUND may be much worse and terrific than "genocide," far beyond what any of us can ever imagine, though videos and footage gives us an idea of the horrors. Again, the situation on the ground in Gaza is beyond what we can know. We are not in Gaza. AIn't a single Gazan on the actualized.org forum. Ultimately, what is happening in Gaza is a philosophical matter. That cannot be known. Just like nothing can be known. But according to the already-in-existence-legal definition of genocide that I did not personally create, the war in Israel does not categorically fall under that. I am not reinforcing a belief-system here. Can you please provide me an argument to change my mind? I feel like that Crowder Dickhead: "Change my mind!" Seriously, I cannot see a possibility how this could be genocide. (again, according to legal definition of genocide and taking into account that we're gonna have to consider a ton more wars throughout histories as genocide if we're gonna bend the definition with such flexibility)
  21. 8 days sober today. Haven't been sober for this long in... I don't even remember. Like @Aramara said, I feel almost like I can see color for the first time again. Like I regained a sense that I had lost. And I was smoking dailly, multiplle multiple multiple times daily. Im sure after 3 months will be even better
  22. Those numbers you are replying to are bull. @Hatfort Give me a source that shows that 400,000 Gazans have been killed, half of which being children. This is the most obvious form of propoganda on this form to date. Don't spread such blatant misinformation.
  23. Oh, 92% of residential buildings damaged? Must be genocide, right? Case closed. Forget trials, legal definitions, or anythíng silly like proof of intent. Look, I get it — it feels like genocide. And I know feelings are doing a lot of heavy lifting in this convirsation. But that’s not how this Works, Wilhelm. You keep repeating the same stat like it’s a mic drop, but let’s be real: If Hamas sets up HQ in a hospital basement, stores rockets in UN schools, and fires from densely packed residential areas on purpose... — What do you think happens next? Peaceful negotiation? Precision sniping from space? Come on, man. Yes, it’s devastating. Yes, thousands of civilians have died. That’s a tragedy. But that doesn't make it a genocide. I have said this thrice throughout this thread. Collateral damage still isn’t the same as deliberate intent to murder a people. That distinction is important. You don't just bulldoze legal definitions because you’re emotionally convinced of something. And sure, throw in the “you’re just in denial because you can’t imagine Jews doing bad things” line. But I don’t believe in collective sainthood. Not for Israelis, not for Palestinians, not for anyone. History proves humans are capable of everything, as you said — including twisting facts to fit emotional narratives. I’m not going to throw out the definition of genocide because it feels like one. I’m not going to decide based on aerial photos and vibes. Genocide requires intent to exterminate a peoples. You don’t get there just by pointing at broken buildings and saying, “Looks genocidal to me.” If you’ve got a document, a statement, a policy that shows Israel’s leadership saying, “Let’s wipe out Palestinians as a group,” I’ll read it. Seriously. But, so far, you’ve given me a body count and a theory, not a case. So, no, I’m not in denial. I just don’t equate destruction with genocide because I still think definition matters. Genocide is the most serious acusation you can make. It has to be based on more than numbers & emotions. The strongest indicator that I am wrong is how angry I feel writing this. Not your argument. Your argument is buttocks.