samijiben

I think she is tryna say this: "All men have the power to kill themselves, and this turns me on the most. I like a dead man walking, that is, a man who has completely lost his self — or is so FULL of himself that he has no self." Yes, that is a cute way of talking about Ego Death. But talking about Beating around the Bush/Subject/Matter at hand! This woman can't put her finger on it either! But yea, it looks like she is pointing to God and the particular ferocity and intensity of presence that comes along with that in masculine expression, not as some caricature raging dickhead tearing his shirt in half — but a strong man who is actualized. Like Leo. Give this woman Leo.

What a twisted idea! Lol!

I am going to go into great depth of explanation here, so bare with me if you must. First of all, that you find yourself reading these very words is a twisted mystery that, somehow, we BOTH find ourselves in... So, let's get weird and intimate on this white page of black letters and whatever universe you have the audacity to imagine into existence, Dear Sir and or Ma'am that is presumably READING THESE WORDS! Lol, that preamble actually has NOT to do with the subject that is the intention of my communication — but I had to get it off my chest — I am not just talking about another part of my life that will ultimately drown out in the coming seconds to be replaced by another one... This is a pretty big Finding relating the source of attraction and the subsequent investigation into just WHAT that might entail or lead to, Inshallah... It is just that,.. uhhhgghh, I WANT YOU — BAD! The human desire for "the other" or Another is primordial, like having to use the washroom or sticking your finger in your anus.. So, it isn't SUCH a mystery that we actively (but mostly unconsciously) crave and seek out human connection, because we can just blame it on biology. But this is fucking crucial... this cannot be overlooked. I am on the verge of an incredible epiphany that may just mend the wound between God and humankind, but it requires getting a solid grasp of what Attraction Really IS and WHY and etc.. I'm really getting deep into this. I see no way back at this point. I no longer know what I am asking, if I ever had a question, or that something exists instead of nothing at all, left without meaning, here in this mirage of many sorts where the end is never in sight but fully incarnate as the Totality of Vision Itself. I am not talking about a theory or practice of getting somewhere. I am talking about that which is talking about that which is being talked about. Fuck you, grammar. No one is gonna ruin this party. The point is that you mean so much to me, baby. This is a love letter. Do you get it? Do you fucking get it? Oh, what a joke! I made this love letter just for You. I hope it didn't fall into the wrong hands. For all I know, it could Be BEING read by an evil man or witch of a woman who has malicious, antagonistic intententions and wants to bring about my destruction... fuck you! Nah, seriously, though, peace and love, I hope You make it out alive, and I'll see you on the OTHER END/SIDE where All is Good and Happiness is Eternal Ever After. Oh, and also, take out the fucking trash, don't forget to PAY OUR TAXES, ARGHHH WHEN DOES IT END! That's right. Do you really think you were going to ride off into the sunset without getting derailed once again by the blunt spearhead of corruption at large? Fool you are! Face me now! What have you been up to, Sweetie? Do you see how sick and twisted this is? Then again, some people pay money to see a drama. On Broadway, there are paid actors who do this shit to entertain people on purpose. So would it really be out of the cards to suggest that THIS is a Show of the Century, an Epic Theatre of Clashing Concepts and Stuff that EXISTS! YES! RIGHT HERE! FUCKING AMAZING......

Monumentous: Monumental and momentus at the same time!

Nofap is so popular because lots of guys are ADDICTED to porn and masturbation. So it follows that people latch onto the ideology when they see that implementing the practice (no-fap) works. Why does it work? Because they stopped their fucking addiction! Obviously, you will feel better in your life or about your life if you kick an addiction. But this goes for any addiction. There is nothing especially insidious about furiously jerking off to more tabs than you can count of: Dancing titties Jiggling asses Pink pussy! Yayyy!!!! No, this ain't gonna kill you. Nothing wrong with a wank. What is wrong is using your addiction to avoid confronting God. And masturbation is damn low on the long list of addictions that is being used to avoid confronting God!

I want to add context to the story of what prompted me to make this post. Fucking LSD. Obviously. This chemical is naughty.......... I just microdosed! Nothing more! But the intensity of the experience was FELT! And not just by ME! See, this is the point. I made a post about this a while back, which no one answered conclusively, because you people don't have the answer to my question. But let's take another stab at this beast, for it could mean the resolution to all problems ever conceived... Attractive women are PULLED in by my infectious, contagious, radiant, vibrant energy THAT DOES NOT RIGHTFULLY BELONG TO ME! In any case, I put my finger on the Source of Attraction itself, and it is God. Being One with God, practically unperturbed by everything, comfortable and alive, abiding in that place where ALL ENDS MEET... It is HERE that women want to meet me.... But not so sure that it is "HERE" that I want to meet them... Without digressing or devolving into insanity too much, can I rephrase my question simply? Why is it that women are attracted to that part of me which doesn't want them? Or: How can it be the case that when women ARE attracted to me (because I am in that STATE), I am indifferent? I don't care. I don't want to chase or aquire. I don't want to "bring home some bitch." This is not to say that when I am in said state that I don't engage with others. I do, and the communication usually endures a wild, enchanting ride of unsuspecting giggling fits, the kind of laughter where you are literally pulling your hair out... It's just that I don't neccesarily WANT THAT — It just comes my way (When I am Tripping or otherwise, somehow, given access to that Stateless State...) This is goddamn counterintuitive. No one would have thought that women are attracted to a dead man. Or an unborn man. Or anything but you! You have to go! No questions about it! There is nothing good or attractive about you! All the goodies are left to God. And you need but sacrifice yourself to his infinite scope of dimensionality in order to have it ALL FOR YOURSELF! YUM!

Psychedelics are like poor man's meditation. They will force you into an out of this world/body experience. You just have to take a hit. Like Schizophonia said, unless you "hang onto" and develop whatever Insight came your way, it turns into a cool memory, in some cases being used to justify spiritual mindrot, jump to conclusions, create a "truth-seeking" identity. "Psychonaut." These are powerful tools. The most powerful. You can use a psychedelic as a springboard to instant death. Now you can rebegin your life in that way which you see fit. I have seen people take psychedelics and get bombarded by revelations about the absurdity of the joke that is the life they had been living only to return back to it in miserable fashion after the effects of the substance expired. Transforming your life is a DIY Project, that means you have to do it. Imagine that the goal is to find Waldo. In this rendition of "Where is Waldo?", people hide inside the walls, behind the doors, camouflaged so naturally with their surroundings that it would beget an epic leap of something beyond faith and a great deal of time & effort to See Clearly... BUT, if you take psychedelics, in this metaphor, it is like being given the x-ray vision. NOW you can find Waldo more EASILY given the added, arguably "divine" facilitation. These are the steroids of mysticism. Use at your own risk.

Conjaculation: Conceptual ejaculation

Yup. That's the Q For me, lately, it has been right up till I knock out Obv not optimal for healthy sleep Do y'all stick to a strict rule like "no screens for 30min/1hr b4 bed?" If not, how do you wind down at night? Read a book, have a wank, beathwork, etc.?

It is a deep question intertwined with a twisted, supressed, unconscious Human Sexuality that suffers from the fear of being ousted or banished from the pack. Our sexual expression is castrated by the constant reminder in the back of your head to "stay in line." I am merely pointing out that you do not act on your impulses in public — and that is normal. Most people do not act on their impulses. I mean, thank God, right? Imagine how scary THAT would be... But this retard guy didn't give a fuck. He came right up and started petting me! Again, if a dog does this to you, it's normal. If a retard does it to you, considering your a forgiving person, it's also normal. But in NO cases is it normal for a normal person to get up in your shit anf start petting you out of nowhere. Why?

I am not making a joke with this question. This is a serious philosophical question. Today I was chilling in the hottub & this dude with down syndrome came right up in my shit & started to pet me. It seemed pretty normal. Why aren't we petting each other all the time like we do to dogs? Social conditioning? Stigma? Tabboo? Contemplate.

How long is your contemplation practice (assuming you have one)? How often do you do it? Don't give me some bullshit like 2 hours lol if you sit for that long with one single question in your mind given undivided attention with intense observation... 🫡 I only go a few minutes before I veer off into distraction. Contemplating is fucking difficult.

Again, I feel compelled to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for reaching out to me here with yours... It's touching to see your replies to my query. Whatever my path turns out to be, I know that I want it to be one of intensely felt emotion, passion, compassion, divine energy, and lalalalalalalas unto the end, God Bless Us All

Fascinating. I am spoiled by this forum and at risk of brainwashing myself by stealing your insights and using them to my advantage.

I know what you mean when I take LSD it is like this — pushed outside of my head, in the Driver's Seat of my experience... Up Front & Center — this is an interactive & highly participatory experience of being in the world — engagement with reality — intimacy and closeness with the "contents" of your experience.

"Pet" Enlightenment: The phenomenalogical methodology of attaining enlightenment via the divine facility of a pet Note: wild animals also work for this technique, perhaps even better, but it is hard to get near such magical creatures and even harder to stay in close proximity to them for an extended period of TIME!

Stupeficationality: The quality or state of being stupefied. The potentiality of stupefixtion.

Advice Junkie: Permutation of self-help junkie that unconsciously & compulsively seeks advice from other "wiser" beings to solve its problems & shit like that.

Yeah, right on.

*WARNING!! — If you ALREADY know how you're going to respond, please do NOT. This is not for you. We are interested in tackling the question of whether or not the war Israel is waging in Gaza conforms to the definition of "genocide." As a reminder, Genocide means the deliberate destruction of a peoples. Please draw on other examples of genocide in history & compare/contrast them with what's happening in Gaza atm. Keep in mind that, usually, in a Genocide, the population decreases & the offending party has the aim to kill civllians. Is this what is happening right now? THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION TO THIS MATTER!

Imagine if every person in the world was on the same level of consciousness as Leo, or whoever the fuck you think has got this shit down pretty well. Okay? Muhammed, Jesus, Buddha, Paramashiva, Ralston, Ibn fucking Arabi, don't care. Just imagine that everyone were AWAKE. Now, how do you imagine society would work? Do you think there would even be a government? Systems in place to make sure things run smoothly? Would there be laws & regulations? Policies and bills? Mayors and governors and presidents? Lawyers and judges and militaries? Would there be tax or government services? How about systems of governance, like democracy or bureaucracy or dictatorial rule? Would anybody be in charge of anything? How would people decide on the color of the flag of their country and where to draw the borders that seperate it from the next one? Who's to say that we wouldn't all live in the same country, that being God's Country, that place which exists everywhere? All this is to show that, perhaps, just maybe, if everyone were enlightened (an impossible If, just a thought experiment, chill out), then we would not face any problems of governance or society, simply because, from one angle, no one would give a shit. Problems of governance and society all collapse in the face of not giving a shit. When you don't give a shit, everything works out just fine, because you don't gotta do survival and make sure everything is okay. You just exist. This why animals don't have government. Not because they are stupid. but because they don't givva shit.

Enlightened Fishmonger

Finding your life purpose gives you meaning and value and hopefully a stable, passionate career that empowers and enlivens others and whatever etc.... Success, on the other hand, is akin to enlightenment, happiness, the end goal, surrender, being your higher self, achieving the object of your desire, or relinquishing it at once, in any case. Success is abstract & open to definition. Life purpose, on the other hand, is pretty much which narrow niche are you gonna gear your life to, that is, your human life, your efforts in the world, your level of involvement with other people, etc.. They can exist codependently, and in fact this is prolly the only way shits gonna work out: if your life purpose exists ALONGSIDE Success. If you use your life purpose as a means to achieve success, prepare for disappointment. Success only comes when you realize that you are Successful. And, as we mentioned, since Success is open to definition, the ball is in your court

I don't think I am mature enough to talk politics. Have a good day, friend.

Got it. There are real issues in the world. Still, I feel a Lotta political talk goes round and round and fails to recognize itself playing out the same old tendency to say "look at how fucked up the external world is, this is fucked. We are fucked. Uh oh, civil war gonna dawn, better get your guns. Better stock up on toilet paper from Costco. In meantime, fuck Trump, stand in solidarity, better do more protest, education, harm reduction, Trump so bad, Ughhhh!" But why? Why even bother? Don't you have a hangnail or some booger to be worrying about instead?