Elton

Dear Leo, in this hell that I'm living my family won't just give me their money and let me just be and do nothing. I will have to do the doing to earn money, develop my self through affirmations visualisation reading and exercise...and my nine to five drains a lot of energy ⚡ it would be really benificial if you could come up with a technique that combines meditation and enlightenment work cause I find it difficult to find time for enlightenment work...

@Katiee see one video a day and try to implement that in the week; if you are seeing many videos a day write down important points and review them every day till you grasp it.

So today is the 25th the day I'm going to take full responsibility, used awareness as an excuse to let myself loose smoked a lot since last time I wrote the journal, didn't read bookd didn't exercise nothing much but all this will stop from now looking forward for the next exciting month going to do self actualizing work I'm done with backsliding going to feel the emptiness head on. Going to feel the emotions head on, going to lean into fear these coming weeks and months will be great ones.

Practical techniques for accurate and clear thinking.

I'm talking about getting rid of all confusion I wonder what the root cause of confusion might be@DizIzMikey

We should not be now that seems more real

@Gone when you pay for a product you value it more.GGuess what this forum gives us New friends with self actualizing drives which is very rare Compassionate people, loving people and helpful people which are very rare Insight to new solutions for problems from people gone through the same shit. Book reviews, public journal facilities which are very rare and powerful. So many self actualizing videos which are free no adds on YouTube channel.100% commitment to release vedios every week even when not well. So much value is being provided, so bro thats the law of gravity max value = max profit, you can't accuse him of spreading higher consciousness values just to make money.

@Toby are you Enlightened?

@MartineF hey thanks for the concern I've been following that awareness alone is curative, didn't hold my self back from sunday ohh man I'm so aware of tabbaco going in my body have been smoking 10 smks per day its really tough to be aware the whole time while smoking but my head hurts every night, my body pains in the morning, today I wonder where sooooo much of negative thoughts on my job and my family came from I doubt it came from nicotine though.. But man I'm hurting really bad today even yesterday I was hurting but even after I was hurting like one eye was just closing yesterday because of the nicotine why am I continuing to hurt my self and why I put the cigarette in my mouth today.. Fear of emptiness? I don't know... But I don't think I'm going to smoke tomorrow.

@ModernArtist life purpose is a very important element of life, do realise that you have to spend most of your life working, so it would be good if its your life purpose, something you’re passionate about... Spiritual enlightenment is all about being happy in the present moment without needing anything or anyone to fulfill you.

So today is my first day of my preliminary preparations for 25th June, preparing for the actualized life. I have already failed as I smoked my first cigarette of the day, its okay, I've been very mindfull while smoking it and I felt worse not better after. As I'm writing this I'm pouring some love on this part of me the love I feel while driving, while making out with my girlfriend the one I get from my mother I'm just pouring it on this addicted side of me. I accept that I'm not mentally strong yet to overcome this addiction but I know that I will get really really mentally strong. I know I've failed, but failure is good. I do have the ability to respond to this situation in a positive manner and I do realise that just because I smoked one doesn't mean I should more, now and forever. Future mindedness is my top strength and I will use this superpower to project my future and the benifits of being a non smoker. This one cigarette that I smoked can be viewed as a negotiation I had with my cravings. Now as I'm writing this i feel a lot of negitivity like I shouldn't have smoked it and now more cravings have arised but I'll just feel it completely.

End of the day and I totally fucked up but hope optimism and future-mindedness is my top strength.. I hope tomorrow things will be different.

@Mostafa Kibar why did you start your course? What aspirations did you have before starting... Get in touch with that, don't just study for grades or anything external. If you think this is not the right degree for you change it do what you love, follow your bliss find the courage to do it I'm searching my purpose now after i completed a degree I'm not really passionate about.

@Elton Its so hard I’m around this kind of addictive substances all the time cravings just won’t go away I have an addiction I just have to give in to the cravings Shut up who the hell are you to whine to me shut up already stop boring me with your story don’t give me your little stories like how your around these kind of substances all the time do you think you’re the only one buddy everyone I know and everyone that’s around me and everyone that’s related to me does all this all day these crappy things are everywhere I look I’m no different from you except I don’t give in. DO I have super human powers? No Do I not give in because my muscles and arms are bigger than yours? No Do I not give in because I can bench press more than you? No Do I not give in because my body fat is lower than yours? No Do I not give in because I’m physically better and stronger than you? No I do not give in because I’m mentally stronger than you? That’s all there really is it’s only mental and for me to give in and for you to not give in only we can assume that I’m mentally stronger than you. How does that make you feel? I don’t know a dam thing about you but I know that mentally I can do something that you can’t do. It sure makes me feel good though. In fact it only motivates me more so thanks for being so mentally week cause it only will make me work harder during my next work out. Next time your little food craving tends to come out think about this look at that substance and think what do I want more 5 sec and pleasure of enjoyment that I’m going to get on taking this in or the enjoyment of the fact that 24 hours every day 7 days every week I will have the body I want to have that’s what it really comes down to; let me tell you no thing is as good as that feeling feels; your reward to sticking to your commitment are all the results you will get so stop giving in to your cravings and your cravings will go away its really simple as that; now I know what you’re probably thinking… you’re thinking right now who am I ? Who am I to be telling you this? like I never cheat or I never give in or I do not have any cravings…… no I don’t; not at all , not a little, not in moderation , not in anything; the thought of doing anything like that doesn’t even enter my mind . I don’t need those 5 sec I’m stronger than that , call it will power , call it mental strength my goal is my result getting the result doesn’t have the 5 sec of chewing pleasure on it, I live for purpose not for pleasure. I give my body only what it needs to let these results happen. Does my body need 5 sec of tobacco to get the results? No Does my mind need it? No My mind is way too strong to need it and that feels much better than any cigarette whatever taste I love knowing that so it’s exactly as hard it is for you as it is for everybody else you’re not a special little flower The amount of will power it takes for you to succeed it’s the exact same it takes for everybody else. What’s the difference ? I have what it mentally takes and you don’t

8/2/2016-woke up on time little late but that didn't keep me from going back to sleep and waiting to wake up earlier tomorrow , exercised , meditated , went to work , didn't smoke yet and now i feel a certain type of emotional reaction instead of feeling integrity ... in my chest, interesting .... couple of things more and my routine will be complete... 9/2/2016-work up on time earlier , exercised for longer meditated went to work and then what happened ? the shadow took over. 10/2/2016-didn't wake up on time , managed to meditate , the dark energy is loosing its intensity. 12/2/2016- no routine :-( had gone for an interview. 18/2/16- so many days no routines... that makes me feel low on integrity.

this journal is over i'm starting a new one in which all these activities will be integrated

9/2/2016-As I read and learn content regarding finding my purpose i am getting few hints ... sometimes these hints feel so clear and sometimes too blur. Lets see if i can tap into my higher self , which means i have to let go of my lower self to me simply doing the right things and not doing the things that will sabotage me is being my higher self; could higher self have another meaning ? i don't know up-till now. 10/2/2016- future prediction for today , to read and to be inspired . 12/2/2016-no finding of life purpose today went for an interview where i have more financial growth. ummmm no i will read at least one page of one book. 18/2/16 tomorrow is the next round of my interview ... i have to go and take possession of my job tomorrow afternoon. 24/2/16 there will be a final presentation round very soon i have to go and take possession of my new job very soon.

this journal is over i'm starting a new one in which all these activities will be integrated

7/2/2016-The shadow is becoming darker and darker , there seems to be so much light of hope out here , so much light of hope inside. this light should reach ; the known and the unknown aspects within me within you . the energy must transform . using energy for energy ... using the energy i put in useless unwanted things that are not doing me any good perhaps leading to self destruction and ultimately world destruction... but how do i do this ? the shadow refuses to submit ... i'm creating my own thoughts , this can be viewed just as a concept or model just Being and taking the right action is what i should do . message to reality.... 'JUST BRING IT' even after writing all this i feel i'm going to go back to the shadow today maybe tomorrow might bring a light of hope ... :-( or maybe the evening oh man ..perfectionist attitude is ruining me :-( 9/2/2016- fell back into the dark today evening after one whole day that too in the evening also realized how willpower either is built up or down ! 10/2/2016- its so difficult to not change people try extra hard to be the same that is what i am doing :-/ 11/2/2016- job interview call was a massive trigger 12/2/2016-same massive trigger for going to my lower self. 18/2/2016- I don't need to wait for some perfect date and time, now is the Time to drop all my Addictions... Now is the Time. 20/2/16-still stuck in the groove. 24/2/16- still stuck but the time is very near , time to be healthy . 26/2/16- Time to face reality,to embrace it truely as it is to accept whatever comes with it,to be integrated with it,to feel the oneness the trueness, even the bitterness to smell the roses,to smell the pile of shit...time to live completely.(so shut the Fuck up and do it, thats when it really counts)

this journal is over i'm starting a new one in which all these activities will be integrated

8/2/2016-100 push ups 20 leg raises 100 squats 9/2/2016- 100 push ups 20 leg raises 100 squats (x2) 10/2/2016-Future set burpee max (5min) hahahaha 51 :-) 11/2/2016- 10 burpees 25 bur 10 bur 10 climbers 25 cli 10 climbers 10 high jumps 25 high jumps 10 high jumps + using dummy loadcells of 2.7 kgs when the boss was away Chest combo + shoulder combo + biseps combo + push ups + legs combo. 12/2/2016- rest day 18/2/16- full body combo with 5 kg 23/2/16- burpee max 5 min

this journal is over i'm starting a new one in which all these activities will be integrated

@Rahul yadav thats a thought an internal voice focus on that for some time and see what happens.

@DizIzMikey i always do it in the train its fun,I get a bonus of few more min to my med practice... People come and go and stare I look outside the window so I don't throw any boms at people...

@jes Read the book the power of the subconscious mind. Implement meditation focus on current reality