Vynce

@Inliytened1 Can I ask you what kind of method/substance (I imagine you to) have lead you to this realization? Lets see what answer I imagine

Session Six: 30 minutes. Originally planned 40 minutes, but got interrupted by my mom, who needed the room for an online Yoga class. Hands and feet didn't cramp/furl as they would usually do. Subtle insights into the nature of thought. But nothing mind blowing. Just peaceful awareness afterwards.

This. This has to be the closest to absolute beauty i've seen so far. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LhOSM6uCWxk

@Kksd74628 Thats the goal right. I have to say that the only thing keeping me away from permanent consciousness is my addiction to thinking. It's like eating or masturbation. Chains of thought are interesting. They can be controlled. They do what I like most. As if I can have reality my way. This addition is so strong sometimes, that even if I notice it I don't want to be conscious of the banana. It's like I'm in a beautiful dream and star to wake up. I know I could wake up, but I genuinely don't want to. I hope this addiction burns itself out.

Actually everything is rather abstract if you look at it closely. If you tell an alien about humans, and tell him everything about science, history, biology, survival and culture, there would be many things the alien could never understand based on that objective lecture. One example would be music. You can't logically explain why such a thing has such a big impact on our behavior. There would be also questions like: Why is this pattern of air vibrations better than this? Why do animals don't want to do music? Why does literally every human being has a favorite music genre? ... The same counts for all art forms by the way. I guess I should change the word abstract with irrational.

We are so lucky that this abstract thing, where air vibrating in a certain way causes us to have such deep states of consciousness. Shit really hits the fan when the pattern in music have their own language and speak in your consciousness just as direct as spoken language can. For me only possible on psychedelics though.

I remember when you recalled being so conscious that you could see how you actively manifest the will to move your fingers. And even though God doesn't force you to do anything specific, in the end every decision lead to the highest Love possible. So my question is do you think a lot about how "random" events are directing you to infinite Love? In the end, even if you stubbed your toe and are really annoyed about the pain, it was Gods plan all together. But to understand how this relates to infinite Love is not possible for the ego mind. Doesn't this drive you mad?

You call that contemplation but I don't see you open about the possibility that you are God and there is nothing else beside your subjective reality. The Universe is one big subjective of r0ckyreed. Everything else is just to keep you under self-deception and bias. Don't believe me. Wake up and see it. Direct experience of being God trumps every academic theory or mental masturbation.

Can you absolutely know that thats true? Are you experiencing your brain right now? What exactly in your direct experience is a brain? You will never logic your way out of this. Leave behind all the ideas and thoughts. Just focus on what is. Do that with more and more consciousness and you see how the trick is performed. You cannot understand the trick. You can only see it and forget it. Your ego will never understand the trick. Watch your assumptions

The main problem in making sense of solipsism is that you MASSIVELY underestimate your power to imagine stuff. By that I mean especially your power to imagine, things that appear "outside" of you. Like "Leo's bubble" or "Vynce's bubble". You see, You as God would get behind the "trick of others" super easily if Leo and your parents appeared like NPC's in an RPG, who react super predictable. They would feel lifeless and unauthentic, hence you'd intuit that they are not "real". However, at a certain point of authenticity and liveliness you decide to say that appearances are real. Thats the trick. Thats why solipsism bothers you so much. Another way of tackling this problem is to see that there are multiple levels of imagination. The first kind is your casual ego imagination where there are vague appearances of colors if you want to imagine a green snake. This kind of imagination doesn't last very long and changes over times. It also has the feeling to it, that you can control its shape and movement. The other kind of imagination is this right here. Whatever you see right now. This text for example. The trick is now, that your ego can't see how it creates this text. It's just not conscious of it. It cannot be. And there are many incentives to say that "Vynce" has wrote the text and that this website is downloaded from a server and that you are just a biological entity, who observes this independently. But notice that all these "evidences" are just stories made by whom? YOU!!

Christians dogmatically believing in the Bible are examples of stage blue. However the Bible is written from a stage turquoise perspective. It's just all about the interpretation. If you listen to someone like Eckhart Tolle (prime example of stage turquoise) you notice that he picks a lot of symbols from the Bible to describe non-duality. Tragically most christians don't know anything about the nature of non-duality, so the Bible is part of this dualistic fuckery.

This is actually a good test to see how consciously developed you already are. Listen to some weird music, you would normally reject and see if you can find meaning and beauty in it. If you can see why people like this specific music and see if you understand why. One of my favorite exercises.

A true Yellow appreciates the beauty and meaning in all kinds of music. He/She will be comfortable with most genres. Of course there will be favorite music, from their time in earlier stages.

Leo already discussed this topic in his video of how increasing the frequency of experience will ultimately lead to all the good stuff in life. That should sounds intuitively right. But in this post I want to point out one aspect, which seems to be the most important in that regard. That is, that the "territory" of experience always crushes the "map" of thought to dust. And that the lack of "crushing the maps" through direct experience will waste you so much precious time in thinking your ways trough the mental constructs, which you believe are reality. One good example comes to mind when we think of online dating (male POV here). The guy sees all these fancy pictures of ideal women and immediately constructs cozy mental stories, how Natasha, Riley or Emma would fit into his life. Even worse, this mental construction gets reinforced through occasional matches and text contact. Then, after days and weeks of times waste a date might get organized. At this time the mind is on steroids constructing stories how the date will go and how good the upcoming relationship will be, and what kind of pigeons there will be for the wedding. But as it turns out, these dates usually suck and are also a complete waste of time. Weeks of mental work for a little bit of direct experience. This was a major trap for me. The same counts for business, traveling, relationships and most importantly spirituality. Thats because spirituality is 100% useless, if you just perform it mentally. The structure of "map versus territory" is always the same. Direct experience trumps thinking in maps in a ratio of 1 to 1000.

Great work! ❤️

Session Five: 35 minutes After resisting to do more session day after day I set the schedule to do them once a week. Today it was quite easy to perform, but nothing really happened during or after the session. I was very relaxed and had a really still mind at the end. Very comfortable. No deeper insights.

When you are God realized, there is absolutely no need to watch actualized.org ever again. Nor to read the Bible, nor to read anything else. This is what Leo's work is about. This is the least dogmatic form of teaching. But you gonna figure that out by yourself. No need to believe that.

@Leo Gura How can they get deeper? How can you ever realize something beyond Love? I know this question came up here a lot, but you also say that you are just a beginner at this work from the highest perspective. From what perspective? Its all Love isn't it?

Maybe I have misunderstood you but be careful not to judge "the masses" for dumb and "grateful" for Facebook technology. This is so common in conscious developed egos. When Oculus Rift (first VR headset) came out people thought, that "gamers" will now completely lose their sense for reality, because they now have this immersive alternative reality. Nothing alike happened. It was not even a big trend. Another example would be the gene manipulative technology CRISPR. I remember discussions about designers babies and how North Korea can make "super warriors" now. The same with Elon Musks Neuralink. The structure of these concerns stays the same: The most horrific scenario gets projected onto the "masses", without seeing the practicability of such technologies and what has to happen until your parents and co-workers actually implement a chip in their head. There are just too many developed beings nowadays for these horrific scenarios to play out. And the technology is mostly not even 1% as immersive as this dream you are in right now.

For the last years i really had the attitude to hide my low conscious desires like video games and porn. Especially as I developed spiritually, I really had to make plans to "cover" these desires to seem more developed. Exhausting the desire for video games seems pretty easy for me. I feel how every game gets boring really quick. Nowadays its just one game, which I probably de-install pretty soon. Exhaustion is happening. However, with porn it's another pair of shoes. I was addicted for like 9 years since I was 10. At 19 the pendulum swang hard to the other side. I was into NoPMO and NoFap. All in all I thought to have solved the desire completely. 3 years later, my desire for porn has not shrank a bit. I don't even want to cover or hide this circumstance. Its just that i really feel that porn doesn't do my life any good. But I cant ignore it either. I really need a concrete plan to exhaust this desire. But what shall I do? Have sex with lots of porn stars? Go make porn movies myself? I welcome a serious talk about this, as I intuit that most of us struggle with this or similar unconscious desires as well.

Everytime I see an answer from you im prepared to not understand anything. This time it's suited for my cluttered mind. This makes it easier to see my futile approaches to understand consciousness as something, which is done by mind - not the other way around. Thank you

@Kksd74628 Oh thanks for this post. The video game analogy really resonated with me

I don't know why you want to watch TV shows, when taking LSD. The point of these substances is to make you more aware of your inner stories and concepts, not to watch them in TV. If you allow yourself to let go of concepts, deep wisdom and creativity will form.

I never tasted anything specific. I had Creatine monohydrate if that is helpful for you. I took it for months. It has some concrete benefits, if you want to increase your first-reps-strength in the gym. In other words, your 3-5 rep strength increases. Endurance stays the same. I actually started to take it one week ago every day. A little less than one tea spoon, everyday.

I get what he thinks about "spiritual egos", and how they subconsciously separate themselves as "more developed" or "wiser". But if he'd know a truly spiritual person, he would think otherwise. Conveniently you can see "fake spirituality" super easy, if you are serious about it yourself. Just notice if people see themselves as spiritual if they think and talk about it, like someone into math would do math. Spirituality is not done like math. It is not done by any mental activity. It is being. Being there with what is. Being, without any ideas of how being has to be. This works without secret knowledge, mushrooms or some dude from Austin. In fact, all those things hinder you from being there with what is.