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Suffering is absolutely necessary for growth, wisdom and authenticity. Without suffering you would have stayed a slobbering toddler.

This thread could easily be placed in Personal Development or in the Spirituality section, so someone might move it, if a discussion becomes too meta-physical. So what I noticed in my last awakening was, that consciousness does not need food to survive. Food is completely imaginary. Its completely irrelevant what you put in your mouth for your consciousness to be. Consciousness could just as easily construct a reality, where food is not needed. Plants for example do not choose, what to eat, they just absord light energy. So they are not pressured with the responsebility of eating the right or wrong stuff. However, as you noticed food is a pretty big deal in ones life. The impact of food onto your health, mood, energy, sleep, strength and even social interations and business is tremendous. TREMENDOUS. And not only what you eat. Its also HOW you eat, and how long you do NOT eat. Also, what you do while eating, and with whom you eat. And also what body type and blood type you have. So many more variables and aspects, I can't list them all. But, essentially the role of food is, to test you, how loving you already are to yourself. If you are not loving reality, you just eat to not be hungry. But if you already care about yourself/reality, than food is this major opportunity, to integrate the aspects of the "outer world" with your "inner system". This love than snowballs into health and energy. Not loving food and your "inner system" snowballs into depression and anger. And ultimately both sets of states lead you to more consciousness and love.

Not appreciating other forms of development or even no development. Resentment towards non-spiritual people is non-spiritual.

Notes before reading: Just skip to Trip report, if you are already experienced with tripping together. I never bothered to write here about awakenings, mainly because Leo does this job quite well, and just talking about it really contradicts my goal of becoming more conscious. Talking and writing is contrary to being conscious. Especially in regards to non-dual topics, because you can get this false sense of spiritual improvement with knowing and talking about it. Also no amount of trip reports and ever describe what the essence of a trip really was. But since I have not seen many trip reports about simultaneous awakenings with a partner or a friend, I thought someone would be interested in reading about that. In this report I want to focus on the quality of being together in a trip, not how tripping itself feels or what awakening is. First of, I’m super unsensitive to psychedelics, so I and my friend Jordan both took 700 micrograms of 1V-LSD, which directly metabolizes into LSD (without weakening or adding the usual LSD effect), once it’s in your body. Its completely the same. !! Please find your personal dose and don’t mess around with other people. There are not your toys to fulfill some fantasie while tripping. We planned this long ahead and have both had awakenings by our own, which is super important for tripping together. !! You should not be bothering about the well being of others, while you still have to deconstruct reality by your own. Clarify this with your partner beforehand. Dont expect anything from each other. Talk about about the probability, that you both will want to be alone during the trip. Trip report: We were at my home and had wonderful weather and mood conditions. Nothing unordinary to say about that. 20 minutes after taking the substance, I withdrew myself from our living room to focus on my body, which felt quite nauseous. It was also important to not speak or communicate with each other during this fragile comeup of a trip, because intellectual activity has a deadening and corrupting effect on consciousness. I dived into “deconstruction mode” and saw bit by bit how direct experience was made up by God-mind, right in front of me, including my friend Jordan. God consciousness was happening. The beauty and infinite intelligence of consciousness was graspable in any form. So I treated Jordan the same as every other figment of consciousness, with love and presence. No talking or human bullshitting. Jordan seemed happy and in Love as well. It looked like, he as a part of my consciousness directly adapted my state. If I felt love, he felt it. If I was confused, he was confused. We really were just the same being. We also played like children again. Which we, stripped away of our egos, are. Just children playing. Holding and touching another human body can be such an intelligent way of communicating. Words cannot hold up to this "super-communication" during a trip. It was crazy how good we understood what the other felt, with direct body contact. Then something happened, which completely took me of guard. I saw myself in him! I saw every part of me in him. I saw the connection between infinity and love in his face. His face has parts, which my ego would call “beautiful” and “not beautiful”. But in God-consciousness, these duality collapse and form SUPER-BEAUTIFUL. UNIVERSAL-ALL-INCOMPASSING-BEAUTIFULLNESS. The sudden burst of infinite love was not bearable. I had to stop looking in his face, because this love felt like I would lose my body and “myself-ness”. Defintely something I want to try and bear for longer. Also, in this moment I decided to have a “together-trip” with a female, just to see what levels of love and beauty might rise from opposite sex trip experiences. Important note at last: Please don’t share your experience with words and mental abstractions to the other. Let the other be! If he/she wants to talk, just be present, and invite him/her to be present with you. Don’t talk with words. Hold him/her as a sign of peace and good-will. If he/she has a hard time with the trip, words will not help. Peacefulness and presence will. Talking and thinking will stop God-consciousness as the trip goes on. And usually you wont come back to it, when your ego has established itself again. That’s it, thanks for reading ?

I never saw him so joyful and happy, as he was during his awakening. But, to be honest, he has far less experience with god conscious states. So it was really difficult for him to integrate the trip, as his ego mind came back on board. This was suuuper interesting for me to witness. I could relate so much with his struggle to regain his sense making abilities. His thinking corrupted his state so much, that he seemed depressed as ordinary consciousness came back. He clinged to the freedom of no ego, while clinging to thinking about how this all works. Which is a battle you can't win. It was probably his realisation how little he cared about the beauty of god and reality, and how his life decisions were not aligned with love and consciousness in many points. This was shocking for him. His ego had to run many extra miles that day. I would be interested in his POV now. But you know how hard it is to talk to an ego about the problem with the ego. But in general he is on a good path. Probably the only one of my friends, who could handle such a trip at all.

Yeah. Self-Love eliminates this problem for me during trip times. You even see how irresponsible you might have trained in the past.

If you are into strength training and, or trying to build muscle I highly recommend training during a solid LSD trip comedown. Of course be aware of your capability to enter a gym at such states of consciousness. So maybe train at home. Its really fascinating. Sometimes I noticed that I could feel every tiny muscle fibre and could feel deep into the tissue. My strength and form were just on another level. I remember that the way I train legs changed forever since I did it on LSD.

WOW! This phenomenon is lingering in my mind for months now. I'm so into appreciating beauty in humans, but it always gets misunderstood as sexual desire. For example I absolutely love the male body. Nearly as much as I love the females. The way how muscles move and contract... The way there are built and coordinated in perfect proportion. Its really a shame, that men let this precious gift of a healthy, trained body down. I'm even open for homosexual love at this point, just to appreciate the male body even more But its a different attraction, than what I'm used to with women. Thank you for this quote

Actually a good opportunity for you to practice love with them

Clarified butter (Ghee) is also super healthy and has a distinct flavor, which I absolutely like. Plus, you don't need to refrigerate it.

Which is not a bad thing per se. The rule of thumb is to limit insulin spikes to 3-4 per day. Snacking is a big factor in unnecessary insulin spikes. Because even a half banana will spike your insulin like a big meal would. Also look "what" spikes the insulin. If it's long chained carbohydrates, mixed with a lot of fibre, that's ideal. Beans, nuts, vegetables and high protein plants will give you the best insulin behavior and gut micro biome. So much more to say... One easy rule for me is to simulate how our ancestors would eat: High fibre, long fasting periods between meals, no sugar, no processed junk food. Drinking Non-caloric liquids. That works super well for me.

My question comes from a core aspect of spirituality, which is that spirituality cannot be brought to others by words and communication just like that. It usually takes months and years of indirect "radiation" of ones spiritual being to have an effect on others. Do you see changes in others consciousnesses, when they spend time with you? It not, does this frustrate you? Isn't it more satisfying to see your direct friends to become enlightened than some pictures and names in a forum? How do you treat the people around you, in order to let them taste the beauty of consciousness without pushing them? Don't they feel inferior to you, when non-duality and spirituality is discussed? How do you give Love without shocking others? Love you all, have a great time guys

Session 14: 30 minutes Felt rough. Was not motivated to start. Watched the clock every other minute. I was impatient for the "end bliss", which did not come. Now I feel dizzy, somewhat relaxed and conscious, but not loving or hopeful what so ever. Life sucks right now. I'm conscious of this "life sucks" feeling, and hope if I endure it "well-behaved" I get rewarded with peace and love. Nothing like this seems to happen. God can not be "ordered" by the ego. I feel depressed and lonely. This has surely something to do with the current ego backlash I'm struggling with after a long time of spiritual bliss and understanding. Even holotropic breathwork cannot pierce through the vail of ego backlash. Good luck to me.

Today i made the decision to implement holotropic breathwork into my spiritual practices. After some doubts i consider it solid spiritual work, which can easily be integrated in ones life. Especially compared to LSD trips, which take the whole day and can be mentally and physically demanding for the following days. I've had two small awakenings right at the end of each 30 minute session. I will slowly amp up the duration in steps of 5 minutes. My goal is to reach 60 minutes by the end of the month. Let's see what God (You/Me) has planned for US.

I see... You sometimes said: "Truth will never be popular". Is this just a realistic believe, or has God purposely designed reality to be that way?

Ofcourse "converting" would be something the devil wants. It's like the exact opposite of Love. However, isn't "bringing Love and consciousness to this world" your entire life purpose and agenda? Thats why Actualized.org is here I thought. And if Actualized.org seems valuable to you, don't you want to see a offline version of Actualized.org around you?

Why do you feel that way? Leo puts so much effort and time into giving love towards some online members, that I can only imagine how much Love his friends and acquaintances get. Not in a "let me give you all my money, and suck your dick"-Love, but in a holistic, God-like Love. I'm interested in how that practically looks in Leos everyday life. For example, if i'm present and comfortably couched into my own consciousness, I feel love in a supermarket for the guy/girl at the cash desk. What would be the most loving decision towards him/her. A little smile? Even a little talk/joke? Asking them how their shift went so far? At some point they would feel uncomfortable at the level of Love I would want to give. But sometimes I feel I could've given more Love. Thats why I asked @Leo Gura

The last weeks were packed with awakenings and egoic mind deconstruction. So right now, I'm in a conscious ego backlash. I crave for anything distracting, arousing, mind fucking and entertaining. I nearly ate twice as much as usual. I fear that if I stop with this, the urge will just came back tomorrow even stronger. So right now I feel into this sensation of egoic craving and external fulfillment. Any tips to integrate this sequence of consciousness even better? Love you guys

If this is true, our only hope lies in the russian people. Their consciousness has to step up above western and russian media, so they can contemplate the terrifying potential of a dying dictator.

@Asayake Great advice!

This problem was super common when I was in a sales job. People completely forget about you if you don't refresh contact to them. Likewise with girls. Likewise with me. Everyone really. Now, because of my work times, I can only have dates at weekends. But since I like to do day game throughout the week, I have situations like now, where the date is 5 days after the approach. I know we both lose interest in another if we do not have any contact. So what would be the ideal text/contact to refresh interest and not lose the date?

True that's a big part in my daily motivation. However, my friend in the rowing boat worked three years non-stop for this trip. There were so many opportunities for quick sex and female attention for him. His motivation is something way bigger than pussy. I only have one thing in the world that motivates me more than pussy, but this thing is so far away. So I better work on sex for now.

Yesterday I had a long convo with a friend, who just rowed alone for 131 days across the atlantic and we talked alot about personal meaning, inspiration and the right way of living life. He said one thing, that struck me in particular, which I adapted in pick-up today. He said, that you have to play the game of life by your own rules. Acknowledge, that, not only are you completely free to choose whatever reality is for you, but also nobody is gonna stop you. There is no higher authority, that tells you what life should be for you. You construct it. Become aware and be responsible and conscious about your construction. And today as I was doing some dating app stuff I noticed how foolish I was, thinking, that women are gonna judge me if I was approaching them directly. This is mental construction. Taking ownership of reality, means to construct new meaning into it. So my new meaning became, that women on the street are just my imagination to approach them. They are my present to myself. Of cours rejections are also my present to myself. Because they make me wiser and better. And thats what motivated me to approach super beautiful women today.

Session 13: 20 minutes Took me some weeks to get into breathing again. So only 20 minutes. Was worth it though. Felt love, forgiveness, beauty, wholeness. Really no reason to procrastinate on holotropic breathing, since it always heals the mind. Namaste.

I understand the perspective from which you are argumenting. Even after some awakenings, I still held this frame. Consciousness is infintely tricky. But notice that all argumenting and interpreting won't bring you closer to truth. If you consider the materialistic paradigm, you have contradictions. If you considering another paradigm, you have contradictions. No mental theory about reality, without contradictions. So your best bet is, to dumb all paradigms, dumb Leo, Actualized.org and your entire knowing, and stay completely open absolute truth. That is your consciousness. This is literally the only fucking thing, that can absolutely be true for you. Thats a good start.