Natasha Tori Maru

He fucked himself. Literally stuck his own dick in his arse. I predict he will lose a substantial amount of viewers and followers.

@Emerald You got it. Sometimes my writing style is a bit jarring when it is on the fly.

You don't make yourself the subject like Teal does. Her personality is very much present. I don't get that as much from watching you or Emerald. It could be just the nature of her work in comparison.

Had a bit more of a think about this while fucking around onsite today re Teal Swan ego. Big difference between Emerald and Leo - they inject a lot less of themselves into their work. Obviously you can't completely remove yourself from your work, but you guys have done an excellent job of it. It is much more professional. Teal's personality is very much PRESENT.

@Basman I think Elon is into eugenics if I am not mistaken? Probably believes he is spreading his superior genes. Wiping out other races by breeding away weakness. He could also have a huge impregnation fetish (ngl I think both could be true). I think this thinking is endemic among the silicon valley elites

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Yep same. I'm a fan, I can just see the ego clearly. But I don't judge, we all have our own shit. I'm just glad mine isn't out on the internet for anyone else to see!

@Leo Gura @Emerald Yes these points are more concrete than my woo woo reading

I think I do not look at behavioural traits in isolation. I look at them, and contrast them with the pattern of display. I fit this against words. Movement. I have watched a lot of Teal (as well as Leo, Emerald) so I tend to pick up on things over time. Reading body language is an art, and you have to watch over a span of time to know someone's tell. It's not just 'When you look down and left while speaking, it is a tell they are lying'. Each person has their own baseline. And their own tells. Back to your example: Typically ones reaction to a compliment is met with a smile or some jubilation as you describe. More commonly when compliments are rare for that individual. Or you happen to hit an area they have a lot of pride in. There is a numbing effect over time, where the new normal is to receive compliments. You generally see less reaction from the individual. This is not the case with Teal. Coupled with the fact it is adoration she really reacts to with a lot of uncensored body language, facial expression and tone. She is usually quite controlled. It is when someone breaks their control I pay attention. In that space you find the truth of the person. This is when I see her ego pop out. I have a lot of confidence in my ability to read others in this way - the early part of my life, my survival depended on my ability to read people in a flash, adapt and pretzel myself into what they needed to calm them. Much of my ability to pick these things up is subconscious. It is a learned trait. One born of a bad situation, that has been an excellent tool in my personal and professional life.

I would react this way. Sometimes when you give someone power with words and assistance, they do not realise the power came from themselves. They think you gave them power, so you must have it. And lets face it, most people worship power in some form or other! That's not to say you are not powerful - I have seen your channel, and it is a force!

...Doesn't miss a beat She's still pondering how much it will nuke her system Fucken bitch, so discriminating

Core fear for her. She should drive into that. Lots of opportunity for growth. If I fear something I drive into it. Its an indicator there is ego there. And, usually, tasty delusion to unravel.

@Emerald We agree. I particularly enjoy dissecting her while watching her synchronisation workshops. You can see the absolute pleasure and glint in her eyes when adoration is thrown her way. Nom nom nom

/dead cant stop laughing read the above in a meek tone

I read so much sadness from him, it was difficult to listen to him. It was pouring out. My intuition says he has been totally shit on by some terrible women. And his intellectualisation of the system and what how it works is an attempt to self soothe. Lots of pain in this man I think the insidious part is, he really has a lot of good things to say, woven in with some corrupt views from his experience. Very difficult to sort the wheat from the chaff. I would need to sit down and write up point by point where he is self deceptive, to break down his delusions.

HAHAHAHA what a move - this boy, sharp as a tack He knows we wait like rabid dogs with our hackles up, sniffing for any ambiguity. The jimmies, they be rustled

@Emerald I too, have watched Teal Swan for a while. I feel like she struggles to respect most people. Men included. She won't surrender unless she can completely respect a man. And I feel her ego prevents her from seeing others as equal or above. But this is just my impression.

I think your question was pertinent, as there were many ways to read the statement. Precision with words or additional context is vital with these sorts of catalyzing topics

I agree. Too many people just see a power dynamic instead of the symbiotic nature of the masculine/feminine.

I probably read Leos comment wrong, but I interpreted submit = sacrifice. But the only reason I viewed it as such was given Leos context; he has a lot of drive and needs a lot of space within his life for his purpose. Often relationships struggle when you have 2 individuals so driven. One participant usually needs to make more space / sacrifice for the other when there is a large life path at play. It's not so common, in my experience, to encounter individuals so driven toward a purpose as Leo / Teal. Arrangements are heavily negotiated between 2 people. Just an example; both of my grandparents were intensely creative artists. My grandmother shelved her career to support my grandfather willingly, and lovingly. She was a haute couture artist/seamstress at the top of her game. She chose a support role for him. Took care of all household logistics so he could pursue art full time. She continued her creativity as a hobbie. No regrets from her. I have never seen a relationship with 2 life purpose driven individuals thrive without one sacrificing to make room for the other. Maybe he did mean submit though, because the meaning is to yeald to another, similar to sacrifice. There are just lots of negative connotations with the word, as to submit implies you have no self sovereignty in common vernacular. But it is an implication, not always the case

Yeah, I get around that for sure. For myself I think there just remains a bit of ??? in that arena. I'm always going to dive headlong into the unknown. I think that's why for myself, if it happens, it happens. If not, well... there's plenty of other questions to attend to.

Do you think having a lover will enable you to delve deeper into consciousness? In friction with another, personal truths are revealed. Intimacy can reveal your own truth, as your own self-perception is always fucked in some way. My biggest moments of 'Wow, I am a piece of shit' have been in relationship. This has always raised my consciousness.

@Puer Aeternus I like your vicarious bliss! In the end its arriving at the same place, but walking different directions around the circular track of life. Just maybe one gender has that dick rudder involved

Yes for sure, once they get over my initial appearance. Appearance has always been a big hurdle for me. I am not beautiful at all, but I think... striking? would be the correct term. So I would be attracting men who value this highly. But I do not want to be valued for my appearance. I want to be valued for my character and attributes. The struggle lies in waiting for men to see who I really am, as they tend to project a fantasy onto me based on what I look like. It takes a long time for them to see me for who I really am. This comes down to my own fault also, as I was not discerning enough with previous partners. Additionally, while I style myself how - I - like, this is attracting someone who values that. So I dig my own grave there. But for attraction to be maintained for me, the man has to be operating on a similar level. I've found mature men in the older age brackets tend to value markers for someone that really looks after themselves: fitness, self care, emotional work and stability. They no longer value attributes that were unearned. Youth isn't as highly valued as it is just a phase we all go through. It catches the eye, and is admired. But it fades. All people must face this. As you age up the playing field begins to level out more. My own unique pathology is more around competence. I was handed so much, and given so much, so many doors of opportunity were opened PURELY because of my appearance. It made me SICK. To see the concessions made. How much nicer people were to me, simply because of appearance. As a result I drilled down hard on competency, and really threw myself into everything I do to master my abilities. I was lucky that I was gifted in artistic creativity and also intelligence. But in the back of my head was this horrible running program 'You are here in this position because someone likes your appearance, not because of how competent you are'. What a reverse mindfuck ay? But that was my issue for the first phase of my life. I was pretty emo and nihilistic as a result. How unfair the whole game is.... unattractive people get totally dicked. My heart gets broken over and over again for anyone who wasn't lucky enough to be born looking a certain way... shattering. But this lead me to work hard. Earn my position. Hone intellect. Read. Challenge myself. Face fears. I have no regrets. As for finding a mature women who has their shit together? Jesus, I have no idea. I'd imagine hobbies would be a good one. I flat refuse dating apps. I refuse to engage in something that commodifies and whittles me down to pure appearance to gain interest. I suppose you would find a women who appreciates the type of consciousness work done here on meditation retreats, book clubs, engaging hobbies. Nature. Hiking. If there was ever an actualized.org meetup (or similar), I'd imagine some opportunity would lay there.

He certainly didn't deconstruct that aggression 🫠 😂