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@Fearey I see. That clears it up. According to my interpretation of the model, I'd put your interpretation of Yellow as early Yellow, and Turquoise as late Yellow. Coral as entering Turquoise and Teal as full fledged turquoise. I think this what most of us mean here by those stages. You have probably read the book so you might as well be more accurate. But this is the way I interpret the model cuz all I have done is watch the videos. Anyways, have a good moment!

Fear of the unkown is from what I can see, is the strongest fear we have. But it's actually not the root. Infact, to me it feels like the fear of infinity itself. Which is the same as to say the fear of death. We fear death because we fear infinity. Infinity... Is terrifying. It feels like my chest is gonna implode on itself.

What's your defination of stage turquoise, coral and teal?

No need to get agitated, in fact it's something to be empathized with. They are just trying to find themselves in the best way they know how. As do you and me.

No! It's Pixels on a screen! Down with Emoji, Eggplant and Dick devils!

That looks so amazing I really wanna be able to draw something like this in the future.

So I did some contemplation into this topic, as to what really happens when you judge someone and this is what I got. When you judge someone, you aren't actually judging the person, but an idea of that person. Where is this idea? In your heartspace. This idea is actually in from of a feeling. And you assume that this feeling is infact, what you are judging. So you take this part of your heart, and ostracize it and not accept it. Basically, what you just did is fragmented yourself. When you judge/cringe/hate someone/something/some archetypal energy etc. you actually just damage yourself. Because it feels best to be a whole and integral, there should be no reason to judge or hate anymore. I made a video on this too, if you want you can watch it, but I already wrote down the main insight.

You know, all you should worry about is providing opportunities, not waking someone up. You probably saw spiritual teachings, and took the opportunity, no one forced you to.

Same has happened to me for a year or two. Whenever I go deep enough, I start to feel this pulsating beat at around 300 bpm or something beat for about 10 beats or something, then go off, then come again and go off. However this happens to me inside my head rather than my forehead. It usually comes about when I feel like my brain was a rock and I finally broke it after hitting it with hammer(observation) for a long time.

If you are hurt and then you try to let it go, but it still bothers you later that you let yourself be a doormat then that means you are still hurt and you weren't able to completely let go. And if you can't let go then that's ok, don't feel bad about it. Be the bigger person when it is conducive to your ultimate bias(to have fun and explore). Let go only if you can. Letting go is just a practice to exercise that muscle and be able to let go bigger and bigger things. Why train this muscle? So ultimately you can let go of yourself. But until then, don't try to be a doormat in effort of trying to let go. If you feel like they are getting away with something when you let go, you aren't letting go, you are suppressing.

This has happened to me multiple times, and I have induced this state intentionally once too. Most effective i find it wake up after 4 hours of sleeping, use your phone to wake up your mind, but stay in the bed, so the body keeps lazy. after 15 - 20 mins, go back to sleep. Try to focus on the audio thoughts as if they are objects to be seen rather than to be thought by you. At one point your thoughts will suddenly become ten times louder and you will feel like you fell, with vibes all over the body. Congrats, you entered the hypnogogic state, which is one step away from astral projection

So I decided to finally meditate seriously on the deepest I could go. I got intoxicated by bliss seeing that there is no substance, nothing is happening to no one. I have no idea why but this is so.... fucking blissful. I am still feeling it. It started in the forehead, spread to whole head. Then I focused how the different feelings of my body were not happening to anyone as well and were made of nothing, and then my whole body felt that bliss. I feel so relaxed. Like damn. I sat for a good while. Then I focussed on how this bliss itself is happening to no one, and that intensified it 5X. What do you guys have to say on this? Like could I be falling in some sort of trap? The bliss feels like the universe is(I am) in a constant state of blooming outwards as a flower. It's better than an orgasm.

Thanks I'll do that. I actually felt like I was slowly dissolving. Probably why I stopped.

How do I get past this?

I agree with this contemplation but I still wonder how we hear about some yogis materializing stuff(which I think is legit).

Everytime I click on the self-actualization sub-forum, i get signed out and I am not able to see new posts etc. So I have to sign back in.

X-axis = Wider Vocab/concept range in one language or way of thinking Y-axis = Different patterns/ways of thinking/logic. Z-axis = Deeper understanding of the concepts and vocab Turn on captions if you need to.

Nothing IS something. Nothing is happening rn. Don't go about it by logic or making yourself BELIEVE that nothingness is somewhere hiding within this something. You have to literally see in your direct experience that there is absolutely nothing happening. I personally got it by meditating on the question "How is oneness even?" after realizing that "There is only oneness" in my direct experience. We often make ourselves believe all these statements and think we got it. But then we get it logically and we think we truly got it. But nah, you have to literally feel it in your bones.

Authenticity is being true to your feelings. But how aligned are your feelings to the truth?

Some of the comments under that video fall into the pre-trans fallacy. Idk just wanted to point out, cool to see.

You're not even doing yourself

The more advanced you get, the more you see how much friction-free you can make your life. Nothing is inherently bad with 'low-consciousness' entertainment, but they just add lots of friction to your life and mind, which you can now notice. And ofcourse you dont want that since your goal is to spiritually advance and friction prevents you from doing that.

A few nights ago I was sitting down and meditating at around 2 AM talking to myself. I was questioning how does oneness(which is all there is) even occur. How does it happen. After a while I realized nothing is happening at all. That was such a mindfuck that my mind went blank for 5 minutes and it was utter peace and joy. Like damn. I also made a video on this but ya'll don't really need to watch it since more than half of the video is just me explaining how one gets there, which you guys probably alr know, but I'll still post it here I thought I could somehow explain how nothing is dancing as something, but as you could see from the video, when I got to that part I had no idea how to describe it. So I just ended the video.

Btw, question for mods, is it ok if I post the videos I make to share insights/are relevant to this forum somewhat regularly?