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You know, all you should worry about is providing opportunities, not waking someone up. You probably saw spiritual teachings, and took the opportunity, no one forced you to.

Same has happened to me for a year or two. Whenever I go deep enough, I start to feel this pulsating beat at around 300 bpm or something beat for about 10 beats or something, then go off, then come again and go off. However this happens to me inside my head rather than my forehead. It usually comes about when I feel like my brain was a rock and I finally broke it after hitting it with hammer(observation) for a long time.

If you are hurt and then you try to let it go, but it still bothers you later that you let yourself be a doormat then that means you are still hurt and you weren't able to completely let go. And if you can't let go then that's ok, don't feel bad about it. Be the bigger person when it is conducive to your ultimate bias(to have fun and explore). Let go only if you can. Letting go is just a practice to exercise that muscle and be able to let go bigger and bigger things. Why train this muscle? So ultimately you can let go of yourself. But until then, don't try to be a doormat in effort of trying to let go. If you feel like they are getting away with something when you let go, you aren't letting go, you are suppressing.

This has happened to me multiple times, and I have induced this state intentionally once too. Most effective i find it wake up after 4 hours of sleeping, use your phone to wake up your mind, but stay in the bed, so the body keeps lazy. after 15 - 20 mins, go back to sleep. Try to focus on the audio thoughts as if they are objects to be seen rather than to be thought by you. At one point your thoughts will suddenly become ten times louder and you will feel like you fell, with vibes all over the body. Congrats, you entered the hypnogogic state, which is one step away from astral projection

So I decided to finally meditate seriously on the deepest I could go. I got intoxicated by bliss seeing that there is no substance, nothing is happening to no one. I have no idea why but this is so.... fucking blissful. I am still feeling it. It started in the forehead, spread to whole head. Then I focused how the different feelings of my body were not happening to anyone as well and were made of nothing, and then my whole body felt that bliss. I feel so relaxed. Like damn. I sat for a good while. Then I focussed on how this bliss itself is happening to no one, and that intensified it 5X. What do you guys have to say on this? Like could I be falling in some sort of trap? The bliss feels like the universe is(I am) in a constant state of blooming outwards as a flower. It's better than an orgasm.

Thanks I'll do that. I actually felt like I was slowly dissolving. Probably why I stopped.

How do I get past this?

I agree with this contemplation but I still wonder how we hear about some yogis materializing stuff(which I think is legit).

Everytime I click on the self-actualization sub-forum, i get signed out and I am not able to see new posts etc. So I have to sign back in.

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Nothing IS something. Nothing is happening rn. Don't go about it by logic or making yourself BELIEVE that nothingness is somewhere hiding within this something. You have to literally see in your direct experience that there is absolutely nothing happening. I personally got it by meditating on the question "How is oneness even?" after realizing that "There is only oneness" in my direct experience. We often make ourselves believe all these statements and think we got it. But then we get it logically and we think we truly got it. But nah, you have to literally feel it in your bones.

Authenticity is being true to your feelings. But how aligned are your feelings to the truth?

Some of the comments under that video fall into the pre-trans fallacy. Idk just wanted to point out, cool to see.

You're not even doing yourself

The more advanced you get, the more you see how much friction-free you can make your life. Nothing is inherently bad with 'low-consciousness' entertainment, but they just add lots of friction to your life and mind, which you can now notice. And ofcourse you dont want that since your goal is to spiritually advance and friction prevents you from doing that.

A few nights ago I was sitting down and meditating at around 2 AM talking to myself. I was questioning how does oneness(which is all there is) even occur. How does it happen. After a while I realized nothing is happening at all. That was such a mindfuck that my mind went blank for 5 minutes and it was utter peace and joy. Like damn. I also made a video on this but ya'll don't really need to watch it since more than half of the video is just me explaining how one gets there, which you guys probably alr know, but I'll still post it here I thought I could somehow explain how nothing is dancing as something, but as you could see from the video, when I got to that part I had no idea how to describe it. So I just ended the video.

Btw, question for mods, is it ok if I post the videos I make to share insights/are relevant to this forum somewhat regularly?

Thank you ?

Maybe cuz of all this failure you will reach this one time when you are just fucking done with all and sit down until you get it, like the Buddha did. The more you get it sober and are able to clearly see that path to go from normal to realization while sober, the closer those two get to integration.

I don't think it's there to being with. Usually when we think of that 'sizeless-singularity' containing all of the direct experience, we usually focus on the physical sensation of the middle of the head (is what I have seen). In fact, even that feeing of or vision of singularity must not be it. It isn't even there to be static or dynamic in the first place. This also means absolutely nothing is happening rn.

I was laying in bed, trying to go to sleep, when it dawned on me that, I actually enjoy suffering. Lemme explain Only reason why we love limited things like "a Good productive day" or "a warm cozy feeling inside your blanket in winters" is because we "don't like" the opposite and are repelled from those experiences. Without the other, neither is fun. Unlimited suffering, not fun untill there is pleasure at somepoint. Unlimited pleasure/joy, not fun without some suffering after a point. Pretty basic insight. But thing with what dawned on me was that, it isn't even about "earning" the pleasure through suffering, or 'refreshing the clock' after some amount of pleasure/suffering. It's just literally, I enjoy suffering. I enjoy suffering and that's why I suffer. I enjoy pleasure, joy and good experiences, and that's why I aim for them and get them(or literally be happy as a natural state). No roundabouts, no nothing in terms of mental gymnastics, I just straight up love suffering and it has always been that way. It's weird because this love goes 'before' even the love of anything limited in general. It does not feel like anything. If I suffer rn, I'll get the feeling of hating it, I will want to get out, I will try my best to not suffer. I will say I regretted my earlier decisions(if the suffering is great enough, I will even kill myself to escape it.), but, I will be loving the suffering like I always have been. Challenges are enjoying, results are enjoying, dark nights of the souls are enjoying, spiritual highs are enjoying, pleasure is enjoying, pain is enjoying, death of a loved one is enjoying, birth of a new loved one is enjoying. Literally everything is enjoying. I literally love everything, and I have no say in it.

LMAO

Yeah I also didn't understand how God could be 'bored'. But I assumed it meant something along the lines that GOD is that for infinite amount of time, and after that(which never really happens), it plays this game. But it's not a linear sequence. Since Infinity would never end, meaning you are not really going towards that infinity linearly, but you are already there, not, and going there, all at same time. So it's not like God gets bored, but God is literally everything, which includes this. IDK, just assumptions that make sense to me.

I think Teal Swan's videos (atleast the most recent ones), help one to deal with lower chakras first, before fully realizing the higher ones. Cuz like if your ego isn't full integrated into one thing, you can't really transcend it. I mean you can, but it most likely won't stick around, and it's much harder to do too. that said tho, I personally work on both at same time. Also here's something I am theorizing but, I think you aren't really able to get touched or grasp the full magnitude of higher realizations before being integrated a good bunch, Because if still your past traumas and life issues touch you or 'disturb' you more deeply than these higher realizations, then that's something to work on first.

IME, if talking about the absolute, all the questions of the WH family collapse into "What?". I mean Who, Why, Where and When are human mental constructs in the first place, and what we are left with is really just how and what, but even both those collapse into one absolute 'What?' with a capital W. I mean if you wanna get even more abstract then you can just feel the "?" but I find that the same as the "What?". In this, simplicity and complexity collapse as a duality, since you are trying to grasp Everything, so there is nothing else to compare it to, to label it either simple or complex. One may say reality is complex, but it's only relative to their previous idea of what they thought reality was. But if they exclude that worldview, it isn't Everything. Relatively speaking tho, I agree with this post. With most shit, knowing the Why is enough to keep you on the path, until you figure out the how yourself.