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no-uns bahahaha God: You can name all the animals and stuff. Adam: But what about me? God: Your name is atom Latin atomus (especially in Lucretius) "indivisible particle," from Greek atomos "uncut, unhewn; indivisible," from a- "not" (see a- (3)) + tomos "a cutting," from temnein "to cut" (from PIE root *tem- "to cut"). https://www.etymonline.com/word/atom Ok, got it? Not separate, not two. Adam: Oh ok, Adam. It's a bird, it's a plain and I must be superman. God: Ah...damn. ?‍♀️

When you really KNOW that you don't know.... oh damn, something's gotta give.

Humbling, grumbling, humbling, humble cakes for breakfast. I momentarily forgot how much I love random fuckery. Thought I was gonna go make something meaningful. Humbled again. I don't think any of us is making any sense to anyone. The celebration of that is so beautiful, and... strange. I think I'm still trying to make some meaning here. Everyone is already enlightened. I just haven't been appreciating what's already here. I- I-I. Starting to see this whole no other thing in a brighter light. My close friend got her house broken into a couple days ago, they lost a lot, more than I've ever heard of anyone losing in a burglary before. She laughed as she told me how her habits had made it the easiest burglary ever. Her attitude constantly stuns me. She does things I don't agree with or think are smart, but she just naturally almost always has this beautiful attitude to everything that happens. Sometimes I can look at anyone this way and just astounded behold how fucking beautiful they are in some way. Do they have a clue? NO. They have no fucking clue. It makes it all the more beautiful, in fact the beauty is inherent in that. It reminds me of this song. I always wanted to be that girl, but wanting to be that girl is impossible because I could not know that I don't know that I'm beautiful. From a face value (hahah, no pun intended) this song is shallow as fuck. And yet... Now I realize, I wrote this song.

We tend to attract and magnify the situations we really do not want in life. The solution is to focus on what you really DO want. (Does this have anything to do with fear or dogs? No. The magic is taking your focus off the subject.) Writing these things down and starting to focus more on them ends up bringing up the most unexpected circumstances. Inspiration is healing and since it's the driving force behind many subjects but not a subject itself, finding inspiration no matter how or on what subject is key to all other subjects.

If you have something you're perpetually neglecting, it helps to make it routine. You have to ease into routine to make it stick though, most often. I find it helpful to schedule an allotted amount of time in the morning or the beginning of the day. 15 minutes is a great chunk of time to start with. Enough to make a difference and allow you to focus on a single task, but such a short amount of time that it doesn't feel like it's a sacrifice to anything else.

Don't just sit there and effort to contemplate, contemplations don't begin and never end. I've had questions I've sincerely asked and forgotten about when I was a child get answered in profound, satisfying, unexpected ways in my 30's. Genuine curiosity is a very aligned quality with Awareness or that which you really Are. In other words, you're already that. Yay! Go you!

Stop efforting to get somewhere better and realize that this is mystical AF. Once you find the swift current of that it takes you unimaginable places without you ever leaving home. Current, a stream of energy, water, etc. Current, right f-ing now.

There's no inside or outside. Sure people have wild out of body experiences, but your vision and your senses already now, ordinarily don't have an inside or outside either. Place your hand on a surface, a table, etc. Is the sensation of two things, my hand the the table? Making the separation of "the watcher" from the thoughts and perceptions helps to untangle some confusion about what's me and what's not me, what's inside and what's outside. This separation of watcher and watched isn't real, but it can help illuminate that there is no separation between me and the world. The separation of the watcher and the thoughts illuminates that the separate "I" is only ever a thought ever changing, ever streaming. You are profoundly special and unique as you are an expression of creation but you never left the Creator or the Creative process to become a separate creation. If a projector projects a movie on the wall with characters and a storyline, they are real in themselves, but reeeally they are only ever made of the same light from the projector. You are the Author and the Light of this movie, shown through the humbling perspective of a colored character on the wall. This is not a disappointing emotionally devoid relaxation. The author loves the characters and IS the character as immediately and fully as the projector projects the light. There is no actual speed of light, it never goes anywhere and it never left. Light is neither wave (movement) nor particle (fixed object) , just as you are neither creation or creator or creating.

Calvin discovers the joys of spiritual bypassing. https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1991/01/29 This sounds like straight up Source though, although the vocal expression might be somewhat unnecessary, I can TOTALLY relate. https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1991/01/30 https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1991/01/31 https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1992/03/18 Most woke comic strip ever. Calvin discovers spiritual ego. (keep scrolling, storyline) https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1992/03/19 Calvin discovers astrology. (keep scrolling, storyline) https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1992/04/13 Calvin discovers the "difference" between nondual synchronicity and Apophenia, BOY that's a subject. (scroll over once) https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1992/07/06

The key here and the overarching issue is the habit of focusing on what you do not want, focusing on flaws or separation. So if you go on the belief or paradigm that you are flawed or injured, this is all you see, all you perpetuate. Healing happens out of well being. If I have a stomach bug and can't sleep because I'm just that miserable, thinking about being nauseous does not allow me to recover, it makes me more nauseous. I end up creating more intensity and suffering than is inherent because of my body's fighting this virus. So I watch TV, crappy TV, any TV, doesn't matter. As long as I get my focus off the nausea, I'm good. If however, I truly need to throw up, ignoring that means I ruin the couch. This is where you bring in wisdom to know when something needs attention and action and when it needs you to switch you focus and interrupt the rumination on it. Go in the direction of feeling good. If you need to express, talk to someone. Journal, cry, swear. Put a metaphorical bucket by the couch. Use it when you need to. But find things in life that feel good. Go for your dreams, cultivate joy. Appreciate people, milk the beauty and love and fun out of life. That's what you came for. If there's something that needs to be released to more fully allow that, going in the direction of feeling good will only speed the process up. There's so much more well being and good in you than bad, allow that to dominate and it will do its work, it is healing, wholeness itself, Give THAT your attention.

@lxlichael Both fascinating and boring combined.

@Shiva99 Actually, you're already doing it. Your heart beats and your blood circulates and you don't have to do anything about it. The sun shines and the earth turns, and trees make oxygen and you don't have to think of it. Meditation is sinking into that sort of allowance of power in a more general, profound way. In a way that completely envelopes and transforms our thoughts and emotions. Our Awareness and being is that love, all the time. You just got this teeny, tiny in the grand scheme of things, thing going on that makes it seem like that's not how things are. When that happens it's like opening too many programs, (too many things) on your computer and getting it bogged down and frozen up. Just turn it off and then back on again. We have practices to do this, for example what I suggested above of making a list of stuff you enjoy, meditation, time in nature, are all ways that help us drop the illusion of separation of our inherent well being, or resistance to it. Whatever seems right and calls to you and helps you connect with that is the way. Remember, love feels like love. You gotta be your own lover, and then the world is your oyster, not just an empty stomach in a garden full of forbidden fruit. Maybe it's not just this one dramatic situation you feel this way about, maybe it's many in subtler ways. Once we start to notice the little ways we do this it becomes almost humorous.

@LastThursday ?

It seems that you're looking to release a sense of lack of love. It doesn't have much to do with her, it has a lot to do with you and she just sure as hell is making it obvious. It's right there, "all because of me." So this is why the woman that you're fixated on being key to this release is also off limits. It's by design. Please don't read in any sort of guilt or shame in that, the intent is to become aware of your own power, your own inherent connection and being as love. Love feels like love, that's what I'm saying. Don't settle for or believe anything less. The whole story around the situation of being handicapped, or cut off, self shaming, is blocking love. Love is not a situation. Tap into the actual sense, connection and feeling of love and your actions and events will align.

Maybe you haven't understood or realized yet what value you would provide to a woman.

Figuring out and avoiding all the hedonic treadmills is a hedonic treadmill. It's based on trying to avoid a let down or disappointment. Thinking avoiding feeling itself is the loop that makes the treadmill seem to be movement and effort.

The communication of it is another experience unto itself. Communication is possible because of what's already shared. Words like tongue or cold or sweet only have meaning because they are assumedly shared. In order to teach or learn from another the other has to collapse into the shared, the prior to separation. There cannot be a believed separation in one who got it and one who hasn't yet for there to be any transfer or transmission. You seek the truth out of your love of it, and love is the only teaching, love is self explanatory.

Check out Abraham Hicks, OMG, completely life changing especially for this topic and all others. Emotions indicate your connection or allowance of the unconditional love that you are. They are a kind of guidance, leading you back to love, to actually feeling, being that love. They are it, made of it. When we misunderstand them and don't listen to the guidance but try to get rid of them themselves we end up stuck in suffering loops.

I'm very, very fond of tonglen, reiki also teaches the same I believe. Some of the steps and practical understanding of how they are done fall away with the experience. This is sort of the magic, the magic of all "practices" I think. Magic in practice is very practical, the actual experience of it is never a practice, in practice. Also very fond of consciously just letting yourself do what you like and dropping the thoughts that say it's a waste of time, or you should be doing something else, or whatever. Sometimes we get mixed up with falling into patterns of doing things we don't actually like, because we believe we do like them (ie what we call addictions, scrolling, etc), and we have sort of cut off the enjoyment or love we get. Trying something new and or intentionally choosing something fun to do just to bring you pleasure helps to clear some of that fog.

Do you really believe that the actual experience of eating an ice cream cone is communicable?

So this is the secret to the universe, the secret to love, enlightenment, meditation and transcending suffering. Everything you want is hidden here, on all subjects. Why me? My GOD, YOU IMPOSSIBLY LUCKY SON OF A BITCH. Why me, he asks? Alright here it is, gloss over it if you want, it'll hit you time and time again. Alright here we go. There is love, the actual only now feeling of love, and there's a thought or idea of love. The thought of love is not love. This is why forbidden relationships suck and also have the immense potential to point this out to us (as well as losing a loved one, but that's another topic). You're in this situation. "I love her!" "I can't love her!" "I'm bad to love, her, evil to love her, I'm stupid to love her." "I must avoid this love, I can't let myself love her, oh damn, I can't, I love her, I'm obsessed with her!" No. No, no, no, no, no, no. You love her. Cool. Love her right now. Does it hurt? That's ain't love. You don't love her. Did you think love hurts? Contrary to all the dramatic song lyrics, love doesn't hurt, that just isn't love, it's suffering. Not sure how we all got that wrong, but we all did for the most part. Love actually feels good. Huh, what a revelation. If it hurts to love her you love her like Voldemort loves Harry Potter. If it feels amazing you love her like JK.Rowling loves Harry Potter. You don't love her. The problem is, you don't love her. You're trying so hard not to love her and you already don't love her. You're allowed to love her, and yourself cause in love there just aren't two, just like there isn't an actual Harry Potter outside of the book. You're starting to realize this, the unconditional, already here profundity of love. There have been a lot of misunderstandings. What do you think the tears are? Where do you think those misunderstandings go? They get released. You're perfect. Everything is going well here, and you are so SO loved. Loving, love ITSELF, here now, endlessly. It's ok.

Ohhhh.... it's love. Not the thought of love, not an idea or ideal of love, it's love. Actual love. Loving. The feeling the experience, love. I've said too much. All out of love. I am forever, eternally too much. Never, ever not enough.

Can't think suffering. Can't feel suffering. It's like a mist, neither water nor air, that obscures our vision.

Wrote this in another thread, been contemplating this since I posted it yesterday. Lucy thinks she is in love with Schrodinger and that he won't look at her unless she shouts or if she annoys him, but in reality she wants his creative focus and inspiration. Pianist envy. Peanuts envy. The other side of this is that Schrodinger really is a fucking jerk narcissist too wrapped up in his own work and passions, but he won't miss Lucy and see the connection he is missing that she wishes to awaken him to until she finds her own inner pianist. I don't know if I'm being fair here, but this thread triggered me. Osho often does. Osho and Sheila were the perfect Schrodinger/Lucy situation. Assertion, bravery and confidence is not masculine. When separated from feeling they cause all kinds of issues in the world, violence. But if you're led by Source, rather than man and man's traditions and expectations, you're gonna stand up and say things that other people don't dare say. It is both total submission and total domination. Parks said, "When that white driver stepped back toward us, when he waved his hand and ordered us up and out of our seats, I felt a determination cover my body like a quilt on a winter night." -https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosa_Parks Only Source knows how to stay.

You need to find your own creative work and pursuits.