mandyjw

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  1. @Leo Gura The devil is literally the angel of light. The Biblical Lucifer successfully embodies the duality of angel and devil him or herself. The snake in the garden of Eden convinced Eve to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and at that time humans set themselves apart from animals. But God planted the tree and he created the snake and he kicked them out of Paradise. Tell me, who is the villain in this story?
  2. People who usually value the type of intelligence that they have more than other kinds. People who have high IQs often look down on the more social butterfly type people and vice versa. It's just another function of the ego.
  3. @jbram2002 I've done that before with an intense feeling of rejection, it was a very memorable experience. It felt like fire.
  4. There is a point where bravely suffering pain becomes self flagellation and the ego tell itself that it is purifying itself because deep down it believes itself unworthy of experiencing pleasure. Wisdom is knowing is where that point is, and we usually don't find it until we self flagellate a little bit. It's all in good fun.
  5. I experienced death/love intensely when my Grandmother died. Love/fear is a dear friend too. Intense love and intense hate are only unbearable if you carry great resistance.
  6. You wouldn't have ever wanted me if you didn't secretly like pain. You just haven't figured out that the counterintuitive truth that embracing pain is far better than running from it.
  7. @jbram2002 Remember that night we had to clear all the stuff out of the house so they could renovate the upstairs? Remember all the fighting in the rain? Demolition and construction can't take place until you take all the shit out.
  8. Thought I was posting in my own journal, sorry.
  9. I listen to them while I make art. Get out some colored pencils or paint and entertain your hands while you listen.
  10. @Shaun Which is more beautiful, black or white? Shit makes the garden grow and sugar causes cavities.
  11. We can never appreciate who others are if we don't know who we are. And they are the only ones who can show us the light.
  12. Life. There's a reason the earth is the perfect distance from the sun.
  13. “Who in the rainbow can draw the line where the violet tint ends and the orange tint begins? Distinctly we see the difference of the colors, but where exactly does the one first blendingly enter into the other? So with sanity and insanity.” ― Herman Melville, Billy Budd, Sailor
  14. @bejapuskas I don't smoke but I get it. The deep breathing, the repetitive motion. Meditation with a substance that will kill you. Putting your current state of peace above your own need to survive. Very enlightening.
  15. My dad had one of those, he really liked it. You can also get a floor meditation cushion if you really care about posture.
  16. Your love for that friend is beautiful, and it's courage. Having the ability to love like that will serve you well in life. I did the same thing with my same sex best friend, I got way too clingy and attached. We stopped talking for an entire year when she got involved with some people who I didn't like. They were the opposite of everything I was trying to do in my life at the time. I tried to make new friends but it was like I cursed from the start because I felt like something was wrong with me because I didn't have friends and I saw it a problem to be fixed. We both had to go our separate paths then. We healed the friendship and it's stronger than ever and she is a huge part of my spiritual journey right now. One thing that helped when i was friendless was just opening myself up to connecting with anyone and everyone around me. I stopped judging them for being less intelligent, a different age or a different place in life. I tried to connect with them in a way in which I was expecting and wanting nothing from them whatsoever. You can do this no matter what country you are in. Master the art of love without expectation and friends will come to you.
  17. It's a hunt for unicorn in the forest. The unicorn doesn't exist but you'll have a damn good adventure and discover a lot about the forest and yourself while you're trying to find the damn thing.
  18. This is sort of like when you type out the same word so many times that it stops having any meaning. Looking at something stunningly beautiful also shuts the mind off. Lots of seemingly positive, negative and neutral things can lead us to a state of no mind.
  19. @bejapuskas Yep. Smoking is a meditative, mindful breathing practice. I had that insight a while ago while I was running, I have a bit of a running addiction and it's because it's an easy way for me to breath mindfully without forgetting. A lot of bad habits are just unconscious ways of trying to be mindful. Getting lost in a TV show lets us have someone elses' experiences and escape our own repetitive thoughts. Nobody is sane, and no one can escape from spirituality.
  20. I think I value collective happiness over personal happiness because this work has taught me that I AM the collective. I don't think I really have to choose. I'm getting much better at being able to be present with my life and not get caught in other people's pain. yet at the same time I try to have the courage to know what to do to help, even if that causes pain for the greater happiness. I was talking with my husband about this last night and I said how you couldn't be a good doctor if you tap into people's pain. You can't be there to do the greater good and help if you are caught in the empathetic suffering. it seems like a good righteous quality, but it's evil. That's the skill I'm working most on right now. I think Abraham Hicks introduced me to this idea in the first place.
  21. @Truth Addict I so appreciate your perspective.
  22. @Inliytened1 What type of things does it tell you to do/think? Examples?
  23. @Shaun Think of duality as a tree, the trunk is One, but it branches out to many at it's roots and branches. Your mother is alive as your mother, but she is also part of you. You came from her. When exactly was the moment that she stopped being her and you started being you? The reason you feel love for her is that connection. You share the breath of life with her, just like you do me or anyone else. We are breathing the same air, made from the same stardust, communicating using the same pool of energy. We are one but we are separate so that we can love each other. I know it doesn't make sense, but can you feel it to be true?
  24. @Inliytened1 It's really nice to hear from another actualized OCD person! Mine didn't disappear, I still have to follow it. I give myself some grace when I don't want to or delay. It almost always leads me to a realization or sign. It's still a pain in the ass sometimes though. @Robi Steel Wow, thank you. I love your signature quote as well. The end of Leo's latest video which I just finished was really encouraging. I have a really big issue with trailing off while speaking, I actually started making videos on youtube to try to fix it. I'll just dump thought spontaneously mid sentence and have since I was a kid. I'm starting to wonder if this isn't actually some sort of power too, my empty-headedness. I still need to learn how to speak through it though. I'm going to try to do as Leo said and progress slowly. I went too far, too fast with meditation. I've got all these books on deep subjects and I'm just overwhelmed. I think our brains are all wired really uniquely and unfortunately that means we can't follow any map.