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Sorry, Merica is the center of the universe.

I love Will Ferrell https://www.dictionary.com/e/slang/muh/

Try pushing the limits of your circles if conversation seems shallow. Sometimes people just get in a funk of having boring conversations because they think that that's what everyone wants when really, everyone is dying inside for someone to say something outrageous.

I can't help it, but how I feel about a teacher has a big impact on me. The more absolute disgust I feel when I first discover them, the more they seem to help me, much later when I'm ready. Of course that's a great example of hate being love turned inward. I feel like a connection/energy from the person is more important than the message. Of course all teachers are just reflections of ourselves, the only difference between teachers and people we don't consider teachers is that we allow ourselves to accept the fact that we don't know what someone else does in order to allow them to teach us. We submit to them and give them a certain authority. But truly everyone we encounter knows something that we don't know.

Jesus was killed for claiming equality with God. It's 2019. We live in a world that is atheistic enough that it's safe to say that. If you have a dualistic view of God it will sound crazy or horrifying. That's what's cool about Leo, he isn't keeping his videos targeted towards some class of people that he perceives as lower than him. Or maybe he is and I'm it.

This is how I see Buddha.

We seem to have syncronicities of ocean metaphors, Captain Ahab. Yeah, I don't really get along with Buddha all the time, Jesus is my man. He was much more accepting of women. So Buddha gets to deal with own shity karma towards women in the form of me. Or I get to deal with it, wash it away with the blood of Christ or the ocean. Whatever.

@ajasatya @Preetom I don't completely disagree, yet... we do create our reality and no one is doomed. I like to focus on transcendence and forgiveness. Some people are deeply affected by small negative events in their lives and others are barely affected by severe trauma. Everything is a flow of energy and we get to choose what energies resonate with us and which to tap in to. My husband's parents live where a violent murder occurred. I can feel the energy sometimes but mostly there's the healing nature from the beautiful energy of nature that surrounds the place. How many people have been killed violently in the ocean? One of my classmates recently died in a lobster fishing accident, the trap line got wrapped around his foot and dragged him down. I think of him sometimes when I swim in the ocean. But the ocean is too massive, too cleansing to hold on to that kind of trauma. The little boy he left will feel and carry that loss, but I hope that someday he finds his father's love for him in the ocean, rather than looking at it as an assassin, a thief of happiness or what could have been. You too can be like the ocean.

@SQAAD That's not true, it's Buddhist dogma. God is perfect grace, love, forgiveness. You choose how affected you are by other people's actions. If you believe you are a victim you will be. If the universe is you and only you, you did all of the best and most worst things anyway. You have to own up to all of that. That is perfect grace and forgiveness and self love right there.

We live in a world where people are blocked from both receiving and giving love in various ways. Love is the energy or source, it is our life force, it is what we are. All suffering comes from disconnection with love, or source energy. Love, when blocked from flowing freely and encompassing everything will come out in opposite ways. Someone who does not receive love from others, or love for self will experience intense suffering and out of love and care for themselves they will try to discharge some of it by seeking out someone to give some of the negative energy they feel towards themselves to. So everyone is acting out of love, but love can be turned inside out, and you can act out of love for yourself without concern of others. You can only do that if you are deceived into believing that there is a self and an other. So getting rid of the illusion of self or other, and understanding your nature as love and how to let that energy flow and be given and received freely, that is the work we are doing here.

@tsuki I watched it when you posted it. I definitely played out times in my life where I was both the doomer and bloomer but my Christian faith gave me a different world view, one in which the world was made with pain, suffering and sin, yet there is an ultimate beautiful purpose for it all. As I got older that understanding deepened and always my highest self was similar to that of the bloomer even if I did forget myself and fall into doomer and boomer stages along the way.

Yes.

No. God's grace is infinite. But it has to be accepted.

No features, no thing. No unique perception, no creation. So sure, I created Leo to teach me all the stuff I couldn't see on my own. You got me.

Religion is a strange loop. I ended up right back at the religion I was born into. I see it now as an infinite rabbit hole. Yeah, Leo is a prophet. Religion is only limiting if you look at it as a stop on the loop and can't see the whole.

@DrewNows I tend to speak more from the heart. Sometimes it doesn't have much to say. Tsuki can definitely help you a lot. There is no proper use of this journal. It's complete chaos.

You think Tsuki can help you with this but I can't. I'm your Mommy and he is your Daddy. Who started this journal? Who gave you life?

@DrewNows Daddy is so smart and capable isn't he?

@DrewNows I only let the people I love see my messy house. I guess that should include everyone.

@Truth Addict I highly suspect that being forced to fast has given you a kind of spiritual maturity that you do not yet fully appreciate about yourself.

So this thing you refer to, it's already God awareness, we already have it. So I get confused because you say, "maybe" and "one day"

@now is foreverI see the tunnel problem. It would be easier to convey in color. I associate the sun with the heart chakra, the sun is love to me. I'm still learning the traditional associations with each chakra.

Who do you love? Yourself? Or the idea of a person who meditates everyday? Is meditation loving yourself? Is having a meditation routine loving yourself? Is having an expectation on yourself that you won't miss a day loving yourself? Only you can answer.

This one looks like a rainbow with the moon over it, but one end never quite reaches earth. Maybe because it's leading us upward, away from earth.

You know how people always say that their life flashes before their eyes when they think they might die? In the process of "dying" to self, you life will flash before your eyes. You can't honor past lives, or no beginning no end if you don't go back and recognize and thank all the teachers of your past who you thought were just fucking your life up. All the time they were really manifestations of God there to awaken you. if you can't go back and make peace with God in all the ways he raised you/loved you and abused you to make you the perfect you that you are today, then you can never love and embody your true self. Because it was you the whole time. Sometimes when your house is really messy and someone is coming over, it's a good idea to shove everything in the closet and under the bed. But inevitably later on if you want to be comfortable in your own home, you'll have to sort all that stuff out and put it in its proper place.