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Stay or leave. Together, to go there. What does Abraham Hicks actually teach? How to TRULY not "have" desires!!! From the Tao Te Ching, 3. Always without desire we must be found, If its deep mystery we would sound; But if desire always within us be, Its outer fringe is all that we shall see. The work is done, but how no one can see; 'Tis this that makes the power not cease to be.

@Nahm Me neither.

In the middle of the riddle one feels little.

In the middle of the riddle one feels little. Why do we ask questions? Who wants to know? I'll meet you in the middle? Meet, meat. John 6:53 So Jesus said to them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in yourselves." "The band's name came from a crayon drawing made after an incident between Linton's younger brothers, Jim and Ed Linton, who fought frequently. Jim usually won, but Ed sought revenge by drawing a picture of Jim shoving the Earth into his mouth; the picture bore the caption "Jimmy eat world" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jimmy_Eat_World

Oooo... Why does there seem to be connection and disconnection? How can there be connection without disconnection? How can there be connection if there is no me? How can there be disconnection unless there are two or more? Why does connection feel good and disconnection feel bad? Why does it seem like when I'm disconnected, I can't connect? Why do I make two out of the one? Who does this serve? Am I the problem or the solution?

The atheist and the believer are one. God and Love are taking it a step too far. Where does the question stop and the answer begin? We're on the same page.

@tsuki It's only fun till you've had e nuf. No one remembers exactly when that was though.

Why is there something rather than nothing? Why is there duality? Why must everything have an opposite? What was (are? I wrote "was" instead of are, era spelled backwards) we doing here, realizing the underlying transcending oneness of duality itself? The nondual and the dual can never be separate. The one is many, it's always many, it can never NOT BE MANY, just as it can never NOT BE ONE. Is this true, or am I bullshitting myself? Did I not choose to bullshit myself, am I not the magician putting on a show and the audience together for the purpose of entertainment? DOCTRINE says it's ONE. It's ONE MOTHER FUCKERS. (doctrine, the doctor's in, and it's been doctored. No illness, no doctor) Why the back and forth? Why the good and bad? Why when I got sick when I was a kid, really sick, all my desires and identifications disappeared and there was suffering. There was studying the patterns on the linoleum of the floor, and existential questioning, a desire for death over suffering. And when it lifted there was a bliss state. Or when I had my wisdom teeth out, 18 hours later, there was a bliss state. Is the bliss state just a "goody" as Preetom says? Is it something more or is that wishful thinking? Is it like the cork shooting back to the surface after it's been held down, far under the surface of the water? The further you hold the cork down, the higher it shoots out of the water from the pressure, it's like loading a gun. Fear is a tricky thing. It's afraid to be wrong. Where does wrong start and right begin? Fear is afraid to venture out for fear that it will suffer because of it. The desire to transcend conditions itself CANNOT come out of fear. It must come out of love. Fear is resistance, cutting itself off. It is afraid of itself, and yet it serves itself. This flip state seems to be the entire purpose of our existence. No fear, no courage. So then, what is the difference between fully accepting conditions and transcending them? Is not fear and depression a beautiful building up to their opposites, and then, where does the fear end and love start? Does not the view from a high cliff on a mountain stun and awe, where fear and beauty merge and are felt fully? Where does depression end and happiness start? Where do they meet in the middle? Do they cancel each other out? So then, how can there be opposites at all if one does not have a beginning or end, if they cancel themselves out in the middle, what is the middle called? What is the opposite of energy? Where does the question stop and the answer begin? So why is there something rather than nothing?

Hilarity and also the deepest form of love is love itself, singing this to itself. Pull away, so you can come closer again. Forget so you can discover and know again.

He also said that I am "projecting the world", creating and consuming it all at once. So if there is no inner and no outer, how can happiness NOT come from my inner resonance and acceptance of outer conditions. The conditions are not suffering themselves, the lack of acceptance of those conditions as aspects of the self is suffering. It's really tricky not to cut off and reject an aspect of one's Self and not to turn some sort of conditionless state into another ideal of the mind. Is there an underlying fear that by embracing something, one will become lost and venture away from the "safety" of some sort of conditionless state?

We're afraid of what we want most of all. How does that even make sense? It doesn't. We're afraid of our own abusive inner critic, thoughts. I came out of the door and looked back into the window in the door at my reflection. Instead of seeing my face I saw a blinding light where my face should be and remembered that I had turned a bright light on and thought this was poetic. Then perfectly on cue within seconds, a huge flock of birds flew right over my head loudly and I looked up into the sky to see the moon over the trees. Imagine image imagin i magic Made in the image of God, imagination of Self. This song was the "devil" when I grew up. I remember being horrified by the lyrics. "Imagine there's no heaven" Imagine all the people Sharing all the world You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will live as one

Suffering and pain are not constant at all if there can be things in between. If those are conditions, so is suffering. You are created in the image (imagination) of God (you). Imagine what you want. Train your brain to only notice and attention to the conditions you want to experience. That's your freedom. The magic of appreciating and fully feeling amazing feelings is that you get more of them. What are you afraid of?

It really sounds like signs of a virus or illness coming on. Also as @OctagonOctopus there are all kinds of different migraines, that can be triggered by different foods and food additives. If the flashing lights don't stop without other symptoms consider seeing an eye doctor.

Learn something new that's difficult for you, that you have zero experience or natural talent in, and use it as a practice of self love and not judging yourself. Also make a list of things you enjoy doing just for fun, and do one everyday.

What about inspiration, passion, gratitude, peace, love, joy, awe, appreciation, connection. Are any of these happiness, are any of them not? There's conscious connection and acceptance with Self, all states that feel good are forms of connection.

Oh. My. God. Kundalini energy much? She's absolutely enchanting.

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One of my negative memories associated with dancing came up. There was this girl in my class who didn't come from a great family. Her mother was a scared timid Sunday school teacher and her father abused her mother. Thankfully she left him since, but I think she got beat up pretty bad. Once I was at her birthday party at this girl's house. For one of the activities we were supposed to dance to the Macarena. It was awkward as fuck. They had this tiny living room and her dad was just sitting slumped in a recliner, super close to us just watching us. I was in the front row in front of him not sure where or what to look at and felt REALLY uncomfortable. So, what does the song really mean? What are those Spanish lines we sort of mumbled? It's really hilarious that the Macarena became such a wildly popular song and dance, for kids. "That’s right, the song is about a girl named Macarena who cheats on her boyfriend with two friends while he’s being drafted into the army. Fun for the whole family? Not quite." https://www.huffpost.com/entry/the-macarena-meaning-crush-90-soul_n_55e738c9e4b0b7a9633b491d "Give your body joy, Macarena Because your body is meant to be given joy and good things Give your body joy, Macarena. Hey Macarena!"

Connections, click, click. I described how I spent a lot of my childhood doing hard physical labor, how my parents work ethic was very tied to their morals and money was supposed to be hard to come by, and men had a much better chance of making it. I was very sensitive to people thinking I was waiting for my husband from a wealthy family to graduate, and very guilty of feeling like this was truly my motivation. My jewelry business didn't seem like it would be a success. It seemed like a silly little girl's fantasy. I wrote myself into a story, of thinking about what other people thought of me. When he graduated, his family had completely cut him off financially, the economy crashed and I had unexpectedly fallen into the rise of a niche market. Money started pouring in. Lots of it. My money. From doing what I loved and dreamed of doing. This song was really popular at the time and I felt it. I remember vividly singing it, driving down the hill from where you can see the entire town, feeling like I was on top of the world. "I look up to the sky And now the world is mine I've known it all my life I made it, I made it! I used to dream about, the life I'm living now I know that there's no doubt. I made it, I made it!" I mean it, I made it, I painted the sky. I dreamed up the sky, the money, all of it, I made it.

Feeling of connection, peace of connection, holding the connection, leads you to insights and physical manifestations of connection. Inspiration, resonance, intrigue, fascination are all signs of being hot on the trail. Feeling is your direction. It's an easter egg hunt, a maze, a connect the dots puzzle like we got when we were little kids. I remember that I wrote "follow your heart" in just about everyone's yearbook. There's no awakening. There's falling in love, into the vortex. There appear to be layers of separation. Clothes are an analogy. 6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves. 8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?” 10 He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.” 11 And he said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?” 12 The man said, “The woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.” 13 Then the Lord God said to the woman, “What is this you have done?” From the Gospel of Thomas, 36. Jesus said, "Do not fret, from morning to evening and from evening to morning, [about your food--what you're going to eat, or about your clothing--] what you are going to wear. [You're much better than the lilies, which neither card nor spin. As for you, when you have no garment, what will you put on? Who might add to your stature? That very one will give you your garment.]" 37. His disciples said, "When will you appear to us, and when will we see you?" Jesus said, "When you strip without being ashamed, and you take your clothes and put them under your feet like little children and trample them, then [you] will see the son of the living one and you will not be afraid."

You/We are the author of this "story" or collection of stories within stories. You play a character, I play a character. We're putting on an act. The author/the collective us/everything/God/Source energy is what's actual. Is this what you expected to learn when you went on your self-actualization journey? Welcome to actualized.org. Enjoy the act, enjoy the creation of your own life experience. Enjoy your knowledge of true connection as the Author with all the other characters, it's much more enjoyable when you're conscious of it. From a higher perspective it's more easily seen that we all want the same thing, to evolve, to connect, to love. When you align with what everyone... what the Author wants, it seems like you have incredible influence over others but whose influence is it really? What is love? Consciousness of connection. Why does it feel amazing to be conscious of connection? Because it's the Truth.

I've been making connections about how Grammie came through to me the night she died, how reiki works, how I have had mystical connection experiences with a couple other people on the forum I've never met in person, how synchronicity works. Connection, connection, connection. What is love? Consciousness of connection. Why does it feel amazing to be conscious of connection? Because it's the Truth.

This morning during meditation I made a connection, that because I'm the author and character, all the other characters in my life are my characters just the same. I suppose I knew this before intellectually but the connection wasn't quite made. Then I had a vision of a quarter or crescent moon, encased in a perfectly round globe. And I "heard" a voice playfully say, "Now I'll give you something pretty, so you'll get off the trail."