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Who can be muddled yet desist In stillness gradually become clear? Who can be serene yet persist In motion gradually come alive? -tao te ching Made a video today out on a hike and instead of following a process, that assumes beginning, middle, end, desired result and therefore possibility of a result that's not desired, I tried to dissect my assumptions that don't feel good about the process. I want the entire process to be enjoyable... to flow. Because my channel is growing, I want it to grow more and I also feel more prone to feeling unworthy and see a tendency to judge the results more. I see now that you can only get what you're up to speed with, feelingwise. It's not about results and talents, and trying to make those judgments destroys the creativity that is the pleasure AND the purpose. Very War of Art by Steven Pressfield realizations coming into play. You only get what you give. There's no delay, you only came for joy. It hit me how ridiculous I thought woo woo spiritual stuff was in the past, and how our of fear and avoidant it was. And I have in my head the assumption that other people see what I see now as just as ridiculous, which creates another cycle of fear and avoidance. And it hit me how in a time of fear, the clarity is so strong that you're on the right path and having the guts to say the things you really want to say, to create what you REALLY want to create is all you ever came to do anyway. The magic I felt from nature, the passion I felt for life and the idea of judgmental God (my own creation of judgement) were so at odds, all in my own psyche. Live your life like there's no catholic nun standing over your shoulder.

And yet another subscriber with the name Herman. her man, her meaning (army) man meaning man Herman Melville Hermione heroine heroin or heroine?

silence si lens soma- body psychosomatic - all connotations of this word as negative are "false", by choice, illusion. Intention is everything. Oneness is the actuality.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Selective_mutism You have brought me To that moment where words run dry To that moment where speech disappears into silence Silence I have come here Hardly knowing the reason why

Listening to the Kybalion when I work, after it was suggested by two different people in a short time and the word Hermit, Hermes, Hermetic and variations keep coming up. Last you tube subscriber had Hermet in the name, my sister sent me this message yesterday. I used to have a blog with the word hermit in it. "It’s still a rollercoaster for me, but it feels a little less intense; last week I was a little weepy; this week I’m embracing her mutism." then she corrected herself, "Hermitism" I've spent my entire life trying to convince myself to not worry about germs, not to think about them, obsess over them and to get over social anxiety, the need to distance myself from people and just get out and do things in the world. The current restrictions on life feel very strange, yet super natural to me right now. (Did you just right super natural? Did you just write the word right instead of write? What is happening here???) edit/tide Also reading Ask and it is Given, (I'm not sure what collection I bought on kindle but it's confusing to know what book I'm reading out of it, so I wanted the physical copy, especially so I can loan it out after.) Flirting with my Kriya yoga book, which has sat and gathered dust for a year. Waiting for intuition to arrive on that. I adore these cards. The more I read them the less they have to do with money. https://www.amazon.com/Money-Law-Attraction-Cards-60-Card/dp/1401923399/ref=sr_1_3?dchild=1&keywords=abraham+hicks+money&qid=1585394111&sr=8-3

I've been exhausted lately. Weeks ago before I got sick, I had a strange sensation in the back of my head above my neck that felt so familiar. Yet impossible to place or remember a why behind it. This morning during meditation I had a similar sensation that overtook my body and it felt like it was free different from the almost numb losing the body, losing direction of the body feelings I've tapped into before. The body scan I first read about here seems to bring about more integrated, loss/full connection feelings.

No...God works in mysterious ways, remember? https://www.amazon.com/Mountain-Unicorn-Castle-T-Shirt-Purple/dp/B0037TPECK/ref=sr_1_8?crid=11024JFDALWD2&dchild=1&keywords=unicorn+t+shirts+for+men&qid=1584204274&sprefix=unicorn+t+shirt%2Caps%2C200&sr=8-8

@SOUL I was GOING to make my own soup, really I was, but I don't have the same hat that he wears in the video, so it's just not possible for me right now.

It had better be lavender.

I love you but your salesmanship could use some work. Would you say this to someone? "Your current method of identifying yourself is unsatisfying, so you need to dislike yourself more and feel more dissatisfaction that you haven't been worthy enough of this event that will make your life satisfying." I realize that's not what you're saying, but I suspect that that's sort of how it mistakenly feels to people. All there is is satisfaction, now, either you're conscious of it or you aren't. Whatever events or awakenings that occur from feeling that satisfaction and moving in the direction of it, all bets are off. Dissatisfaction is the indicator of trying to control what cannot be. Joy and love are without control or controller. The importance of the way Leo teaches, with sharp retorts is to make sure that people don't fall into the trap of convincing themselves that they are satisfied when they are not. It's being honest enough with yourself to feel your way to satisfaction, and not trying to convince yourself into believing it. Yes, for sure. I was commenting on the recognition/reactions of Leo's opinions of people's levels of consciousness with the video though. He made a video teaching others to make their own "soup" but we're still willing to bend over backwards not realizing that it's way more work than just making our own soup. How you feel is the only thing that matters.

The EYE of the storm.

Leo even made a video telling us how to make our own soup and yet...

@remember Still love your avatar by the way. Good to remember.

There's only one person who ever mentally masturbates, because what other people are thinking is a concept or thought in your own head. So if you see other people who are doing it, guess who actually is? Not them.

Have you taken the time to really think about what you want from a relationship? Sometimes when we don't take the time to make intentions and discover what our preferences are, we spend all our time focusing on the parts of life that we're missing out on or frustrated by. We take opportunities as they come, complain about things as we see things we don't want and feel tossed about by life. All of this happens because we weren't bold enough to define for ourselves what we want. Because we don't do that we also don't appreciate the things we want and love that we already have. We've trained our brains to look for problems. It's also possible that you feel restricted and limited in a much more general sense right now by the pandemic, which we can't control, so we can try to zoom in on a part of life we can control and convince ourselves that it's more responsible for how we feel than it actually is. Sitting with, examining and getting curious about the feeling itself is really important. The key for women especially in a long term relationship is to always make your pleasure (not sexual pleasure but not excluding it) come first. Have things you're interested in, excited about, curious about, have goals and dreams that light you up. Write them down, big and small. Then the relationship stuff just happens and unfolds naturally, it's fun and spontaneous because that's your true nature and you're fully allowing and living that true nature. Otherwise expectations of having someone else being responsible for our happiness and fulfillment creep in and ruin our happiness, and we mistakenly blame the other person.

@Preety_India You? Me? God? No one? Seeking credibility in authority kind of defeats the purpose of spirituality and integrating the two, doesn't it? If something doesn't resonate skip over it. The further you go sometimes the stranger the analogies, symbolism and language gets. Every statement is a half truth, so if you react against it as false it's helpful to take a step back and ask ourselves what in us brought about a reaction. The entire purpose of an insight is to both feel and know at the same time, it's where knowledge and love and being come together. If we spend our time just looking for stuff that doesn't fit into what we already know or are willing to consider as valid, we don't get new insights.

The feminine/masculine labels stuck on these two approaches mean very little, but help to explain and separate two approaches. Masculine says "I am God, I seek truth". Feminine says I am creation, I seek love. Yet there is no Truth without Love. And there is no Love without Truth. Like in the story of Narcissus, masculine is Narcissus, Feminine is echo. There is neither narcissist nor empath, male or female, each is only embodying part of the whole, creating the other as a pointer to wholeness.

As weird as it sounds I've come across descriptions of the same kind of thing. Basically even spiritual energies are regarded/recognized/worshiped as dualities... because people and the mind create dualities, that's just what we do. It's easiest to think of it in this example, the Christian church recognizes one, wicca and witchcraft recognizes another. They even imply gender, the Heavenly Father and the Goddess. Each deny the Oneness or divinity of the other. Because of the imbalance, severe imbalance can manifest as intense charisma, such as in the case of Hitler with severe consequences. And having grown up in Christianity, I've seen the same smaller scale effect in many pastors and leaders. Outside of religion, with people who recognize oneness and nonduality, the same imbalances can manifest.

Maybe the ox is a strangeloop. What happens if the guy in the last picture forgets and starts searching, AGAIN??? Hold on, that's NOT WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR!

@DrewNows I had that feeling after awakening, that everyone had already known and that I was the only one who hadn't gotten it. As a kid I was closed minded and skeptical AF. It's kind of a strange turn that my life has taken. My best friend is very into optimal pet diets and has been for years. She has raw fed cats now. I'll keep a close eye on Moo as he gets older. Glad you liked the video. I feel like I have two flow states, one is inspired and high energy and the other is calm and peaceful. Sometimes I still second guess the high energy one for videos. I accidentally slept in a half hour today and just fit in my meditation session. I've been overeating and wanting to sleep a lot more, dealing with back pain and sciatica a lot. When I feel like this I have lots of dreams but normal dreams. I've only lately been trying to glean lessons from them, based on mostly on how I felt about them and symbolism. Last night I dreamed a bunch of strange random scenarios, that were all annoying AF. I was recording things for someone who was doing the business venture I thought was absolutely inane. I was putting my hair into a hair style with shaved sides of my head, just because that was the style and I realized that I hadn't even managed to shave my hair quite right. There was this boy who was the nonexistent son of my mom's college friend and he was really fun and having a great time and going out of his way encouraging me to do things, but I did everything half halfheartedly. I tried to climb a tree and couldn't figure out what the point was or how to do it. I realized the theme was that I was just going along with other people's plans and the flow of life, dissatisfied with everything, and judging everything. If I had taken the time to identify what inspired me and made intentions to do that I would have been much more satisfied. It occurs to me that we judge other people and situations because we feel powerless and are avoiding focusing on our own dreams and taking responsibility for our own fulfillment.

Isn't there a duality that has to collapse between reaching/striving/searching for more and enjoying the eternal present? What you want most is to be totally fulfilled on the journey to get somewhere you are excited about going. Love is alive, it is ever changing and ever unchanged. Evolution is love, the grand purpose of survival is love/evolution. love spelled backwards is evol for a reason. The teachers that seem to imply that there's a "done" are trying to get you to balance one side of that paradox or duality more than the other. Most people unconsciously assume and strive for an end point of fulfillment in life. Spiritual teachers try to get rid of that illusion. When you turn that into a new belief, that there is nothing to strive for at all, you get relief at first and then suffer again because you came here to evolve, as love itself, which is always alive. If you go back and really study what Eckhart Tolle or other teachers say, you might find that your own assumptions and projections colored the words more than you realized at the time. If a tree falls in the woods and no one hears it does it make a sound? No. If a spiritual teacher teaches something and you don't hear it, was anything taught? No.

Should you surgically embed a smart phone in your head or become conscious that your mind was always connected before computers were "invented". I mean I don't know which way evolution is going to go, but I'm assuming that spirituality is supposed to show us that the smart phones were just training wheels.

co vid vid is a Sanskrit root meaning "know". It formed the basis for video in Ancient Greek and later Latin. To the East it formed the basis for avidya. In all cases the personal vid meant "knowledge". The Latin root words vis and its variant vid both mean “see.” These Latin roots are the word origin of a good number of English vocabulary words, including visual, invisible, provide, and evidence. God is taking his peer amids seriously.