mandyjw

It hurts your sleep quality in high doses or taken before bed. If you want lucid dreams taking it before bed might be good, but not for good restful sleep. I like reading those free downloadable classic books. Novels that are somewhat tough going are perfect. Fiction puts you into dreamland but not if it's too enthralling. Then you can tell everyone you've read all these classic books, even though you're really just lazy and were just reading them when you were half awake. I read Moby Dick that way and at the end I was like "oh fuck, this was really about enlightenment the whole time! Who knew?"

Oh. My. God. Reality show star President does not disappoint.

So you are feeling itself, but we experience specific feelings. When we feel something that doesn't feel good, we can either, A. Go straight to the source of feeling itself and just FEEL (that's why meditation and meditative forms of living are so effective) B. we can examine what thoughts we are thinking, and what beliefs (patterns of thought) are in place. Both those options disidentify from being the one who is sad, or the one who is happy. One utilizes thought and gets very curious about itself and one drops thought. There is a process of flipping back and forth and "knowing" (really feeling,) which to do when. You get better and better at it, but still you're only ever just feeling which you were always "doing" (spoiler alert, you're not doing it) all along.

@VincentArogya Go deeper, the feeling isn't an end product. You don't have love but you are an open door to love. When I use the word feeling, we think of a product of some kind, we think of the word feeling as a noun, a category of which there are several types, love, boredom, sadness, etc. But you are always feeling, as in the verb. That never changes. There is no difference between what you are and feeling, (this is what is meant by the pointer "you are Love") so we don't even need to distinguish between nouns and verbs anymore. The illusion is that we can ever close the door of feeling. The door is made of Love/Feeling itself, it cannot truly be closed. This is where the pursuit of Truth comes in and becomes one and the same with the pursuit of Love. In the same way memory works, you do not have memories but you are an open door or pathway to memory. Each is created anew, even when it seems we remember the same event or person thing, etc. I can remember my dead Grandmother and how amazing she was and feel amazing or I can remember that she is dead and gone. I can do the same with my awakening. There's a big difference in how those two memories feel. So if I pay attention to how I feel I can align with feeling by paying attention to what thoughts feel good and which do not. By using feeling as a gauge I align and "remember" that the door is always open.

What was different at its core about the awakening compared with now, rather than how you felt? You're chasing for a feeling, but you are feeling all along. Nobody wants anything at all, they want it because of the way it makes them feel. But they are feeling, all along. So we chase for love, but then there again, we only want love because of the way it makes us feel. Don't worry about gauging anything, just pay attention to how you feel. Or better yet, just feel.

@VincentArogya Why is higher consciousness preferable to egoic mode? Why is present preferable to not being present? Why is being without judgement preferable to judging? What do all those things at their root have in common that you want?

What happens when you drive the car to the supermarket? You just sit there in your car, or you gonna walk in the store?

VEGGIES! Any of em'. Pick your favorites and branch out later. This is my favorite kind of rice. Doesn't give me any energy crashes like white rice but I like it a lot better than brown rice for taste. https://www.amazon.com/Lundberg-Family-Farms-Blend-Ounce/dp/B000G82L62

@VincentArogya No, but what things that are not tangible are you seeking?

Why are you doing consciousness work? What do you seek to get from it?

@zeroISinfinity Exorcism. If you have 19 demons you're more likely to deny that demons exist than if you have just 3. But demons don't exist, because individuals don't exist but they also do, so it's kinda hard to explain, so yeah.

In my experience yes, the moon cycle definitely effects my body and mood. Women have always been more historically in tune to this for obvious reasons. What's true for you?

Well, he could be the other extreme and be buying pieces of toast of eBay and worshipping them cause virgin Mary appeared in them. I think that sometimes extremes have to be explored so we can affirm to ourselves that they aren't "it" and we aren't to be found in them.

Attraction changes when you realize that it has no cause and happens to no one. It turns into something more like resonance. At first it seems like attraction is absent, but it's experienced differently and can still be experienced in some pretty wild ways. This applies to more than just the area of romantic relationships. It's really about changing how desire is experienced. When we start out with spirituality we often go down the "desire is the root of suffering" path, but it's not as simple as we'd like to make it out, we can't avoid suffering but avoiding desire. You'll only know if you're desire-less or resisting desire by how it feels, and that's always changing.

A diet too low in carbs usually means too low in fiber. Add in more veggies slowly but progressively. Carbs help you sleep better, that's why too many make you tired. Carbs later in the day are better than earlier in the day. Carbs and cardio exercise will make you sleep amazingly well. If you're just doing weight lifting and eating protein, which is what I'm assuming from your post, it would make sense that that balance would be off and affect your sleep quality. Dairy may be the culprit for the skin issues. And the digestion issues.

Cool, but what's next?

Compassion can be a healing acceptance of suffering or it can be a projection of suffering on another. A doctor can't slice through human flesh to remove a tumor and save a life while feeling the pain of the action he is inflicting on another as if it were happening to himself. Separation and connection seem to be opposites but are not in conflict. Sometimes our own squeamishness and projections take the guise of compassion and pretend to be doing good when they are actually an avoidance of pain, and the tumor lives happily ever after but no one else gets to. We sometimes project our own pain onto others and call it compassion.

That sounds horrible. Kind of reminds me of when I was a teenager and CDs were expensive and I convinced myself that I had discovered ALL the good music ever made, had listened to it so long I was sick of it and would never find any new music I really loved ever again.

I love this so much. It is equally a HUGE relief, absolutely healing, forgiving, etc, and also... terrifying.

Connection with the body. Same thing yoga, meditation and running do. Your body is your subconcious. Not really, but that's a good pointer.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWN2FPlvg9r-LnUyepH9IaQ@Preety_India This is my favorite yoga channel, often makes me cry in a good way for no reason.

Keep working on it. Less fiber, more cheese. I'm neo-advaitan now, so it's not.

Ah, continuing to morph into your profile pic. Good to see you posting here again!

Going for a walk or a run outside in daylight really helps your biorhythms and improves sleep. Also take vitamin D, in the "morning" or soon after you wake up only. Look up tips for jet lag to get back on schedule, you're essentially doing the same thing. Sorry about your friend, that's a really rough and jolting thing to have to go through.

The weeding isn't done objectively, it's done in consciousness through a kind of focus excluding nothing, law of attraction style. The ugly is illusory, the beauty is just what remains. Survival apparently echoes or follows that kind of selection in a heartless way, but those survival tactics are as non real as your belief in Mars or Antarctica. There's no subject or object.