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  1. Thank you for answering and providing clarity, it is very helpful.
  2. How is this true acceptance aligning with love? Wouldn't leaving be resistance?
  3. What is depression without the thought of depression? When you have am emotion go into the vibrational energy in the chest area and feel what it is. Exactly If you can do it, great! It's stronger in the moment for me.
  4. If you dont know that answer to "what is love?", then feel into emotions to realize that love is you. This is my point. How can you tell what love is without knowing? The trick is to realize that emotions are love, which is you, expressing itself. Edit: and I'm not saying you're an emotion. Emotions are just the expression. You are Love, which is all there is.
  5. I hear that, I was out of touch on how to actually do this too. Try to imagine a time in your life that makes you depressed or happy. Literally feel this in your chest, then ask "what is this emotion I'm feeling?". Try to feel that depression and happiness are the same feeling without thought attachment. That's the real you, love. Memories dont work for me really, I had to wait for the moment to come while also noticing that that moment was a chance for the question. You may have to as well! Also, for negative reactions (anger, annoyance, etc.) Notice the pressure in the head. Be mindful and you'll notice.
  6. This worked for me: The next time you are hit with a feeling within the chest (anxiety, a wave of depression, joy) "feel" into that emotion. Feel that it is a vibration with no interpretation to it. Your mind interprets these vibration feelings that are Love and interprets them into an expression. Depression is love wanting to express itself. Feel that these vibrations are the exact same as Love. Negative emotions can only originate from thoughts. Feel the immediate resistance in your head everytime you experience a negative emotion (anger, annoyance). You are Love. An expression of love. Look around and see at the very root of everything in your direct experience is there because of Love, an expression of Love. So for me it was a wave a depression. When I felt it I asked "what is depression?", closed my eyes, and felt the feeling for my answer. It was Love.
  7. The main problem with my practices is anticipation when there should just be an openness. I've moved past anticipating an awakening and have come to meditate just to meditate. Sit in silence just to do it and practice it. However when I sit in silence I pay attention to sounds, but when there's no sound it's like I'm waiting for the next sound to come. No thought with it telling me I'm anticipating but I feel the body bracing, just waiting for the next happening.
  8. You need the body to experience yourself as yourself. Which is Love. I don't know enough to explain in detail the second part.
  9. As I was holding my son, i took a look around my room and realized everything here is because of love. I am love, my being is love. Whatever my emotion, it is love. My mood, whatever it is, expresses love. It's all about the knowing that, whatever the feeling, it still stems from love. Everyone just wants love, remember, whatever you do is because of love, because you are love. Whatever you do, it's all love. Feel into the emotion and realize it's love. Is every sense for the experience of love? Yes. Thought? Yes, thought just wants to love, but it has trouble. Dont look at differences as good and bad, but look at how love is expressed in all differences. Feel into feeling, feel that it really is just love at a certain degree. People get depressed because they want to love, not realizing that deep depression is literally love, wanting to express itself. Simply put, the way to no suffering is to learn how to love everything. Pain, physical and mental, feel the love within that feeling. Allow all experience. See that it is love and allow it to be expressed. You are the love itself, that emotion energy. You are here to see love, yourself. Nothing else is real about you other than the fact you can feel yourself within this body as any degree of love. I am love, experiencing myself through this body to see myself expressed in life. I am not my sense but my senses are the only way I know I exist. Thought interprets based on the degree of love. Either create your experience or learn to love it.
  10. I work at an assembly line factory setting where I have a lot of time to just keep my hands in motion and not really think. I've used this time thr past few months to shut up my monkey mind and simply focus on breathing/binge listen to leo and other nonduality videos. I'm wondering though, is focusing on breathing the best practice for work? My main goal here is realizing nonduality through even a glimpse What would you recommend? Maybe mindfulness of every movement, or just directly focusing on the task (which isn't necessary to do job correctly and well)? I also do a lot of Leo's enlightenment practices during work hours too, though that's obviously harder in a fast paced in motion environment.
  11. Thank you all for answering this. That is me. Would doing nothing be the way to merge?
  12. Through meditation and exploring feelings it has been found that from the heart center there is a positive feeling. It seems to have been there for a while, only just really discovered recently. It is subtle when attention isn't on it, but when attention is, it can be tapped into anywhere and is very positive and holds a not too high but still noticable vibration. It isn't happiness, I'm not sure if it's joy. Peace is supposed to be stillness? I still suffer, though less and less along this path, and much less once tapped in to the heart center. I have never had a nondual experience, only glimpses but still within experience. What is this positive feeling?
  13. I was alone in the lounge room at work contemplating what my direct experience was showing me. So here's what my direct experience showed me: Corners and edges of tables, and the edges of this makeshift social distancing wall all had a luminous radiance of them, which was sourcing itself. It was a very white light, very radiant but not blinding bright. It looked as if it should have been a blinding light, but it was perfectly visible. The rest of my visionary field was all still the same with lighter color. Note: only corners and edges of objects had this obvious luminosity to it. The rest was all the same or too subtle to say for sure. The whole field also had everything where it was, except any movement with eyes brought about whatever object I would be looking at to vibrate away from itself before instantly coming back to being an object. I noticed this the other day as well with my hand while I contemplate. I look until I lose thought and then once I move my eyes even slightly the object vibrates back into itself. It was still some sort of an experience of duality. Can someone help me understand this experience better?
  14. Anyone got any good excercises for realizing life is just a dream state while sober? I've done the enlightenment excercises, but those dont lead to life being a dream.