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I died reading this hahah But I don't feel like I'm missing out on girls and my time is running out with them. What is happening actually is that I just have this huge desire to dive into pickup. It's desire vs. a fear of missing out. And honestly bruh I'm sure the 35-40 year old vegan chicks are cool but I'm into the innocent 20 to 22 year old college girls lmao I guess I'm the opposite in that sense. Plus how am I gonna even date a 35 year old chick at this age anyways hahaha that'd be cool tho for the experience.

@Yarco I never even thought of combining courses and music .. thats a sick idea. I lack experience in music but I can definitely pursue it and teach whatever I learn in the future. But honestly I don't know if I have the capacity to work more than 40 hours per week. I tried 50 before but that wasn't sustainable. Then again if I move out and get a job, I'll have to do 60 hours per week doing a job and business to pay the bills and stuff. It's just so overwhelming the options to choose. I also think I'll have to postpone my life purpose a bit. @Jacob Morres I like this question a lot! What makes me happiest would be pursuing a music career. But honestly I don't know if that would be the wise decision though. I can't just keep living at home. Music won't make me money for atleast 3-5 years given how much I suck at it right now. So if I move out and get a job, maybe I can do music on the side. But even then it would take so long to break out of wage slavery with music that I may just have to do job and the business I am good at right now .. sigh Yeah honestly I feel that too .. that's pretty much my life right now. Work on my business, and relax recharge on the weekends. But I feel that kind of life (atleast at this point) misses adventure and girls haha But in your situation you don't seem to have that urge to travel and pick up girls and all that right now, which I think is honestly a good thing, because you can just drill down and focus on your business. I honestly can't contain my desire to travel and pick up girls right now lol which makes this whole thing even more complicated. God I wish life was less complicated sometimes lmao Especially being in personal development theres soooo much to work on, so many desires and goals. It's hard to give one thing all of the focus. But as I'm writing this, I'm realizing how important focus on one goal really is.

@Average Investor Really interesting man. Your situation surprisingly has a lot of similarities to mine. For me also I have a pretty good set up here at home, but I realized that's what is stopping me from moving out lol so I guess even I don't know what to do in that situation. But from what it sounds like, you're earning good income. If I was in that boat, I'd feel a lot more relieved, and living at home wouldn't feel like such a problem. You figured out the formula. You're out of the desert (financially speaking lol). Yeah I understand what you mean by the fast mentality limiting me. I'm just trying to say that it's possible to have results fast, it's also likely, it's what motivates me, but also I'm having realistic expectations that this can take 2-3 years even to really breakthrough. So this point is interesting. I definitely know I can, whether it is 6 months or 1 year. Plan is solid. I'm motivated. I'm disciplined. Product and marketing is being refined daily. But I've had a long string of failures these past 1.5 years and that made me lose some confidence. So that's putting doubt into my head about my capabilities. I also feel limited at home in terms of creativity, confidence, and my ability to execute. And even though everything is great at home, I have this urge to just get out and live life like now. I feel too stuck at home. I don't know if I should give into that feeling now by getting a job, or be more patient, stay at home longer and finish building the business.

If you want more info on this, check this article out: https://www.insidehook.com/article/new-york/field-trip-psychedlic-therapy-clinic It's a pretty interesting read. But here's the problem .. This clinic only has Ketamine right now because that is the only legal one in USA I believe. It is working on getting other psychedelics in the future. I've seen many posts from you guys and @Leo Gura on how you don't recommend Ketamine for various reasons: danger factors, dissociativeness, etc. But from reading this article, it seems like if you're in a controlled environment supervised by experienced psychologists, etc. this can be incredibly safe, as they put it. So in that case, would you recommend going there? @Leo Gura Would love to hear your thoughts as well.

@erik8lrl Oh I thought Ketamine was the only legal one in USA. That's awesome, I'll definitely look into this

@Lazertazer I'd like to dig into that and the probs I heard about that but not sure if it's okay to discuss that here lol but point considered fam

@Leo Gura I guess I have a lot more research to do hahaha .. my guess is new york is where it's at then. It's hard living in a bumblef*** town (though that's not an excuse)

@Pookie Yes, I can see how a big desire can get them actually. Good point. I guess the fear of doing it makes the desire for search for it less, even though the desire is somewhat high. But when I saw that it's easily available in my area, legally, a train ride away, under supervision, a lot of the fear is removed. I think I have to find a community of experienced psychonautic friends maybe for learning, support, etc.

@Leo Gura That could be a good idea too. I was only considering micro-dosing or low dose level type thing anyways. I'm pretty new to psychedelics. I would like to do those, but the problem is that on the east coast LSD, shrooms and DMT is highly unavailable. It's different on the west coast I heard. Or Austin.

@Leo Gura Ok yeah if it really does cause damage to the kidneys, I don't think it's worth going that route. Guess the search for the feasible route continues ..

@Rodrigo PF I did hear parts of it were weird so I guess that makes sense

@Leo Gura Hey Leo, when is the video on Pickup coming out? I'd like to further add that I've been reading everything you have to say about it, and I'd love to request you to make it sooner. Just like me, I think a lot of guys have this as a high priority on their list. It's weird but much of my lens of reality is colored from an intense desire to have a lot of success with women. Even the money we want to earn in business, has a core underlying motivation of wanting success with women. I know you have a lot of experience from your late 20's in this, RSD forums are all dead across the board, and Covid doesn't make things any easier. You might not realize how hard that makes it to come up with a responsible strategy (during Covid) for actualizing this goal. Just as recommendations, I'd like to add some things you could possibly touch on: 1) the most efficient and effective 80/20 strategies for success in this area 2) high conscious techniques 3) the best resources, not just PUA, but overall for becoming the highest quality man in terms of confidence, etc. 4) Big picture view of what results we could expect, etc. I also understand the value of your really deep teachings, but as you know many of us are struggling to get our basic needs met haha .. Every week I really look forward to your videos and they have been super life changing, but every week I'm hoping there is something super practical, survival need based video that is at the first 3 to 4 stages on Maslow's Hierarchy. So in general I'd request a shift towards a balance towards more survival needs videos. I think I speak for many others, just through reading much of the responses here on actualized.org over the years. Then again, you do you. Your videos are pushing us towards the deepest levels of consciousness. I wouldn't know what is possible if it weren't for you and your book list.