PurpleTree

it can be horrible and frustrating and it can be beautiful and blissful but the hope is that the beauty wins

well because you keep saying in big letters that "you" get it but call most people immature and spiritually "retarded" basically ? ok i will, thanks

who's goal is to orgasm as fast as possible though? isn't it about delay it and maximising pleasure

spiritual ego much

maybe it's also closer to 4, 5 yrs, who knows also it was mostly japanese porn, which is weird

i used to watch porn but then just stopped after a "mystical" experience like two yrs ago or more might still watch some of those "streaming" women though, not too often

Was just never really able to deal with that. Even the idea of people not liking me. Obviously self love is very important here and i feel i do have a big love for Self and the universe. I can go alone to another city walk around all day, go to the stores, order a chai latte, make eye contact to people, maybe create some kind of attraction sometimes, go to a lake alone, grab some food, even if there are many other people whom i don't know and read and swim there all while feeling generally a kind of self love and feel connected to the universe blah blah Maybe sometimes i see some attractive women which i'd like to talk to but then don't have the confidence which creates some inner tensions or creates a feeling of loneliness but generally feel decent/good self loving But if i'm somewhere and there are people some of them i know could be at a party or whatever, maybe a few of them like me but one of them is giving the cold shoulder or acting cold or whatever. That usually sends the Tree into a downwards spiral. Just gives the Tree a horrible feeling. Even a non friendly stare or face by a stranger could be too much. Now obviously i know that's very childish, not everybody can love me all the time and it just makes the Tree needy for love and validation. The Tree knows that he's giving all his power and freedom away if he's getting triggered by someone not being so fond of him or even the thought of someone not liking him but how to deal with those triggers? The Tree's tried many things, and self love is there but just very unstable and easily destroyed.

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nah i don't really see the point

there was an "outcry" in the uk because of many polish etc. immigrants and whatever

i already have issues with sleep and fatigue and after a month fatigue seemed to get worse what was interesting though is that, normally i get anxiety from uppers like adderall or whatever but on the carnivore diet i didn't get anxiety. i was also having some exams during that carnivore month i've also tried the keto diet and also after about a month started to feel worse

what kind of transmissions?

i guess Leo worked long on that video so it's a bit sad but maybe it's for the better who knows

it will certainly help with obesity etc. as you generally eat much less calories. but it could have a whole host of other issues that we don't know yet, like causing cancer or whatever. i've tried the carnivore diet as an experiment for a month, i found i was generally more relaxed, like less anxieties, less stomach issues etc. but after a month started feeling bad.

i also often have to stop myself from talking about too "dark" or "deep" subjects. like for example a few weeks ago i met a woman, then we went to a club and drank. and somehow we or i started talking about stuff like childhood and anxieties and spirituality. and the woman didn't seem opposed she was also interested in psychedelics or whatever and a social worker. but then it can become too serious or like some sort of therapy session. i'll also often like to talk about things like death with people, even if i don't know them well also with guys or whatever. and i think it can be interesting because many people never think or talk about these things. but it can also become like a party pooper vibe.

it's certainly difficult to tell what's what sometimes and try to untangle it. we are the same. this must be that famous solipsism that the forum is talking about ?

i don't try to interfere, i don't go on the street to protest billionaires or whatever. all i'm saying is if i had the power. also in a way it's hypocritical because i still use google sometimes( although try to move to brave), i have an iphone etc., sometimes order something from amazon(although only if i don't find it anywhere else) but let's say if you saw a woman getting stoned to death for blasphemy or whatever and you walked by and had the power to stop it, would you not because "everybody deserves what he has"?

don't know. i think i care. maybe empathy and also i'm sensitive. can also lash out if feel been "wronged" or whatever also feel i can read people good if i look at them, know anxiety very well etc. can easily detect it i guess. but maybe i'm projecting sometimes.

sure buddy, i think it's pretty sick if people have a 100 billion while others are struggling so much, single mothers working two jobs etc. kids on the street becoming a criminal and the cycle continues. but maybe that's just me

if i had the power, i'd probably cap people from having over a billion before all people's fundamental needs are met. wouldn't want to have billionaires if people are living on the street, in poverty, hunger, bad infrastructure, no health care etc. it's fine you can still have 999 millions though, this is enough for many, many generations anyway

i don't think it will happen these people have too much to "lose" Also this is a bad example imo because Canada or Mexico don't want Russian bases. The Ukraine clearly wants to be in NATO. If you said Venezuela or Cuba, well maybe. And there are already NATO troops very close to ST. Petersburg even without the Ukraine joining.

thought maybe one of the health people on this forum has an idea i'm low on zinc in blood tests zinc would help my skin and also gives me a little bit of energy but whenever i take it i sleep really bad seems like i can't get into deep sleep, rem sleep, don't dream and just toss and turn i wanted to take zinc before starting the dmsa chelation took 30mg of zinc gluconate yesterday at midday, but it also happened on lower or higher doses also doesn't seem to make a lot of difference at what time of the day i take it imo seems like i'm not the only one but there's never a good explanation, some say it has an effect on testosterone https://www.reddit.com/r/Supplements/comments/bg0ind/how_does_zinc_cause_insomnia/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Supplements/comments/joiv4b/zinc_supplementation_causing_insomnia/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/63bo33/zinc_supplementation_causes_intense_insomnia_for/

relax don't act to cool for clubs i also go (or did pre-covid) to those gutter parties, fun times, i miss forest parties (they're great and i'm a tree and all) weed is the worst

ayee nobody gets raped on my watch when you go to a place like a club or whatever, do you also map all the dangers in the territory, like looking where the exits are, which people look suspicious etc.?

nope i was robbed one time at a club somebody i know came and said someone put something in his friends drink, she was totally out of it couldn't really walk, so i drove her home glad you escaped, see we're street smarts