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@LordFall for sure! I´m a young dude myself that still has a lot to experience when it comes to having external relationships with the feminine - I´m in one right now. it´s super important that you are honest with what you want. If you want a lot of sex and feminine companionship, you should go for it. Just remember, the feminine outside can´t complete you. Of course, it can handle some of your needs but the healing will be found inside. When this full integration has been actualized you can then go on and celebrate that love and union with feminine on the outside. what I meant with the purple analogy is that from what I understand you feel like you´ve come a long way and tried to integrate the feminine but still haven´t done it completely and all you want is your ex-girl and the femininity to feel completely whole. Notice how you experience that there is " You" trying to integrate it, instead of you just being it. The feminine will always " run " away when you try to constrain it by becoming it. The only way to get access to the feminine is to BE it. Trying to integrate it and set up a process for it so that it will integrate with another part will never work. But when I say this what will this lead to? it will lead to you thinking okay, I´m going to be aware of this and then do this instead so that I can integrate the feminine (Which is the whole " problem"). That´s what being afraid of yourself is... believing you have to be something else than what you are. You don´t! And that´s why the feminine doesn´t want you to be any other way, because it is you! Integrating the feminine is in other words about building deeper trust and surrender within yourself. You can´t become it, you can´t create something to be it, you can´t heal something - it just happens. Consciousness ( Being) alone is curative. The Feminity is the No self and the message it tries to give us is- " you´re fine no matter what you do, stop trying to change yourself. Stop trying to change me - let me be free"

@LordFall The reason we feel empty Is because we feel alone and dissconected from our highest Self. The highest self could be seen as the no self (feminity, unconditional love,) and " true self" ( masculinity, sense of direction, inteligence, values ect) becomeing one. That's what love is - masculinity and feminity together is CREATION. That's what the purpule area in the picture is and that's what you seek - love, Wholeness. Funnly enough, you interpet the purpule as a representation for your hollowness.. notice how what you're afraid of, in a sense is the same thing you want. You're afraid of the hollow, because you belive you are stuck in that thing which keeps the masculine and feminine seperate, but in actuality - you are that thing which connects it. Many times we think getting " access " to the feminine on the outside will fullfill us but it won't. It will only mirror the relationship you have with the feminine on the inside. I would even go so for to say that if your feminity isn't allowed to love you on the inside, you will not feel the love on the outside.That's why a lot of guys feel like they can't get a girlfriend, becuase they only attract seperation and even if they get a girlfriend, they will still feel seperate from her. Love will not flow freely and the relationship will mirror all the ways you feel incomplete. Psychadelics and family sytems therapy is in my opinion the best ways to do heal this. Other ways are meditation, shadow work, kriya yoga and contemplation.

Try to integrate the femenine internally. Then you will have your ex with you all the time, but internally. View your outside femenine - masculine relationship as your internal masculine - femenine relationship. If you heal the incompleteness inside you will stop attracting incompleteness on the outside.

2CB Is one of my favorites. For me It's a relatively short experience and kinda feels like LSD with more love but a lot less visuals.

Maybe do a trip and ask those questions.

Leo, we all know this is what you've been doing all the time Good for you for finnaly realizing it /// God alien kengeruu moose

Set an intention, then take it and let go. Also make sure you're at a place you feel comfortable and at home.

As the title.

Scary stuff

How would you feel like if you couldn't let it go? trying to let it go will make it not go. So don't let it go.. Or do.. because what's the difference? The higest realizeation is that there never was anything to let go from and to let go of having to let go.

Be careful using solipsism as a cope. Fundamentally, you're afraid to have low self esteem and be socially anxious. Own that. I am aswell.. so what? Real liberation is becoming that thing that you're afraid of. Super counterintuitive I know, yet it is the truth.

This is my guess ( but also wish) law of attraction right XDXD

@Nilsi Any good book recomendations on Shiva and Shakti?

This was the best I've ever read man!!! You're so good. Wow. Amazing. Really inspiring!

@Leo Gura Then I am the most awake person ever because I am Leo

Sweden is right now experiencing the first stage in transitioning to yellow from green. We have a problem with immigration and even more so integration. Because of this, there is a cultural war taking place which also mirrors the war between the masculine and feminine. What the swedish society is about to learn is that we need both perspectives which in other words is nuance. Stage greens problem is that its trying to stop denial with denial. It doesn't work! Sweden has big problems, but our problems will funnily enough be our solution and salvation.

Whatever you belive will become your reality. That's not God's punishment, that's God's grace. If you are convinced God will punish you, God will punish you. Realize that you are God. Whatever you want to create is there right in front of your eyes.

We all play characters to eachother that pretend that they are unawakend when they ( WE) in reality are. Comedy is awakening, comedy is silence - awakening is laughter. It's so funny!! I've noticed this on multiple occasions that we just pretend that we don't know the truth because we are mirroring reality which is unawakend which paradoxly is just reality mirroring you. Awakening is the biggest inside joke and the twist is that everytime you're telling a joke and the other person is not getting it, it fuels a need for you to make them understand the joke which in return makes you fall even deeper into the dream. Why does it fuel a desire? Because the person is you!! That's why it is an inside joke!! But here's where it gets even weirder. They are pretending, YOU are pretending to not get the joke because you want to keep dreaming so they mirror your desire to stay asleep. So if you ever make a joke and both laugh, congrats - you are both enlightened. If only you laugh, you are the fool and if only they laugh... you're still a fool. So laugh like a child my child, Have fun - it doesn't matter anyway. You will always be enlightend. If the whole world laughs however.. watch out.. because then you're probably dreaming ((;

+ "Fuck, now I need to start dreaming again"

I've had some sober experiences where I've had aliens contact me telepathically. It's interesting that you mention owls because some argue that its a sign of aliens and UFOs if an owl appears in your dream.

One pointer is that you are afraid to get rejected by them because you reject yourself and even more so, you are afraid of rejecting yourself. What does rejecting something mean? It means not taking one part of yourself as yourself. You are afraid of rejecting yourself You are afraid of that loop which makes it come back because you are afraid of being afraid. You won't solve this by trying to not be afraid of being rejected, you can only solve it if you become okey with being rejected which in your case means being okey with you feeling afraid of being rejected <<<< Thats your internalised feeling of rejection and shame - Being something which you shouldn't be. ( Afraid of being rejected) Contemplate this. What's wrong with rejecting yourself? What's wrong with not rejecting yourself? What's wrong with rejecting other people?

https://www.actualized.org/insights/a-warning-about-solipsism If you're dissapointed about solipsism it's not it. I have fallen into this trap myself. Take some rest and give yourself time to process. This is just a part of the process. Trust.

I took LSD in mars and it gave me the biggest breakthrough ever. Follow your intuition - Trust in yourself. You go girl

1: Not following through on what I say. I am constantly starting projects but not finishing them. This makes people not trust me and feel unsafe sometimes. It also makes me not trust myself. 2: Not being as loving to myself and others as I and they deserve, taking things for granted - taking myself and the people I love for granted and therefore not treating them the way they deserve. ( The way I deserve) 3: Being too hard on myself and judging myself. I have a bias for truth and progression and when I see that I am not living up to my full potential, I many times am brutal with myself and others around me. I need to practice baby-stepping it and being there for myself and guiding myself in a direction with more encouragement and less judgment. 4: Not forgiving myself

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