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  1. The wording is done on purpose. It's an advanced lesson. First you trust, then you let go of even trusting YOURSELF because you realize you don't even need to trust yourself. Trusting works, everything works but the question is if you want a solution or solace. If you go around trying to trust everything, you will never reach BEING. The Not trusting yourself is a realization that there is nothing to trust, because where is the you? In a sense you can never count on yourself because it's a you, so stop trying to control the world and deeming this as this or that, or good or bad. Not trusting yourself leads to you trusting yourself because you first, like abraham sacrifice your trust and then get it all back. I get what you're saying though and you're right in a sense but in order to get to that realization completely you need to learn how to still be okey while with not trusting YOURSELF. And when I say YOURSELF, I mean your identity and what you belive is the right thing to do. Do you think abraham trusted himself when he was going to sacrifice his son? Would he do it himself? Hell no but he did it because he " trusted in god". So in other words, he didn't trust himself and trusted himself at the same time because he is god. That's God with the Capital G. I needed to learn that other part of the story and I think a lot of people here need to here it too. Trusting and not trusting is the same thing!! ( on the ultiamte scale, it's the ying to the yang) So don't go around trying to trust! Dare to let go of even the trust.
  2. I took DMT today and realized that I shouldn't even trust myself. This was very revolutionary to me because I have the last couple days, weeks and months tried to trust myself more but what I realized was that you can't and shouldn't " trust yourself". Because what is there to trust if everything is perfect? This is what being is - completely allowing everything to be and realizing that the voice inside your head doesn't serve you and from there just letting it get washed away. There are no mistakes!! Stop trying to mess with your mind. You're the one that creates the mistakes. Just be!! The only mistake one could make is beliving that you could make one. Don't trust yourself. Be yourself. With love Sam
  3. It gets you really far but ultimately you have to to let go of leting go. What happen if you don't trust yourself? Is that a sin? Will you fuck yourself ober?No, you will always be fine. Not trusting yourself is about exactly that. It's about letting go so much that you don't even care about making mistakes because you realize there aren't any. This is Leos greatest fear - letting go of his trust for himself becuase it means letting go of his direction which took him this far. Don't make trust out there, outside of you. Realize that you are it by becoming it by not " trusting it" by realizing that you don't even need to trust yourself.
  4. @Leo Gura It's in the wording. The devil is in the details. what I'm saying is that you can't trust yourself, Reality is litterly so good that trusting yourself would create another "You" , seperation and a fear that it is not okey and not you. It's kinda like Sadhgurus idea in this video about not needing to letting go or not trying to be in the moment. You're already there!! Stop trying to create unnecessary problems for yourself. I always trusted myself and the world fully and it got me far, but by trusting I was always afraid of not trusting, which per definition is not trusting. Trusting yourself with a capital T is to not trust yourself so much that you realize you never couldn't not " trust" yourself because what is there to trust? What is the YOU there? Is that YOU really relieble? Fuck no!! You fucking die, yet still everything was always okey. You can't count on the you? You can't count on yourself.. it's a lie. Yet the "truth" involves all these lies. Trusting with a capital T is BEING. Don't disregard what I say to quickly. Alteast test it yourself. If you really want the truth, ask yourself what a mistake is, next trip. I know your perfectionistic ass leo, I'm you it's fine. What's the ultimate test? "Trusting" so much that you don't even need to trust - when you do that, true being has occured, because at that point no mistakes have happend.
  5. Pomegranate is also one of my fav. My list goes Mango Blueberries Pomogrante Honeymelon Strawberries
  6. @LordFall for sure! I´m a young dude myself that still has a lot to experience when it comes to having external relationships with the feminine - I´m in one right now. it´s super important that you are honest with what you want. If you want a lot of sex and feminine companionship, you should go for it. Just remember, the feminine outside can´t complete you. Of course, it can handle some of your needs but the healing will be found inside. When this full integration has been actualized you can then go on and celebrate that love and union with feminine on the outside. what I meant with the purple analogy is that from what I understand you feel like you´ve come a long way and tried to integrate the feminine but still haven´t done it completely and all you want is your ex-girl and the femininity to feel completely whole. Notice how you experience that there is " You" trying to integrate it, instead of you just being it. The feminine will always " run " away when you try to constrain it by becoming it. The only way to get access to the feminine is to BE it. Trying to integrate it and set up a process for it so that it will integrate with another part will never work. But when I say this what will this lead to? it will lead to you thinking okay, I´m going to be aware of this and then do this instead so that I can integrate the feminine (Which is the whole " problem"). That´s what being afraid of yourself is... believing you have to be something else than what you are. You don´t! And that´s why the feminine doesn´t want you to be any other way, because it is you! Integrating the feminine is in other words about building deeper trust and surrender within yourself. You can´t become it, you can´t create something to be it, you can´t heal something - it just happens. Consciousness ( Being) alone is curative. The Feminity is the No self and the message it tries to give us is- " you´re fine no matter what you do, stop trying to change yourself. Stop trying to change me - let me be free"
  7. @LordFall The reason we feel empty Is because we feel alone and dissconected from our highest Self. The highest self could be seen as the no self (feminity, unconditional love,) and " true self" ( masculinity, sense of direction, inteligence, values ect) becomeing one. That's what love is - masculinity and feminity together is CREATION. That's what the purpule area in the picture is and that's what you seek - love, Wholeness. Funnly enough, you interpet the purpule as a representation for your hollowness.. notice how what you're afraid of, in a sense is the same thing you want. You're afraid of the hollow, because you belive you are stuck in that thing which keeps the masculine and feminine seperate, but in actuality - you are that thing which connects it. Many times we think getting " access " to the feminine on the outside will fullfill us but it won't. It will only mirror the relationship you have with the feminine on the inside. I would even go so for to say that if your feminity isn't allowed to love you on the inside, you will not feel the love on the outside.That's why a lot of guys feel like they can't get a girlfriend, becuase they only attract seperation and even if they get a girlfriend, they will still feel seperate from her. Love will not flow freely and the relationship will mirror all the ways you feel incomplete. Psychadelics and family sytems therapy is in my opinion the best ways to do heal this. Other ways are meditation, shadow work, kriya yoga and contemplation.
  8. Try to integrate the femenine internally. Then you will have your ex with you all the time, but internally. View your outside femenine - masculine relationship as your internal masculine - femenine relationship. If you heal the incompleteness inside you will stop attracting incompleteness on the outside.
  9. 2CB Is one of my favorites. For me It's a relatively short experience and kinda feels like LSD with more love but a lot less visuals.
  10. Maybe do a trip and ask those questions.
  11. Leo, we all know this is what you've been doing all the time Good for you for finnaly realizing it /// God alien kengeruu moose
  12. Set an intention, then take it and let go. Also make sure you're at a place you feel comfortable and at home.
  13. How would you feel like if you couldn't let it go? trying to let it go will make it not go. So don't let it go.. Or do.. because what's the difference? The higest realizeation is that there never was anything to let go from and to let go of having to let go.
  14. Be careful using solipsism as a cope. Fundamentally, you're afraid to have low self esteem and be socially anxious. Own that. I am aswell.. so what? Real liberation is becoming that thing that you're afraid of. Super counterintuitive I know, yet it is the truth.
  15. This is my guess ( but also wish) law of attraction right XDXD
  16. @Nilsi Any good book recomendations on Shiva and Shakti?
  17. This was the best I've ever read man!!! You're so good. Wow. Amazing. Really inspiring!
  18. @Leo Gura Then I am the most awake person ever because I am Leo
  19. Sweden is right now experiencing the first stage in transitioning to yellow from green. We have a problem with immigration and even more so integration. Because of this, there is a cultural war taking place which also mirrors the war between the masculine and feminine. What the swedish society is about to learn is that we need both perspectives which in other words is nuance. Stage greens problem is that its trying to stop denial with denial. It doesn't work! Sweden has big problems, but our problems will funnily enough be our solution and salvation.
  20. Whatever you belive will become your reality. That's not God's punishment, that's God's grace. If you are convinced God will punish you, God will punish you. Realize that you are God. Whatever you want to create is there right in front of your eyes.
  21. We all play characters to eachother that pretend that they are unawakend when they ( WE) in reality are. Comedy is awakening, comedy is silence - awakening is laughter. It's so funny!! I've noticed this on multiple occasions that we just pretend that we don't know the truth because we are mirroring reality which is unawakend which paradoxly is just reality mirroring you. Awakening is the biggest inside joke and the twist is that everytime you're telling a joke and the other person is not getting it, it fuels a need for you to make them understand the joke which in return makes you fall even deeper into the dream. Why does it fuel a desire? Because the person is you!! That's why it is an inside joke!! But here's where it gets even weirder. They are pretending, YOU are pretending to not get the joke because you want to keep dreaming so they mirror your desire to stay asleep. So if you ever make a joke and both laugh, congrats - you are both enlightened. If only you laugh, you are the fool and if only they laugh... you're still a fool. So laugh like a child my child, Have fun - it doesn't matter anyway. You will always be enlightend. If the whole world laughs however.. watch out.. because then you're probably dreaming ((;
  22. I've had some sober experiences where I've had aliens contact me telepathically. It's interesting that you mention owls because some argue that its a sign of aliens and UFOs if an owl appears in your dream.