Breakingthewall

It's stopping. As you say, the habit is strong, but there is a difference now: it is easy to perceive what a habit is, they do not refer to something real, since I know that reality is different. Your explanation of self-referential thoughts vigilance has been very helpful to me, and the very interesting bibliography

You mean that: "Rising above ingrained sarcasm, indifference, apathy, intellectual vanity, self-satisfaction, guilt trips, and dualistic attitudes attributable to lifelong accumulations of learned and inherited ignorance is achieved by setting the standard by which concludes one's personal story forever. ." It's true, is absolutely needed. The personal history must to conclude, is necessary if you want to empty your mind. But after the egotic thoughts , are other kind of thoughs that do not refer to oneself: the attempt to conceptualize reality. to stop this I think that to realize your true nature is necessary, if not the mind will never stop trying to understand. without understanding it has no balance. only the realization of the truth can stop this, and only while this realization is happening in real time One question about this:" This is called the Supreme Vehicle of buddhas and tathagatas. Buddhas and tathagatas are those who dwell in nonorigination and deal with reality as is because reality is nonoriginated." What do you mean exactly when you say that reality is no originated? Originated for your mind?

I loved the stories about the nose, bridewell, jonh long, linn hill ... maybe you're linn hill ... Hmm, I don't think so, like you said, you started climbing in '72, too early. the problem with climbing (for me) is that it is a total ego enhancer. Does it matter to any climber to leave a half way, being happy for some specific moments? no, it is necessary to hang the medal or if not, we go home very sad. As you put it, it seems that true nature is experienced for a moment, and then years are spent integrating it. Wouldn't it be better to be one with the tao on a daily basis? The more times your ego is separated and you are the emptiness that dreams, the more deeply you will understand in my opinion of course. you cannot remember, much less conceptualize the truth. it has to manifest in the present moment. all this of: you are god, everything is a dream, etc, it is mental masturbation. everything is mental masturbation, only constant direct realization is enough. the problem is when the veil has been lifted, and one has seen, or rather, has been, without where or when, without questions. when the veil returns (the veil is me), the mind begins its dance. the only option imo, is that the veil is so thin at all times that the truth is transparent and quiets the mind. for this you have to avoid anything that reinforces the ego. The two advantages of the 5 meo are that it momentarily dissolves the veil, and shows the truth, but it also shows the veil. you are the veil, you can be a veil more, or less dense, and here is the work possibly true, but how is this achieved? It is not simpler to slim the ego to its minimum expression and simply let go? there are really no more options. you will go your way in any way, that is closer to the truth. the truth is everything, but no. Living completely in the ego can be said to be the truth because everything that exists is, but it is to have put layers and layers of curtain (which is also made of truth) in the middle. Maybe I'm doing it too simple, some knowledge is needed, but at the end you have to trascend the words. I have many of your text saved, even i understand 20% being generous hehe. some evoke freedom, purity

when i saw honnold's video the first thing i thought is: enlightened. here I leave a video of a part of the climb of course the beauty, the truth of nature is wonderful, and climbing (even miserable, egoic, fast food, tinder climbing, sport climbing) is communion with nature. Regarding what you say about drugs, I would say that what happens to many: outdated information. there are drugs, and there is the 5 meo dmt. it's unfair for the very few who have been able to completely dissolve their ego through faith, discipline, courage, and lots of intelligence. but this substance does. It is true that you must be prepared, but nothing to do with what a true meditator would need to get rid of his ego. The 5 meo, combined with serious work of meditation, self-observation, deconstruction, and not small courage, will take you to the point where there is no one there, there is nothing and from that nothing in no time ,reality, or better, the creation, will manifest as what it is: illusion dreamed by you, immutable dreamer, alone, the one who has always been, with no other attributes but to be. But it isn't so easy, at least for me, i need to did once a week more or less during 6 months, and the rest of the week meditating many hours per day ,and I'm only having glimpses. i don't know how it's for others but for me it's almost so scary than the honnolds video. I recommend you to do. Well, maybe not the same, but sure it's truth there. What do you mean with act on that knowledge? i can say that once the truth is glimpsed, nothing less than the truth is enough. Even before, without knowing it, there was a longing, everything led to this from the beginning. I dont know what the next step is (yes, there are no steps, just being, but you have to walk), I guess I polish my mind to be able to break the wall on a daily basis without the need for chemical bombs. it's completely possible

Perhaps more than avoiding those svutdowns, which you feel deep and meaningful, you could learn to anticipate them and to pass them in the best possible way, and when they finish relating to people again. although I guess you already thought this

You can strengthen your ego as much as possible and live in a real hell, nobody prevents you from walking that path. I personally, for practical reasons, prefer the other path

Well,with the exception of if you've used psychedelics. There is the option of performing an ego deconstruction activity but only up to a certain point, and at that point use 5 meo dmt and completely remove your ego in an artificial way. Here fear can occur since the ego in the moments in which it panics of its annihilation. when he's not there, he obviously feels nothing. by doing this one realizes the enormity of the task to arrive at the same result in an "analog" way Absolutely . it is movement that generates karmic energy and strengthens illusion. the ego, made up of future and past, becomes strong in movement, even (or especially) the mental one. although some movement without ego must be possible. If I'm not mistaken you are a climber, a strongly egoic activity. Doing it leaving the ego aside must be an art. I have stopped activities of that type because they were fuel for my ego. Well, almost all kind of activities, even write here, are egotic since I'm egotic. Maybe thought and fool is a redundancy

This planting lotuses in the fire raises a question for me. someone has a sudden enlightenment and becomes aware of their true nature. understand that it is a dream, somehow unreal, or not really real, emanating from the absolute. After this, through practice, what do I imagine it will be to adapt your mind to the fullest possible understanding of this new perspective, and to minimize your ego as much as possible ... do you get off the karmic wheel of endless births? It seems like a kind of test or work to get something, to get off this wheel. Who goes out? if all are unreal illusions dreamed of by the same absolute. some illusions come out, and others don't? How important is it, what is achieved? you and I are the same, you come off the wheel, I'm still in it ... therefore, you are still in . Well, if i understood correctly the meaning of this process of the lotus on fire

when you realize that reality is the only being that has no place to go because there is no place, or nothing to change because there is no time, just being, immutable, eternal...like trapped. and you are ... the first time for me was pretty awful. little by little I am accepting that. It needs a mental adaptation: my ego mind have two fundamental willings: movement, exploring, and development in time. There are not. Forget that, i am here, no more. Serious thing. Right now, at this very moment, we are that, what is. there's no more. and from that all this reality emanates, the dream. the mind is useless, it works at another frequency. your questions don't make sense. you have to give up the mind it seems. but one question remains: why does existence exist? Why I exist in the eternity, how is it possible!!? The human mind gets crazy after a glimpse of the absolute.

if you strip the present moment of all the shit in your mind every second is a gift. the reality is absolutely beautiful, living on the edge, in the unknown, is inspiring, and in the end awaits the most beautiful of all: death. until It arrive there is a job to do: polishing yourself to shine, make your mind clean as a mirror, as deep as it's possible

great to squeeze my brain again trying to understad your articles! I'm afraid that i didn't catch the most about the budism. True they are two different points of view of the same reality, seems a craziness because they seems two completely different realities but obviously, in a misterious way, are the same What do you mean with "powerful enlightenment activity"?

What do you mean? sudden enlightenment and illusion seems really different. Two points of view that couldn't be more different

Exactly, that's how it is perceived, but be careful ... realizing that the reality you know is a kind of dream, and that only you exist, alone, without attributes, it can be terrible at first. without time, without before or after, only you. immortal, but with no place to go. without escape, everything you thought was a lie, reality is another, and you are. They say that enlightenment is the realization that there is no self, but this immortal being that is, is somehow a self. It's who you've always been. The one that is when your disguise fades .the times that I have been in his point of view, when I have returned to the point of view of the disguise, the first thing I have thought is: who are you? why are you? it's only you? I mean "i", not you ... but as you say, for the one who is, there are no questions or answers, neither when nor how, it is. Or so it seems....

very interesting

Great, true. Dissolve the ego is not a joke, but don't do is a hell

Sober methods are a good preparation for the time of the truth.

you have to destroy javifly with a nuclear bomb, that absolutely not a particle of you remains. 5 meo is the answer, go on a retreat, and do 5meo until there is not a single molecule of javifly left, many times, those necessary. free yourself. I feel like you're close .I'm close too.

True, thinking about tying your shoes already implies intention, an objective, a before and after ... ego. The problem is if I now have three hours in which I have nothing to do and I think: I am going to disconnect my ego for a while and just be. very difficult. First, it's the ego who thought that, requires to have an ego as small as possible, to know himself completely, to have been egoless before, with psychedelics or in some way, to subconsciously know that egoless is not death, have a strong discipline, and even so almost impossible

because your ego, which lives in time and of time, cannot be established in the present moment, it needs to project into the future, invent something that needs to change to be happy. There will always be something that is not right, unless the ego is the one who leaves and the real substance remains, which is pure happiness, neither more nor less. the smaller the ego, the more of that substance leaks out. a strong ego that never shuts up, that needs to know, is opaque. almost none of that stuff leaks out and the feeling is infuriating, relentless. If at some point the ego disappears completely, the substance will manifest itself completely, pure light, wonder, enlightenment, the real nature . The problem is that even the ego knows that, he cant remove himself. If he is trying to remove the ego, there is the ego in action, getting stronger doing that work

I think you stop searching when you realize that you are ... nothing. an empty hole that pretends to be something. there is nothing to think about here. It is something really strange because how can an empty hole pretend to be something or do anything? it's incomprehensible. and the empty hole without quality is pretty scary when you think that you have qualities. thinking it is evident that nothing will be achieved, as you are a emptiness. The search is not to look for something but to withdraw qualities from yourself to become as similar as possible to who you really are: a hole of nothing. Maybe when you realize that often, or every moment, you will understand, let's see, at least it's liberating, even it's like sad in some aspects. I don't want to say that I understand, only glimpses to the nothing

just read a summary of his sentences and it seems very brilliant. Of course very conservative in his political ideas, I have read that he was an idealist who wanted to legislate even the minimum behavior of people to increase virtue. keep in mind that he lived in a feudal era. I think that in context it is very brilliant. it is not the same as lao tzu which is spiritual, confucius is politics, but 2500 years ago

The day will come when completely amazed you look back and say: how is it possible that I could get into those ego-sick games? When your mind is clean as a mirror, you will only have love for anyone, and no grievance will have any importance, because there will be no you to claim. It is a daring path, but it is the only intelligent path, others lead to madness.

I am a hole of nothingness, without quality, that in some incomprehensible way, is pretending to have a shape

he has millions of followers who followed him for being a fitness icon and now those same people are watching videos about awakening, consciousness, and other things that have not even been considered in their lives, sure they are thinking that he ve a mental problem? . it must be recognized that the guy is unique

I'm an illusion struggling to solve an enigma