Breakingthewall

@Javfly33 have read several of your posts about 5meo, very oriented to transcendence and the realization of God. I think you can have deep realizations of that type, but your ego will return, and without taking too long. Have you tried mushrooms in medium doses, 2-4 grams? they can work miracles with a sore ego. It is lazy to do it, since unpleasant moments are spent, but it is worth it if your intention is to be totally honest with yourself

@James123 i told you , there is nothing...but there is something. I only Intuit it, behind the void

I look forward to it. it can be revolutionary.

@Leo Gura have you thought about writing? maybe you would reach more people

samsara theory is very egoic. life as a test to reach a goal. and denies life: it is not desirable. the goal is to escape from life, which is just suffering. It's very silly. Is the life of birds suffering, or that of a dolphin? the human is complex, but it is not all suffering. I would rather stay in samsara for a few million more cycles. life is Beautiful and the absolute isn't going to move

Yeah , the ego is a trap. escaping from the trap is critical. The difficult thing about it is that outside of the trap there is nothing. adaptation time is needed

@SQAAD your ego is a perfect survival machine programmed to escape from the bad (for your survival), and pursue the good. He is your friend, but you have to keep him under control, know exactly what he does and how. more accurate would be to say that he must keep himself under control

@James123 yes, we are nothing, amplitude without limits, zero. but there is a problem here: we also exist as "something". I think that enlightenment is more than liberation and nothingness. Maybe my ego can't accept be nothing, of course, but there is something!. And yes, it's liberating, relaxing, resting in the present at the end. But same time it's like sad. The void where there is no where or when, no shape, no energy. Always the same moment, the zero moment. What a party. But same time, there is a big party. The universe is. Impossible to understand that duality right now

@James123 i cannot "be" nothingness, only see it as one who looks out into an abyss. there is calm but also rejection. do you access that every day? how long, if i may ask?

I am increasing to 2 hours a day and it is getting easier, lately 45 minutes seems like 10 but it is not something completely "good". I arrive at an unlimited emptiness, with hardly any thought, there is no time, there is nothing there. like you says, before birth. but it's intimidating, it looks like death. yesterday I tried to hold out as long as I could there and I had a physical reaction, nausea for hours. Later there is a great feeling of freedom, like no ego, very present, but also the feeling that behind this appearance there is only emptiness, nothing, zero, death. it's like a bad 5 meo trip. there is no enlightenment there, only nothing. Still I look for every moment to see it again

@Joscha i have found your report very inspiring. has a simple message: if you want to enter heaven you have to be ego free, otherwise you will fall into hell. i'm sure if i d take 600ug of lsd like you i would visit hell, it needs a previous big work

@Amit It surprises me how someone can call another stupid in every sentence of a conversation. demonstrates violence. be careful, that violence will one day turn against you

I would say: people fear being excluded from the sex market as much as death

@Joscha @Joscha thanks for sharing! I think that if on that trip you had had a close person with experience in psychedelics, the hellish situation would have lessened by 80%

if you make deals with the devil you always lose. but it is so tempting that it is difficult to give it up, even if over and over again we see that its reward is a fraud.

@Joscha Could you share that trip report?

@Kalo i hate weed since long time but I'm going to try ?

5 meo lately? Yes, there is only you, the one, playing a strange cosmic game with yourself

existence continues to exist, and we disappear because we never really exist

@TheDao yeah I agree, but this what you talk about is in the last 100 years, comparing with 315,000. nowadays the roles do not make sense, but you have to admit their genetic origin

is something real. In a natural environment, unspoiled, without technology, the male human will quickly bring out his aggressiveness, start war, as it has always happened, and power relations. the female human will be perpetually pregnant and the maternal instinct will come out, and the old patterns will be imposed by nature

bernard moitessier comes to mind, he was going to be the first winner of the vendee globe, after going around the world alone and nonstop on a sailboat, in the 70s, skirting Antarctica in inhuman conditions, a short distance from the Arrival, in France, I thought that the arrival, the crowd, the prize of 1 million pounds, the fame, were going to be negative, and that his peace was perfect, so he turned around and went around the world again

Great definition. There is any saint in the world? I never met any

The ego is somehow real. it is an energetic pattern, a stable set of thought, something. every time I manage to detach it more time. but as you say, what me? when the ego withdraws there is no one, since any sense of identity, projection on future, past, worry, is ego. everything is ego. without ego there is emptiness ... but a living emptiness. somehow that emptiness is a me. perceives, is, lives. the problem is that the ego comes back, and with rage. it is a life of imbalance that of alternating the perfect emptiness and the raging ego several times a day. I don't see what the middle point can be. perhaps the ego will settle down in time. maybe it's not real but it seems in fact who writes now is the ego. It is a complicated matter, the ego is necessary, the ego is me, the other alternative would be to go to a cave as a Ramana Maharshi to meditate for the rest of my life. It would be a happier life probably, but being human is also beautiful and a challenge. The ideal would be to be able to disconnect the ego at will every day. I see it possible

egos talking to egos to try to free themselves from themselves. But sometimes it works