Breakingthewall

Yes, all is in the mind, even the phone where I'm writing, but I can assume that there is a phone and the image in my mind is a representation of the real phone, but same I can assume that Mars exist

I don't understand what they mean by that. Mars would be as imaginary as the bar where I had a coffee this morning, all is in the mind at the end

The one who believes that it wants to awaken is the ego, because it realizes that it suffers and wants to improve its situation, and because it perceives that it is a hollow illusion. what he cannot see is that awakening is precisely his death, which is why it is almost impossible for him to achieve it. when by accident the ego is cracked (suffering, psychedelics), I think that if it is possible to file the ego and make way for what is underneath

Haha this is not Satan at all...well it depends, some of them are close

the garden of eden thing is an incredible metaphor. It expresses that living beings have always lived in paradise, they have an exact place, an exact behavior, a perfect cycle. their life is perfect, they have no ego, their life is an eternal present. even his suffering is perfect. the human being bites the apple, thinks, and as he thinks he is the eternal misfit, anticipates and remembers, suffers, he is a suffering being ... and from his suffering another beautiful metaphor arises that is Christ

it is impossible to meditate while satan hugs you

This is especially horrible, what old memories! what fun it was! more or less like being with satan in hell. This is because you have a lot of energy, and you are using it to devour yourself. You are suffering with passion. The good thing is that you have passion. For this I would recommend the extreme: destroy your ego and project your being in particles to infinity (I mean 5 meo, of course) if I had known it before I think it would have saved me a lot of torture. Although now it seems impossible, your energy can be completely released, you can be light as a feather. you can be god, nothing less

you remind me of me at 18. my diagnosis is that the following happens to you: surely you are a highly sensitive and intelligent guy, but at one point, due to given circumstances, he has completely distanced himself from his true self, trying, perhaps unconsciously, being someone else. The reasons can be several but it is usual it is rejection of parents or social maladjustment. you have created a mental world and you are not aware of what is happening to you. The sexual impulse focused on masturbation is usually due to the inability to open up to real sexual relations (totally impossible for all the above) + addictive behavior to escape the deep hell level discomfort that accompanies you 24 hours a day. congratulations friend, you've hit rock bottom. It can be even worse if you add some drug addiction. The good news is that the phoenix is reborn from those ashes, but it is not easy and there are no magic formulas. you need: a) iron will b) Japanese kamikaze courage (you have it even if you think not, it can be trained, it is very important) c) penetrating intelligence. to begin with I would not fool around and start shock therapy with psylocibes. From what I have tried, they are best suited to unraveling the twisted emotional depths. According to you comment on your state, not that you will discover it will not be beautiful, but you will not go to worse. and if you go what else does it matter! as they say in my language, from lost to the river. Besides, you have to be absolutely autonomous, the good thing about falling so low is that nobody can take you out, only your instinct, there is no guru, no therapist, or anything, only you, so you will come out of this with a huge feeling of autonomy ( if you go out, of course). so courage and improvise

Well, tonight I had my more intense realization ever in my life. Just before sleep, and began like a 5 meo trip ,I did 5 meo 4 days ago, medium dose but intense, awaking at 4 night for better openess, yesterday I meditate in a park until night, good but nothing special, and in bed I have that experience. I'm sure that it was induced by the 5 meo but not because it remains any substance, it's because the openess that was created last time....so I think that psychedelic can make or at least help a lot

Sounds like a person who read a lot of nisgardstta Maharaj and like that

Not agree, life have a purpose

@Cosmin_Visan interesting approach from the rational. one question: what do you think about the mystique? is it an experience created by the mind, or is it, say, supramental? I would recommend the book "wild mystique" by hulin, totally rational and empirical approach. Let's say that mysticism is real, or at least it is a recurring human experience, with great points in common, independent of the cultural framework and that escapes the rational. psychedelics, especially the 5 meo dmt induce a typical mystical experience. it is evident that they do not add anything, but subtract. they lower the activity of the frontal lobe, responsible for the self, until they soften the ego sufficiently so that the mystical experience penetrates the consciousness of the one who has consumed it. It is also recurrent in psychedelic users to say that the experience cannot be translated into words. the same is true of the natural mystical experience. the timelessness and the absolute are perceived but the logic forgets them, you can make an approximate outline of what you have perceived, but the more you try to capture the essence of the experience, the more it slips, until there is a shadow of the original. That's why the philosophers or the extra rational minds are have more difficulty to get that kind of experiences than more simple spirits

I think that there are levels in the depth of enlightenment, but that since the mind opens to real mysticism, there is nothing to learn from books, concepts or ideas, only from the direct experience of the deep, so the seeker is no longer a really seeker, he will only search himself, rather than seek to observe and deepen All that ideas like, there is not you, you are nothing...well , I think you are that you are, label it like nothing is the same than label like dream, or anything, just be , that is the point. Those labels could be an obstacle to the real understanding, that is very far away from the ideas or words

@Leo Nordin what you are talking about is a very serious matter. It is one thing to be spiritual and another to get stuck in life. You have to take into consideration that you consume food, appliances, home, medical ... things that others have cultivated, built, maintained, studied. therefore you have to give something in return, and that something has to be proportional to what is received, which is a lot. how to do it without becoming a slave? This is where the challenge is. first you have to be absolutely disciplined and enterprising, and second have a fine intuition. the first is will, but the second enters into the spiritual. You have to know how to see the signs, what is for you and what is not, and try to reduce failures to a minimum as it is, because what they say that each failure is learning sounds good but is not fun. it is a fine balance and an art, almost a sport. for me it enters into the spiritual. but I dont think that practical advice can be given, each one has to find their unique way, without trust any external influence. Another option could be to be really enlightened and flow without effort, sure it d be better

Most of people who is enlightened is because they had the desire to trascend the ego and be the real being, so it could be said that root of enlightenment is the desire

Well said, good sentence to remember

the root of suffering is that you move away from your true nature, and what keeps you away is not desire, it is the concept

Let go fun, adventure etc, could be, but sex.....

Develop your Passion , do a service and make money... actualized.org. congrats

Could be but it doesn't look an egotic realization, looks a deep truth, misticsl. Egotic have a different flavor, very characteristic

@Corpus yes , sure, we could stay unconscious all life that it's the same, but I prefer to be the most concious possible because it's much more pleasant...only practicity, the other is suffering, not a good business

Conceptual understanding is finite, can't catch the reality, it's an obstacle. The other understanding, the openess, is a mistery. Is that we are trying to be , the pure conciousness

Well you are right , it's not sure. I had a powerful realization, I did 5 meo and nothingness, etc, but when me and the reality was constructing again I had the absolute certainly that all that happened in my life, even the smaller detail, was intentional. All was exactly like it has to be, and I see how simple is take the pleasant things that life offers me and forget the others. There was nothing to regret, no past to visit. All was for some reason, but no reason that is comprehendible. Now I ve not that realization so clear , but I still remember the content. At the end, realizations are the only that we could trust

It's like that chapter in Bible that said: look the birds, they don't worry about the food etc. You can't interfere in the willing of the conciousness, if you do all is going wrong, you must flow, if business are for you , they re going to work, if couple isn't for you it's going to be a hell. It's much better to see the signals , every one. There are a lot always, and flow with them. For me it's obvious and work like a machine, go down river, much more comfortable

That is not so, you can call it a dream and think that there are no others but each molecule of your body has a plan, an intention. If an enlightened person teaches others it is because it is what he has to do, the same as another having children or being an alcoholic.