Breakingthewall

Yeah, when you can. What could be better? Let the life developing, you are privileged, you have a level of consciousness that very few have at your age. open up and let things be as they have to be

@Laila you are trapped in the ego, like almost everyone else, but your ego makes you suffer. The positive of this is that you are forced to transcend it. you know, self-observation, meditation, and psychedelics. Well, and a big dose of intelligence and intuition, think by yourself and don't follow anyone, and you can completely escape that trap

@Leo Nordin I think your doubts d be easily solved if you leave home, travel, and your money runs out. from there improvisation begins and life will guide you wherever it want. Before that, while the money lasts, enjoy it. I wouldn't worry a minute

I don't know nothing and I don't care about any concepts. I'm open , no more

It's wrong , the infinite is the void. Infinity and zero are the same. When you realized it there are not doubts. It's the most impressive realization , I shit in my pants (figuratively) when it happened. it's not a concept or anything learned. I read your trip with 10 grs of mushroom. When you talk about the nothing, that you are in the base of the reality and there is nothing, I had exactly that realization with 5 meo, but it's not all. Sorry for say but I think you should open your mind. Why do you say: I'm not interested in 5 meo because I already did 10 grs of mushroom, and it's the same or more? How do you know? Why you are absolutely sure that you reached the last truth? Look like you want to be stuck

Something fundamental in the spiritual path is surrender, let things happen, trust that everything will be as it should be. jump without a parachute. hands over control. you don't have it anyway. think: yes ok, that's fine, but in money matters such nonsense is not worth it, you have to be more serious ... well, money, health, life and death, the trapeze artist does his stunts without a net. that's the beauty of life

There is no path marked out for this, following the steps that someone dictates to you, I don't think it is of any use. acquiring complete mental independence is essential. as you say, it is a whole life that guides you to an outcome. you realize that every event in your life pointed to that destination. a destination that makes any other aspiration seem like a joke

If you want to explain, Im very interested, and sure others too

Call them "thoughts" or dream, or real, it's the same. They are. They come from the nothingness, so the nothingness create them. They are nothing but they are. So? Something is lost here. a piece is missing in your puzzle

And who is thinking those thoughts?

nothing ever happened, because it is infinite. anything or any event, with respect to infinity is the same as zero. but now observe yourself. there is something wrong here right? you are, right? in infinite abundance. the other face. nothing and everything

@Mips I don't know how deep some people go meditating, but when you do 5meo, you will realize that we are talking about another dimension. It is the door to death, a very serious matter in my opinion.

I think that when you understand that what happens in some way is deliberate, you know in an intuitive but clear way that you should accept and that you should not, and when you have a fight ahead

congratulations on conquering the freedom. yes yes, there is no conquest, just let go ... but you have to conquer anyway!

Haha horrible, shock therapy, but my ego needs , if not I will spend 100 years to let it (or me) go. The progress combinating 5 meo and auto observation (the whole day) is amazing

suffering is inherent in complex life, living beings have to suffer to be driven to escape from that suffering. hunger, pain, etc. It is a survival mechanism, but in the human it takes on another dimension, since the thought system forms an identity, and creates the past and the future. the ego, let's say, and the ego is a machine to suffer, and even more the ego of today. In the past your ego used to say: we have come to this cruel world to suffer, in the next life we will have dinner with the Valkyries or whatever. You must do that and this, and relax. Today he says: in this life you have to enjoy every minute and everything has to be perfect, and when you die ... no no, that is forbidden, it doesn't exist. So we have a very complicated ego, perfect for the suffering. we have no choice but to transcend it. Most of suffering is about the identity, the mistreating of people in the past, be a looser, things that should have been different, like that, another about fear to the future, sickness, death, poverty, be a looser, etc, and really small percentage is real suffering in the present moment. Well, the others are happening now too, but auto induced for the mind

Perceptions are not thoughts. Thoughts are concepts, ideas that use the language as estructure . They form the I, are irreal , like the I

evident . what is infinite by definition? the nothingness. What happens when something, no matter how large, a finite universe, dissolves into infinity? which is revealed as 0. the absolute is nothing But it's also evidently that the nothingness is. If not, who is perceiving now? The nothingness of course

How much is the percentage of suffering that is being create by your mind for the objective of... existing? Maybe 99,99%? The real suffering, pain, hunger, cold, hot, etc, is not a lot, itsnt it? And you forget it when it finish

Maybe you shouldn't take him as an enemy but I want to get rid of him. Sometimes I am silent, a perfect hole, I think I have it, but the voices are always lurking. all the voices of each person that I have met, each opinion, judgment, assessment, each relationship, insecurity, boast ... begin to weave their fabric, and the void disappears. I don't know how to get rid of them, it seems impossible. They are part of me, I have them attached. Sometimes it seems like a terrible curse, that voice that never stops, but usually they are there, in the background, they do not bother so much. I see that you completely renounce all opinion, judgment, assessment, future perspective, control. a total resignation and so they will be silent. What is not possible is to wait for them to shut up but keeping my "I", because it happens that my I are the voices. To get really free of the ego is necessary. I have to tell myself more. But who says that is the ego. What a hell

Yes I know, first time I did 5 meo I was thinking: well, let's see what is that infinite love that all people talk about...and after 2 seconds there is nothing, This is the ego! A definition. All those concepts must wait out of the nothingness. My ego in that circumstance said a similar judgement: I am nothing and this is horrible, but wasn't words, was only the horror That is the point! it's supposed that it's only one conciousness. If there is you awareness, you can't realize the conciousness. You have to absolutely die. That awareness is you, the ego. To realize that you are the infinite void that is, there haven't be any "I" there. When I was in the void was like there in not me, nothingness, but it's the horror, even with big dose, so I really reject the void, but it's great because I have the opportunity of work in the ego. When it's the void, the ego screams with all of his strength, so it gets exposed. The ego isn't only your judgement, is you! When you see thst, and the infinity, all changes, at least for me. Analize that . There is not conciousness that is aware of your existence? It supposed that you are the conciousness. You are alone in a state of infinite emptiness? Exactly, and you are the infinite emptiness I might as well not exist? No ,you as ego don't exist. When you contrast your ego , and all the universe, with the infinity, you realize that it's nothing, a zero. You must realize the infinity first. I had nightmares a couple of nights and I stayed trembling for a while after. The infinity.... Little by little, I'm changing totally what I thought about spirituality, god, enlightenment, etc. It's right here right now, it's nothing, but it is. It's not like find something, it's more subtle, and seems unthinkable

seems that the void is our real nature. Others call it god. In meditation I realize the void and it's not horrible, because you are still there, but with 5 meo it's nothing, infinity, but still a scream of terror perceiving the eternal death. I think it's the ego, that is going to absolutely dissapear in the void. That is obviously the ego, that is doing all his tricks to avoid the void. We have to surrender completely to the nothingness, give our lives as an offering and disappear, to realize the truth. It is obvious, but it is absolutely terrifying for us, if it were not like that ,it would have already happened. for many people it is very easy, they do 5 meo and voila! for others it is scary, depressing, dead, a real Challenge, but it can be worked on. meditate on emptiness, emptiness is who we are, the ego must die. that's the job we're doing

But was you there? Was you concious of you, of was only the void? I had similar experience many times , it's really hard, but I think we can't catch the point that we are there, and merge with the void .I think it's the real ego death, when you are the infinite void and it's nothing of you there. It's really scary, seems the real death. Let's see if in your 3 trip you get it, I'm working in myself to accept that death

From the trip reports I have read, it seems that each person has a different experience. for me, before the first breakthrough, even vaping 14mg, if it didn't happen, it wasn't unpleasant either. I saw luminous squares, I didn't know if my eyes were open or closed, but it was still me, it was a bit of a stressful experience but nothing more. how hard it got when the breakthrough happened! suddenly there was nothing, nothing, nothing! terror and death! but that's what remains when there is no ego. nothing! after that, with half the dose, nothing happens. the mind flattens, you are no longer human, you are flat, formless, nothing. and suddenly you see infinity. more terror! infinity is terrifying to the ego. as long as there is 0.01% ego, he will exclaim: noooooo! eternal annihilation! . The good thing about this is you've hit the chains that anchor the ego hard. he will never be who he was. better! I am waiting for the next visit to that terrible and unthinkable infinity. they say that he is god neither more nor less .the reality is that even if you have not seen god, the level of mental noise has decreased by half. the ability to enjoy beauty has multiplied (well, for now, it has only been 10 days from last time but it is constant), so I recommend to you and all those interested in freeing yourself from the chains of your ego a combination of meditation and 5 meo

@LostSoul maybe you have a wall in front of your face that limits you? I recommend you dynamite. Destruction guaranteed. 5 meo .