Breakingthewall

I know this probably doesn't help at all, but if you dig deeper you will see this: everything is exactly as it has to be, to the millionth of a millimeter. so relax and enjoy

my family is deeply dysfunctional, my father was a narcissistic addict, etc. etc. etc. all that, variations of the same movie. I have been feeling hatred for many years, I have progressed a lot in life based on struggle and anger, but having that inside you is shit. Although you may not realize it, you have identified so much with your hatred that you have become addicted to it. I tell you from experience. Suddenly, one day I realized: those narcissistic monsters were just idiots. like stupid children incapable of maturing, worthy of pity and nothing more. They are you and you are them, that's life, a game that can get twisted. give those poor idiots a mental hug and forget them completely. Easier said than done, obviously. getting to do it is the way that will set you free. Those fools are your teachers, accept their lesson

if plugging does not work for you, try putting the 5 meo dissolved in vinegar with the syringe in your nose, it stings but it works very well

your body is a perfect energy pattern where each atom occupies an exact place, continually being exchanged for new atoms. a structure of inconceivable complexity. It is the same thing that makes you move that what makes that every time you breathe millions of atoms are expelled and millions more take their exactly place: the infinite mind of God

existence is infinite so it changes and doesn't change. it changes apparently, but really it is already everything that could be or change, it is total and the totality is immutableb ecause it encompasses all possible mutation

just relax and enjoy

It is magnificent

there is something rather than nothing because there is. mystery. there, deep in the void, it is. It could be simply a void, but since it is infinite, magic happens, and there you are. everything possible unfolding infinitely. like a wild cry of joy that in an instant, is all that can be. for no other reason than because he can and because he wants to. infinite love pouring out infinitely without control ... so much that it is nothing. uncontrollable, unfathomable, unknowable, the you that is not you, because as much as it is, it is nothing, but it is

@omar30 What happens to you is that you are identified with your ego, with the idea of your life as a story, the past as something alive, full of meaning and strength. The moment you surrender to the present and realize what you are, all of that dissolves. all that mental shit that tortures you is what encourages you to solve the riddle. you have to untangle the strings of the ego and set yourself free. a great revolution that results in total freedom. But first you have to understand, even if only intellectually, the inherent falsehood of any concept. if you want to go beyond the mind, the mind itself must recognize its limitation

everything is enlightenend, only that we humans forget it when we focus on the stories of the ego. look at the birds, or look a month-old child in the eye.

Leo is a new kind of teacher. he has a solid ego and his mind does not stop trying to understand. the opposite of what is required for enlightenment. but he has chemical aid and uses it intensely and fearlessly. this help temporarily turns him into a being with less ego than buddha. then he returns to his normal ego self, and that ego processes what has been revealed to him without ego, and exposes it in a way that other egos can understand. ramana maharshi cannot speak the language of your ego. Leo can

The meaning and pourpose are to be, to exist. creative passion, manifestation of love. You could call it nothing or anything, it's what it is

Do you think? I would say that nothing has always been, there is no beginning in being. if it is always, it is loved always. If it has loved always, it has always manifested . nothingness, love and manifestation are right now, which is the only moment that exists. There is not like: nothing at the beginning, then love and then manifestation. everything is now, and now is always

There is still something behind nothing, or simultaneous to nothing. be. absolute emptiness without qualities, is. exists. and by existing and having no limits, loves itself infinitely and manifests

We should all kill a cow or a lamb and then eat it. maybe we wouldn't be hungry

If there is no resistence, you will disappear, you will dissolve into the whole. mashamadi i guess. Life is resistence

True, but it's impossible, is what i said before. you are the illusion. you cannot stop being it. Buddha ate, drank and shit. If a tooth ached, he had a bad time. there is a limit to Buddhahood while the "illusion" of being human occurs. or rather, while you're human. fear is a fundamental part of this illusion, one of its pillars. it can be controlled but never eliminated. But there is no problem with fear if you know what it is. you feel it, you accept it, and that's it. Forget the snakes, are too gentle. think in hammers in your bones. You could go to your execution full of joy, but the human part will feel fear, even Jesus in the cross

I don't know if you are talking about hypothetical concepts or real experience. you have arrived that point of not being the illusion? is this possible? . the reality is that the illusion is not false. it is real. you can't escape it. you can see through it, but you will remain the illusion, until you cease to be. It is not an idea, it is not false. the word "false" or "unreal" are silly, they are concepts. illusion is what it is. you can see full time that you are the limitless emptiness "dreaming" this illusion. but how to completely remove yourself from it? Just dying, erasing this illusion

You could do a simple experiment. reach a state of full understanding, enlightenment as buddha. then lie down on the ground and tell a friend to proceed by pounding the bones of your feet one by one with a hammer. You will see that you are the illusion and you cannot escape from it. And when you see the next hammer blow coming, you will feel fear. You could say : there is people, like the monk who fired himself in Vietnam, that aren't the dream anymore. I don't think so. They have a total control of himself, but they still are the dream. They feel fear but they totally control it. The only scape of illusion is death

You are an ego. The ego is all the universe. The ego is fear and attachment. There is not a false belief, it's real. The ego exist, you exist, the universe exist, as illusion from the point of view of the limitless emptiness that loves himself and dreams the infinite illusion as an emanation of his love, creative passion. It is not belief, it is real. fear is real, as it is the basis of illusion. As long as you are illusion, which you are, there will be fear

Illusion isn't a belief, illusion is what you are. Awareness of that you are a illusion could make the fear weaker, but unless you disappear, so there isn't illusion anymore, fear will exist.

fear is a fundamental pillar of the self. but only half. the basis of the self is life / death duality. the self is the attachment to life and the rejection of death. of this duality, death is fear, life is attachment. death = pain. life = pleasure. death = loneliness, life = belonging. pain / pleasure, success / failure, wealth / poverty etc etc. fear of one thing, attachment to another. You could say that attachment is fear to loose something, but i think it's different. I have an attachment to sight, not because I fear going blind, but because I perceive sight as life, joy, positivity. I would not be me without the sight

No, you may be aware of the unreality of the dream but when a real threat presents itself, instinct takes over. You could control the fear but it would still be there. So fear is part of the illusion. Another thing is that the ego's horror of non-existence, of its disappearance, does not exist. if you are aware of the illusion and of what you are, it is that your ego is transparent. He will continue to fear, but in a weaker way. you can enter death with joy, although at the same time fear

If you are only satisfied with being in god mode and you do not see anything of interest in ego mode, you can turn to be as much as possible in egoless mode, like the real mystics, those guys from India who live in a cave and don't speak in years. I am sure that in many cases his happiness is enormous. you just have to give up the ego completely

I wrote that and the pomp exploded. I'm free of that madness. It is not in me anymore. bitterness for the past is just a fantasy, something the ego grabs onto to exist. of course I love my father. he was a poor idiot and nothing more. that's life, a theater, fascinating, strange, fun. several days have passed since I wrote that and I am still 100% free. There is only now, only celebration of existing