Breakingthewall

A course in miracles is surprising, fascinating. very strange and evocative. about selflessness ... lately I have seen several times that reality is a unity, that my apparent person is a mirage, and I have become very selfless. So much so that I'm not interested in anything, just observing the world. I suppose that some guide will appear that inspires me to do, although I perfectly understand those Hindus who sit on the street and do not move all day

at least you go kayaking, don't complain! from the absolute point of view, time is an illusion, so one bubble after another, or all at the same time, is the same. there is no one after another. the question is, what is this bubble of perception? is what it seems? is something? I would say that infinite bubbles are only apparent. nothing is really happening! it's crazy. that's why everything seems a bit unreal. it seems that existence is a dead end, trapped in eternity trying to escape through infinite points of view

from an absolute point of view there are no chairs, no alien only undifferentiated unity without size or shape. somehow reality imagines itself and creates the appearance of a chair, and the appearance of us. we and the chair are no different. It seems to us that we perceive the chair, but it is more like the undifferentiated unit is structured in mental images that apparently interact, being more profoundly the same, without separation. so there is neither us nor chair, or from another point of view, there are both, and they do not depend on each other. If there were a universe of rocks without life, it would be like the mind of reality, or God would have imagined it, it does not need another image imagined by the same mind to perceive it, it is a whole unit that imagines itself

Maybe the alien only perceives radiation and for him there is no chair, with which it could be said that there really is no chair, there is only a chair if you perceive it, if not, there is the possibility of a chair, but that possibility is the same that the chair ... Itsnt it?

The rocks, empty space, you, or chairs are ideas from the mind of reality. they dont need anyone to observe them to be, they observe themselves, they are the same as you, reality itself

it all depends on the software. Ours takes a development of millions of years and is in our genes, but if it is transcended for a moment it is seen that everything is the same, there are no differences, but for the survival of the body (which is not really different from what surrounds it) , it is necessary to capture them. at another level there is no difference between pain and pleasure, nor between your body and the bed where you sleep or the street. it's a kind of magic trick that creates differentiation. that's why calling it an illusion, because reality is a undifferentiated soup ,perfectly fragmented by some kind of software, the mind of god imagining

If you look at the universe you see an obvious pattern: the movement towards greater complexity. Let's imagine a big bang. a number of protons, neutrons and more particles appear, all apparently made of energy. all of them begin to interact with each other, they group together until they form stars, where more complex elements are formed, then life, that evolves from the cell to the human brain, which in turn is an enormous creative force, capable of understanding, which perhaps can create an "artificial" intelligence. it is obvious that reality is alive, it creates itself. We are one more manifestation of the enormous intelligence of reality, in its creative willing. we are the reality itself, which is only one.

from what you say it is seen that you know is the reason for fear: attachment to your ego. As I told you the other time, I had very similar experiences and I can say that the solution is to look around you. With these realizations it is common to see that you are alone and that reality is an illusion. it would be better to use the biblical term "creation". illusion suggests unreality, since from the absolute point of view it seems unreal, but from this other point of view it seems very real. real and unreal are just labels. it is what it is. see the wonder of what it is. everything is you? marvel at what you are. It is not that only you are and your loved ones do not exist, it is that they are you, or you are they. you make yourself infinite company, unfolding yourself in infinite ways . Facing absolute emptiness is also a challenge for me. the feeling of unease is enormous, but where does it come from? attachment, from where else? that feeling is a guide that tells us where we must work to free ourselves. surely your second trip was too followed to the previous one, little time of integration. Such a realization opens the door to a deeper meditation. It scares but at the same time it frees you and leaves no other way than to free yourself more.

people who have a completely materialistic ideosyncrasy are depressed to a greater or lesser extent. it's normal, they live in a gray nightmare with no escape

people feel separate, an individual entity that must fight to survive. that generates insecurity. will i be suitable? it causes you to compare yourself with others, and if you interpret you are under, you feel depressed, worse, in deep not suitable for survival. so the obvious reaction is to try to be above. How? There are many ways, including feeling more spiritually advanced. the remedy: see that there is no better or worse, only the perfection of what is

Leo repeats this disturbing idea several times, which suggests that the conscience suffers from loneliness. Maybe he is right, but I would say that you are not going to live Leo's life because you are living it right now. there is only existence, it is only one with the appearance of being multiple. It is a kind of trick that it does to unfold infinitely without ceasing to be just one, and it is empty but at the same time it has characteristics (I think), it is pure joy and creativity

Yeah , if once out of non-existence existence arose, it will do so again. non-existence does not exist, so it has no duration, it is instantaneous, so you will instantly continue to exist, since non-existence does not exist. for me the impossible question is: how can existence exist?

This is not true in my experience

and it is the beginning of seeing that you are obviously the manifested existence, in its absolute perfection, brilliance and glory. not a better experience as it always was, but it seems so much better

It seems obvious that your conscience and mine, if you completely remove the memory, are exactly the same. the experience we are having, to which we give meaning, centered in the self, makes it seem like two different consciousnesses, but it seems clear that this is a forced illusion, trick to keep the body alive. If we accept this, it is obvious that when my body dies, my experience of the self will disappear, but the consciousness that is being, will continue to be in you. The question is what would happen if all the universe turns off and disappears, and there is nothing left. the timeless undifferentiated emptiness. would "something" arise again? It would seem that if "things" have been created out of nothing once, this will continue to happen.

on a materialistic level, everything you perceive is a creation of your brain. everything you see is created by the back of your brain in real time from light impulses entering your retinas. quite a job. so there is nothing strange that this can vary with psychedelics since It's not the real world, it's a good imitation that your brain does

This doesn't mean that the realization will not happen at some point. the ego mind is cunning and knows how to hide in front of your face. At 12 is when you start to worry about how others see you, insecurities, etc. keep digging, mushrooms are a wonderful tool. probably one day you will see ... ah of course, this

think that in all religious traditions of all cultures (that I know of) sexual abstention has been promoted among priests. Suppose this comes from imitating the true spontaneous asexuality that seems to occur in many true enlightened and mystical ones. I think that in heightened states of consciousness sexuality declines, or at least changes. I think there may be a type of enlightened sexuality (I'm not sure), but it is normal for the more instinctive, animal sexuality to decline as consciousness rises

we are under the illusion that we have come a long way to get where we are ... and we never moved. we just add layers, or remove layers. but imo if there are more layers to remove, until there is nothing left. that's a goal

When? How would you define when within the infinite no time? what is the difference between before, after or at the same time? If time is an illusion, those concepts are illusory Physical reality is the dream of the infinite mind. You could label it as "dream", or "physical", "real", or any word. It is what it is.

do it without a doubt. Obsessive compulsive is probably a manifestation of your guilt. With 5meo it is possible that you realize that there is no fault, only what is, shame is the real "sin", lack of humbless. it can have huge benefits. It can also be unbalancing, but one have to take risks

Not only of society. deep down, innate, there is the duality between life and death. a huge urge to live. as we are social beings, this translates into acceptance-rejection, because the society keep us alive. it is something very real, not just social. the "should be" in the end is what it should be to optimize survival. for this it is difficult to transcend. it's on our hardware. for the self, or the "should be", to dissolve, it is not enough to understand it. you have to see that what is is perfect by definition. it is the existence that arises from emptiness, absolute. It is not easy to see absolute perfection in illness, violence, loss. in fact it is almost impossible since it goes against our hardware. that is why traditionally whoever has really wanted to see it has had to renounce the world, that is, the need for survival. I think nowadays we can see glimpses or even get enlightened as our survival is highly guaranteed. That is why today we have the possibility of transcending the ego without being heroic renouncers. but if we were in other circumstances, it wouldn't be so easy

Yes , and because it is , is absolutely perfect. Obvious in a way, impossible to see in another. For the mind that continually projects the "should be", it is a completely absurd idea .but it is not an idea, it is real, if it is seen, the perfection and real beauty of each thing is manifested, you just have to eliminate the should be

like that, a kind of breakup that happens without warning ,but it must be the i itself that wants to break itself it seems

I don't know if it happens to you, I would say yes, in my case the problem has been a long time that I believed that many things in my life should not have happened, should be different. This creates a constant background distortion that is anxiety. imagine that what should be is one track, and what is and is another. if they are not exactly the same, there is distortion. To match them, you have to understand one thing very clearly: absolutely everything that has happened to you and you are is perfection. there is not a comma to change or a millimeter to move. any pretense of it is a huge lack of humility, ego in its purest form. It may sound very obvious but it is not really easy to see. The idea yes, but not how real is it. you are the reality, completely perfect. the idea that something should have been different is madness, delirium. There isn't "should be", doesn't exist such idea. If you can see it, you will see how absurd it is to have "dark spots". I don't know what is the technique to see this, I saw it clearly for the first time with mushrooms, the reality that arises from the nothingness like a miracle should be different?? suddenly, in a moment, all thinking about my story stopped. lost its strength. then he came back but after a while of meditation it becomes evident again. is liberation