Breakingthewall

Yeah , sure, the problem if it they don't sent you nothing. Now there is no 5 meo malt in any place of chemical research. They have 5meo DMT, dipt, etc, but no malt. Only in 2 or 3 places where the minimum is 200 or 300 $. In one of them they sell natural mescaline in powder. It's impossible. They are fake. I guess malt is going to be available in a while. Maybe it isn't because in the past no body bought it, and now many does

All of that sites are fake. Don't buy in sites where the minimum is 200 or 300. If you have doubts search in google the name of the site in scam detector.

I've had that kind of problem and I've ruminated hate a lot. Let's see, when someone disrespects you, humiliates you, etc, they leave a mark on you, right? you can't forget it, it will corrode you like acid even if you don't want to. You can't turn the other cheek, impossible. then, the solution is not difficult. It's not usual to be disrespected, right? but it can happen. if it happens, just react. in a serious, strong, hard, tough, aggressive, merciless, murderous way (the last one is a joke). do it in such a way that you think: I have gone too far, I should apologize because this person makes me feel sorry for how I have crushed him. And that's it, the hate disappears, there is pity. It may be simplistic and not very spiritual, but it is the only thing that has worked for me. There is a situation where me or the other is going to feel bad. So i choose that the other is who is going to ruminate. having thought about it before being such an idiot. The possibility of the situation could finish quite bad exist, but what to do? If you want peace, be ready for war

Easy, you just have to be indifferent to all that. Then the present will offer you much more. but as long as all that is important, the present will escape you, it will always be one step ahead of you

I think that any awakening is temporary, perhaps Ramakrishna sits drooling for a week needing to be fed and washed, but even then it is temporary. in order to function in the world, the doors must be closed. As Aldous Huxley said, the mind is an elimination machine. remove everything that is not necessary for survival. Or as William Blake said: if the doors of perception were opened, everything would manifest as it is: infinite. and you would drool until you die

@AdeptusPsychonauticai guess he mean that the chemistry of the brain is constructed in such a way as to provide great solidity to the structure of the ego, to guarantee the survival of the individual and the group, and that the psychedelic alters that chemistry in a certain way. temporary, dissolving the ego barriers that give consistency to subjective reality, thus allowing a total opening of the mind and enlightenment happening. This has a scientific explanation since there are substances that stop the activity of the frontal lobe, which is where the structure of the separate self is created...at least it's that i think it happens . The thing here is to define enlightenment.

if you let go of the ego for a moment, you will see without a shadow of a doubt that there is no difference between being alive or dead. the difference is created by the ego

True, this has always existed. the ascetics, the renouncers, who went alone to the mountains or to the forest for several years meditating on the verge of starvation and completely unconcerned about their physical integrity, renouncing everything worldly, everything that can strengthen the ego, and with practices of deep meditation, teachers, etc., after the years, perhaps in old age, and only in a few cases, predisposed minds, radioactive minds in the sense of being by birth not completely stable in the ego, it happened that the shell cracked and enlightenment happened Now that I think about radioactive minds, I think that a large number of the true mystics died young of cancer. Ramakrishna, several of his disciples, maharshi, and I think several. Probably the predisposition to enlightenment is a kind of malfunction

the structure of the mind is almost as solid as that of the atom. it will not dissolve. it is something extremely rare. a lot of meditation to soften it, but it doesn't happen, it's still there, 30 or 40 years. You have to put solvent on it. there is a very interesting experiment. you take small puffs of 5 meo, very little by little, until you see that the mind is about to dissolve. even being ready, you have one certainty: it is impossible for it to dissolve. the forces that hold it together are enormous, cosmic forces. and suddenly, a hole opens up, that's the magic of that shit. This is real, it's physical. the walls of the ego are absolutely real, nothing imaginary

Agreed, but still there are layers. You can go into deep meditation in silence, without interference, but still your ego is blocking. the obstacle that you are is a reinforced steel door, it is more than it seems. let's say that you are in the present moment empty of mental content . but there is more. you can't help but differentiate, even if you don't think. you are a software in automatic operation. the narrative can stop but still the mind is differentiating, it goes very deep. chemistry gives the software reboot button.

It's not a question of which is more valuable. without ego, without memory, what would you be? what would be your experience? absolutely all your current experience is impregnated with memory. without memory your hand is not a hand, it is not different from the empty space that surrounds it. Your direct experience has many layers of ego, to detache them is almost impossible, it's a solid construction. You need chemical help. the memory of an enlightenment experience is not the enlightenment itself but is something that leaves a mark on the psyche, an opening to the void.

it is enlightenment. it is a door that opens, the infinity that it is, the total love that flows totally. the bottomless divine void that shines. you, that is, god. Even if it's just a memory, erase your sadness

I think that permanent enlightenment is possible, and that it must be achieved, but i don't know how. The thing is that "achieves" implies the opposite to enlightenment. it's not about getting anywhere, as you said, it's already the case, but there are very serious barriers that prevent you from seeing it, that keep you mired in the shadows. this barrier is solid since it is you. if there is you there is no enlightenment, simple. if you want enlightenment you have to cancel the you, but the fact of "wanting enlightenment" is the you in all its power. It is a very delicate, subtle matter. Really I don't know the way, but seems that little by little the self recognize his unreality, his futility . you can wake up completely with psychedelics, which erase the self for a while, but living without a self, transparent, empty...it's extremely unusual imo.

unconditional love has nothing to do with human love. human love is totally conditioned, it is attachment, mutual support, tribe, norms. unconditional love makes no difference between a mother with her baby or three psychopaths hacking you apart with axes while dying of laughter.

work for a few months, and after that think what possibilities you have, that it could be a good idea, and go for it, with university or without

I didn't finish my 1/2 ehh, i only tasted, but the thing was so....._____....that i need to have more of that magic in my fridge Btw, thanks Leo, for the malt. Right after I did, I thought it was my duty to donate 500 to you for finding out something like that. then I went cold, you know?. but i really appreciate it

there is no legal problem, of course it would be nice to talk about it. right now it is impossible to find 5 meo malt. I ordered it, I got 1/2 gr, I tried it, and I thought: I want more of this , this is the ShangriLa. but incredibly the Dutch company where I ordered it closed the day after my order, so I started looking, and most of them are scams. They force large orders and researching on the web there are many comments from people who never received it, some with orders of 1600 us. well, at least I have my 1/2 gr of malt, but now it's completely impossible to find. dmt yes in abundance.

@Illusory Self you have a shitty ego, very dysfunctional. this is a very serious challenge and it can easily end in disaster, I mean, chronic depression, loneliness, being a bitter old man who doesn't find the courage to commit suicide... you know, at 26 you are a promise, at 46, a disappointment, and at 20 years go by fast. In my opinion, in your situation, in which I feel identified in the past, you have to be very, very serious. Go to transcendence, enlightenment . you have a nice puzzle ahead, but watch out! we are not playing here. The consequences of laziness, lack of insight, or simple bad luck, are the disaster. we are at war, not playing. If you need any help, I'm glad to try to contribute my grain. I understand what is at stake

I was contemplating on this and what has happened to you is simply that the ego has been unstuck for 5 minutes. then it got stuck again. the spiritual work is to detach the ego, and it is very difficult. it is always mixed with you. the unstuck ego continues to function, but detached. The problem is that it's like water and ink. At the minimum movement it get mixed again. it is difficult to detach it, you can meditate for hours and it does not happen, but sometimes, spontaneously, it happens. always imo when you have been meditating daily lately. it would be wonderful to be able to take it off in a lasting way, no more is needed to be 100% happy I am sure that the solution is serious meditation. I've relaxed my meditation lately, it's time to go back to 3 hours a day But we'll, it's not so simple. You have to overcome the fear. It's the fear what does that the water and the ink get mixed again

That happened to me precisely in bed before sleeping. total silence, but not forced. the mind is a bottomless well, everything is a bottomless pit. you can think, and thoughts pass. you can say for example: wow, this is, without a doubt. the limitless. I think I'll stay like this. and then a full minute without a single thought. then: how wonderful, that's how it should always be. wealth, life ,or, obviously it's exactly the same be alive or dead...but after a while you start: let's see, this then means that blah blah blah and goodbye, you can't go back there, you're in the eternal chatter again, for days.

yes, a solution. have courage and step out of your comfort zone constantly. do therapy, expose yourself to others whenever you have the chance, tell your secrets, express what makes you ashamed, practice the truth. At first it will be difficult since shame is a primordial emotion, very real. an atavistic feeling necessary for life in society, but you cannot let it dominate you. feel the shame, and act in spite of it. With time it will be very easy. what before seemed like a monster, will seem like a kitten

It depends on what your goals are. medicine implies disease to cure, but there comes a point where you are clean of trauma (psychedelics help enormously in this) and what you seek is to dissolve the illusion of the ego, transcendence. true enlightenment. In my case it is for pure selfishness. I have realized that enlightenment is the real happiness. anything else is a substitute without life or grace. Only God is the goal. It sounds very selfish, and it really is.

the absolute truth is realizing that reality is absolute, there are no differences. it is not something mental but a perception. to know the absolute truth is not to understand it but to know its taste. the absolute truth is you

In the end we are human and we need the social, although the social is at the same time the problem. The key is in balance, it is not easy

human love is comforting but it is a source of attachment. reinforces the ego. metaphysical love is pure detachment. it is the love of existence to exist, and does not differentiate in the least between one thing that exists and another. just by existing, they are pure love. we are tribal humans and it is extremely difficult for us to do without human, conditioned love, and thus we always live attached to the ego. detached human love... does it exist?