Breakingthewall

Pity that you haven't 5 meo DMT, it's the most direct, clean. I ve tried a bit of 5 meo malt, and in my opinion it's much stronger, and not so direct to the ego death. Let's see how it works for you

Yes, but, what this implies? it means that you have been doing this cycle for an infinite time. this implies that you have already done all possible finite experiences infinite times. this implies that you have not done them, you are doing them now. there is no time sequence. and lastly, this implies that all these infinite experiences, each repeated an infinite number of times, are equal to nothing. being infinite they lose their individuality, they are not something unique, real. they are only potentiality, the same as one another, homogeneous because everything that could be, is

I d say that you disappear as if you had never existed, just like a dream. the total existence that you are remains. will you dream again? that implies time. You are already dreaming all dreams. and they are nothing. It is very difficult to understand, perhaps impossible. how to understand the infinity out of the time with a finite mind that works in linear time?

Better explained impossible.

what most unites people is their need to belong and their need for approval

Yeah, agree. when i said same as you i meant same as me. and it was a stupid post written in a bad moment. there are people of integrity, transparency, with whom having dealings is a pleasure and luck. Anyway, you can have many real realizations and be very unperfected.

Sure, awakening is addictive. once you start there is no turning back. realizing that you are infinity has many advantages. improve your quality of life x100. in fact, you realize that before your life was shit, so shit that you hid from yourself realities like death because they were impossible to swallow. You did like children: if I don't look at it, it doesn't exist. anxiety, addiction, falsehood. realizing infinity opens your heart to love. love to life, to yourself, to existence. But that doesn't mean you go around giving hugs. on the contrary, people are revealed as so petty (same as you were), that they make you want not to deal with humans. You see you dealt with people because you needed to. belonging, approval. when you stop needing this, they can go to hell (with love)

No, i do alone. The only strange thing that my body does is that it seems that you stop breathing and that you could go an indefinite time without breathing without noticing any urgency or reflex. So sometimes the fact of forcing your breath makes you not let go completely, but there comes a point when you forget about it, and the body works on its own. Another thing that happens sometimes is that the legs shake

What is the difference? When they say, i realized the eternity, you can't know exactly what his realization has been, just as I can't know what yours has been. Why are you sure that the zen buddhists have not reached the bottom? There are text really deep, like the hisng hsing ming, or kukai

i don't know Buddhism in depth, but more or less the history of Buddha. a rich guy who feels the need to go deeper, tries different possibilities and along the way becomes detached from the human, from the spiritual search, from sex, etc. in short, deconstruct. when he has reached total deconstruction, looking at a river he realizes the reality of existence. that is, the eternal, infinite. what happens is that he did not have psychedelics, but more or less it is what you say, or any spiritual path. detachment, deconstruction, in his case, thousands of hours of meditation, in yours, special psychedelic treatment. but where you get to is the same, right? For my part, the way is reversed. it is the psychedelic that tells me where I should deconstruct, where I should detach myself. but in the end it is deconstruction and detachment. What else could be?

I think that masturbating little (sometimes is necessary imo), keeps testosterone levels higher. I don't think it's because of semen retention but because masturbating a lot lowers testosterone due to the vibe of masturbation. It is not the same as having quality sex. masturbating, usually with porn, lowers you, it is an addictive and self-humiliating practice, it takes away your virility, confidence, self-esteem. All of this affect the testosterone levels. Everything affect. a study measured the testosterone levels of soccer fans after their team was defeated or emerged victorious. they varied significantly.

Have you tried a serious meditation practice? At the beginning it is very difficult, you can't even last 5 minutes. do sets of 5,7,10 minutes, until you manage to be half an hour without problem. When you make sitting still breathing the most satisfying part of the day, quitting addictive behavior becomes easier. you have to do it seriously and every day, even if it's frustrating at first

Yeah i know, maybe Leo goes deeper, it's possible because psychedelic are powerful, but at the end the idea is the same. Infinity, one, you. It can't be otherwise

I'd say that enlightenment for the Buddhist mean to transcend the human completely. the same as zen, or non-duality. not distinguish between good or bad, between you and what is not you, between life and death. then the limitations disappear, the ego stops encapsulating you, and you realize what reality is. reality, being non-dual, can only be one, not created, therefore eternal, infinite. that is, god, and since you are, and there is only one, infinite, you are that. I don't see the difference with what Leo says

money is sacred, it is a matter of honor. is: I change my work for your work. As humans, we alone are worth less than a worm. without the work of others we are dead in two days. That is why money must be earned by contributing, not being a speculative shit. When I ask a guy for a coffee in a bar, I'm performing a sacred ceremony

Thinking is the activity with which we humans create our own artificial world. humans are not beings adapted to an environment, but we adapt the environment to us. the more we adapt it, the more we think. once the medium is completely modified, as is the case, our medium is entirely thought. we live in an artificial world that we constantly create with our mental activity, billions of interconnected processors creating the collective ego. a strangest natural phenomenon. we cannot stop thinking because our function as entities of the hive is precisely that, to think.

appearance is irrelevant. the important thing is what you have inside, your passion, your courage, your intelligence, your integrity, your love for life. but if the only thing you have inside is your concern about how others see you... well, in that case it can be said that yes, you are an average guy

Little by little. What used to terrify me is now nothing. it is a detachment process. each one needs his time, but I think that once you start, the process does not stop

Today I have done 5 meo dmt. 25 mg snorted. It is the first time that I dare with so much. I have had breakthrough vaping but it is very different. it is an instant. the opening is total, but it immediately passes. snorted goes slowly. It has not been enough, there have been moments of opening to the whole, but most of the time it has been the void. A year ago this terrified me. now nothing, total tranquility. I see how everything is deconstructed, my mother, the smell of lemons, reality. okay, no problem. that there is absolutely nothing? okay. The breath stops and death? okay. then infinity opens, the freedom. but only a little, it hints. lacks a little power. the next will be 30 mg. It has been a very pleasant experience, zero stress, zero expectations, energetic release... totally therapeutic. a pity that tonight I fly for work, if not tomorrow I would go for the 30 mg

he means being enlightened to be present, to stop the analytical mind that filters and labels. this is fine because the modern human is completely in the mind, but it is not enlightenment. If it were, it would be like saying that a prehistoric hunter was enlightened, because he did not think, he only felt his body, the smells, the vision of the prey, etc. or a 3 year old kid. It is true that the hunter and the child have a much more satisfying and authentic experience than the average guy stuck in his mental histories today. And I suppose that the prehistoric hunter will have much more possibilities of having awakenings than a retired person addicted to Netflix, but enlightenment is going beyond this finite experience, it is opening up to infinity. and I suppose more than that, to understand that you are god creating this concrete experience and to understand how it is happening

The magic word is deconstruction. you have to get to the foundations of your psyche, the foundations of attachment and rejection that are genetically based and nurtured and strengthened from childhood, and demolish them. your mental landscape should be an empty lot, without walls, paths, forbidden and hidden areas. you must face everything and let everything go. it is extremely difficult (I do not claim that I have done it, only that I am working on it) As the zen poem hsin hsin ming says, as soon as you make the slightest difference, heaven and earth are infinitely separated. It means that the difference between your mother hugging you at 3 years old or being tortured in the most atrocious way is only a distinction created by you. the catch is that life and death are the same. detachment must be complete, loneliness total. the renunciation of the human, absolute. enlightenment is not fast food. requires giving everything

Imo it doesn't work. the problem with meditation schools, like Vipassana, is that they do things by force. his idea is: the problem is thinking, so we have to stop thinking and we will do it for my balls. the question is: why do you think compulsively? that forces you to constantly interpret reality, to label it, to project yourself into the past and the future? it is anxiety. If deep down in your psyche the vibration is anxious, trying to stop thinking will be like stretching a spring. you can do it for a moment, but its inertia will be to return to its position. you have to go to the bottom and understand the mechanisms of attachment and rejection that have created the illusion of separation and with it your entire psyche, face them and unravel the labyrinth. become a being without a psyche. I speak in theory because I am not at that point. I am at the point of deepening day by day, understanding and seeing how anxiety is diminishing and with it the mental noise. meditation is a practice that helps, but it alone is not enough

you have to go deeper into yourself. the first step is daily meditation. You drink to calm your anxiety. your anxiety is the distortion between what is and what should be. This distortion is the product of the illusion of separation that manifests as a lack of love. You need love. You think you'll have love when things are as they should be. they are not, and the distance between those points is pure anxiety, a void of love that is filled with addiction. seeing all this is not something that reason can achieve, you have to get to the bottom of yourself

solid and worked criticism. many valid and real points. but I have many doubts about many things. first thing, the word "teacher" . For me Leo is not a teacher, he is a guy who delves into reality and explains his findings. These hints can be useful for you on your way. I guess if you take the course he's talking about, he'll be a teacher, but he's not for now. second, traditional spirituality. I have the feeling that absolutely no one frees himself from the trap of the ego through any school of traditional spirituality. this may be wrong, but I can't help but think so. As you say, the goal of spirituality is liberation, not knowledge, since you cannot know infinity. but maybe if you can understand it. one thing is to cover and another to understand its mechanics. more and more it seems to me that without understanding there is no liberation, and without psychedelics there is no understanding. psychedelics are essential to be able to delve into the structure of reality, to understand it and thus stop being trapped in the trap of the ego. For liberation there must be understanding, and in this Leo is the pioneer. no one else tries to understand or explain what they have understood. lastly, his unloving attitude. It seems that he is a rather lonely guy, not at all gregarious by nature, who despises everything that is belonging to a group, feeling accepted, etc. and that is very noticeable when interacting with him. It seems that he has the typical superiority complex of a smart nerd who did not feel accepted in childhood for other kids less smart than him. and that shows, it makes him a bit poisonous in interaction with people, the dumbs. but hey, that's his problem, no one is perfect. And i think it's an advantage. It keeps him far of the sectary temptation. if what we want is to free ourselves, his work is of enormous help. That's enough And 4, the environment in the forum. What do you expect? A group of truly awakened people? Not today. Maybe one day.

depends. if she's a adolescent-minded woman (she can be 18 or 45), she'll find it attractive. adolescent I mean focused on liking, experimenting, hedonism, a certain narcissism. if she is a woman of mature mind, focused on giving, family, love, she will find it disgusting. Today we live in an adolescent, narcissistic, immature society. this is not intrinsically bad, it has positive things, others not. so, more and more people will see it as something positive