Breakingthewall

If there is a past, it is that you are asleep, then those reasoning will only be reasoning within the dream. if you are awake there is no such thing as past. You see the dream for what it is, a kind of energetic configuration that is formed in infinity at the present moment. It is not easy to stay awake for a long time, sleep has great inertia.

not escaping the ego's grip and opening to the wonder that reality is is just being a deep retarded. It so happens that almost everyone is like that, in this very strange human world, that seems a kind of hell of trapped souls who try to emerge from the monkey mud but stop halfway. A game at the end.

The thing is the level of violence necessary. with the appropriate violence you will break your ego, but what you want is for it to dissolve with minimal violence, over and over again, until it becomes tamed. then you are one step away from infinity all the time and you don't fall so deep into the ego's grip. For me, working with 5meo is less about insight and more about an instrument to lose weight in the ego.

those studies are not credible. moderate consumption of mdma leads to memory deficit, or serotonin transport or anything...and how do them measure it? Where do you find the study subjects? people who take mdma tend to do it sporadically and for them it's not a problem, so they don consider themselves as users. some do more, but those tend to also consume a lot of alcohol, a lot of cannabis, cocaine. so how to isolate the effect of mdma? it is extremely difficult to find reliable study subjects. One guy did it, testing people who used mdma at raves and didn't take any more drugs (really hard to find). He didn't find anything. It's difficult to find serious studies about MDMA but there are some. There are no conclusion. The only effect proved is hypertrophy of the heart valves, same than LSD but more.

if you take enough 5 meo the ego is turned off, that is, the experience becomes something without the mind. but that does not mean that you are going to have a mystical experience. Just the possibility of this happening is created. you can have a void experience and that's it, I don't understand how it works, but it is very different from one time and other times, radically different

Great post man

only your conclusions are valid. and even those are valid up to a point. there are many angles from which to reach a conclusion. Watching Leo's videos will make you contrast one vision with another, realize the flexibility that is necessary to understand. But don't believe what Leo says. Believing what someone tells you automatically makes you an idiot.

thanks for the compliment. the point is when you stop seeing everything filtered by the tons of garbage learned, you empty the hard drive and start seeing directly. you realize how absolutely fascinating the matter is. infinity manifesting right now

It is no longer just talking about spirituality and transcending the ego, but about education. This retarded society educates us to be a kind of eternal adolescent with a low tolerance for frustration, anchored in superficiality, chronically anxious and completely stupid. Some of us have had to focus for a time on spirituality, on understanding what reality is, since the mental scheme that we had formed with the interaction with our elders and with society in general was disastrous. but many put up with it and swim all their lives in the limbo of stupidity.

to really change you have to understand the structure of your personality. It is something very complex and it is not verbalizable. They are energetic patterns that are built based on survival, rejection and attachment, the vital need to be accepted. General insights such as an enlightenment experience with a psychedelic are not enough. you have to understand in depth, and for that, understand what it means to understand. an absolutely fascinating work that requires being truly penetrating. forget any learned wisdom, it is useless, it is superficial. Keep digging and you'll understand. your intelligence is infinite intelligence, do not underestimate it

5meo is a purification process. it's not a game. If you take a dose that opens you to infinity but you are not ready for it, you will shut down, you will fight against 5meo. You don't want to live this experience. I would say that in some cases it can kill. you have to go little by little, many light trips, until you feel that you want total dissolution, and you open yourself to it without resistance

Nirvana is when you flow with existence, when you stop resisting.

for me it sounds as a wrong idea. god is nothing, there is no boredom possible. God is the total potential, and the existence of something is the manifestation of that potentiality. the depth of existence is infinite and develops infinitely. there is no boredom, there is harmony, perfection, dance. but I think that the game exists, the enigma. For fun?

Exactly, you have to be firm, set limits and enforce them with the necessary force. That's life, if you don't you'll always be a puppet, and you can't live like that. You have to have the feeling that an inviolable area surrounds you, if someone tries it, it's war. the real war. It's the only way I know of to be yourself. I guess Jesus Christ didn't need this, I do. once you get used to it, people notice it and don't try to invade your territory, but at first you should fight, to really know that you are capable of defending your borders

maybe you never return to a toxic relationship, and this serves as a vaccine. I had enough with one. getting into that doesn't necessarily mean you're dependent, stupid, or whatever, it's that you fell in love with the wrong person and that's it. There will come a day (quite close I would say) when you look at the guy's face and see reality as it is, and think: god, how can he be so stupid and how did I like this fake drug addict? and you will not need to change the phone or anything like that. the spell will have been broken and as soon as you see another similar one you will see the bottom of his dead soul in a minute. or so I think

wanting things to be otherwise is the nature of the self. it is impossible to suppress that impulse, no matter how much you tell yourself that things are fine and all that. the only possible thing is to dissolve yourself and stop being a self. this is what spirituality is supposed to be. It is something very difficult since you are a self for something. Stop being a self is a difficult road, in many cases, most, impossible. but the lighter the self, the lighter the attachment and the lighter the suffering

Yeah, i agree, it was very difficult for me to act just by will, but other people can. I wish the op find the necessary strength

Maybe It's a good plan but it requires great willpower and self-control. in my case it never worked, the same as with other addictions. What did work is making me aware of myself and the process that led me to fall into certain practices. The last time I was in a sick relationship based on drugs and madness that I couldn't get out of, it happened that one day I couldn't look that person in the face. it made me physically sick. The same thing happened to me with tobacco, with marijuana, with mdma, with cocaine, with bad food, with everything. if it were not so, it would only have replaced one toxin with another. it's enormously difficult to know how to act when you're that way. The only solution for me is go to the cause, not to the effects

Hate and anger are your reaction to things not being exactly the way you want them to be. but you cannot decide to accept things as they are and live in harmony, it is impossible. what has to happen is that "you" disappear. then things are revealed as perfect. If you have a pesky ego, that's an incentive to dissolve yourself, but it's not an easy job, not at all.

the more awake, the less barriers you will put to your pain. the normal thing is that you realize that it was much bigger than you thought. being human is painful

solipsism is false, since it is only part of the truth. the solipsist thinks he is imagining others. He thinks that only he is real. but he doesn't realize that he isn't real either. there is no self that imagines, there is the infinite dancing. In this dance, the self and the others are at the same level, but the solipsist puts himself at another level, since he cannot understand what he really is.

5meo is a purification process. At first, every time you do it, your impurities, your lies, your fears, your attachments are revealed. in order to fully do 5meo you have to let go of everything. when you really get it, it is total liberation, a cleansing of all your energy channels that remains in time, but to have gotten there you have to have let go of control and attachment to yourself. This does not mean that you have become an ascetic or someone indifferent to the vicissitudes of life, obviously if they tell you tomorrow that you have cancer, it will generate anxiety, less than if you are a materialistic, of course. the difference is more in your ability to surrender to the present, to perceive the infinity of this moment, of what you are. If I compare myself with two years ago, when I started with 5meo, the difference is enormous. I've cleared megawatts of constant anxiety. I lived looking forward, conceptualizing, in the surface, now I'm more and more just in the present moment, almost totally. I will continue with this substance as long as it continues to be useful to me in my work to achieve total freedom

infinity is not one, it is not two. it's another dimension. just infinity. there is no loneliness in the absence of limits, there is absolute freedom. when you think: I am god and I am alone, you are thinking from the limited self. You can't see it from the bottomless pit that you really are

I'm not bad at keeping my balance in harsh conditions Let's see if the real shit comes. disease, disability, misery. who knows how he will react?

infinity is a completely different state than normal, it is another frequency. if you do it many times, little by little it becomes normal for you. I dream of infinity many nights, it's almost the same as a trip. my baseline, my energetic vibration, has completely changed. a total experience of absolute infinity is something beyond any explanation. we are finite, apparently. we live in the finite. entering the real dimension, the infinite, changes you forever