Breakingthewall

There is not enlightenment, there is only being. You, now, are. Man ...that's everything. Shit, we are trapped in ourselves, like miserly misers holding back an infinite river, for fear that it will be spent. each one in his capsule of greed, caressing his treasure like crazy gollums. just drop it. Give it. break your greed, give yourself to yourself. You are holding what cannot be held. Let it go. now .

Nothing else matters. Nothing matters. You are and you will always be. the form is indifferent, you are the eternal smile, the eternal flow, the total freedom. at the end, after all, I am without resistance. that's what it's all about. identify the resistance, look at it. is fear. Step over it, open up yourself. surrender. Don't be petty, give it your all to the now. open your heart completely to the now and say: I am. and you will flow

dignity is absolute, the same as perfection. everything that exists is dignified and perfect, since the fact of existing entails these qualities. God is absolute perfection. all that exists is god. it is perfect, loved, worthy of existence. nothing is left out, everything is included. torture is dignified and perfect, child rape is dignified and perfect, slavery is dignified and perfect, genocide is dignified and perfect. reality is a perfect jewel. its perfection is dazzling, its dignity is total. Its love is absolute.

Ha! That's powerful. Happy to see that you are is so good state.

Total self acceptance is the begging of real spirituality. real spirituality goes deeper than you can imagine. this, now, is the eternal present. its depth is infinite. It is manifesting itself in this concrete way. Fully accepting and loving yourself is the prerequisite for beginning to delve into the reality of what this eternal moment really is. what we do here is prepare ourselves for this cut, this necessary requirement. any non-acceptance is a barrier that will not allow you to get out of the ice on the surface. You can look at the bottom, but not dive until you accept totally yourself. Yourself includes everything that is in the now.

reality is unlimited, therefore, is. the lack of limitation make inevitable the being. being is unlimited, it can be anything, it is infinite. Its power is limitless, but there is one thing it cannot do. not to be. it is impossible. At the same moment that it ceased to be, it would be again, since the interval between these two moments would be non-existence, so doesn't exist, there is not interval and there is not time, it's being, now. And the now is eternal. God is trapped in eternity. but since he is infinite, it does not feel trapped, but free

I would distinguish between three levels of the ego. the one that we use to think as the ego, which is identification, self-image. what one thinks of himself and of reality, which translates into a constant mental flow that creates a bubble where he keeps himself locked up. that is to say, by staying locked up, it creates itself, since as soon as that flow ceases, it disappears. it is the social, human ego, created by language and interaction. then there is another level, the actual separation that the body creates. there is an out objetive. if they hits you it hurts, if you don't eat, you are hungry. it is the animal ego. and then there is a third level: the configuration of this apparent reality. the sequence of events, the senses, the forms, the cosmos, the energetic patterns that create this dimension. you can transcend the first, even the second, but it is extremely difficult to transcend the third. You can, by transcending the previous ones, intuit the absolute behind this apparent reality, but it is practically impossible to dissolve it completely. this is the ego of god. the mental creation that cosmos is. it is only fully transcended in very extraordinary cases or with psychedelics, which are master keys left in this dimension for that purpose.

There is much more liberation than there ever was, but not to that extent. every day there is more, it is like an opening to the unlimited that is being installed, but when you do 5meo and the opening is total, you realize the obstacle that you are. you are the veil. 5meo removes the veil for a moment and everything is perceived instantly, but in normal experience that is impossible, it is incompatible with being human. You can open up the experience to some extent. the more openness, the more happiness. But there is a limit since you are human I'd say

there are many barriers to break with 5meo. It is typical that of pure white light and no memories, experiences of love, and more, but the total openness is that there is nothing left of you and the clarity is total. It is the eternal infinity and you are it. the feeling is: obvious, how could I forget this? If that's what I've always been. not articulated in words but you realize that you forgot and now everything is clear. Yo are the totality, without limit. you get up and dance, laugh and understand what this moment is, how you are creating this experience, how layers and layers of energetic patterns are superimposed, everything is totally clear. the infinity being. Dancing with itself in a sacred dance of love. you peceive yourself flowing from the depth of nothingness, creating intricate shapes of beauty, is completely sacred. Over all, the quality of what you are: everything. Glory. you cry. you've seen.

When you did 5meo, did you get a total openess? I mean, did you became completely infinite, without awareness of being a human, having a body. complete relaxation of control, ultimate reality. the total absolute infinity, what is existence, and did you recognize yourself as the eternal infinity in complete freedom?

I'm not looking for peak sensations, I'm looking for openness and liberation from human barriers. I use 5meo as a tool, not as an end, in fact I meditate 2 hours a day and if I can 3. For me the most important thing is to open up to who I am, not doing it seems crazy to me. then 5meo is an invaluable help. First, opening up to 5meo requires a lot of work. if you have done 5 meo with doses almost but no, you have not done it. it has to be whole. second, full opening, if given, creates a permanent change in your energetic configuration. And 3, this is enlightenment, be one with the absolute. I think Leo is wrong about many things, one of them is spreading that meditating is unnecessary for this work, but it seems that for Leo it's very important to be sooooo special. What to do? but we have to keep the value of his message. We'll see what comes next. Waiting for the aliens ?

I used to drink sometimes, but I started to see it as something that blocked my perception and now I don't drink nothing, for about 6 months. Sometimes I go to a dinner and I think: today I'm going to drink a good wine, but when the time comes I realize that doing so will limit my experience, and I don't. a shame because quality wine is a great pleasure, I hope to drink it in the future

I laugh alone more and more, realizing the reality. It's full, alive, wonderful, free.

@Water by the River If you did 5 meo you should talk about that, for the progress of science. and if you never did, for the same reason you should do it. you are a professional meditator. You can contribute enormously to explain something very important to humanity. it's not a small thing! Forget "psychedelics", 5meo is the real deal

Crazy game, a real enigma, but very funny.

Sounds true, a smart and clean path, few can do that without the sting of suffering to push them. did you ever do psychedelics, or do you plan to do them? 5 months maybe? it would be very interesting

The only thing that separates you from the absolute is fear. fear is the capsule that creates the self. You can stop it with mechanical means, you have to overcome fear. work with psychedelics is for that. I have struggled with fear all my life, ever since I was a child. When i had 6 i already know that fear is that keep you imprisoned, because i grew surrounded of fear. There was a time when I was constantly doing things like wall climbing, hang gliding in extreme conditions , truly dangerous trips by boat, always the fear. It was a way of approaching something that I did not understand in that moment. perhaps wrong, perhaps necessary at that moment. It's fear that keeps us apart. absolutely not a drop has to remain. we have to be able to look the abyss in the face, without tricks, without subterfuge. give ourselves completely. Its not easy!

What do you want me to do if this is the only thing that is interesting to me? shit, I'm starting to do what I thought I would never do: talk about this with people outside of this forum as if it were normal ?? @Water by the River So You started to meditate seriously without having any opening until after a long time, that happened, right? Why you did? what motivated you? you and I are the ying and the yang, order and chaos ?

Lets see, Maybe some discipline and work are the next step. The path is changing while it's being walked. Thanks for all those suggestions

This never could work for me. My mind works is another frequency. imo any beaten path is a mistake, any system. you have to be absolutely independent, completely forget everything, empty your mind of any ideas, objectives, teachings, and see directly. I have moments of fusion with the now that they are real mystical experiences, a total silent comprehension of reality, but at the same time I continue to have trauma, although I would say that in the last week I have done decisive work. We'll see where life takes me. I would say that the complete fusion with the now in an almost permanent way, and let's see where the psychedelic leads me. Even i get a permanent flow state, id say i won't to stop using them, because is see a great potential there. I'm just starting, maybe in the first 10% of what it's possible with them .

For me psychedelic are a tool for understanding. I think that's the key. Not conceptual understanding, of course. Understanding of the barries that veils. For me will and control are not tools in this game, because they are the walls. But If you do that, you strength the you. Because YOU are doing a effort, trying something, and that is precisely the barrier Yes , seems that this is the final step. Yes , it's a loop created by fear that construct a bubble that encapsules the moment creating the illusion of the separate self. Fear is the key.

. The thoughts are just a manifestation of fear. You have to go directly to the fear, and forget the thoughts

an experience of total openness to infinity with 5 meo is something that I doubt even mystics like ramana maharshi or Ramakrishna can access. It is something forbidden, impossible. It is not silence or emptiness, it is the essence of reality, it is total enlightenment, it is impossible. is the infinity alive. To be able to open yourself totally with 5 meo is not easy. the substance is not going to do everything for you. It is a big help, but it is you who must open up

that would never work for me. I stop the thoughts whenthey stop making sense. Thoughts are the manifestation of something, they are not controllable. you have to understand where they come from, and open yourself up to it. Same, habits are a manifestation. Control the habits is a mistake, they have to dissapear spontaneously. I have 3 experiences with psychedelics that are completely different from each other and each one has a function: 5meo, realization of the absolute. this is essential. the absolute is unimaginable, an opening to it for 1 minute leaves a mark on you, illuminates your person, cleanses it. makes your whole being say: this. nothing else matters. mushrooms: strange, revealing, momentary visions that are shown to you and give you an indelible deep understanding in 1 second. images that are worth more than a year of normal maturation. weed: one or two puffs, non-dual state, mind expanded, fusion with now, opening, looking infinity in the face. these practices create a better sober experience every time. joy begins to be a constant. When you get rid of suffering, you realize the suffering that was there. while you lived in it you were not aware. the slightest mental suffering becomes intolerable. you have to be completely free of that. suffering is fear. you have to get over your fear and look into the infinite in the face, without any handholds

@Water by the River You wrote this in that post answerin to axiom (btw, i think it was a mistake to ban him, true that he insisted a lot with nothing, nothing, but he had some good points) : "And if you have become so impersonal or universal consciousness (nondual) that you can have that state of huge nonduality/mere appearance of the visual field/infiniteness sobre, well then you have deconstructed your separate self enough. This is the Gate-Keeper of the Gateless Gate. This deconstruction is better said a high-speed-search-task-and-cutting-off of separate self illusion-arisings (I-feelings, I-thoughts, Trekchö-Style), and that is what boosts the nonduality and mere appearance aspect of the visual field, which is " I understand what you say with a non-dual and infinite visual field. i come to that with 1 puff of weed, sober close. the present moment completely loses all interpretation and reveals itself as meaningless, unified, without differentiation subject object, empty of content, and limitless. Over all, real. The naked reality. But it could be longer, it's just moments, some minutes I don't understand how you can get to that with the observation and control of thoughts, I would say that it is impossible for me. The way to get there is to erase from this moment any fear, any barrier. open yourself fully to the moment and give of yourself. dissolve in yourself. you can go on thinking, but thoughts don't lock you in, they are surges that happen like anything else. although I suppose that if they disappeared completely the opening would be greater, total. that is where i have to arrive, to the total, absolute emptiness of the thinking mind. surrender must be total, any thought is a hold, we have to let go, totally. The i have to dissapear. I'm walking in that direction. Every opening is a step