Breakingthewall

In most cases, depression is caused by energetic blockages in the pattern that you are, caused by fear of being rejected or damaged, which are deeply entrenched and perpetuate creating habits and preventing the person from flowing freely.

I really like to vape 5 meo. plugging doesn't work well for me, through the nose yes, but it's fucking torture, it always goes down my throat and it's like swallowing bleach. I'm concerned that vaping is actually harmful to the lungs and throat on a serious level. why? because you are putting into your body a cloud of vapor with a caustic pH. the ph of the body and the blood is close to 7. I think the free base is 9 or something like that. that's abrasive. but on the other hand, I think the ph of nndmt is similar. this is so? because many people smoke a lot of changa and there is no evidence (for now) that it is harmful. If someone can contribute something I would appreciate it

it seems that infinity can be divided into infinities infinities that, being always the same infinity, act as independent ones, and that can collapse into one since they are really the same

Now i understand the idea, in part thanks to razard and amanem. absolutely everything that exists will be within your direct experience. if you are thinking of others, thinking of others is your direct experience. Not the others, just thinking in others. there is nothing else and there can't be nothing else. if there is, it would be because it has entered your direct experience, so your pov is the absolute. point. To think that perhaps it is obeler's pov exists, it is something that I am thinking about now. no obeler pov, just my idea of obeler pov. You cannot get out of your direct experience, because if you did, that would be your direct experience, so there is only your direct experience, and that's it.

We call ego to the energy that desires and fears, and that by doing that, separates between me/not me.

No, you could look for business or anything. You just have to feel the inescapable need of awakening

What I wanted to say is that stupidity is not a lack of intelligence, it is something in itself. stupidity is what allows you to be asleep, evading what you really are, focused on meaningless problems, projecting meaningless goals. if there comes a time when your stupidity decreases from a critical point, you find it unbearable to stay asleep, you clearly see the trap that is your way of processing and you seek to wake up with any cost

Yeah , i gave some authority to many people in the relative. at the end, there are two fields: the relative and the absolute. the absolute is that I am, and nobody have authority about this, just me. the relative thing is that razar can have a pov or not have a pov. Amanem says he doesn't have it, I would say yes... but I don't know. In that field, i give some authority to amanem, because it's something relative and impossible to know

@Razard86 Yeah i get you, but the point of the solipsism is not that. I have been thinking about it and I have come to the conclusion that the solipsism of leo, and of amanem, is a belief. they believe that the people they see walking down the street do not have a pov. They are empty images. I have another belief, that they have a pov, like mine. both are just beliefs, impossible to prove. you, razard, think that they do have a pov, from what you say, so you do not agree with the solipist belief Anyway, any belief is meaningless. The only thing that is sure is that i am, the other is not so important And i didn't give my authority to another person, i just said amanem: i respect you as someone who dig deep so, even i don't share you opinion i take it as a possibility

Imo you should explain them what is the point of 5 meo, and start with low doses. 5 meo is a process of purification Probably would be better start with mushrooms, and if they find interesting the psychedelic, continue with 5 meo

much better 5 meo. nn will give them strange, meaningless hallucinations, and probably fear. for what? so they think psychedelics are dangerous and crazy? 5 meo is the key for anyone who wants to use psychedelics as an awakening aid. no magic pill but great help

The cause of awakening is the lack of stupidity. when your level of stupidity drops below a certain point, you are forced to wake up. if your level of stupidity stays high enough, you will keep looking for other things

no belief can be tested The Nazis though that they imitate the nature, not that the nature imitates the Nazis. I'm not saying that they do, just that their ideas were to imitate the nature The Nazis were quite spiritual, they thought they were making a spiritual revolution. in nature strength triumphs and weakness dies, therefore, if you die, it is because you were weak, that is, you had to die. that you live would be an aberration. for them it is obvious. the right wing drinks from Nazism. beauty, appearance, ostentation, show that you deserve to live. the ugliness, the weakness, that you deserve to die. they are superficial! for them it is obvious. donald trump is a nazi, there are millions of nazis. Nazism is just superficiality, not evilness. Well, evilness = superficiality. for them it is absolutely obvious and whoever does not understand it is crazy. But look, for example, a bird that is more beautiful that another have more possibilities to reproduce, any animal that is stronger has more possibilities to survive, their pov looks obvious. Their mistake is that they don't understand what means to be human

that's exactly what the Nazis thought. Do you think their wish was to be evil? they thought they were just. They were stupid, they couldn't see beyond the superficial.

Yeah you're right, all of that is illusion, and imo it's irrelevant. The only thing is to polish this actual illusion until it's perfect....but it's just my illusion

No, if you remove all the lies , the truth remains, and it's absolute. And it's quite simple: just you, the infinity.

When you break all the barriers, what's left? obviously, without barriers, there are no limits. the unfathomable void Infinity. and you realize that your heart was imprisoned. If the doors of perception were opened, everything would show itself as it is: infinite. but the human has locked himself in the four walls of his cave. infinity is god, and it is you. you. you with a free heart, exploding in total freedom in an infinite explosion, which we call love

imo shame = death. As a human you need the human collective to survive, if the tribe kicks you out of the cave, you're dead. If your parents reject you, you're dead. If women don't accept you, you don't reproduce and your genes are dead. then very soon something very powerful happens in you: I need to be accepted, it is vital. I perceive that I am not completely accepted, or that I will not be if others realize certain things. my feeling towards it is deep panic. I will hide those things so as not to be unworthy and thus be accepted. paradise is the acceptance of the tribe. hell, the rejection. That's shame. So I'm going to open an Instagram account so everyone can see how cool I am. and then I'm going to become spiritual and I'm going to show everyone that acceptance doesn't matter to me since I'm above all that and in this way feel accepted by a creation of the mind called "god". Spiritual ego. The maze is tricky, the only way out is the total deconstruction

There is only one way to surrender: when you realize that what you were fighting against was yourself. you were creating an internal war where you fought against yourself. Surrender is realizing that control was impossible, a fiction, and the controller an illusion, so you don't need to let go because you realize you never had it. you spill into yourself and the distinctions begin to cease

Buy a torch to flambé desserts, with that you vape everything at once without leaving any residue. those €20 scales are quite precise, an error of 2 mg more or less. It's beside the point, but I remember a video of Octavio Reitig using a normal bic-style lighter, outdoors, that went out all the time. how professional

In my experience, suffering is not a problem. we can endure tons of suffering, and we will be proud of it and forget it when it is over. the real trauma is shame. that is what remains, the deep feeling of being unworthy. That feeling in unbearable for a kid and that's why use to be hidden. the point is that all humans have suffered from lack of love and shame and have hidden it. It's a good thing that the shame has been overwhelming, so cover-up tactics aren't effective and suffering seeps in everywhere, forcing you to take action. when you see that neither works, only radical deconstruction remains. at least this has been my experience

Don't underestimate the effect that such a guy can have in the psyche of a child. there are many layers of hidden trauma, and it's hidden for a reason. unearthing all that is not easy. imo what works amazing is mushrooms. They will make you see things that were there in front of you but you did not see them. You will see how subtle your mind is, its great concealment tricks. I am not saying that you have not done the work, I am saying that the work is very deep. a child hides emotional pain in order to keep moving forward. the adult has the ability to face it but the concealment mechanisms are still active, as if it were a spell

that father you had was a tough teacher. I also had a very crazy one. It is he who has guided you to the gates of real mysticism. loving him is difficult, but it is possible. He's you...you know that in your mind, but it's hard to really accept. it is a factor of separation, of hate. There are so many layers, it's hard to uncover them all. The good thing is that in a case like this it is a necessity, and underneath all of them is the great void that is alive. so your father was probably the best father possible

Yes, and what was that about looking for a camera that would allow you to record the transformation into an alien? That episode is very interesting, on a science level. push the limits, see what happens. since then looking forward to know in detail. fortunately it seems that leo is grounded on earth as always, but that little flight is very interesting

Sounds quite accurate. But you never know...let's see where he arrives.