Breakingthewall

It depends. The other day I saw an older guy asking for help in a portal. I helped him go up to the 5th floor without elevator. He told me that he hadn't gone down for 2 months because then he couldn't go up. that he went 6 months to a nursing home but that was the horror, and he was there alone, in his apartment.

there is only one way to transcend the fear of death. see throughout life that each event is exactly what has to happen when it has to happen. you flow with life and when it comes to an end you can accept it naturally and without fear. I'm not speaking from experience, obviously. Exactly, we are not animals adapted to the environment who live in the eternal present, we depends of the mind to survive, so the mind is not a joke. In fact, is the main thing. spirituality tells you: transcend the mind and be like a bird. Yes, sure. The thing is: understand the mind and master the mind in the extent that you can.

The issue of the ego is not so mystical, nor is it necessary to talk about God and all that. It is something much more earthly. it is necessary to understand how the interaction with others through language plus the evolutionary programming creates a common, cultural, unified entity. the social matrix. here lies the strength of the human as a collective and its weakness as an individual. You will not see any animal torturing itself for not meeting standards, he is and that's it. the human is dominated by this entity. He is capable of running towards a machine gun powered by this entity. its force is irresistible. If you want to be free, you have to understand it deeply, see how it sinks its roots in you, how you are its puppet. It's very interesting and fascinating. If you don't do, all the spirituality is just another addiction. More ego. An example, every time a person says the word "god" in this forum, it is ego, it is a learned idea captured from the social matrix. Leo is the social matrix, you know that right? This is what the solipsism video means: only you exist, the rest is imaginary, is ego. Conquer your sovereignty.

yes of course, if you are in a fully awake state just by lying down with your eyes closed you will expand to infinity and your reality will be total glory. but if they lock you in a room for 2 weeks, you will begin to be in an unpleasant, restless, sad state. if they lock you up for 6 years, you'll probably go crazy. You are a human, programmed by the evolution to work in a determined way.

try 5 meo, it worked for me. I had unresolved trauma from a crazy narcissistic father, I tried everything, really dangerous things, I took the matter to the extreme. Helps but not really solved, the dissonance was always there, all the time underlying suffering, violent dreams at night, murder, massacres. In the end, 5meo allowed me to really open up. zero trauma now, it seemed impossible. I see everything that happened to me as a work of art necessary to get to this point. My openness to the present is great and every day it is more. it is almost complete. I am, reality is, I am reality happening, it's perfect. try it, maybe it will work for you. You have to do it many times, a hundred, as many as you need

the issue is not getting rid of the ego, it is getting rid of fear. Fear in general, and especially the fear of rejection, makes us lock ourselves in a capsule of constant mental flow that isolates us from reality. Actually, that capsule is also reality, but it creates the appearance of filtering everything through it. all the time he is conceptualizing, classifying, evaluating and giving an opinion. It doesn't stop for a second, because if it stops, you have nothing to hold on to. You are in the unlimited now. this is exactly what we want. stand up to fear and be now without a filter. It seems simple, but it is not. it takes deep understanding, will and courage. the prize is freedom, which is our natural and normal state. the other, with the capsule, is a malfunction created by human dynamics

@Jowblob I think you should change your, let's say, spiritual focus. You're looking for answers, know. that is not how it works. you must look for opening. don't take meo as something that will tell you what reality is like, take it as a meditative exercise. open , that's the answer.

I was criticizing the guy, thinking that all this stuff about shamans is stupid, and I realize that there are many different paths. what matters is the breaking of the limits, and that's it. a 5meo vaping trip has only one purpose: to break the limits. This is not a recipe for happiness or anything like that, it is an event that occurs in your life and that is very beneficial. I don't think it's the end of the psychedelic path, but the beginning. First, being able to break through 5meo without a problem. then start with mushrooms, lsd, etc. 5 meo is to lose virginity

@Dr Palmer Aldritch man, respect to you. You are in the war, in the trenches where the bullets whistle and the shells fall. I can see that you are a guy who does not give up and who knows that there is only one way out: forward. I know what it's like to come from a family of mental illness, insanity and trauma. You have a beautiful enigma in front of you, and you have to solve it completely. For me what has worked is, fight, go ahead, to the maximum, polish yourself and believe in your instinct.

great post, the truth speaks in your message, unfiltered. That is the way, do not worry about anything other than being you, your truth, identify, as you are doing, all the acquired ideas that undermine you, become strong in your truth and everything will be clean, perfect, fluid

become a monk, without any expense except psychedelics until you turn your brain into a primordial soup. maybe it's fun

No, if you are in that situation you don't know what is vision or anything, if you feel that you have a body or that there is you looking anything, you have to vape more. You lie on the floor and think: let it happen, surrender. and if the dose is enough, it happens. limit are broken. And that's it, there is no vision, you can't think anything, you don't cling to anything, you don't look for anything, because the idea of doing this is precisely letting go completely. but I can only do this for a short time. 5 minutes, then the mind returns. You keep realizing infinity but you are there. With more practice I want to be able to do it longer, an hour, like Leo says plugging. It seems impossible for now, but it is an exercise to increase the exposure little by little

I bet your problem is more earthly and less mystical. working and earning money is shit right? torture level. I understand you perfectly. put your mind to work and find your way out of the maze.

No, when you do 5meo there is no vision, first your field of vision becomes a kind of spinning fractals, or overlapping white squares, then...infinity. no more dimensions, No more body, Unlimited Depth, then, the depth could be absolutely nothing and it's quite horrible for me, or the depth opens and it's everything. You are everything, no limit, absolute freedom, absolute power, the existence. Yes, of course. It's normal, just the infinite in it's infinite perfection, the glory of existence, thats what I am. then after a while you open your eyes and get up and see everything normal, but you realize that it is infinity, right now. and you start laughing with the greatest happiness in your life.

I have done it several times but vaped, that it is very brief but the thing is not that you see that you are the source or god or anything but that the finiteness is completely broken and infinity is. there are no dimensions, there is everything, unlimited. it is impersonal and at the same time it is you. It is the reality from which you have removed the human suit that you wear. It is the perfection and the total glory of the infinite, it's what you are looking for, and that is what we are. It's still not something I can do at will. many times I do 5meo and it is interesting and I have insights, like to see the pattern of existence that is this experience, how it is created, but it is not the absolute total infinity. Only sometimes it happened, and it's like The Revelation. my goal is to be able to access that at will. The reason? In one side I don't want to be in the situation, let's say like a blind puppet, I want to open the code. see. And another reason more important: there is the real beauty. I tasted the real beauty when I was a kid and I remember very well .de real depth of existence. And little by little I m tasting it every days after many years disconnected and sad. If you have had that experience with LSD in which the void surrounded you and God in his solitude created this reality to forget his horrible situation, I think that the best thing you can do is 5meo until you completely break all the barriers, because stay at halfway is imbalance and depression

Traditionally, especially in the East, there have always been people who sought mystical states. Buddhism is an example. If Buddha had access to psychedelics, wouldn't he have used them? I would say that if the ancients were willing to go to a forest or a cave alone and without food for as long as it took, to sleep on a bed of nails, to fast for 20 days, they were willing to do anything. Today it is a tiny minority that even contemplates the possibility that mystical realizations are a possibility. 99% of people interested in psychedelics, which is increasing, seek to heal trauma, improve their lives. Let's see in actualized.org. Everyone here believes that mysticism is real, they understand Leo's ideas, they know that reality is endless depth. how many do 5meo in high dose? the 2%? Imagine the general population. but I think this is going to change. on the planet there are people with a true inclination to open up completely to the truth, and these people are going to discover what the way is, and the way needs psychedelics. or a crazy discipline and a crazy perseverance, that for them to occur simultaneously with the mystical inclination in the same person (see sellinwaterintheriver for example) all the planets have to align. now that is not necessary. just to want it is enough.

Yeah but this dialogue is infinite, and within it there are infinite multiverse, within them etc. Everything is . The depth of everything is total, if not, nothing could exist. All that you use to think and say is limited, you just should break the limitation and realize the infinity.

No man, because in infinite eternity there will be infinite moments in which you will be a real breakingthewall chatting with an imaginary holykael, and this is one of them. then you will be a real holykael chatting with an imaginary breakingthewall, then, the conclusion is that the imaginary is real, since in infinity everything is, everything that appears is infinite, so I am just as real as you. or more, since I don't complain so much ?

You are wrong ,because if the other people are the product of your imagination, they are also infinite, since you are infinite and your imagination is infinite, so those imaginary people are part of you, and part of the infinite is the total infinite, so those people are you and they have infinity inside, and everything that those people are imagining is in turn infinite, imagining infinite infinities. If you feel alone in the infinite, it is because you do not even remotely understand what infinity is.

@bensenbiz i think it's better to start vaping because it's very fast and the effect is short, so you can test what the substance does in you, and increase the dose little by little. I never found a drug with less feeling of toxicity. You can do a big dose now and in a couple of hours go to the gym, meet some friends, go to work, anything. Physically I mean, mentally it depends.

If 5meo didn't exist, I would never have been able to bring to the surface all the subconscious crap I had accumulated. 5meo is a great teacher, you perceive that he is going to dissolve you completely, that your psyche is going to be erased, but there are resistances, so you can see with total clarity what they are and delve into them. at first when i was doing 5meo the realization was an endless hole of utter horror. it was something indescribable. I did it over and over again until once I realized that the horror was my father, and I became my father, with all his addictions and his lies, for 5 minutes. Since then I haven't thought about it anymore, it dissapeared. So many other things, until there is nothing left. now I do and there is zero trauma. I think I will vape it in high doses about 5/8 times more. I almost got it, for example last week I did it and it was easy, but 16 mg vaped. I have to start with 20mg in one shot, and when that's easy, go longer roa, snorted. 5meo is a spiritual process in which if you know how to read yourself, you will progress at great speed. you have to be determined and not procrastinate. The first time I had a real realization of the infinite was after a horrible experience of absolute emptiness, infinite death. After 5 minutes I did it again, vaping an amount greater than 20 mg, perhaps 25, which added to the effect of the previous one (I do not notice any tolerance). reality exploded and infinity manifested itself. ha! let spirituality teachers say what they want. That is, and there is not the slightest doubt. You never going to forget that. The prodigal son was lost, wandering in the desert, and just now, in this exact moment, he's returned.

you have to leave the software behind and open up to reality. Forget any idea, as if the others are real or not, it doesn't matter. reality is, and within you is the totality of existence. Thinking about this on a mental level is useless, everything mental is limitation and reality is unlimited. there is only one way: the total desire to open yourself to reality at any cost. This desire is not out of selfishness but out of love, that's why is why very few do it. look for the particles of truth that are in you, in your childhood. Maybe you think that there is nothing, but it is not true, you have forgotten. above all, forget the ideas, all of them. the mind must be empty of content, only one intention: open yourself to the truth, to yourself. nothing else matters.

because if the infinite is the case (and it is for obvious reasons) the finite is not real, it does not exist, everything is infinite. infinity is unlimited ok? So, if you divide the unlimited into two parts, what is left? two unlimited (apparents) parts. if they are unlimited, they are equal, then they are the same and the division was not real, since if they are unlimited they cannot be separated, because neither can they be limited, because there was never a limit. if infinity is the case, a proton is infinite ,because it's just an idea of the infinity, and within it is infinity, with infinitely many protons within which is infinity. It's everything.. can you split that? Apparently yes, but only apparently, a dividing line within an ocean of infinity that means nothing, only appearance.

this is the result of conceptualizing spirituality. spirituality is getting out of the prison of the mind and opening up to reality, not filling the mind with new concepts. no concept is valid, not a single one. only direct experience right now is valid. spirituality is a change in the angle of perception, not knowing things. knowing is in the mental, learned, canned food, its value is zero.

everything you say is duality and temporality and is lack of understanding. nothing is predetermined because there is no pre. only exists now. god is not handling you like an avatar because that god does not exist, it is you, now, the creator of reality. you are the reality . nothing exists outside of you. nothing exists before you. your power is absolute. all this is your will. but you don't realize it. If you direct your will and your energy in one direction, reality accommodates your will. you modify reality in each micro thought, in each gesture, in each attitude. forget the stories of gods to which you are subjected. they do not exist. The reality is being created right now. Open yourself to it, and use your power.