Breakingthewall

4 in the morning, again. I'm a fucking sick, i know. I allow it to be. unlimited depth. limitless beauty. dance. understanding. release.

the vast majority of humans, once they leave childhood behind, settle into a life of suffering, to a greater or lesser extent. Memories, fears, complexes, rejections, frustration, decadence, depression. the only way out of that misery is to wake up, and hardly anyone is awake. if you wake up, you settle in the now, and joy arises. The issue now is to wake up deeper, to erase more of the disease that being human means.

I understand this story perfectly. awakening is opening yourself without reservation. 5meo promotes it hugely, but in my case, sometimes I refuse to do it, that's all. then you have the absence of cerebral activity and no opening, with which the experience becomes absolute closed, a black hole. Good thing I've been able to open myself completely 4 times and this doesn't scare me. It is a perfect exercise to see where your resistance is. sleep is resistance, awakening is total openness. I am looking for the total opening of 5 meo sober. why not? everything is possible, I'll keep working on it, I'm just taking the first steps

@Someone here Suffering is overrated, if you have to suffer, you suffer and that's it. If you expose yourself to suffering, you can endure much more than you imagine without much problem. what is difficult to bear is not being awake. It's not horrible, but it's sad, depressing. that is true suffering, because it lasts a lifetime

I suppose that human nature is built in such a way that at the first pinprick he goes from enlightened to deep asleep dreaming a nightmare, but theoretically, the other case could be the possible

@Someone here Well, neo's story is just a story, since he is not the creator of the matrix, it is something alien to him. reality is not like that. you are the neo experience in matrix, that is, neo and matrix, since both are imaginary, but the consciousness of it is not imaginary. You are the limitless reality that is creating that movie. infinity expressing itself. but it's you, that's the thing.

Just theoretically, there could be someone who is fully awake 24/7 and who doesn't care if he's tortured with hot irons or bathing in the Caribbean

Well, from what I have experienced is an energetic issue. you are built as an energetic pattern that processes reality in a certain way. it is not enough to deconstruct beliefs, this paves the way, but nothing more. a good analogy is the movie matrix. Neo knows that he is in the matrix and that it is all an illusion, but when Agent Smith beats him up, he hurts and fears him. Matrix construction is like this. you take a psychedelic and with luck, it happens to you like neo, you see that Smith is code, he can't do anything to you. In the case of real awakening, you don't see codes, you see that reality is infinite and that you are, and not just that, you see that you are everything, absolute freedom. You see how you are creating this current experience right now. but be careful, it can happen to you as it happens to me many times, reality breaks down and only a dead void remains. what you are is a mystery, you are absolute existence. You cannot understand this with your mind, it has to manifest itself. You can do things to promote this manifestation, like take 5meo, but it doesn't have to happen. when it happens, it's obvious, but it's nothing you can rationalize. can you rationalize that you are the total existence that has not been originated? it does not make any sense.

In some degree, yes , but total awakening it is a state radically different from the normal state we are in. it requires the violence of psychedelics, which block areas of your brain and enhance others and magic... you realize the obvious. btw i just had a very hard experience with it, its a very complicated thing, mastering it is an art. do not confuse awakening with softening your ego, accepting reality and assuming stories of god and love think that you are built as a blocker, to be able to have this experience. reversing your build is not a game

Well, it happened because I'm a bitch, i did and absolute and awakening but so subtle, so short. I put another 5meo in the pipe without measuring, to rape, to force, and...a slap in my face. Thanks! Make Love not war

I did again, absolute. Absolute horror. Well, i know that I can violate the gates of heaven because I have already done it several times, so I will continue with my torture. Hard work . But today, it's enough

Yes, being awake would eliminate your suffering completely and your existence would be pure joy, but no one is awake, some have awakening experiences, and then live in a semi-awake state, in which they perceive reality overshadowed by the unavoidable fact of being human.

@acidgoofy Speaking of which...I just had one of those experiences. Let's see, yesterday I did 5meo, breakthrough. empty, nothing, not horrible, just empty. Today I did it again, 20 mg vaped, total breakthrough, absolute void. nothing. death. the absolute ultimate reality is dead nothingness, the absolute is a funnel of horror. what we live in is a dead image on a background of absolute death. party!! ok, i do it again. Some time of awakening. I see it, the infinity that flows now. but he leaves right away, I did it too fast and the death ☠️ is still too fresh. Now I go down to the street to have a tea and see the sun. In an hour maybe I'll do it again, let's see if the fucking dead void opens. I know what's behind. I. Infinity. Now. it is absolutely challenging and exhausting but it's the price to open the illusion . all this is a hard work that I do for a reason: to perceive reality, the infinite flowing now. That is , me. every horrible break followed by a break where nothing opens makes my experience 24/7 clearer

Btw, i just read that 3 meo pce is a very dangerous substance. Maybe you should throw it and get some 5 meo

well done . I think you still have to go deeper. you are on the right path, you have to reach a point where infinity opens and total existence flows. all the intricate energy paths that make up your apparent being straighten out, control is completely relaxed. there is no you, only total reality, absolute joy. This kind of experience is very useful for two reasons. First, it opens the door to a joy, to a life, that was previously unimaginable. you lived in black and white and this is in color and 3d. and another, shows you that everything is here, in the present, in the only thing that exists. in you. this anchors you in the present in your daily life more and more, and this causes the traumas to be recognized for what they are, an energetic pattern that is happening now. the past is not real, it is now. and now you can fix it very easily if you understand what it is

@InfinityBeats Have you tried doing a complete breakthrough with 5 meo once a week approx? or alternate 5 meo and lsd, trip at night, so you have the day to do what you want, although with a little tiredness. Also, meditate for an hour every day. that is my project, although it is difficult for me to break through with 5meo, plugging or snorting does not work even if I do 35 mg. vaping yes... it will have to be vaped

Yes, I understand what you are saying, an experience is happening and that experience is perfect because there is no ego judging it as imperfect, and you consider that enlightenment. but there is a detail: you are the experience that is happening. you are the present moment. the experience is not happening to anyone, no one is the recipient of the experience. experience is movement, it is the infinite manifesting itself. you are that. spirituality=existence. The word work is very egoic, but in the end, the ego is the infinite manifesting itself. everything is a dance. You are not doing the dance, you are the dance.

For now it's always the same challenge, I do it, breakthrough and emptiness. it expands, encompasses everything, but there is nothing there, reality is dead emptiness. I am that. extremely negative. then I wait two hours, I do it again and the void opens. full awakening. I don't know why it happens like that. Sometimes the second is death too, a very challenging experience, but as i know, it's just a bad time Id say that the difference is that when it is death there is a self experiencing the void. when it is awakening, the self merges with the void, there is no body and there is an energetic discharge. Maybe i just have to increase the dose. 5meo is violent. It Uses violence to break your ego. if doesn't have enough power, you can't break it completely. though I'm not sure it's just this What about you? How did you get out of this? Happened again?

with mushrooms , reality is the infinite dancing with itself, making love to itself. everything is dance, harmony, beauty. It is perfection manifesting. it is an undulating, sensual, changing movement. Right now I am the manifestation of this, this dance taking shape. This perfect harmony is reality. intelligence, laughter, love. with 5 meo, reality is a well of endless depth. Everything is in that well. I am that. I am infinity, I embrace the totality, I have always been that. I recognize myself, my happiness is absolute.

You say that when you're a guy interested in spirituality, gone on meditation retreats, done psychedelics, etc. don't you see the contradiction? what happens is that you think that you have reached the goal, and the work is finished, when you have not really broken the final wall, where the true spiritual work begins, which has no end. If you had, you would understand what I'm saying. It is not the dissatisfied ego looking for a way out who wants to go deeper, that was the previous phase, in which the ego was trapped and sought to break its prison. there is no prison anymore, there is an endless present, but this present is of unlimited depth and it will deepen itself, not for dissatisfaction but for love for itself

Yes, sober or psychedelic state is qualitatively the same: the present moment manifesting itself. enlightenment is realizing that you are the present moment and that is reality. What happens is that if you are chased by a pack of hungry dogs and at the same time your appendix hurts terribly, it is difficult to realize that. the psychedelic radically changes the present moment but you are still you, it is always you. If the present moment is completely empty of content, its infinite depth becomes evident, and there what you really are is manifested. Right now, apparently something is happening. what is that something? That's where we have to dig deeper. imo it's not enough to just say mysterious things like this is nothing etc.

there is no noun without a verb or a verb without a noun, so it could be said that they are the same

both are imaginary. darkness is the same as cars or the sea, something you are imagining when it appears in your experience. nothing has reality by itself. Even the nothingness is imaginary

in my opinion human life is a puzzle to be solved, not a place of amusement. This is a work and quite difficult, to have fun there are the birds. human life has many layers, it is very complex, it is a game designed by a genius. reality is infinite, it is this present moment flowing without beginning or end, therefore, when this game is over, there will be others. how is the proccess? what comes next? is it imaginable? no idea.

Yeah, more than 3 arguments automatically implies trial by combat