Breakingthewall

In my experience, this is similar to using the absolute as a drug and it doesn't work, since the relative is still, and really, the relative is the absolute. the problem with memories is not just thinking about them but the energetic mark they carry. many events have created energy blockages in the person and it is extremely difficult to understand and unblock them. psychedelics are useful for this, btw. there are two ways to return to memories, one, by creating identity, searching for meaning and sense, judging. this is sterile and useless. another, when you have transcended all that of identity, to really see them, to understand. this is necessary and free yourself. Normally if you feel an attraction towards the past, it is because there is a blockage to work on. the hard part is knowing how to do it

I'd say life is planned as a kind of game that reality plays with itself, but without knowing the result. it is something it does to go deeper, to penetrate more within itself. It is a game in which there is passion and where no pain is spared.

The memories are so now as your breath. The memories are happening now, they are real and they have great power. Memories seem like dead verbal creations but they point to something very much alive, to what you are. You are an energetic construction, an multiplicity of intertwined patterns composing the entity that appears to exist at this moment. Memories are as real as your arm, it can be amputated ,if not it still there. Memories the same, only if they amputate a piece of your brain they disappear. They can be redirected, reorganized, and disempowered with work and intelligence, but the fast track of forgetting past by focusing on the present doesn't work, as memories are the present.

don't be fooled by the spiritual teachers, they are all phonies who repeat the same things. the past is real, it leaves an energetic imprint on you. Telling people to forget it and live in the present is idiotic and it hasn't worked for a single person in history, but it sounds great. If you are conditioned to obey, to despise yourself, to be afraid, you will. If an idiot with a pious smile tells you to get rid of that baggage and you'll be happy, and to pay him for it, don't listen to him. he is a faker. all spirituality is farce, business for fools. what triumphs is not what works, it is what sounds good. If you want to leave your conditioning behind, it will be the same as if you want to leave your 7 month pregnant belly behind, but 100 times harder. you will have to work hard, well, and on many fronts. Conquer the freedom is a difficult work.

@Holykael anyway, when things like that happen, maybe what happened is that you were very lucky. you have to heed the signs. though not always. it's a subtle thing. Sometimes you have to insist, other times you don't. but in general, when I see something like this happen, I think, it was not the time to take lsd. better forget about it for now. maybe i saved myself hell

Life always tests you. You have to be unbreakable, or you will be broken. simple. just keep going, like you're a force of nature, that never stops

human life is a game and you have to play it or you will sink into shit more and more. You may like it or not, but the reality is that either you advance or you sink. many before you have had a hopeless life and a miserable death. It's up to you to get out of there, or not.

not superior, but i wanted to say that mostly of people is in spirituality for a negative reason: scape from suffering. I have become interested in spirituality because I saw that life was a trap, so for a negative reason. but once you get out of it, you fall in love with who you are. you want to go deeper not because you feel bad but because of the beauty of what is, for a positive reason. it's a subtle difference. Imagine that you are in love with someone. You want to deepen that relationship because you are in love and that makes you happier. It's not the same as wanting to be in love to be happier, if you understand me. It's something you can't avoid. It fills you up. there is nothing else. The rest is nonsense, only your beloved matters. In this case your beloved is existence, and you want to penetrate it to the bottom, and for that you need to understand

You are right, the video I posted don't comes to the case, a fool example, but the books i mentioned yes, even they are from people from another time. And honestly i never saw anything about Tate except that video you posted, so maybe i talked too fast

Those guys are from ancient times but their message is simple and can be applied to any age: give it your all, maintain total integrity, face your fear, take action, do the impossible. You don't have to think about it too much, it's simple. This one is actual. But just an opinion, if Tate is helpful, good, maybe he is

@Emrie in my opinion, you feel a deep dissatisfaction with his life, the same as many, and have focused everything on the issue of gender, as if that is going to be the solution to everything. nothing is going to work, everything is it is ego, dead ends, but yours requires a lot of surgery, a lot of energy, a lot of sacrifice, and the result is not satisfactory. I wouldn't get into that. You are going to focus all you energy is something that doesn't worth it

if you want to study the archetype of the warrior, study, for example, Bernard Moitessier, who after completing a solo circumnavigation of the world in a small sailboat, passing through Cape Horn, upon arrival in France, thought that the honors he was going to receive for winning the race was going to corrupt him, he turned around and completed another tour of the world, he wrote many books, or miyamoto mushashi, who in medieval japan went from city to city challenging anyone who accepted to fight to death, and sometimes fought with two swords wooden versus steel sabers. After winning 60 duels to the death, he retired and wrote The 5 Rings, a book that is still studied in business schools. Or maybe Ernst junger, who likes a lot LSD, friend of Hoffman, he fought in the the trenches of the First World War, he was wounded 11 times, he wrote a war diary called Tempests of Steel, in which he recounts his experience. Or perhaps Henry Charriere, imprisoned in French Guiana for 15 years in the harshest conditions, who managed to escape after several attempts, tells it in his book Papillon, but not Tate, he's a fool.

The fear is the opposite of love. courage without intelligence is just a patch that usually leads to more fear and separation. This is why humans are the way we are, murderers, slave traders, etc. hitler was also very brave, or vlad the impaler. when there is a lot of fear in you, you cannot curl up in bed crying, you have to react. you are in a trap, you are alive, and full of fear, this is the ego. then you become aggressive so as not to be dominated by fear, but that strengthens fear, then you become more aggressive, addicted, crazy. if you are intelligent you realize that this is a trap and you turn around, you try to reverse the separation and you go towards unity, towards the truth. is the only real way out, the other is a dead end

being pure fear does not mean you are a coward. tate is brave, he has balls, but it's pure camouflaged fear. it is very common to react to your deep inner fear by putting on armor and becoming a brave fighter. that will not eliminate fear, it will only transform it into aggression.

You can have very deep understanding and very deep mystical states, but later in your human existence you will encounter human challenges. If someone tries to destroy what you are constructing, you can choose to fix it by killing them. this is not necessarily wrong. If you move in high states of consciousness, you will directly understand what is right or wrong for you at a given moment, there is no universal recipe.

There are two phases in the use of psychedelics. the first, which is hard trips, consists of revealing your subconscious and bringing it to the surface. Face your deepest fears. serious fears, since being human is trauma. this requires intelligence and courage. once your subconscious has merged with the conscious, the second phase begins, the mystic. This is serious hard work, not a magic pill for happiness.

Imo the matter of others is the central part of the illusion. which makes it impossible to understand in a sober state. any linear explanation is wrong. Leo's video of solipsism is a base but does not describe how apparent multiplicity works. I would say that it is impossible to describe it, it works in another dimension. I sometimes see it and understand it, but I lose it right away. the only valid explanation is: only you are real, applicable to infinite individuals. in our dimension this is not understandable.

This is the most clarifier and valuable thread that has been in this forum. It is the before and after in Leo's explanation of spirituality. finally, in the history of humanity, someone addresses this thoroughly. what is being done here is enormous and leo is a monster. few realize what this means.

He's an slave of his self-image, of social conventions, of the image he projects on others. That guy is pure fear, inside him there is a child scared of not being loved, he is a total wretch. and without remedy. He is the paradigm of adolescent seduction. anyone who admire that guy is still a teen at heart

Haha, obviously. I'm not copying Leo, i started this path by my own and then I found others. I had 5 meo in my fridge before to know that actualized exist. I use the others just an inspiration. For example, if Leo says that he has done 30 days of 5 meo on a row and he's still alive, i make my conclusions. Much better that to try without to know. He's doing the dirty work, the dangerous. He found malt, many other things, he's smart, he point the false conclusions. I have a debt with him. But he's not my master. Just a help, but a good one. An inspiration.

This may be necessary if you don't use psychedelics, but if you do, the matter is greatly simplified. It's not absolutely easy either, you need to overcome a phase of trauma. This seems easy once you've done it, but before it's a world. before it seems to you that with that you would settle and you do not want more. mistake. That is only the beginning. before you lived, basically, in a nightmare in which you harmed yourself. now there is calm, joy, like when you were a child. now the work begins! work is something of an enormity that sounds like a joke. if you say it out there they will think you are schizophrenic: decipher the mystery of existence. open the source code. As Leo says, and he is the only one in the world who says it and has said it, understand God. this is possible, the power of psychedelics combined with a prepared mind is enormous. think about it, you are limiting yourself as a religious fundamentalist. You could go much further ?

Great to know, because 2,5 years ago, i didn't know about awakening, in this time i ve done a progressive and quite intensive work, deconstruction, meditation, learning, and psychedelic. Now my state of consciousness is triple higher than it was, my level of suffering triple low, I have reached the point where I can do psychedelics and there is no trauma, dissolution is easy, joy, no limits. but I know that this is not all, far from it. it's just the introduction. so glad to have a guy who is ahead of the game explaining his way. it's great luck!

For me the mystery is this, what is beyond is the infinity, and it's very obvious, the real thing. But this appearance of multiplicity is the true mystery. realizing the absolute infinity is something wonderful, liberating, awakening. but what is the mechanics of this? why this appearance? this mirage? I can't say same as Socrates, because I know something. I know that reality is absolute infinity, and that's what I am. but I don't understand how it works. and it can be understood. my intelligence is infinite, it just needs to be released

The confusion that we all have is due to the concreteness and full of meaning of the experience that is occurring where there is perceiver and perceived. Today I tried to understand this with a moderate dose of mushrooms, 2 gr, enough for me to go in and out of ego death several times. once the illusion of a me as opposed to a non-me to which things happen is dissolved, reality is seen to be unlimited flow. in that flow this appearance is created. For what? I don't know. in this appearance it is impossible not to think in self/other terms, so when the appearance dissolves and there is no duality, and then it is created again, the interpretation is extremely misleading. For example, now I'm thinking, let's see, if reality is infinite flow, as i just realized , does the guy from the forum I'm talking to have any other experience? this is absolutely misleading, impossible to understand, since we think about it from the mirage of duality. I think that we have to dismantle many times the illusion to start understand. For now the only coherent though is: my experience is the absolute. Nothing else exist.

It's not just "feeling", it's analysis. Tolle never claimed that he understands the ultimate reality, he just has glimpses, and he admits his limitation. Adya claims he's "enlightened", he understands everything, or there is nothing to be understood, or communicated because the tao can't be spoken bla blah. And in my opinion, adya don't understand what reality is. He never realized the infinity. So he's fooling himself, he is a fake, even he thinks he realized the infinity. But this analysis could be wrong, of course.