Breakingthewall

I'm in the fight. Without a doubt, a truly difficult challenge. I have always had business, with the current one, four. always successfully. My previous business was a bit strange, planting weed, hydroponic with leds, about a thousand plants, illegal btw since in my country it is prohibited. with a partner, a house for that, etc. the business before was even stranger ?. The current one is the great challenge, I started 1.5 years ago, and I'm going with everything, to the maximum. I go around looking for very cheap sailing boats, from a widow for example, poorly maintained, in difficult places. I put them in conditions, and I sell them. so far 7 sold until now, but because god has been too generous with me. The first one I bought was small, 8 m, I named it with my mother name and after a couple of trials, I took it on a solo 8 day ocean trip. others not so long, two days, three, but very negligent. they were carelessly sold too. I became lazy with my previous business, confortable, weak. I am aiming for steel cross-country boats, for people who have a vital project of a multi-year trip, as I once did with a girl years ago. I know what those people want. Right now I have two steel boats and I am preparing them to the maximum. I am reaching my full potential little by little. I feel strength, total dedication. It is my act of love towards another person. the future owner who will make his trip. I want to give them something really good. That's on my mind when I work all day like a robot, learning very fast. I find bad people and good people, people who wants to help and scammers and money-hungry misers. I am sharper every day. I am in a delicate situation because there is a great crisis in the world and my money may run out, but there is no other way than forward, and i feel clearly that everything is following a path, if i do my part, the thing is going to work. I want to reach the excellence, give my best. Let's see.

Without your desires you are dead. It's something important to understand

How many people do you know who have a clear intention to deepen reality to the maximum and for that use, among other things, psychedelics?

I don't know if you are aware that human life is a fight to the death, like hyenas in the savannah, but more organized. The universe will let you be the whore of a tribe of psychopaths and sell your children as slaves to sadomasochistic brothels if you don't fight to the death. if buddha was a spoiled prince and went around the world with his princely manners and everyone was delighted to be his friend and they fed him and stuff, good for him, but buddha had no idea what it is life, same as Ramana maharshi. It's great that they speak about the absolute, but not about the attitude in life.

5 meo promotes the total mystical experience but does not guarantee it. It's like going to a cave to meditate for 3 years, it may or may not happen. when the absolute opens, there is not the slightest doubt. you were asleep and just now, for the first time in your life, you have woken up. the infinite opens and explodes as a source of creation without limit. you are and always have been. how could you forget it ? is impossible, if it is the eternal reality, what you are. it is something perfectly normal, absolute freedom, absolute power, without limit. Hallelujah! Limits? that is impossible, a fiction. Loneliness? How, If you are infinite, and you make love with your self eternally. It's the absolute perfection. It's obvious that you're never going to forget what you are, how could you...wait...what? How? oh...what was it? I've forgotten! getting to a full opening, without the slightest obstacle, requires many trips and much preparation to let go. the mind cannot grasp the infinite, this is beyond the mind. once you get into the depths of what is, understanding begins. I am starting with this, since at the beginning the trips were very brief, because my ego was fighting to the death to return. now relax and enjoy

If you want to be awake, you have to see with total clarity that reality is within you, that outside is something that does not even exist as a concept. the others exist, inside your mind. therefore, they are not "others"

You could keep you desires in some extent and go very deep. It is not a matter of abandoning your desires but of understanding what they are and what is their place. to go very deep you need desire to go very deep

psychedelics are the tool when you want to transcend the ego, the mind that identifies, that takes itself as a process from past to future and you can't. I also spent a year meditating 3 hours a day, and deconstructing all day, it's not as easy as doing a psychedelic and that's it. but without them for many it is impossible to get out of the trap of the mind . but they are also something else: they are tools of understanding once you have transcended the conceptual mind. You cannot imagine the clarity that they can provide you by modifying the structures of your mind

yes, to some extent. we would have to see to what extent

we are not aware of how dealing with other people affects us. the others literally blend in with us. what we are is a set of energetic patterns. When interacting with another, the patterns touch each other, partly merge and leave a lasting imprint. when you see this, you choose very well who to deal with

Well , i try to avoid suffering and get closer to what makes me happy. as I suppose would do lao tzu, meister eckart and all those you speak of. I don't think they would like, for example, to be homeless in a big city, or to be in an African refugee camp dying of thirst and surrounded by misery. in fact, they were surrounded by people who respected and cared for them, they ate well, they had free time, a good life

You might be surprised at how humane those guys who were idolized were.

I mean to think that there are others. You vs others, not to became a different you. You could became an alien but it's still you

those who acted like this were not trying to avoid suffering. in fact, they suffered a lot

You have to realize that all this has been created by you. It's defiant, why would you have created all that crap? A challenge. there is nothing outside of you. "outside" does not even exist as a concept. As soon as you situate yourself minimally outside of yourself, you are fragmented, asleep. psychedelics are necessary. get them anyway. there are people who say they can wake up without them, well... maybe. but when you have trucks of shit in your ego, as you do, psychedelics are an essential aid. research how to grow mushrooms from spores, travel, anything

ultimately psychedelics are imaginary, only the absolute is real. whether it manifests after suffering, or psychedelics or going to a cave is completely irrelevant. Putting one of them qualitatively above is prejudice. quantitatively it is reality: the psychedelic is quantitatively superior

Yeah, awakening allows be asleep

The question is: do you want to live without suffering? like a plant? watching with a beatified smile how your 5-year-old daughters are raped and tortured? that is, you deny being human, because you are afraid of the pain that being human means. cowardice. there is nothing wrong with suffering, it is a characteristic of being human. you have to fight and suffer, but consciously. that's the difference. not to retire to a monastery to be fed like a baby to escape suffering

awakening is the breaking of the limits, so if the limits return, there is no awakening. there was, but now there isn't. but are the boundaries as solid as they were? No, they are a bit weaker. so with each dissolution. And not just that. With every dissolution and the following solidification of the structures, understanding happens

Yes, but taking the first steps. On the psychedelic path, I have finally did the first mushroom trip in which there was no shadow work, straight to infinity. This is the first step, not the end. before this, a lot of ego work

I thought you spoke with irony, if i was wrong sorry. The thing is those matters are not clear to me either. I speak based on past experiences, the conversation helps to deepen them, but what I say does not have to be correct, I am not a leo or someone like that, just a few experiences with psychedelics and selfi inquiry.

Irony? Man, don't make me loose my time having a conversation if I'm going to put my best and you are to act like that.

the infinite delves deeper into itself and creates apparent dualities with which it creates a dance with itself. You as a human are a very complex energy structure, with many layers, which includes the apparent "you" and what is apparently outside of you. All this created structure is dance, it is the infinite relating to itself. It could be deeper, more beautiful, more intricate, but it could also be less.

Yes i ask that to myself too. It seems that everything revolves around deepening in love. But i don't know why exactly this. Leo says that he understands it and that it is much more complicated and subtle than it seems

@A Fellow Lighter The absence of limits is the case. This is obvious, because what limits could there be? What would limit those limits? as you say, limits to what? to nothing. it is nothing infinite of unfathomable depth, but it happens that the quality of being infinite brings with it the fact of existing. Why? because it can. can all. God appears from the fact of the absence of limits. Since there were never limits, God has always existed. Understanding the infinite logically is not easy, but you can become infinite, encompass everything, with drugs. infinity total absolute is what we are, there is nothing else. the finite is apparent, a trick, let's say a visual effect.