Breakingthewall

That's why the 5meo was so difficult to you. was exactly the same for me. two puffs of weed, and distortion, confusion, noise. I have had to vape 5meo dmt many times, more than 50, 70, I don't know, to gradually align what was distorted. In addition to meditating daily, doing mushrooms, etc. I intuitively understood that there was a distortion at the root of my psyche, it had to be equalized and the only effective way was to dissolve my mental pattern and by doing so, see, understand. now i can smoke weed and my mind is empty, spacious. reality dancing. lsd the same, and 5 meo very easy, it no longer seems to me an interesting substance, it's like its work is done (but maybe malt could be very interesting). I recommend to you breaking up, over and over again, with free base. The benefits are huge

there is only one real happiness: realizing your true nature. Let's say that if you are completely in your true nature, like a Buddha in perfect meditation, your happiness would be perfect, total. what we call happiness is being. If you stray one millimeter from that perfect alignment, your happiness would be almost perfect. so you go deviating because the fact of being human and putting layers, until you reach a level of opaqueity in which you are very far from perceiving your true nature. you feel unhappy, anxious, there is no rest for you, only addiction, compulsive behavior, give you the illusion of going towards something, since where you are burns. but you are always in the same place, what you have to do is make the veil more and more transparent, understanding what is the veil, how your mind create the opaqueness

You are defining enlightenment as the state of a 4-year-old child, or that of a cat. that is to be free of the human ego, the first step, but after that you remain trapped in the experience

Of course, life is basically war. kill to steal the other's energy and live. Based on this design, it is normal for humans to be the way we are.

There in not my experience, just the experience, and it's hiding something: the fact of being an experience is just appearance, and the you a fiction. But not the conceptual you, the you who is a perceptor. It's being created by the appearance, so it's just apparent. But let's see, just starting to see, maybe I'm wrong

You don't understand what Im saying. I'm not operating in the conceptual mind, I'm in the real experience, but deepen in it. The experience is not just stop thinking and interpreting, that's the first step. The experience gets deep in itself.

I experience that state 50% of time, just started with a few moments and is becoming more widespread and common. I was a different person a month ago. I realize that there was suffering in mind 24/7. How I could bear that shit? . Now I can go into the flow, be directly more and more easily, but there is more. the experience can be broken and the door opened. that's the unthinkable, your true nature. But it's not easy. Yesterday for example I vaped 20 mg of 5 meo two times trying to open the door. I realized that you can't force it. Can happen sober, with a bit of LSD, on maybe never more again. Don't you have the feeling that there is more, that something is hidden?

I experience that state 50% of time, just started with a few moments and is becoming more widespread and common. I was a different person a month ago. I realize that there was suffering in mind 24/7. How I could bear that shit? . Now I can go into the flow, be directly more and more easily, but there is more. the experience can be broken and the door opened. that's the unthinkable, your true nature. Don't you have the feeling that there is more, that something is hidden?

@RedLine I think what is being said is that you have to stop wishing in order to wake up. Is completely true. if you wish even a little whatever, the door closes. then, you cannot keep the door open for a long time, only the time in which you do not want anything, nor do you have any bias. the complete end of suffering. if you do this for 5 minutes a day, that's already a huge achievement. with that, the rest of the time that will be very close the surface. But in a couple of days it fades.

I don't think so. You can't be in that state, you would go down the street drooling. I'm talking about opening and stopping the experience and manifesting the infinite and being the infinite, everything, the source, the pure reality, your true nature. The Revelation. that's enlightenment in my opinion. But who knows, I'm talking by memory, so that's ego.

@Osaid id say that you have freed yourself from conceptual thought, from the layer of the ego that represents reality and filters it. you can rest in being without needing to hold onto the false imaginary grip of the conceptual mind, which filters everything, which with its flow creates a bubble that encapsulates you. then you live inside a capsule that isolates you. It is human madness, the price of having a mind. but once you realize that and you can remove the bubble, stop interpreting every moment for 24 hours (horrible to live like this) for me there are moments that I surrender to now, completely, I stop living in time, and the now it opens. the infinite, now, flowing, and your mind opens, like a plant, everything is real, you perceive existence now, what you are, without any interpretation, and suddenly, the absolute. the infinite emptiness, the totality of existence, the eternal smile. I talk by memory, because it's just a moment sometimes. It's the perfect joy, the nirvana, the freedom, the perfection, the true nature, so I'm all day looking, where is the lock? How to open my mind? Even in silence, it's closed, just in some moments get open.

Very lucid post. Could you explain how was the enlightenment?

But there is more (as Leo says) . Then you start to perceive what existence is, it's flavour. You start to see, to perceive the cosmos, the movement. Then you perceive that you are the movement. You are the cosmos, so....god? You are the depth moving, dancing. Maybe Leo is right and he open himself to the reality in a great level, maybe he took a wrong way since long ago.

Exactly. you drop the ego and let it fall into nothingness, without more stories. total surrender to the now, and the now opens, and reveals itself as existence, deep, now, existing. total. it is difficult to maintain. the mind says: I have to interpret this, let's see... then existence, right? But what it does? How? and you're out.

Yeah but why the word truth?

Yeah, good conversation, just to say that it's not about knowing that you are god, you are conciousness, anything, it's about to break the limits now, remove the you from the equation because you are a blocker. All the spiritual work is just do this.

more than genetics it is the configuration of the pattern that forms the experience that you are. from genetics to each imprint that each event that has occurred in your life has left. but the key is what you said: real, complete integrity. the more integral you can be, the more likely it is that the opening will happen. true integrity needs a forge. you must have gone through certain flames

Not for me, but maybe I'm wrong, but in the absence of limits there is everything. You are not one, one is an ego projection. I'd say that God is an ego projection, for example, to say god is bored and he wanted to have a human experience is just an ego projection

Ok agree , but it's like a misunderstanding. You can't be scared to be alone of limitless, because if the limits get broken, the you dissapears. It's like epicure said: If I'm here, death is not, if death is here, I am not.

I think it's different. Alone is opposite to not alone. Just break the limits and let the reality flow. Letting go the need of grasping, because if you do that, you are automatically putting limits. Then, in some moments the self can be dropped Its scary because we are relative, so we don't exist in absence of another thing to be related.

We are talking in a practical sense, anyway, To say that God is alone and that he hides this fact because it is difficult for him to accept is as far from reality as possible. is to anthropoformize. reality is the absence of limits, all that loneliness is limited, none of that is real, only apparent. In short, You are not the reality, you are just a limited fiction. Remove the you, and reality remains. The only thing that you can say about reality is: absence of limits. You can't describe reality in positive because it's absolute, you can become absolute, but not think in it, because thinking is contrasting

God or the reality is not someone. It's not you. You are a fiction. When you dissolve the self, just the infinite ocean remains. What you are is not the you.

There are only two states at the end. the finite state that we are almost always in even with psychedelics and meditation, and the infinite state that is enlightenment. spirituality is about dropping the relative mind, letting go, breaking the limits and becoming infinite. then come to this forum to comment the thing, because who else could talk about this?

Im not explaining the reality, What I do is try to find mental formulas that help to dissolve the mind, it's something difficult to achieve, subtle, the mind takes hold. Since I spend all day with it, even though I'm doing other things, I comment here my impressions. simple human need for communication I didn't say negative, I said relative

You confuse ego with god in my opinion. things are more complicated, because reality is infinite. you have to drop the ego, totally. merge it with the ocean. and not once but on a daily basis, and not just on psychedelics but sober, and then you begin to understand. I, the relative self that is infinite reality but manifests as a self in opposition to what is not self, dissolves and realizes what it is: impersonal ocean of existence. This is total freedom, you will be smiling for an hour. The ocean of existence is not alone, alone it's just a relative concept, isn't it obvious?