Breakingthewall

Let's say that you, or me, are the reality, and in the reality many things appears, in fact infinite things, and one of them is the appearance of you looking the wall, then you, the reality, get lost in the appearance of a you inside the set who seems to be the perceiver of a perception, when really there is not perception, there is just the reality, the whole thing that is. Forget that could be others or anything else, any meaning, god, creation, anything, just the reality. At first seems a jail. You realize that you, as the reality, independent of the content, are always here, and nothing is really happening, you are trapped for ever in the now. But then you can realize that the now, that is, you, is unlimited. Beyond the apparent content, the wall, the your, etc, this now is an abyss, and all that abyss is you, and you are alive, you are the totality of the existence, and you have no limits. You are an abyss, all of you are the same, we are the abyss, and you can perceive yourself, your quality, your absolute freedom. Then, happiness, freedom, beauty. But who else in the world is going to understand you? Nobody! Nobody has open himself to the abyss, it's so so rare.

No, what I think that it's a mistake, Metaphysically speaking, it is that you are looking at the wall, then you are one. There is really no you looking at the wall, there is a reality that is the complete set. "looking at the wall" is meaning, you on the one hand, the act of looking and the wall on the other. All of this from the perspective of the ego that knows things is obvious, but really, if you erase all the meaning and you don't know what "you" is, or "looking" or "wall", there is only one thing: reality. This is Step one to, as you have said correctly (without any irony), open yourself to the cosmos and be one with it, you do not open yourself to the cosmos, you erase yourself and the cosmos remains, and then it is obvious that the cosmos is you. remove mental meaning from the equation, then you can perceive yourself, and deepen your perception of yourself

I just perceive what existence is, it's like anything else, it never was created, never could be destroyed, just transformed.

Death is impossible, what exist cant cease of existing. Death is just a change of frequency.

Of course you are! Even if you are on risk to replacing our longed-for James 123😅. I am open to understanding that there is no one here and that, but it would have to be explained in depth, because seems that I am here having a coffee in a terrace now

Maybe I'm wrong, but I think that all those profesional yoguis are profesional scammers from thousands of years ago. All them claim to have powers and no one showed any of them. Seems like it's a indian tradition, and sadhguru is the yogui 3.0, the modern version, smart, charming, active, and very liar. But always...who knows.

@thedoorsareopen the only way is removing totally all the identifications of you until absolutely nothing remains. I thought that was impossible, the environment in my family was twisted and rotten in a level very difficult to understand. You have to do a real change, as Leo said, you have to change your genes with your will. In short, the only way for you is the real liberation. Imagine that your energetic structure is a knot of energetic beams tangled over each other. They must be liberated, open to the limitless. This is not a simple work, but from what appears from your text, you are qualified for it.

You could tell Ralston: show me your martial arts. But if you say to sadhguru: show me your occult powers. He will smile condescending and so superior, move his 7 kg of clothes and say anything profound without any meaning. Then , to the hospital with an stroke, like my neighbor. He was exploring the universe 63, but he forgot explore his skull. It's a classic in India, like yogananda, who died of a heart attac in a dinner in the embassy of india in l.a. and they said that he did mashamadi. They are scammers, that can't move even an atom, and can't see more than you. Just seducers. Engañabobos as it's said.

You said that just to make me shut up 😂 I'm annoying, I know, I'm working in it .

I agree that there could be occult stuff, but I think that sadhguru invent everything. I really liked that anyone could see occult stuff and communicate to us, but I can't avoid to perceive that he is a liar, like almost anyone who talk about occult

The point is perceive what you are, not name what you are. Don't you think that this of : I don't exist. Is just a definition? In the land of the logical mind. Out of the logical mind means nothing. The direct perception of yourself is the only thing that exists, and the layer of the meaning is very thin, it's like the surface of ice of a lake, must be broken to see deeper, where there are no names

Exactly, and I gain more insight about the others treating them in deep, looking them in their soul as deep as I can , and connecting with them as deep as I can than thinking about if they are a bubble or an image The question would be: where is the difference between the others exist or the other don't exist? Only in my mind. It's just an idea

One day I did mushrooms and I thought: that's the way, then I tried salvia, then I started reading and found the other psychedelics. When I got 5meo I did and I couldn't do a breakthrough, it was like it were a wall in front of me, then I discovered this forum and I did the nickname breakingthewall because I wanted to break the wall of 5 meo, then I did but I realized that there were many other walls, and until now

The point is realizing that there is not you perceiving that the car is vanished, but "you" are the whole thing, the realization that your car is vanished. For that you have to be able to totally remove the meaning to this moment for a while. The meaning build the self. I use often this like a mantra when Im walking in the street: nothing means nothing. Nothing means nothing. Until the only thought that appears in your reality is this, and this dissolve any other though, because it's difficult to make your mind still, if it has to move, it can do just this movement: nothing means nothing. Then, trough this thought the reality without any meaning manifest itself. There is no self, no perceptor. Just the reality, and the real substance of this is perceived by itself, because it's usually veiled by the meaning Without meaning, only a thing remains: you. And you are the existence, the heart that opens in the limitless now and flow like a dance. That's the only thing that you could know, anything else are just illusions, ideas.

Some people day that it's very useful to take some MDMA before a high dose LSD trip, because remove the fear and it's less possible to enter in bad loops

https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/02698811231225609

@Schizophonia btw, did you do any research about microdosing of LSD and cardiac fibrosis? Seems that you know a lot, I'm interested in that

Interesting, but the fact is that next two days feels depressive. Why could be the cause? Another side effect is about valves in heart, but I guess that a lot of use is needed

mdma drains your brain of serotonin. The next two or 3 days your system has less serotonin, and that translates into depression. If your normal state is neurotic, as was my case, depression can be pleasant in comparison. If your state is balanced, the lack of serotonin feels like every minute of the day is shit.

I used 5meo before knowing Leo, but without Leo I think I never would dare to do 5meo with that intensity. I used to think: if he is still sane (more or less) then I could do , because really something inside me was telling me to do it

When I was younger and let say, retarded, I used to buy 1gr of MDMA with a friend and go to dance techno, and always it got finished, then I use to buy a pill or two in the After hours, sometimes I started Friday night and Sunday night still on fire without rest or eat anything, and sometimes until Monday. Then next day a bit, just a bit of hangover, but nothing serious, even pleasant and relaxing mood. Going to the beach, playing sports, drink some beers, etc. Later I stopped to be so retarded and become let's say, more conscious. Then if I take 150 mg, next two days I'm in hell, I feel something extremely toxic in me. Same happen with alcohol, I can't even 1 beer, I hate. So I think that the hang over depends a lot of your mental state. Pd: wasn't just being retarded, I had the feeling that those sessions were necessary to open myself to others, because I was extremely closed and neurotic, then in some way was a therapy . I did a very intensive research about side effects, and later I used to consume less, buying only pills, no powder because with powder, and sharing, it's difficult to control . Nowadays only remembering the fake love that happens with MDMA is disgusting to me, but in that moment was necessary

One day bit high with MDMA walking in the city,. observing the people, interacting a bit, could be very useful to overcome some unconscious fear to the other people. The terrible hang over is true but I think it happens when you already used a lot, party every weekend, etc. Medium doses of 2cb for me have similar effect. Both are interesting for punctual use, I feel both as toxic, different than triptamine or LSD that I perceive as healthy

Consider this: experience is relative. Can't be experience without something outside of your experience. If experience were absolute, then everything were your experience, there won't be experience. Any movement is relative to another movement. The easy explanation is: you are god and are imagining your experience as a dream . But to assert this you have to put God outside of your experience. It's a fallacy, experience only can occur moving relatively to other movements that are out of your experience, and those movement necessarily would be infinite

The other option would be that the reality is limited to me writing in a phone now for ever and never was and never will be nothing different that this

I think that it's obvious that are infinite bubbles, because any concrete bubble is cyclical, then starts and end in the same point, then another cycle starts, but it's not after, because the time is relative, then it's totally inevitable that now there are infinite cyclical bubbles.