The0Self

I’ve purchased a lot of 100, 110, and 140 mcg tabs over the years. Much of it from the same source.

Your degree of contemplative fitness and realization of the emptiness of reality will allow you to go deeper without getting a bad trip. Though bad trips aren’t necessarily something you need to avoid. I would get yourself prepared with a serious meditation practice + contemplation most of the time, and then when you’re ready, take 110ug — that’s the best dose to take, in my view. It’s sort of the lowest effective dose for a potentially ultra-insightful trip. Not that microdosing 25ug wouldn’t be worth trying in your case. It’s my dose (110) even as a “veteran,” though sort of worked down from 250-1000ug. 110ug works best now ?? If you try a microdose (10-25ug), or a mild dose (30-75ug), just to get your feet wet, make sure after that you wait at least 12 days before you take the trip dose (100+ mcg).

Nothing goes full circle into everything. Emptiness too, is empty. Empty-fullness; wholeness.

You referring to n,n-DMT there? If so, my experience was the same. Somehow n,n is supposed to be less fearful and more fun than 5-MeO... My experience is the exact opposite. 5-MeO is like blissful pure blinding white God mode; n,n can be almost psychotic. I actually found LSD-25 (not analogues) to be a bit better for God-Realization than 5-MeO, since the thought stream and the story are a little more vivid and interesting on LSD, and it just has a flavor that is more conducive to lighting up the absolutely endless/infinite nature of the story/imagination (rather than simply obliterating the ego before you even know what’s happening) in my experience. Not to mention, the almost-too-long duration allows for much more to be explored. 5-MeO can be dosed more frequently, sure, but there’s something about that long duration of LSD that’s irreplaceable — kind of like how long meditation retreats have absolutely no substitute for producing the wildest states of samādhi. Also, just remembered, back when I used them, I noticed that synthetic cannabinoids were very conducive to ultra highly conscious states. This was before I was even consciously or knowingly involved in spirituality, contemplation, meditation, or pretty much any serious consciousness work, so at the time even high dose psilocin was not getting me into God-mode or really even anything close (though at the time I would’ve thought it was if I had known about this stuff). With that said, the synth noids seemed to actually be more powerful! I do kind of wonder how they’d affect me now. I actually haven’t thought about it much but I really think it might be worthy of consideration because I am not kidding... at the time, they beat out psilocybin mushrooms! For me anyway. Like high doses (3-7g) of very potent fungi. Though I think the main reason I stopped was sourcing, so idk if they’re all that available these days. I’m sure they probably are, but I guess I can’t really recommend them regardless, as they are quite linked to health problems and even fatal overdoses. Even so, I do think they’re likely at least in some ways more powerful than 5-MeO, considering how far out they got me at the time — beating ketamine too, come to think of it! Though I think 5-MeO, LSD, and perhaps ketamine and a few others, along with contemplation, are quite sufficient for what we’re doing here. Just mentioning it because I remembered it.

@EmptyVase The Drake and Josh theme song? ?... uh... wait... Yep. Fuck, it’s actually legit ? ?

^^ Precisely — no difference between any two circumstances / situations / arisings. However, this is actually already fully realized, but not by anyone who is experiencing themselves as separate from what happens (everything). When the separation is seen to have no substance at all, and never did have substance, then Heaven becomes obvious. Then, it’s recognized there was only ever Heaven.

This is all there is. This is not experienced by anyone. Ever! “But that’s only from the absolute perspective!” You say... Yet, it remains absolute. Also.: This is exactly as it seems, but it doesn’t have to be, because it’s already everything. It’s exactly as real as it is unreal. There is no separation of any kind at all. It’s a miracle. This is already not experienced by anyone. You are a dream. I don’t know anything about what I just said.

And by the way... If someone were to tell you, for instance, “stop trying to get anywhere,” then they are coming from a place of mere conceptual understanding (thus, misunderstanding) of nonduality. As there’s no you to do that either.

Yep . Sounds about right . Spiritual bypassing or not (absolutely not saying that it is spiritual bypassing, of course).

Completely lights out for this current body-mind that you call you? Yes. But notice how that's basically nonsensical, since there will be no one there experiencing the lights out. The reason, so to speak, that it is nonsensical is of course: there is no separate and finite self present already. So there will certainly be no knowing end of awareness. It will be like before you were born, as it always was, and is now -- nobody knows they aren't aware of separate objects. There just aren't any separate objects, nor anything separate from wholeness, at all. Nobody even knows whether or not they're actually aware of separate objects, even if they think/dream that they know (experience a separate world)... in the end, because there isn't anyone separate from everything that could know. There is only the absolute, which is the relative and can appear as I AM. There is no death separate from birth -- i.e. there is no death. This is already birth and death simultaneously; you imagined that your birth happened in the past -- imagination (the story) has no limit... there's nothing beyond the appearance of everything, which is inseparable from the apparent story, which is as real as it is unreal... and, actually... without limit -- this is actually the aspect that is apparently hidden in apparent bondage -- the sheer amount of story that goes into making "looking at a screen" believable, sensical, somewhat not chaotic, and ordinary is absolutely staggering, and indeed without limit... There is no separation of any kind at all -- there is only everything (which is nothing), this is the whole thing, and it isn't moving... this fact hides in the apparent actual limitedness of the story, which appears automatically when time and distance are experienced to be real. Psychedelic breakthrough experience or God-Realization can give you a hint, but only a hint, of what it might be like. It's indescribable because it's outside the realm of time. And it can reveal the infinite nature of the story -- as inseparable from literally everything. As for why you find yourself anxious about both possibilities? Because all fear is fear of change; expansion; death; freedom.

Possible? Very likely yes, especially with some contemplative development. For me, breakthrough dose was 110ug. Not at first, but eventually every time.

That snake experience does not have to happen in jhana. It can just occur when competing intentions relax and the energy released can manifest in a variety of ways, including as a feeling of energy going up the spine and out the top of the head, and then sometimes even back into the body in a circuit, often through the hands. Very deep self inquiry can even trigger it. Its just an empty experience dependent on the mind. I don’t really know though. Just my experience and intuition.

It’s pretty simple. Nothing is happening. No one knows that... It’s just that, the only thing which experiences something happening in time and space, has no substance at all. When it’s recognized there’s no one experiencing, the real context of this appearance falls away, and no real context can arise anymore. Even looking back on memories before this apparent shift, it’s still impossible to find the “me” among the memories — it is just what apparently happened. Nothing to lose Nothing to find No Real-I-zing Of any kind ?

A still mind. Yet while the recognition I speak of is bliss, it’s not a bliss that anyone feels. There just is bliss. The existential questions that plague the mind can drop. Am I a good person? / Am I on the right path? There’s no need for that at all.

@Endangered-EGO Yeah first jhana is not kundalini awakening. Kundalini activation is required for it though. 2nd jhana is closely associated with kundalini awakening though. Kundalini awakening is simply the experience associated with the collapse of competing intentions in the mind — causes a feeling of absolute effortlessness and an explosion of exhilarating bliss.

Awesome!

But deep in the story: God imagined what it would be like if it couldn’t handle infinity (not even by choice, just with automatic infinite intelligence). Thus, you imagined “something.”

? Very nice quote on the right too! However, on the right side, belief almost certainly does not apply. For such a being, God would not be a God that can be believed in. Perhaps... trusted, but not trusted in a way that could be lost, so it’s infinitely stronger than mere faith... And it’s not even personal... There is no god, because god is everything. Your finite mind can only think of god as less than god, meaning your mind can only think of god as something which is not-God (imaginary).

Here’s the problem. You’re imagining yourself to be between nothing and everything (i.e. something; someone), when nothing just IS everything. You can’t fix that. You die from it and come out the other side.

@Endangered-EGO “I” (it’s basically deep in the story) had extensive experience with kundalini. Kundalini is required for early jhana entry. I’ve been through the jhanas. Second jhana is ridiculously more intense than most kundalini experiences, yet it technically is one (basically taken to the limit). It’s associated with the A&P of Buddhism. It has absolutely no relation to the end of the path

Just made a post straight from absolute. Can’t remember what I named it. Just came out automatically.

While this is boundlessness appearing (which we could stop at if we were dead-set on staying out of stories) as infinite intelligence designing the story of everything timelessly... This is also boundlessness being infinite intelligence designing the story of everything timelessly. See how deep the utterly absolute lack of separation goes?

Well the goal of spiritual practice is the end of doubting this is perfection.

Well into the infinitely deep story that is everything, it can be Real-I-zed that you designed your self and the whole universe (which are not separate from each other) timelessly. So yeah, the designing not only didn't happen in the past, it is also not even a process. You could conceive of it as an apparent cross-section or solidification of absolute infinity. This is boundlessness appearing as infinite intelligence designing the story of everything timelessly.

It is literally just the apparent happening of energy release when competing desires stop fighting with each other and a being becomes more unified.