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"What is the meaning of life?" along with basically all other deep existential questions, have within them false assumptions. The question assumes that there is a meaning of life.

Fair enough.

In order to find out for yourself, there first has to be the faith that absolute knowledge is possible. Faith in the practices. Faith (really, trust) of this sort eventually transcends itself. And the culmination of absolute knowledge is not a dualistic knowing. Any ideas about nonduality are false. Only the direct lived-reality will do, and it's the absence of doubt or belief -- i.e. faith. I can tell which faith you're talking about, and I agree with you, but that's not the faith I'm talking about.

The only reasons I don’t feel guilty for not having taken enough psychedelics are 1. awakening (psychedelics are in one sense useless now anyway, in a way that they weren’t before), and 2. the fact that I’ve tripped literally hundreds of times. ?

^^ I kind of was aware of the whole bladder issue and was just relatively conservative with my use, until one time I used a about a gram or maybe 1.5g in a few days (that’s not even really that much compared to many people I know) and it gave me some of just about the most terrible physical pain I’ve ever had — it was in my bladder region and it lasted a day or so. Like to the point where it felt like I was going to puke, the pain was so intense, and it was making me feel squeamish and woozy... Scary as shit. After that, I haven’t really used it much at all and I don’t even feel comfortable with it tbh. With that said, I’ve had utterly incredible awakenings on it that easily rivaled and sometimes even blew out 5-MeO-DMT.

Yeah sounds about right lol -- in my experience and from talking to others I used to occasionally trip with, RS-ketamine is generally cleaner and somewhat more predictable than most of the other dissociatives, and some of them produce a very manic and sometimes almost psychotic headspace. Although, I've heard MXE blows K out of the water -- but it's basically banned worldwide and is expensive and complex to produce so we likely won't have that available again until extensive drug reform.

Makes sense. Sounds like a nod to the original title of 1984 -- The Last Man in Europe -- which can easily be seen to be about enlightenment.

I actually found gabapentin (unscheduled pain reliever prescribed off label for all sorts of things especially anxiety lol) to be more psychedelic and more euphoric than GHB fwiw. Only becomes strong enough for mild psychedelic effects when taken in staggered doses, to overcome the LAT1 transporter saturation. It’s crazy because it’s the easiest thing to get prescribed — it’s so innocuous I literally asked for it specifically and the doc gave it to me every single time. They don’t think it has any recreational value, even though it most certainly does but really only when you stagger doses (LAT1 transporter essentially doesn’t allow any more than 300mg to be absorbed every 30min). The tolerance is basically like lsd though — I could only get full effects dosing one day every 2 weeks. It actually feels like a psychedelic opioid.

Of course they can all work. Sometimes RC’s can be much better than “the original ones.” How much regular RS-ketamine have you used? I’m just saying in my experience it has been the best one that is easily available. I’ve had great success with many RC’s as well. Many are pretty much as good as RS-ketamine or perhaps even better, but deschloroketamine DCK(not the one you mention) was very markedly less insightful and useful. And at least when I was using them a lot, DCK was the most widely available and cheap so I was steering people away from that one specifically— not that it’s not pretty good in its own right.

You're welcome!

(I was merely using the n,n-dmt as a general and relatively trivial point of info so maybe a few people aren't surprised when that particular chemical with that particular roa doesn't work -- irrelevant to the general discussion. I've used many other substances sublingually with great success, but it is in fact slower acting than insufflation/snorting, yet faster than oral.) I have a ton of experience with this. It most certainly is not as fast acting as snorting. It's a little faster (sometimes quite a bit faster) than oral, so yeah relative to oral it is fast. And it also depends on the compound's molecular weight and lipid solubility and some other things -- e.g. nicotine is very fast acting sublingually (less than a minute), but LSD-25 takes generally around 20-45 minutes, and buprenorphine takes over an hour (sometimes up to 2 hours) sublingually whereas snorting buprenorphine takes exactly 20 minutes pretty much every single time... for example. Fastest to slowest: inhalation, IV, rectal, intranasal, sublingual, oral. That much is certain. Transdermal, intraperitoneal, and intramuscular I'm not entirely sure about. Also, even though smoking hits faster than injection, IV goes in all at once so IV is conditionally faster. Hope this helps.

Not quite. Any claim to knowledge is a confession of ignorance. True faith (very much to your point though, not fear-based faith) is much closer to absolute knowledge than knowledge as it's generally conceived.

I haven't seen any evidence for needing to cycle off. It can increase creatinine output which is a kidney function marker but as you alluded to that has nothing to do with kidney function in this case -- creatinine is simply a metabolite of creatine so it may be elevated completely separate from any kidney issues.

An SNRI (Cymbalta; Effexor) + Remeron/mirtazepine can render intense sadness almost impossible. That combo has been called California Rocket Fuel lol. Remeron causes weight gain though. There's nothing wrong with sadness. Antidepressants alleviate the discontent associated with sub-optimal life situations and decrease the impetus to change, but if that isn't the primary concern then you'll have to assess what is right for you.

It is quite slow acting and not all substances work well or at all for it. I tried it with n,n-DMT and it didn't do anything. Do some digging for info perhaps even on reddit -- like google "site:reddit.com dpt sublingual"

? however, that there is no separation means that the changing is the unchanging and the difference is the sameness

A computer and a banana are different, yet they’re the same truth. There are apparent differences, there’s just no ultimate reality to it. There’s no separation. Opposites are the same truth and only appear in duality. Nothing is real = it’s all absolutely real.

Oh... 280 is way overkill lol. It’s just that for muscle gain there is marginal benefit all the way up to 280g/day, and less than 120 is basically shooting oneself in the foot. But for optimal health, what I have stated is correct: it varies depending on the person, but generally about 100g/d (plus or minus 20g) is optimal, and absolutely no less than 60g (if you want optimal health, which might not be a top priority, and I’m not even saying it should be). 120+ is very useful for weight training. Not to mention, if one isn’t doing weight training or something similar, then they either don’t care that much about their health anyway, it’s not worth it to them, they’re unable to do it, or they’re unaware of just how important weight bearing exercise is early on (preferably well before age 35) for all sort of things including decreasing one’s fracture risk when they’re much, much older (70+). And protein is crucial for the bone density and muscle retention that is part of the benefit of weight training. If health in that sense is not important at the moment — I’ve been there and might well be again — then of course subsisting on little more than white rice or energy bars might be all one eats at the time lol. But if health is very important, aim for 100g protein a day. The bone density thing is a huge issue and weight training gives more than just a small boost. A 75 year old who has squatted since age 25 can sometimes have a bone density reading literally 4-5 (sometimes even more) standard deviations above the mean. Many elderly folks die of bedsore infections and general immobility-generated unwellness from being bedridden after breaking a bone such as a hip — among other things, that practically never even happens to lifters.

Very good. Not as a main protein source, but to balance out the rest of your amino acid (AA) intake, as it's rock-bottom-low in the potentially more problematic AA's like cysteine, histidine, methionine, and tryptophan... and has a lot of glycine. You could just take glycine instead -- it has a lot of the same benefit as it's probably the most benign AA out there. That assumes your overall protein intake is good -- never want to go below 80g/d, certainly not <60g/d, and 100 is generally better, and 120+ is optimal for strength and muscle mass when combined with a complete program of at least one of all three of the following: pushing, pulling, and leg dominant movement. No benefits to greater than 280g, but not necessarily any harm either -- I think Leo was well over 280g/d due to his specialized salmon and chicken diet at one point. But yeah gelatin, hydrolyzed collagen, bone broth, and glycine are all good and have essentially the same beneficial function, so you can roughly substitute one for any of the others out of the four.

Her writings are amazing. I haven't even read that much of it, but I can tell her writings are up there with the most significant spiritual writings of all time.

Complete enlightenment guide: Objects = -> I = } Attention = red/big ; Ignoring = green/small Normal: ->} Inquiring: ->} Let every -> simply remind you of }, and turn away from all -> in favor of } at all times. The only significance of any -> is that it occurs to }. Do this with constant effort until the effort is taken from you like a thief in the night. Wherever you aren’t doing this = your attachments; the things that you care about more than truth. Or merely surrender the idea that there is an individual separate self who is doing action or inaction. Surrendering it to something such as God or a purpose can help. You can theoretically do that all in one stroke... but more likely, a little bit at a time. That’s inquiry and surrender. And ultimately they’re the same process from two different perspectives, so it may be best to try both — one may resonate with one character more than the other. You attempt to do either one at all times while awake, which is impossible at first, but the culmination of the process is synonymous with it automatically happening at absolutely all times, because it’s recognized that it was always already the case. The third way: First, simply develop the art of finding out what you authentically desire, and either 1. coax that desire toward the desire for truth alone, or 2. recognize that you want something other than enlightenment and stop wasting your time (perfectly valid). You always get what you authentically desire, in the end. Then, once you desire truth above all else, this marks the beginning of the awakening process, and you will be just equipped enough for the daunting task of figuring out what you know for sure, until nothing is left but truth. You must desire truth above all else for this because without that desire, the unknowing; unlearning; giving-up of the ideas about your self; life; others; teachers; etc that you cling to will simply be too painful to go through with. If you’re seeing an other anywhere — i.e. seeing two — then there’s still further.

Belief is married to doubt. Whereas true faith is the absence of doubt, and therefore also the absence of belief. Just the way I see it. But it can start out as belief in what seems to likely be a fact -- taking a risk by diving into a new paradigm.

If there is only Heaven, it would be unknowable whether one is in Heaven or not, because there would be no contrast -- and that is precisely the case. In knowing, heaven and hell are just the play of opposites which allow for the dramatic aspect of the absolute/Heaven: the divine play.

The wholesome forms of faith, as I see it, are as follows: Ultimately, surrender to truth. In the context of practice, faith is withdrawal from the useless unanswerable doubt, so that one can remain single pointed in their goal.