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The need for sex is something a guy feels on a daily basis in varying intensities. It is a deep biological need that really has the potential to f*ck you up if you don't deal with it properly. So it is crucial that men learn to handle and satisfy this need but at the same time, It is very much so looked down upon if you are honest about actively pursuing women to satisfy this need. Guys want emotional connection too but it is not their priority. It is virtue-signaling if you start your spiel about how much you value love and emotional connection and guys that "just" want sex are creeps. The comment was a tacit example of this feminine and societal attidute. That's totally understandable, there is no judgment here. After all, as a society we cannot admit we are horny animals and as men, we cannot explicitly admit that we first and foremost want sex from women.

@Esilda I love that you brought this up because this is typical of how most women think about game. Notice the tacit virtue-signaling and disgust you have for game. I am not judging you because this is how 90% of women think about the concept of "game". What you don't understand is this: If you get approached on the streets by a strong, confident, charming good-looking guy you will go home and tell your girlfriends enthusiastically that this very cute boy approached you and you will probably note that he was tall, dark whatever. (even though it was a more unconscious primal or spiritual-energetic aspect that ultimately won you over). Now if you get approached by a dark soul loner with poor social calibration your face will shrivel up in disgust and you'll go home and tell your friends that a maniac approached you. You will then reiterate the importance of #metoo and feminism. Strong guy = massive survival value for you therefore everything he does "I accept and think is cute". You will yield massively to him. Dark soul nerdy guy = "Ewwwwwwww. Please get him away from me." Of course, these are two extreme examples. But ultimately your biggest problem with game is that it is a seemingly love devoid statistical endeavor and that a "creep" can grow into a stud that you are attracted to. As a guy, I think the best thing that "game" teaches me is how to act whenever I meet a girl that is just my type or we are in love. When there is a match like this girls assume everything will be smooth and effortless. But you have no idea how easily an inexperienced guy can ruin a match made in heaven. I personally was so inexperienced and insecure that when an absolute tenner fell in love with me there was nothing I could do. I actually broke her heart with my inexperience and insecurity.

This tells me you know nothing about women

It is not an excuse, I am planning on continuing (I even hired coaching for the coming weekend). It’s just when I day game I come into this state of consciousness that is “seeking/scouting” almost plotting. As in contrast to being energetically centered, secure and deeply strong as whenever I am just running errands. I was asking for advise to overcome this issue and ideally combine my attractive non-needy state with the scouting (more needy) aspect of actively day gaming. I am extremely introverted so day game is pretty much my only hope.

This is going to be a somewhat openhearted and vulnerable share on my part but I feel I need to do this. My apologies in advance if this post seems randomly structured or somewhat torn in contradictions, see it as a reflection of my struggles here. I am 24 years old and extremely introverted. In my teens, I got disillusioned with my friends and became a kind of a misfit loner. since then I have struggled with feelings of insecurity and shame for it. Though I did went through a lot of (and I can even say massive) personal growth in my young adult life, this made me think that I overcame most of my petty insecurities and angst. But in the last few years, I started doing psychedelics, and more recently since the spring I also started approaching women in the streets. This has resurfaced a more serious and existential sense of outcastness for me. Like at times I literally feel like a crazy person and it makes me feel ashamed. I actually have an uncle who is very spiritual-minded but mentally ill and he is a real f*cking outcast, like in the ugliest and most hardcore sense of the word. My parents are tacitly afraid I will end up like him. At times I cannot help but to understand their fear. On the very first psychedelic trip that I had (three years ago), I cried for having lived my life so alone and I got a new massive appreciation for my loving family, which up until that point I underappreciated. They are the only people in life I truly trust and deeply care about. Forgive my superstitious language but I feel like it's my fate is to be alone. My whole teenage and young-adult life I struggled against this fate only to suffer in the process. The more I have let go the more inner peace I gained. I thought that my surrender was complete and last year, the pandemic year was actually the most peaceful year I ever had. Though this year is different. This year I have set the goal for myself to be more social and to date more girls because I am not done with those experiences and I do not want to waste my youth in that regard. But ultimately I know that I do not want a family of my own and I have no desire for friends. Lately, I was having a pleasant dream of laughing with some old colleagues, which were one of the few people in life I enjoyed spending time with. Also in that dream, I was validated by pretty girls. Nothing sexual but they gave me a sense that I belonged, was respectable and most of all: normal. The dream was noticeably in contrast to how I feel in waking life. Typing this made me cry, I feel overwhelmed by life and sorry for myself. If you had comparable experiences and life paths I would love to hear from you.

Haha, please tell.

I still need to be social in order to have a dating life. Also for my professional life, I need to start going to events and build up connections. But ultimately I have a vision of ending up alone.

Better not, you might puke it up

10 mg is a good starter dose, it's very little so the risk is small too. That alcohol you did 16 hours ago won't play a role here if you feel fine and sober. Sounds to me like you are good to go but make sure you are not distracted by returning flatmates.

My new 5-meo batch is much lighter in color and more finely powdered than my previous batches. (Top one is the new batch, I never saw 5-meo so white and fine before). What does this mean? should I be more careful or is this nothing to worry about?

@Thought Art Freebase

First of all, this debate is pointless because Israel already exists as a state and it will evolve whichever way. Second. You must understand that just because you hold these relativistic notions about nationalities most people do not which has "real-world" consequences. In the "real world" there is a difference between a roast beefish people and a Jewish people as there is a difference between a car and your mother. For one thing you can get targeted for extermination for the other not. And thirdly it is normal for a people group to seek independence and freedom (from oppressors). That's what history is about and is still happening with people like the Palestinians, the Kurds, Catalonians, Tibetans etc. And in many ways, I understand and support them. The Jews just succeeded. I won't apologize for that.

The UN is notoriously laced with simplistic symbolism and hypocrisy. Sure, those too are very valid.

I feel you but there is nothing really wrong with Zionism, the term has been hijacked real bad. It has nothing to do with right-wing nationalism let alone racism. At its core, you are a zionist if you believe that the Jews have a right to their own state. In that regard, I am an unapologetic Zionist. Zionism has saved millions of Jews from prosecution, oppression and potential genocides namely in middle eastern lands. Also, Israeli contributions in water management and the agriculture sector help feed the entire world. Sure, the tragic victims of Israel's existence are the Palestinians and I strongly believe this needs to be corrected by way of compromise. This kind of hyperbolism just shows a lack of nuance and understanding for Israel's security concerns and traumas.

This is a nice dystopian picture. And I certainly agree that if the nazis won the war it would have been a lot darker. Certainly no democracy, freedoms and multiculturalism. Without a decisive German defeat that included the confrontation with the atrocities, all the ingredients would be there for another world war as a continuation (perhaps with nukes). But then again you have to understand that the nazi phenomenon is so exceptionally over the top destructive, cruel and contra-Europen/German educated/civilized values that it also fizzles out pretty quickly, it is simply not sustainable as a system for anything let alone government. The mass repressions in the Soviet Union ceased virtually overnight with Stalin's death. In large part, because the people (including the perpetrators) simply couldn't stomach them anymore. I think the same would happen if Hitler would have died naturally. And even after Stalin's death, Communism lasted only 38 years in Russia. I would argue that a watered-down version of nazism would not even last half of that. I see 20th-century Fashism and Nazism as short bursts of extreme relapses, Ultimately European democratic values have prevailed because the build-up base for them was already strong before the relapses occurred. You cannot have a society that used to be educated, ordered and peaceful relapse for very long.

The "history is written by the winners" statement is way too oversimplified and misleading. History is written by whoever writes it, would be a more accurate statement. The thing about history is that it is the number one tool used to enforce a societal/national narrative. This narrative is not a simple story but rather a sacred almost mythological-connected-to-the-heavens foundation, ensuring unquestionable legitimacy to a certain civilization, people-group or state. For example, think about the American war of independence and its founding fathers. People and fighters in every American war since then would look back at that time period and use it to draw inspiration and motivation from. They will feel so deeply connected to the original idea and ideals of America that they will have no problem dying for it. It's kinda funny that during the civil war both the North and South would look at the ideals of the war of independence as their legitimizing source. The North would emphasize the union and freedom part whilst the South would focus on the "independent spirit" and also the freedom part (but in a different way). Southerners actually sometimes referred to the civil war as "The second war of independence." But of course, the narrative of America goes deeper than the inception story. Ultimately it is deeply anchored in the idea of " western civilization" which points to ancient Greece and Rome as its more temporal legitimizing narrative, and to the story of the Israelites and Jesus Christ as their spiritual legitimizing narrative. Another great example of this phenomenon is the medieval Holy Roman Empire. The name alone is an overcompensation for their insecurity as a legitimate entity. They were basically a very multicultural but germanic dominated realm roughly encompassing modern-day Germany and the north of Italy. Well... How are you going to legitimize a land which is so random and diverse? The answer: you say it's holy because you got the pope living in the deep south, you say it is Roman because... why not? And you say it's an empire because that word sounds cool and powerful. Even though a Holy Roman emperor had nowhere near the power of an original Roman emperor. Also, notice how a Germanic-dominated realm would source its legitimacy from ancient Rome despite having fought them and in the end actually destroying Rome. Napoleon would also legitimize his emperor status by referring to ancient Rome despite French tribes having fought the Romans. Because history is not written by the winners but by those who have the most perceived glory and intellectual contributions. In some cases, history is written by the losers. How do you explain the Babylonians getting such bad press in the Bible despite conquering the Hebrews? What about the lost cause myth of the confederates, which was the leading historical narrative for southerners for way over a hundred years? The south doesn't need to win to wite its history. Notice how Robert E Lee has an almost god-like status akin to Washington. In the case of Nazis, it is a little bit harder for me to imagine because at the end of the day nazism was way too aggressive and extreme of an ideology to be mainstream for a long period of time. Nazism eats its self and rather quickly: who has the common sense to take on the Soviet Union, Brittain and America at the same time, whilst prioritizing sending people to extermination camps over sending supplies to troops? Even if Germany would have won they would either have collapsed shortly after or would had to water down their ideology considerably to unrecognizable levels.

Many if not most worldviews and political ideologies box Israel into a certain pre-made narrative. For example, a communist is anti-Israel and points out the wrongdoing and injustice. A capitalist will do the opposite and admire Israel for its scientific achievements and overall success. Protestants tend to support Israel while Catholics less so. And the list goes on: (western) conservatives vs liberals, stage blue vs stage orange vs stage green, and of course Jews vs Muslims. Can you see how that tiny piece of land triggers all those worldviews and inflames the passions of literally billions of people? Much more so than the conflict in Yemen which is by all objective standards much more horrific but it just does not trigger people the same. Yeah, ideology breeds hypocrisy: literally, a few evictions in Jerusalem will trigger protests all over the world. to be clear I am not implying that it is just but people are not doing the same for a whole people group in Western China being forcefully converted. In the middle ages, people thought Jerusalem to be the center of the world, in many ways it still is.

So? what makes you think she isn't or doesn't have a baby? Yeah, women have an instinct of compassion and nurturing for seemingly helpless and harmless animals, humans, and in this case even a robot. for most women being a mother or owning a cute pet is the greatest source of satisfaction in life because it is basically what she is programmed for by biological evolution.

Here is an example of a woman called Pero who secretly breastfed her imprisoned father Cimon who was starving to death in prison. The selfless devotion of Pero to nourish his father Cimon at her own breast is called “Roman Charity”. It is history’s most altruistic story of honoring one’s parent. And in my opinion a great example of feminine compassion. Here is a painting from Pieter van Mol

@freejoy That is your choice but you'll be still a potential danger for elderly people who did not take the shots because of legitimate health reasons. And just wait till your country will start to open up but only for the vaccinated people using the green-passport system. Will you still refuse the shots then?

@freejoy I have yet to find the person that enjoys needles, yet most people understand why vaccinating is the wise thing to do. That does not sound like a legitimate reason to me. @Leo Gura Kudos to America for vaccinating so fast, my immune-compromised mother is still nowhere near an invitation for her first shot ):

I have just watched the latest video on integrity and something that made me think was the fact that I conceal my spiritual life/pursuits/interest/knowledge from other people. In a sense, I am hiding it and even lying about it. I only let it surface in interactions with other people to the degree they are open-minded to it, which is not very. No one in my direct surroundings has any idea how seriously I take spirituality and how truly "crazy" my worldview is compared to theirs. The most I can do is to talk about the positive and healing aspects of psychedelics when the conversation is already on that topic, but not much more than that. To my parents, I have never admitted that I have used it, even when casually asked. I think I will eventually tell my brother and sister. My brother is somewhat open-minded but still deeply materialistic in his worldview. My sister is not so materialistic so she might be more open to it, though she is still kinda young. I have a vision that somewhere in the future when the time is ripe, I will show them my stash and explain about it. In the meantime, Do you think I am being out of integrity for being in the "spiritual closet"?

Very inspiring, it takes courage to resist/grow out of religious conformity if you are born in such a situation. The only thing that I can say is that you still need to respect and appreciate your mum. Because first of all, she is your mom, and second: It could be a lot worse. In some religious societies or families, people ostracise or do violence against people who leave the religion. So be grateful for the love and relative liberality of your mother. I have an uncle with psychosis, He is mentally ill. He had a very tough and traumatizing childhood. As I understood he is a somewhat bohemian spiritual person and did a lot of psychedelics and now he is in prison because of some of the stupid and senseless things he has done. My father had a similar childhood to his but he came out as a functioning human being, traumatized but functioning nonetheless. He has never done psychedelics and partially blames them for the insanity of his brother. He also really fears that I end up like him. I would like to think that I have the spiritual drive of my uncle but the mental strength of my father. But maybe I am just being silly.

Thank you for the kind words. This definitely resonates I used to be very closed off, but looking back it was mostly because of fear of being judged and "ostracized". Now that I am more mature and independent I care less about these things and I am gradually revealing myself. (Though I still have a long way to go.) Becoming more open feels like really claiming my place in the world and freeing myself from the illusionary social and societal shackles. I always admired and was jealous of people who could be so open as nothing to hide. I thought that I could never be so open because my interests and personality are so out of whack with societal norms. To me, honesty, openness and integrity go hand in hand and are the same thing really. It takes courage to choose openness over being closed, but ultimately this courage will cut through a lot of bullshit and people will respect you more. I have a nice little example of true integrity as manifested by an old study mate of mine. During some silly drinking game, he was asked the question of whether he ever felt sexually attracted to his mother. He answered: "Maybe" (of course implying that he did, otherwise he would just say no). Instead of ridiculing him my respect and everyone else's respect for him skyrocketed. There literally was a silent pause of respect. His honesty awestruck us.

What are you waiting for? Please share. If you die on one of your fasts or insane trips, the world will never know(;