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From what “l” have been shown so far: Infinity means the end of the separate doer. The end of ego. The ego realizes that it cannot box Infinity for it to work in its favor. The ego cant be selfish anymore, when it glimpses Infinity. The ego wants to be in duality and be able to manipulate the small things it can manipulate. Until “time” is up, until next lifetime or next dream. It loves to stall. But Infinity means “uncontrollable” for the ego. So it fears that. And we identify ourselves with that “thought” and say: “Infinity is scary.” Or I am scared of Infinity” And this was shown when I glimpsed God Realization: The ego saw it, and instantly denied it. Because it knows itself to be Unworthy of this Beauty. My ego wanted to be able to say I did this, I created this. But see, there is no me in this Infinity, and the ego knows it perfectly. And therefore the sense/feeling of Unworthiness arises. The ego never did anything, never was anyone. Other than a veil, a cloud in the sky. And just there really to be unveiled. For God/Infinity to experience itself. Only to vanish in its own depths again. Basically “Emptiness Dancing” (Also lovely book by Adyashanti)

It requires whatever You want to Create. You realized that you are and always were The Creator. Now, Create ✨?? Don’t forget your Heart and your Gut feeling along the way.

God Realization is only the beginning. Next up: God Actualization ??❤️

I’m no expert in suffering. But in my experience, the one who suffers, is the temporary “I”. Suffering is only real for the illusionary finite self. What is actually happening, when we are suffering: Is that we are being purified and stripped of the things that we actually are not. Identity is being burned, more and more. Layers of lies that we have told ourselves and been told by “others”, are being stripped off. Truth remains after all the layers have been stripped off. And that can hurt a great deal. I’m sure your suffering is real, as it seems for all of us. Some more than others. We have believed the illusion of a separate self so much, that it hurts giving that point of view away. But when you suffer, try seeing it as God purifying you, rather than focusing on the pain and the hurt. I know, because I did. And it felt like I was being deeply mindfucked/skullfucked. Tears running down the chin, as no sound, no word, no thought being able to be expressed. At that moment, I felt Real Love for the first time in my life. Unconditional Love, from the Creator. Helping me out of my illusions. Mad levels of suffering, and pure Bliss at the same time… During a hard time I went through, not so long ago. I was deeply hurting, I couldn’t deal with the heavy suffering I was dealing with. I was absolutely crushed by my emotions. As I was crying in the shower: Words came out if “my” mouth. (And the I who had been used to speak and always thought that this mouth was “his” got absolutely shocked.) Words that came out: “How can I ever come wake you up, when all of your dreams are good and pleasant? You would be stuck in the illusion forever…” Suffering is Love. Its just a deep level of Love, so strong; That it kills you.

Sometimes words are not enough to express the loneliness… God (you) already went through this feeling on a much larger Scale. Actually you still do, and probably will, forever… But Acceptance of whatever Is, will help you through it. You are alone yes. Because you are All-One. Give yourself a hug and be One with Yourself. With whatever shape, body or form you take. You existing: knowing/feeling/experiencing what God had to go through to get you here: Is already the biggest gift you can give back to Yourself. (God) ”How can I show you what I see, unless you willingly go through me and see what I have seen?”

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@PurpleTree It does happen occasionally. And like @Knowledge Hoarder said. And that she is probably attracted to your feminine side. Masculinity and Femininity actually have nothing to do with gender. We have just been shaped like this from our evolution and collective mind. But that is rapidly changing. A lot men aren’t balanced in their Masculine side, because they have been shaped by their upbringing, society, their looks, anxieties etc. So what ends up happening, is that they explore their Feminine side more. And that can be seen in guys who are extra nice / too nice to girls. Stemming from this, we have hurt feminine men and incels, cult-like red pill movements and MGTOW. Bitterness towards women and often vey bad worldview/victim mentality. The other half of guys are so in touch with their Masculine side, that they become too matcho, they are too rational, no intuitiveness, always square and they don’t exactly know how to treat women, often these guys turn out to be abusive, controlling, manipulative, resentment towards women and they attract women without self respect and low self esteem. On the opposite spectrum we have women shaped by their upbringing, society, their looks, anxieties, media, sex-advertisement etc. So what ends up happening, is that they explore their Masculine side, they let go of their Feminine side and this is shown with women that are to straightforward, they have to “man” up and do everything by themselves. They attract boys instead of men and they build this mindset that guys are weak, with no backbone, and women can do it all (rightfully so, in some sense). But this side gets shown in their controlling manner, bossy attitudes and bitterness. Here is also where some women become toxic and cultlike feminists. And then we have the other half of women, that only rely and explore their Feminine side. Here we have women drawn to independent men that are only there as providers, but with no with no fun, and often work to much, resulting in women feeling trapped in their relationships, and often very bored. This makes a lot of bad breakups and a lot of cheating and monkey branching between men. Historical society with men hunter and masculine mentality and women stay home and take care of kids mentality had to be torn apart. And what we are experiencing right now is that change, but its not finished or complete until Men and Women realize that they have both Masculine And Feminine sides inside of them, and work together or with themselves to Balance their polarities. And ideally for society or rather human beings waking up to the fact that gender is a duality and an imaginary aspect of reality.

Wow thank you so much, I must have totally missed these ???✨???

The Importance Of Balance In All Things/Aspects And Areas Of Life/Reality.

Ask yourself, who is it that feels lost?

Thank you for sharing ❤️?? Try doing something you love and something that grounds you. I really appreciate the forest and the woods. Find something that your existence yearns for, a passion. ?

@BipolarGrowth Linked a video the other day. It touches on The Seven Rays Of God. Video is a bit long, but explains it pretty well. Worth the time. Video

I agree with this, however in my experience, best teacher is yourself, the True Self. And a lot of the work for me, has been establishing a connection to source/soul, meanwhile listening to different teachers. Isn’t “there”, here? There is a beautiful quote by a sage, cant remember the name, it goes: “In the beginning is you, in the middle is you and in the end is you” It is always here and always with, you.

Beautiful ✨

Had a sleep paralysis happening to me the other night, this time I woke up and moved my hand, and realized its hollow and see-through. It was such a beautiful experience, It felt like I saw my actual hand for the first time. And I felt like I was nothing… just empty space, experiencing itself through imagination.

@Fearless_Bum Once again, Thank you for sharing what You Are. Enjoyed the good read, and can relate to a few of the sensations and experiences. Problem is, when it happens to you, you don't really know what to do with it, and of course you realize that you cant do anything, other than to be a witness. You defined and phrased the experiences in a very expanding and inviting way. It was very humbling to read and a sense of content with whatever is arose within me.

Presence expressing, is making a Self. Through that process arises Existence. And through this process, Consciousness arises as the Sense of Existence. Adyashanti

If you do new things, change the “I” you think you are. Become someone new everyday. You slowly start seeing that none of the characters you play, are real. And then the true experience of life can be expressed.

Absolutely mindblowing, Thank you so much for sharing this precious gift

Haha Yea true, but there always more healthy foods and groceries to discover, no matter what Diet, even a restricted vegan diet.

I don’t live in the US, but try looking for a reputable Shaman, some, if not most work with 5-MEO (Bufo) I would love to help you and even sit for you on your trip, but I live on the other side of the World. Also, I’m sorry for the situation you may have found yourself in. I pray for your results to come back negative ✨

Very interesting question ✨ I’m pondering that as well. But I am also pondering the question: What happens if we remove the duality between selfishness and selflessness. What is actually left then? Is it all the same?

Words can never fully describe or define True Experience.

They are extremely powerful.

I really feel you on this one. I have been in the same situation. From what I gathered and intensely observed with studying my own mind and situations that occur with my family, especially my dad and his side of the family. Is that, I created them in my own mind, because I had to have a reference point in life, showing me exactly what I am not. Showing me my direction to take when I’m ready and mature for it. To simply take action in my own life and don’t rely on others to tell me what I am or am not. When I get invited to family gatherings, I am always the black sheep, and always the center of attention (with just being myself, which is radically different from everything they do, and how they are in life) without me even saying anything, they always latch on to me, questioning my every move, I feel that I am being controlled or manipulated by them. And funny thing is, I’m doing nothing other than just sit and observe, but I always suspected something, (which I later found out) Its my mind, I am creating them, unconsciously to wake myself up when I fall asleep. And they suck the living essence out of me. Pushing me to act in my own life and start to live the life where I truly Love myself enough not to be manipulated, gaslighted, defined and misunderstood. Two years ago I completely took distance from everyone except my mom, and I grew a lot from that, but a part of my felt bad, because I was guilting myself and having bad thoughts about just ghosting my “family”. So with a better self confidence, I reached out and apologized for ghosting them. What ended up happening is that they started inviting me to their gatherings, and I was back in the muck with them again, none of them had changed and few of them got worse, and maybe even jealous of what I changed in to without their presence. And now I can with a good conscience just leave them, because they just are what they are, until they start to accept and develop themselves. I have still not fully grasped it from a solipsistic point of view, but slowly I am starting to understand more and more. Sorry to make this about “me”, wanted to share and to tell you that you are not alone with your situation. Also taking Psychedelics ls very eye opening to our own lies and our own BS, but also for people we are associated with. And the life we adopted/created for ourselves unconsciously, but still for a good purpose ??✨?? God knows exactly what we need, we just have to be open and willing to let go, even family members that are unconsciously toxic for our journey. Start slowly and gently see areas within your life that you can manage on your own, without the need of another, especially people that don’t understand your journey and your life situation. Work on being able to live by your own, and start investing more and more in to yourself, emotionally, energetically and physically. And things will come your way, and support you towards that which your soul longs for the most ?? Love yourself ✨