Epiphany_Inspired

I always imagine that in truly living your purpose...that there would be bliss in the devotion of the mastery... that time working would simply melt away in irrelevance.... the present moment would be amazing all the time... that everyday would be an adventure...like this classic song:

So, obviously some people are typically more *aggressive* or *angry*... but most of us still get this *energy*...and sometimes it can be put to good use (like Martin Luther King giving a speech)...other times it can fester, as small frustrations build into larger resentments, or if you haven't done enough PD - even full blown rage, etc. I recently experienced a school of thought that insists this energy must be discharged physically/ verbally (in a safe way) to energetically clear our bodies....but screaming, hitting/ kicking inanimate objects, insulting those that aren't there, etc does not seem on the path to enlightenment, or does it?...I'm confused, what do you think? I am also wondering, since being aggressive can give people sort of a *high*, if these actions can perpetuate aggression, or connect us back to chip-like behaviours that we are transcending? It seems like perhaps, as long as we are mindful of our occasional frustrations, etc....and can understand them well enough to transform them into compassion (or productive use), that the physical outlets would be less crucial? What do you think? @Arman you were talking a bit about this in Alfonso's body sensations post, best to just fully experience the sensation?

@ajasatya love that! My first tattoo at age 17 was Oṃ maṇi padme hūṃ in Sanskrit, I literally picked it out of a book of sacred symbols from around the world at the library because I thought it was "cool"...at least I didn't pick something really silly off the tattoo shop wall (a unicorn riding a dolphin or something...lol).....anyway, a decade later, I lived with an incredible Tibetan painter who used that as his personal mantra...

It's kind of like I'm wading through a swamp of shit in my life right now @Lynnel @Revolutionary Think so forgive me if I'm not myself/ embodying authentic or something...anyway...I agree with both of you...of course self mastery is most crucial, at the same time too much focus there, without serving the multi-verse/ helping to evolve the collective world (at whatever stage...or weight...lol...) would likely be too selfish....

My pagan mother taught me to use a pendulum in my youth. If you don't know what I mean see this link: http://www.lovesedona.com/08.htm, (It's basically a crystal, or metal object that can swing back and forth or in a circle when you hold it with two fingers and your other hand underneath, it answers yes or no by the movement). Science minded folks always say, minute muscle movements must be causing the movement and direction...well, of course: When I first learned, I thought it gave me yes or no answers from the universe, but my mom explained that the answers can only come from my own subconscious. Recently, I have been told the answers come from our intuition. I have had incredible guidance using this throughout my life (even if it seem flaky to you), but I am curious to hear from someone more knowledgeable, if it is specifically intuition or subconscious...as in: can our negative subconscious programming also effect the outcome?

Hey fellow injured-brain-actualizers. I know I've spoken to at least a couple of you in other threads. What did you think of the TBI info in Leo's new: why people seem crazy episode? How does this relate to you? What part of your brain was injured, and how do you think this effects your personal wiring? Have any of you read the book Leo mentioned (therapy recommended?) and what do you find most beneficial in overcoming, adapting to, or harmonizing with your TBI? Let's discuss moving into new brains with neuro-plasticity...maybe there is some benefit to injury in re-wiring yucky subconscious stuff? For me, my favorite BI part was the dwarf circus!!! Although I do not actually hallucinate like that, I can sort of project vague "holograms" onto reality at will...and those are the types of things I might imagine...lol....I only just recently (a few months ago) found out that all humans don't have this ability...I feel blessed to have such a powerful visual imagination...my injury is mostly in my frontal cortex (but my jello-brain smashed back and forth in my skull a bunch, plus I went unconscious)..., anyway, this effects me significantly: Pros: less concern/ no more OCD with order/ planning/ etc, increased "wildness" and extroversion at times, slower speech (although still too fast for some), less inhibition can laugh boisterously or cry etc, increased rebellion, can "go with the flow", can appreciate synchronicity more, etc.. Cons: Decade of concussion symptoms, issues blocking out distractions/ concentrating/ regulating behaviour and emotions/ filtering speech for offenses etc, remembering on demand... increased anxiety/ occasionally panic etc without control, triggers related to event and aftermath, photographic memory almost gone, less ideas per minute, increased negative thought spirals, far-far-far less motivation/ drive/ passion etc, more judgemental, atrocious decision making/ self-efficacy, etc... So, that I don't end with cons, I just wanted to add how stoked I was on Leo's tolerance and embracing of diversity (although we don't say "retarded" anymore ...but I am not PC at all either, I say much worse things unintentionally all the time...lol...).

I'm "crazy" (in the sense that I live beyond desired normalcy, and prefer bold eccentricity, wild concepts, etc), I hope you guys are crazy too! I LOVED this video because you can actually substitute the word "crazy" for anything... Why people are "normal", "assholes" anything my lenses choose to label using judgement...it's fucking awesome! I also have a brain injury (but I was "good crazy" before that), so I loved that part of the video too. I want to find out more about how this effects my wiring/ personality etc...(apparently those trench coat school shooters often have brain injuries!) I don't have online $ to see Leo's book list, but if anyone has read the book he spoke about and can tell me what therapy/ treatment this doctor recommends I'd love to know! (tried many programs with minimal success). May the crazy be with you!

@Annie I have lots of them, no regrets, of course I will - eventually I will be covered (except face, neck and hands although I have nothing against those on others)... It's funny, my egoic reaction to your questions = both delight and dislike...the "story" of tattoos was popularized with TV....and I'm kind of coming from the mindset that a "story" need not exist, or be shared....at the same time, when I think of personal development things like "letting go"...".empowering", etc....tattoos can be another tool in the tool box....at the same time...they could likely make things worse sometimes too....like someone that gets a deceased family members portrait to "get over the loss" only to find that it actually serves as a daily reminder of their pain or depression....that said, there is also something about the ritual: the physical pain, the adrenaline and hormones, the sacred skin carving/ bleeding that has the potential for great transformation both internally and externally, if you are in the right head&heart-space for that

(not sure about the order?) 1. Unconditional Love/ Compassion 2. Truth 3. Integrity 4. Devine Bliss 5. Source Consciousness 6. Infinite Creativity

This is an awesome question! It reminds me of what Leo said in one of the last videos about being careful about who we look up to....I remember writing a paper in college on an artist (in fine arts) only to be at a total loss when asked questions about the artists pedophilia or something from my classmates....I had only looked at the art, everything I wrote was about the art, I had not looked at the person making it at all! I feel like I'd need to do more research before I could answer this question now....

@socal04 @alea i'd imagine that you could relax doing a hobby or life purpose activity you love instead....it depends what your root cause/ trigger is for watching TV with how difficult it will be to overcome...if you are simply addicted to being entertained, you can find healthier substitutes...if on the other hand, this is your form of "self-medicating", as it is for me, the struggle may be more of a challenge.... TV is my heroin...I quit for over a year when I began personal development...then the shit hit the fan again, and I guess I lacked the coping skills to handle the extreme overwhelm at times without this distraction....I've been on a roller coaster of TV relapse ever since... tied directly to stress episodes....I may have to cancel internet at this point due to my pathetic weakness (which would suck because I learn and grow here too)....I never quit TV entirely, I just quit fiction tv, I still watched Leo, TEDx etc....hope you find awesome new things in your life beyond these fake worlds...ultimate wishes!

Wow, stoked on your posting bravery guys! No fucking way I'd post mine...lol....I went through it, thinking at times I was being self-honest...but I sooooo wasn't (maybe yes, I like art...but that's about it).....I was either overly critical on somethings = making myself seem way worse than I actually am...or...put myself on a pedestal quite undeservingly...or...was in total denial about other stuff...it was fucking ridiculous! It was like my ego would grab a different mask for each question randomly, based on whichever one shoved it's way in....I may be too fucked up to take this test....lol....at least I see that...I guess.... Edit: @Leo Gura laughed so hard....but sadly true... For anyone that hasn't taken it yet, I'm not sure if there is a "how to" but I suggest (if you are also neurotic) meditating/praying first for self honesty. Taking time, not rushing, but also paying close attention to quick gut instincts. I also suggest brief contemplation on anything that seems confusing or off...I ran into a similar issue with the positive psychology test for values, I could envision myself making polar opposite answers to numerous questions because I am able to envision scenarios where I would feel or respond very differently (based on specific situation)....and I'm not sure what do with those questions except vote neutral, which is far from my intense feelings in both other directions....so, I guess try not to envision too many scenarios...lol...

@Leo Gura LOVED new video! (Usually I'm the one that seems crazy though...lol...) Are you really considering stopping advice giving? Please consider how your wisdom can inspire others to action. If we think of just your new video, how you spoke about: everyone is wired differently, at a different spiritual frequency, etc... this clearly illustrates how outside perspectives can be of enormous, even profound benefit...we have limitations with our own lenses, programming, etc there are obviously things that you can see that we can't....and sometimes vice versa....perhaps this is another part of nature's plan....different people... for sharing unique perspectives and insights... Personally, I was disrespectful to you about your advise, and I am truly sorry. I have so much gratitude that you have taken your time, to help me on a number of occasions. "Tough-love" has actually worked on me effectively before, weather I "like it" or not...lol.....

@Mrkvn8 Maybe consider: instead of thinking about it as "ways" to have fun...as in specific activities (although @ajasatya has you covered with those, awesome)...you could alternately think of it as "THE way YOU have FUN" as in: allowing yourself to have: the wonder of a child, the bliss of truly savouring, and the freedom of truthful, joyful, expression, etc

@Sevi At first I used this video to glorify the joy of my hermit-dom...then I went a little overboard with live musical socializations, etc ...because the coin has two sides...(or at least mine seems to have a darker one, lol).... for me...it's best to respect, enjoy, and revel in my intentional-rainforest-isolation, most of the time...mostly to grow...but, I also wish to maintain the awareness of the supposed need for some human connection "biologically" and respect that too, for sanities sake (but then I wonder about those reaching enlightenment rather than going crazy, with epic isolation, etc)....Also, to be aware when solitude is "for the wrong reasons" at times for me....and have firm mindfulness, when I leave the sanctuary of solitude, that I make every effort for like-minded, conscious hangs, rather than debaucherous chimpery, drama, etc....but even more importantly...mindfulness in using solitude for evolution not more distractions (that are worse or equivalent to pointless chimpy interactions just to avoid "lonliness") ....I have no idea if that was remotely coherent, sorry...lol....

@Lynnel& @Revolutionary Think I thought this is the video for you guys immediately, undoubtedly... because it's a revolutionary video, that's also an actual "how to revolutionize"... from the inside out.....of all of Leo's video's if I had to pick the one that would be most suited to you two specifically it's this one! (for all I know, Leo might have made it just for you...lol...)

Re: Leo's new psychedelics and psychedelic safety videos I think these video's are incredible. I adore that Leo had no issue with sharing bathroom details (especially because they truly illustrated his experience). I can't wait o experience that same level of eternal love at some point on my journey. There was one thing that stood out to me as potentially limiting though, what are your thoughts: The idea that psychedelics should always be done alone, or in small numbers, and never at music festivals for actualization work.... There are festivals known as "transformational" that feature workshops on consciousness/ enlightenment etc. They have harm reduction teams on hand from leading research institutions that specialize in helping people use psilocybin etc. for personal growth. These festivals are known to evoke a sensation of collective consciousness (with or without substances), and often strive to embody the divine type of love Leo felt. Transformational festivals also showcase music that is less about "rocking out in a drunken escape", and more like fun, dance-able, and entrancing frequencies etc. Do you believe that (with the interconnected-ness of the universe), a "collective consciousness" exists with humans that can become more apparent when sharing a psychedelic experience at a venue conducive to this? I have been to a number of these festivals, and some are all about debauchery, others are of a higher consciousness. I have to agree with Leo that this is often not safe, a man just died at one of these festivals by accidentally walking off a cliff (another reason burning man is in the desert). Anyway, I will be volunteering at one of these festivals next month. I will not be taking psychedelics, but I will be attending a high quality harm reduction training class and similar workshop with a major medical research team. I will add a post about my experience to this thread when I return....thoughts?

@el_duderino I loved the end best too, especially the swearing at selfish dodo's...(tears of truth loving laughter)! @Leo Gura Thanks, amazing! So much gratitude for your truth, courage and bold revolutionary ideas! Perfect timing as usual. If any of us temporarily have to participate in a particular distorted system (before we can begin to change it), is the best path to go forth considering as many different perspectives as possible? @Lynnel & @Revolutionary Think, this video is for you guys! @Pallero Subconscious programing and mirroring likely, but I agree If you are working on your life purpose, this video is also for you! Luckily my purpose fits this model (I just need more action/mastery/etc). I'm still pretty green, have been for so long....but this video gave me hope to move up! I already do so many of these things (just not to that extent yet). I'm super solutions oriented (drives other women crazy), very "long-term picturing" (also drives gratification-ers nuts), can see so many possibilities could be this, this, this or this etc (puts others in a whirlwind of overwhelm)....from my experience this isn't always as positive as the video makes it out to be. For example, these awesome mechanisms are often hijacked by negative passengers in my mind (coming up with all of the negative potentials, etc)...or I become ridiculously indecisive with all of the options I can imagine,(choices can be almost infinite) etc...how do you develop your systems thinking further/ more holistically inclusive, etc, while at the same time, taming some of the mechanisms that help it function?

If anyone else has this issue, I think I understand more now: Creativity, even when it's distracting, is never actually the monkey mind directly...but because it's divine and powerful, the monkey mind can hijack creativity for it's nefarious distraction purposes.... Also, it was only the last line that Leo wrote that "burned my nostrils" lol...I was not offended, but it kind of rubbed me the wrong way....I contemplated why: Personally, I don't feel that anyone's creativity is ever "lame"....or that creativity is dependant on strength (beautiful work can come from vulnerability or weakness too). Creativity is tapping into source consciousness/power/ the universe / a higher calling/ divinity...etc.... Reduction in monkey mind may assist focus, and concentration...it may eventually completely free the flow of creativity...but discipline doesn't make creativity less lame/ better (discipline is totally beneficial for other reasons though: mastery, etc) ...distraction may hinder creativity....but creativity is Omni-present/ Omni-resilient/ and Omni-infinite....and that is likely a universal truth.... If you too have a super-creative mind, maybe respect the distraction potential, but consider remembering that this is also a sacred gift...despite the Omni-presence of creativity, some of us naturally tap into and connect with that divinity in more powerful, wonderful, and Devine ways on a level we are more conscious of...enjoy this blessing...even if it makes things like meditation more of a struggle...it's likely egotistical to believe your creativity is superior (we've all met that guy...lol) but respecting the ultimate divinity in all creativity, including yours, is likely worthwhile...

When Leo spoke about issues with the creative mind, my first thought was that it sounded just like one of my anti-meditation excuses (even though Leo is a meditation-super-hero and my meditation is pretty pathetic for the most part)...luckily he explained that...and I look forward to the creativity video... Anyway, what I'm wondering is: Have I been going about meditation all wrong? Is there a totally different way to meditate that is better for creatives? I just got 2 new books on the subject last week, neither seem to mention the creative mind (in headings anyway)...I was already feeling confused before Leo's new video/vlogs...considering my creative mind....regular meditation is actually a form of torture for me...whereas on the occasion that I have a binaural-beat induced energetic visualization it's absolutely incredible...powerful and universally unifying...these are not like visualizations for goals...it's as though I am energetically able to tap into my higher-self and become/absorb, and even send out energy...(lol...i'm just realizing that it may sound totally crazy if you haven't experienced this...lol...)...but I can actually see this in my minds eye....this is obviously not as common for me as fending off monkey mind...There are obviously many things that I don't know, or understand....any thoughts are appreciated, thanks! p.s. yes, my child needs less ipad...they all do...

@alyra For some reason, there is usually a thread on the forum that serendipitously corresponds to my current audio book. It hasn't answered your question yet, but perhaps it will, I'll let you know... (maybe you'd like to do your own research on how cellular memory works?). So, I don't know....my memories always feel super legit, unless, "or was that a dream"...lol...but...There are a few things that come to mind that might help you: Do you know how sometimes you, and your friend, can remember the same event differently? This is because you are both looking through your own "lenses" (perceptions based on your cumulative past experiences and effects). See Bruce Liptions Epigenitics/Biology of belief. Lenses effect our perceptions of our memories on the subconscious level, sometimes on the conscious level, and even on the cellular level (for example if you perceive something "bad" as "tolerable", it will encode as "less negative" into your cells). Also, did you know that you can change your memories? For example: I've done a Teal Swan technique (Please see her work if interested, don't follow my description in practice)...Anyway, it seemed really fucking flaky before I did it, but it works. Basically, when you experience an emotion strong enough to know it has a traumatic root, you can keep going back until you find the first memory associated with that feeling...usually in childhood, but not always...you can then bring your current self there to improve the memory (provide comfort, or take fearless action to make it a better memory). The only other thing is, don't worry as much about the "details" in memory. It takes numerous positive memories to counteract a negative one on the cellular and emotional levels. So, the most important thing you can do is to try to shift your perception to get more positivity out of the good times, and reduce the extremity of difficulties.

@Leo GuraI'd like a thread or section to discuss Leo's insights (am I missing one?)....there's usually at least one thread started after each video....but the insights seem to go unacknowledged.... @ technical wizards: white screens hurt my head, I'd like the forum to be a different colour.... @ everyone: I wish myself, all of us, in general, really savoured being on here....(but not for too long) @Simon Zackrisson I like the time-ban idea, but perhaps "mindfulness reminders" if anything... (see edit): edit: I thought about it (as I fell asleep, weird I know...lol), and a time ban would take away the element of learning self-discipline ourselves (plus, I was just replying to Leo's comment, saying that I'd put more effort into that exact endeavour...lol)....Also, some people have limitations such as second language.... It should be up to us to find a positive balance online/ offline, helping others/receiving help, etc....it may, or may not, be good to have "mindfulness reminders" such as a timer up in the corner, that comes center screen every 20 minutes, or a log in notice that shows the number of days this week that you've signed in....but again....this should be our responsibility......not the forums....

We actually do remember EVERYTHING...it is stored in our cells rather than our minds....this is why memories are often not consciously on the surface....and why it's super important to have/ make as many positive memories as possible, for the sake of our heath (body, mind, and spirit)

@dekoi This is similar to issues with my brain injury.....I can tell you some things that help me, though they may be dysfunctional...I don't know.... For example, with conversations, I used to do that process you described with your dad but quickly and fluidly often converting my mental pictures/ videos to words too, and editing possible offenses etc all at once....If I tried to do that now, nobody could stand to talk to me, it would take forever...so, instead, I actually trained myself to throw away the filters...and put my brain on "auto-pilot"...I often have no idea what will come out of my mouth in advance...it offends people sometimes...but it takes much less mental energy (like how we drive a car using mostly our subconscious rather than our conscious mind). You can also nicely explain that you prefer focus to multi-tasking, and ask that conversations come after if possible. Supplements help (good fermented cod liver oil, vitamins/minerals for mental function, Moringa, Spirulina, etc)....but I'm sill not off caffeine... You can also develop virtual blinders somewhat. I have the focus everywhere thing too...I will hear an amalgamation of all the conversations in the room over the one I'm supposed to be engaged in...etc...but you can learn to discipline your focus more...I use weird techniques...when I need to pay attention to a certain person, I can imaginarily "highlight" them, etc... Don't let this hold you back...the more you push yourself the better it gets...I actually made it through an entire week for a workshop....followed almost everything...it wasn't easy, I was grumpy and blacking out after....but I did it...you can too!

@Yonkon My understanding is that it works best if you detach from specific external results, but learn to trust in the multi-verse and yourself to achieve more general internal results (allowing the universe to manifest that in unique ways). For example, instead of hoping that you will get a new job (because this one brings you unhappiness), you could alternately focus on achieving happiness, thinking only of happiness as something you DO wantyou could visualize yourself happy in your daily life, on your way to work looking excited, etc)....then trust in the mutli-verse...