Princess Arabia

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❤️I had no point. Was trying to be funny, but I guess the jokes on me.

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Depends on the role they're playing in your life. In this case - dating, be aware of how you feel around them, how they treat others and how they talk about others and especially other women. If they blame their exes a lot and if they show you respect. Also, how they treat themselves. All these pointers will vary on a scale, so don't try to be overly picky and judgemental about it. Do more observing and have fun in the process. Lighten up and go with the flow. People will reveal themselves to you, eventually. You're very young, so just enjoy dating around for the experience without getting too attached. Later on, you'll become more adept to making better choices as to who is more suitable for your personality type.

Mom, I don't have any regrets in life. I've come to the understanding that everything in life, good or bad, is there for a reason and is happening for the highest good; and I probably wouldn't be where I am today mentally if it wasn't for the things I experienced. But I must say, up to this point, the only thing I regret is not giving you a hug and holding you one last time before your passing and to see that beautiful smile of yours again in person. I will cherish our memories together and will never forget the times we shared as mother and daughter and how you raised me to become the loving person I am today. You never really directly taught me to be loving, but I saw how much you loved God and the strength you emitted from that love. The light around you was enough for me to see how much love you had inside you, and even when you used to scold me, I knew it was coming from love even back then when it was happening. There was a time in my adulthood, not too long ago you said to me you wish you had raised us better and how you were sorry you never showed us more of how a parent should raise a child and I was shocked to hear you say that. I never responded, because I had to process it for a minute because I thought you did a great job. You made sure I went to school, infact, you made sure all of us finished high school, and I never forgot the time when the busses went on strike and you made us walk. Mom, it was far, so far my shoes got torn apart and my feet got blistered up. Lol. You made me go to church with you and I never went a night without dinner. You never spoke badly about your children to either of us, and you made sure we respected our elders. There is so much more good I can say, but I'll leave it at that for now. Even the bad times were good because, it made us closer in the end. Mom, when I was taking the picture of your resting bed, and when they were lowering it, I wanted to jump in and hug it but I didn't want to create a scene, so I thought I better not incase they called the paramedics. Lol. I haven't gotten used to this yet, and probably never will, but I know you're still here with me so I'm not worried about getting used to you not being here physically, as long as I can still feel you and I have your pictures hanging in my room. It's a bitter-sweet thing, because every time I look at them now I look at you differently in the sense that you are no longer here physically. Bye for now and, i'll try not to get too sad because I know that's not what you would have wanted. It's spontaneous, my flowing emotions, but I try not to hold it in. I realize this will be an ongoing thing for now and only time will make the pain less unbearable. I love you and miss you and will be talking to you soon, or I should say writing you soon, because every few minutes I'm saying hi to you. Now I have two of you I'm talking to, my soul guide, and now you. I know you're both the same, but my mind doesn't, and I dare not confuse it so I let it do it's thing. Lots of hugs and kisses' Your little baby girl.

You're right about the "idea of love". Most people are attracted to the idea of love. This is why most relationships fail to last. When we are in the "business" of wanting to share our love, we will become more loving. Most are looking to gain something. May I suggest you don't go around wanting love but to become the love you would like to experience. There are infinite ways to express love and we attract what we are. Remember, you're only seeking yourself, and God creates by BEING; so, energetically, we have to become what we want to experience. God is Infinite love, and the only thing sad is we are unaware of how to love not what to love. Become that and the Universe will have no other choice but to reflect that back to you, because Reality is a mirror, and we cannot experience anything outside our own state of Consciousness.

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Are all your past videos about what God is still apply. I know you've realized a lot more, but is there anything in them that you were mistaken, or misled about as far as you can recall. E.g "What is Consciousness", "What is Reality", 'What is God", "Guided Excercises For Realizing You Are God", etc?

I don't believe "passionate love" is based on looks. Initial attraction, yes but not passionate. I think what it has more to do with is how you make a person feel. The stronger the emotion the more passion. Maybe you're speaking from a male's perspective or from your own personal experience but I'm just generalizing. Looks is the engine but feelings are the driving force. People will stay longer in relationships if they feel good about it regardless of how their partner looks and will have more passionate sex if their partner can invoke a certain feeling that's lodged in their memory that they long to re-live or made them feel something they have never felt before.

Very deep. Thanks for sharing this. I can resonate. Not in the exact way but similar. I let go of everything Christian for years and held no similar beliefs for a long time, and as I was in the process of becoming Atheist and started to say to myself there was no God, there can't be a God, it revealed itself to me. So, I was fortunate in the sense that I didn't have to do much unpacking and letting go of a lot of dogma because I was pretty much a clean slate. I naturally have an open mind anyway, so in this respect, I was open to receiving the Truth. There's still a lot to learn about myself and how the mind works but at least I know where to start from. Surrendering is the key for me, and even though resistance arises at times, I'm more aware of it, and with practice it becomes a lot easier. Most people need proof of this and that and are very logical in their thinking, but for me it is an intuitive knowing. There's still a lot to overcome because the mind is so tricky, and the conditioning is so deep, but awareness is the key to developing a strong sense of presence and I keep practicing the art of letting go and the recognition that things are just happening and that all we need to do is to become aware of how we respond to what's happening. What we resist persists. That's the real lesson.

S.I.P. My dear Mother. You are loved by so many. You will be dearly missed. It pains my heart. I will never be the same. I love you. I hate this design, but I know it is how it has to be. Until we meet again. Why, why, why oh why.

Hi Mom, I'm on the plane now going back home. The flight was delayed but it finally took off. Oh my, don't I have a lot to tell you. Everything went ok, just a little bit of time delay. Mom, did you see I could hardly talk. Paulette had to rush up to the stage to hold me, she thought I was about to fall. I was going to read the poem I wrote you, but I changed my mind because I knew it would have been a disaster so when they called my name, I just said I love you mom, then broke down. Anyway, it could've been worse where I could have passed out, and I knew you would've gotten out that coffin and picked me up, and scared the shit outta everyone there, so it worked out. Aunt Cherry was there and Jackie. Well, you were there, so you know. I wanted to jump in at the final burial when they were laying the flowers, but I said to myself. you would probably scold me and told me to wait my turn so I didn't bother. Did you see they live streamed it on Youtube. I was like just sitting there staring into space most of the time anyway, but at least it's on tape for me to look at whenever I feel like. Florida was hot but wasn't too bad. Miss Curry was helpful and she gave you a really nice whatever they call that. Afterwards, back at the AirB which was lovely, we stayed up for a while reminiscing about the good ole days. Mom, I miss you, but I know you're ok. You looked so peaceful. You never left the Lord and you were a devout Christian, the people from your church spoke highly of you and all miss you. Mom, even tho, I view things differently than you Spiritually, and even though I never told you about the stuff i got into, I knew you felt it, because of the changes you went through. Energetically, and I can't explain it, I just know you were affected somehow. I won't get into that but thats why those things were happening to you mother/daughter connection. About to land now, mom. Gotta go. Love you.

This is why if you just accept it for what it is and just stay neutral, that won't happen. It's an apology. Next week if it's a scold, it's a scold. If it's another apology, it's another apology. It's hard to see everything this way, especially when it's personal, but in this case, you can use it as an exercise, to practice. See it for what it is, no interpretations. It won't change your life that much either way.

Mom, tomorrow is the day and I'm here getting all freaked out. I don't know if I can handle seeing you in that condition. It's going to be very hard for me but thank goodness family will be there to help in the process. I'm sitting here at home seeing the picture in my mind and it's making me panic, imagine what the real thing will feel like. The brain doesn't know the difference between what's real and imagined so I'm going to have to conjure up some story in my mind to help ease the pain. I'll just pretend you're sleeping and having sweet dreams about our good times together when we used to talk for 3hrs straight and laugh about our times back home when I was a kid. Remember this picture. I remember when you used to yank my hair to try to comb it and I used to cry cause you we're so rough with it and it was too much to handle, now I wish you were here to yank it some more. Little Maya turned out to be a reporter and did good for herself, that little sweet baby girl. Lavern isn't in this picture, but I remember those days. Writing this has calmed me down a bit and Titi is here with me soothing me. You never met her, but she's quite the cat. She has a personality like no other cat I've had, and you know how much I love cats. I'll send you a pic of her sometime but for now here's to you and the kids you've raised that are all grown up now and will all meet again tomorrow. I can't stand it. I know I'll get through this, and it takes time, but it's hard going through the process. A different kind of hard. A hard I've never felt before, a hard that is harder than my petty little problems that's so minute compared to this. I've been trying to be normal and continue with my life, and doing this helps me. So long for now.

I miss @Moksha.

Your response made me chuckle. That's all I'm going to say. I'm still chuckling, re-reading it.

I started a new thread not realizing this one was already posted. It's been since locked as Admin, which I understand, suggested to just keep it to one thread, but you can read my response there. I would also like to add that please never make your reason to leave a forum because of what other's are doing or saying. There's a reason why you were drawn here to begin with and it's up to you to make the best of the opportunity. No one is going to be exactly how you'd like them to be, but you can choose for yourself what and how you respond to things, circumstances and people. Interact the way you like for people to react with you, submit posts that you find interesting or important to you, become that which you'd like to experience, just walking away sometimes shows you're not in control of your own decision-making and is dependent on others to make you feel a certain way. Sure, leave if you're done with it and see no value; but not because how others' are acting or speaking that doesn't satisfy your liking, because in the end anywhere you go, there's always something/someone that will disturb you if you're not grounded in your own being and presence.

I am starting a thread for those of us who would like to respond/comment on Leo's most recent blog post - "My Apologies". I thought it was very courageous and thoughtful of him to share this with us. It takes much strength, compassion and vulnerability for anyone to open up and express their thoughts and feelings in an open setting with the probability of being judged or criticized by those who were affected by remarks made by him, whether on a personal level or in general. We all know he can get a little aggressive sometimes in his responses and sometimes we take it personally without realizing that people are going through their own challenges in this work and life in general; and even though it's not an excuse to be mean or unkind, it is up to us as individuals to try to understand that people are still learning and understanding themselves and others and that we all go through phases in life, just like everything else in nature - we are no exception. Personally, I don't engage in too much politics and current events because I've recognized what it can do to one's psyche and the toxicity it can create within the mind and alters one's way of thinking about society and the world we live in. A little is ok for me; but as I am a very passionate individual, I have to be careful what I engage in because I can have the tendency to get overly consumed and overly opinionated which can take away from staying true to my natural self. So please take his advice on that and try not to get too caught up in the outside world as your inner world is more important and where our true power lies. On behalf of this forum, and to whomever it applies, I would like to express deep gratitude for Leo and this forum for providing a place to share our thoughts and feelings amongst like-minded individuals, and a place where we get to share deep insights and information that we can all learn from. I would also like to personally take this opportunity to thank him for having a space for me to journal my feelings, thoughts, pictures and whatever else I might find necessary in helping me go through the recent passing of my mother. Yes, I can do it on paper at home, but doing it here, I can do it more efficiently and constantly, which is helping me to release some of the emotions that flows throw me. So, thank you for that, Leo. Please share your comments and insights on how his recent blog post have impacted you whether negatively or positively so we can all see the influence it has made on the general influx of the forum. Not to compare notes, but because we are here as a combined collective consciousness and what affects one affects all, especially if you are actively participating and sharing insights and perspectives.

I didn't see it but are you suggesting that I take this one down.

Yes, I believe so. I'm very spontaneous and free spirited, which has it's positive and negative aspects, but overall I'm more attracted to guys who are more grounded and has a sense of masculinity, but not in a macho way who is very dominant or over-bearingly aggressive, somewhere in the middle to be able to handle my strong personality, while at the same time able to bring out my femininity where we balance each other out. I'm very flexible and open to different types of personalities but do have a baseline which I will not cross or veer from and that is a respect for me, women and people in general. Of course, we're not perfect and sometimes survival mechanisms get in the way of our judgements and how we respond to others and situations, and even myself can get disrespectful at times, but I'm speaking overall mannerisms and behavior, it should be your dominant characteristic. I highly value respect for others because it shows a sense of care and not just out for yourself without regard for the feelings of others. I guess being an Empath myself is where this comes from. All this came with more maturity.

When I was much younger, I used to be attracted to the player types, but I was just having fun and partying. As I got older, the player types are actually a turn-off for me, because I can see right through most of their bullshit. I'd rather a player be upfront with their intentions than to try to squirm and weasel his way with me because nothing he can say to me will make me sleep with him other than if I want to or not regardless if he's a player or not. The men that I find attractive now are the ones that can stimulate me mentally in an intellectual way and that I can hold interesting conversations with, but also have a sense of humor and are not too serious about themselves and have a deep respect for women. My type now is not the type most men think I would like. It has little to do with the physical and more with the mental aspects.

I ended up listening to this in its entirety. Very interesting insights.

Exactly. He's benefitting somehow, consciously or not. Plus he's getting feedback from us which is fueling that energy. If we stopped paying attention to all his nonsense. I bet you he'll stop. @Holykael, I'm talking to you too, but you and I know you'll just come back with another story.

Mom, let's lighten up the scene a bit. Here's your favorite group. I remember you used to play Abba all the time. I couldn't stand it. Now here I am dedicating their song to you. I still can't stand it. Lol. Love you mom. Funny how all the other videos I sent to you made me cry but this one. I cried enough last night, maybe that's why this is the one today. I'm doing OK, though...no im.not...just started again. Ok let me play this stupid song that doesn't make me cry...love you.