Lyubov

I'll summarize it simply. It basically explains the switch from non-duality to duality. in the beginning there was just god (heaven, oneness, nothing) and it said let there be light, the seven days, etc and god looked upon it's creation and it was good (everything is good). adam in the garden, ignorance to perception, eats the apple, creates the duality of there being something that is bad/evil. The fallen angel leaving heaven to rule over it's domain as a devil, separate from oneness, but the devil has only a finite amount of time before god returns and returns everything to oneness. devil does not have a bad connotation here. it just means experience from a finite dual perspective of self and other that is ultimately false compared to the absolute and will one day return to truth, god.

I am going to schedule a doctor's check up to make sure everything is in order. I'm looking to improve my sleep. I currently am on a crazy sleep schedule but I think if I get this in order I will be feeling more rested. When I go to the doctor I'm going to ask for them to test for these things. - cholesterol levels - testosterone levels - heavy metals (not sure if I should ask for this as provoked urine or blood? how can I have them check if there is any in my brain?) - liver / kidney tests What other blood/urine tests should I ask for to see if I'm missing anything?

The entire myths of god creating the earth and the fallen angel leaving heaven to become a devil along with adam and eve in the garden of eden is basically the fundamentals of non-duality.

Did it take you long to learn this technique? Where did you learn it? I've cried before as well while doing breathe work (holotropic & wim hof). From a material perspective this deep breathing stimulates the nervous system and greatly relaxes it. If you have stored up trauma you can be stuck in a perpetual fight or flight reaction that you've gotten numb/unconscious to so when the breathing is happening and the calm is being introduced to the body it causes that stagnant stuff to start coming up and being processed.

nothing has free will. emphasis on nothing. the ego appears to have the free will itself but it is only a lens of perception and a limiting array of possible choices. the nothingness is what has the freedom.

No symptoms except my messed up sleep schedule. I'd like to at least get tested for the other two just to make sure they are normal. If I request it from the doctor will they usually do it? By private testing do you mean one of those testing clinics?

I think this is mostly motivated due to the society/politics section. There has been some posts in there spreading dangerous information about COVID being a hoax.

Great news!

If I had my own flat I would have a library / art studio set up. Would do video editing, painting and reading in it. I would also have a fitness room for weight lifting and yoga if I was in the mood. If you have a daily practice maybe setting up a meditation room would be beneficial.

I too have a crush I've known for years that I would like to experience a relationship with. We live far apart now but talk almost daily and are good friends. What I've made my peace with is that it's just not feasible to bank or pursuing such relationships when living far apart. It's hard to really establish a romantic relationship when long distant like this so if our paths cross I'll pursue her but if we live apart I will focus elsewhere.

it's interesting to ponder just as it is interesting to ponder what will happen next year

So what I have gathered from reading this thread is that no one here really knows exactly what happens when we "die" in the conventional/material sense. We know consciousness goes on forever and has never been born and can never end but we don't know what duality is distinguished after conventional death. Seems like everyone has their own hot take on this. Some say a new duality of life on earth, some say you return aa the wind in a medow, others have claimed they were aliens prior to living in this dream of being human. The overall structure we understand but it seems the specific content is anyone's guess.

First advice would be to write in paragraphs Secondly, I've felt this way before. To be honest I think most people go through this when they get into consciousness work. I've taken some space from mine. I see them every couple weeks but I just feel better this way. Do what feels good for you, set up boundaries for yourself. Nothing wrong with boundaries. I wouldn't make any rash decisions though while feeling down.

LOL they have a an office set up in saint petersburg where people go in and make fake social media accounts all day. It isn't even a secret in the city. Everyone knows where the building is and you can go up and talk to the workers going in and out and ask them what they are doing.

Originally it was colonies of Jewish people there with the minority ethnic group of local jews from the region. They started coming in massive numbers due to the holocaust and buying up land so the Arabs in the region started rioting due to this. I support Israel existing as a country in the terms of its original geography. The world was quite messy during WWII so I understand how it came into existence and the conflict over resources. Today however since some healing has occurred and time has passed it's time to call them out on their expansion and apartheid policy. The israel/Arab conflict is complex and messy and I realize even with it's original geography land was unfairly taken from many natives.

I've met a few very financially successful girls who end up paying for their boyfriends. By this I mean for their food, rent, travel, etc. Something about it I find pitiful if you are a guy and your girlfriend is basically supporting you. Some of them don't seem to mind it while others seem to get guilted into it. Why does this seem to be a thing in 2020? It's rare but I know of a few examples from my own personal life with girls who are making it and they end up with a leech boyfriend.

This is a laughable level of delusion. I also say this as a Jew myself. You are a clown if you have as a part of your narrative that because your ancient ancestors lived in that region around 2000 years ago that you are entitled to "take it back." Let's be honest here. Israel is a country formed under British colonization. I'm sympathetic towards them cause at least they fled there due to persecution so I understand why it exists and am supportive of it to a degree but let's at least be honest about it's history. Don't make up some bullshit ideology about how 2000 years ago your incredibly distant ancestors lived there. Where's my Ethiopian citizenship yall??? LMMMAOOOO I'm almost finished watching this and this long haired guy with the glasses is complaining about 3rd generation Palestinians still being classified as refugees... CLOWN, you just said you're entitled to the land because your far off distant ancestors from 2000 years ago which you have basically nothing in common with settled there 2000 years ago

Bobby is turquoise lol

I'm also needing to improve my sleep :\ Stay up way too late on the internet lol

Yeah I do agree for the most part. The one difference is he probably wouldn't be stereotyped or discriminated against as much by police or bigoted people.

PBS Frontline is up there. PBS news in general has a very yellow feel to it. I would include NPR as well.

Not like this is remotely surprising to me or anyone concious enough not to be his follower. Trust me, he has said far far worse things in private (even though this is bad). I suppose by worse I mean things that even his followers would faint if they heard. Like their whole reality crumbling cause they bet all their tokens on this guy and lost. I wouldn't ever bank on this helping dems.

I for one think it's funny when green goes too far. It's better than when blue or red does it and they end up shooting up a church.

They will make the first move sometimes if they've had a few drinks in the bar... then again girls will do that anywhere if they've had a few drinks.

I read your post and I don't think this post is directed towards you exactly. I think it's different if you are married and gonna start a family and it's a healthy long term relationship. You also are pulling your own weight. The one guy I know would use my friend's bank card to buy Nintendo Switch games behind her back while she was at work....