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To the 'I', the ego, the unconditional Love will feel like a less powerful, less intense version of the egoic , needy, directional, normal human love. The challenge is realising that unconditional Love is just that, unconditional, and it Loves everything that arises in your experience, a stubbed toe and your child the same. Your sense of loneliness and meaninglessness are what the ego assignes to that experience. Of course, the ego is imaginary, and the work is in making this actual.

30mg, dissolved in vinegar, + coconut milk, inhaled... Felt like a kitchen cleaning sponge ran through my body, top to bottom, and removed all traces of impurities, thoughts, concepts. I had no sensory input whatsoever, and I became this .... cool (low temperature) superconductor for what felt like Pure Will, shimmering and trembling. I was in pure bliss, only 'thought' was "whaaaaaaaat ???!!?!?!?!" Because I didn't have a body anymore, and ego was gone, I experienced absolutely NO Resistance, (hence the idea of superconductor), and it was absolute bliss. Also the certitude that that is the original state, and when this body dissolves, I'll return to that, lead to the realization of Eternity, and fear of Death gone. Is this what people mean by God/Godhead?

Went vegan for 5 months, felt more 'spiritual' I thought, but external circumstances were affecting me much more, to the point I thought I was going a bit crazy. Introduced 1 2 boiled eggs a day, felt a bit better for 2 weeks, then mentally started degrading again. Re introduced chicken in my diet, I feel normal again. Whether you think meat lowers consciousness or not, you're right.

timestamped, RIP little girl

although he's missing for 2 hours, probably boofing 5Meo hero doses back to bare back

White light normally means too high of a dose, how much did you inhale? I assume it was smoked/vaporized.

Whenever I feel something that I interpret as 'high(-er) consciousness', I default to imagine how my diet, or caffeine I ingested, or something else in the environment modified my neurotransmitters which cause the high consciousness state. Because it seems to be such a direct effect of e.g. me ingesting caffeine, and 5-15 mins later, my state of being is elevated. So the neurotransmitters 'explanation' and physicality can lead to somewhat repeatable results, but is it a limiting belief? The True explanation I've heard many times is that brains do not exist, and caffeine is just Consciousness affecting Consciousness and leading to altered Consciousness. Great. But how is this more useful than the physical explanation? It opens the door for the possibility of increasing Consciousness by not-immediately-physical means, like thinking and focusing on positive thoughts/imaginations that feel good and make one excited, increasing/altering 'your vibration'. If the genetic lottery didn't deal you a neurotransmitter cocktail useful for spirituality work, is there still hope that by focusing on the True explanation, you can transcend physicality and increase Consciousness?

Thinking a bit more about this, I uncovered a belief that I feel deep down that feelings/emotions appear first, as a result of physical changes in body and environment, these feelings then are interpreted to thoughts, based on past experiences. So trying to change thoughts, with the expectation it'll make me feel better I see as not very efficient, since thoughts do not influence physicality directly (in my old misguided belief). I need to contemplate this more and renounce this belief that does not feel good, like "I" am out of control of whatever feelings and thoughts arise, since physicality/circumstances is what creates them. Whenever a negative thought or emotion arises, my immediate reflex is to check what in my environment/food has changed that could explain it, when it is only a guidance from above that the thought or belief is moving me out-of-alignment. What feels good is that state of being (vibration) creates reality, and emotions are a guidance system that show how in alignment or not our thoughts/beliefs are with the higher self/Soul/God/Life/Source. Need to focus on non-physicality more, stay in that state more.

@OctagonOctopus good reminder that thoughts are layers on top of direct experience, thanks @Leo Gura I'm still far from realizing the full potential of this form... to even think it's limiting me... (yet another limiting belief) @Nahm Consciousness is Already here. Consciousness is Always here. damn you thoughts !

@Cosmin_VisanI see you're pretty much stuck in physicality, most of us still are. You're trying to get at the 'physical reality laws', 'real reality' etc. Have you considered that physicality is the tail end of Consciousness, the reflection of your state of being? No point in trying to modify your state of being by manipulating the reflection People keep bringing these type of 'what ifs' that are just concepts. If you feel killing people excites you, by all means go for it, don't let a few beliefs stop you. You probably won't, because these 'what ifs' are just concepts, they have no actuality.

'Multiple consciousnesses' are just more concepts within the dream (within the dream). 'Awakening' brings about a transcending of the dream, all constructs inside the dream are seen for what they truly are.

You create your suffering. How is the car breaking down suffering? At best, it's an indifferent happening, the way you assign meaning to it makes it so. Do you think the Universe/ God/etc is against you and sends suffering your way? The cat being abused by previous owner, how have 'you' attracted that? Did you attract it to the cat, or to your life?

Who gets angry?

Are you aware of Being? if yes, you must be something more subtle than it...

" ...the first step will be to continue remembering “I am” constantly; simply, “I am.” Do not say “Ram,” do not say “Shyam.” Do not use any name, because you are not that. Simply use, “I am.”Try it in any activity and then feel it. The more real you become inside, the more unreal becomes the surrounding world. The reality becomes “I,” and the world becomes unreal. The world is real or the “I” is real – both cannot be real. You are feeling that you are just a dream now; then the world is real. Change the emphasis. Become real, and the world will become unreal. Gurdjieff worked on this method continuously. His chief disciple, P. D. Ouspensky, relates that when Gurdjieff was working on him with this method, and he was practicing for three months continuously this remembering of “I am, I am, I am,” after three months everything stopped. Thoughts, dreaming, everything stopped. Only one note remained inside like eternal music: “I am, I am, I am, I am.” But then this was not an effort. This was a spontaneous activity going on: “I am.” Then Gurdjieff called Ouspensky out of the house. For three months he had been kept in the house and wasn’t allowed to move out.Then Gurdjieff said, “Come with me.” They were residing in a Russian town, Tiflis. Gurdjieff called him out and they went into the street. Ouspensky writes in his diary, “For the first time I could understand what Jesus meant when he said that man is asleep. The whole city looked to me as if it was asleep. People were moving in their sleep; shopkeepers were selling in their sleep; customers were buying in their sleep. The whole city was asleep. I looked at Gurdjieff: only he was awake. The whole city was asleep. They were angry, they were fighting, they were loving, buying, selling, doing everything.” Ouspensky says, “Now I could see their faces, their eyes: they were asleep. They were not there. The inner center was missing; it was not there.” Ouspensky said to Gurdjieff, “I do not want to go there any more. What has happened to the city? Everyone seems asleep, drugged.” Gurdjieff said, “Nothing has happened to the city, something has happened to you. You have been undrugged; the city is the same. It is the same place you moved around in three months ago, but you couldn’t see that other people are asleep because you were also asleep. Now you can see because a certain quality of awareness has come to you. With three months of practicing ‘I am’ continuously, you have become aware in a very small measure. You have become aware! A part of your consciousness has gone beyond dreaming. That is why you can see that everyone is asleep, dead, moving, drugged, as if hypnotized.” Ouspensky says, “I couldn’t bear that phenomenon – everyone asleep! Whatsoever they are doing, they are not responsible for it. They are not! How can they be responsible?” He came back and he asked Gurdjieff, “What is this? Am I deceived somehow? Have you done something to me that the whole city seems asleep? I cannot believe my own eyes.” But this will happen to anyone. If you can remember yourself, then you will know that no one is remembering himself, and in this way each goes on moving. The whole world is asleep. But start while you are awake. Any moment that you remember, start “I am.”I do not mean that you have to repeat the words “I am,” rather, have the feeling. Taking a bath, feel “I am.” Let there be the touch of the cold shower, and let yourself be there behind, feeling it and remembering “I am.” " https://www.osho.com/osho-online-library/osho-talks/ouspensky-self-remembrance-awareness-b53b7e05-80e?p=af9ec71b252757d57af922eff2e9bbbc

Enlightenment before Xmas, lets go!

If anyone else cares, lots on subjectivity and subject-object split in this and other articles on this website http://www.uncoveringlife.com/enlightenment-what-it-is/

Dies Leo talk about subjectivity in any of his videos? There's some in the What is perception video. I'm going to watch the 2 videos on What is God Any other videos/links?

Sounds like Unconditional Love (after Enlightenment) precludes the Romantic Love from appearing ever again. Since you've fallen back into True Love, you won't fall in love with other specific people romantically. And you will see through the delusions and egoic stories and preferences that make Romantic Love possible.

... that you Love them?

You are the universe

Martin normally gives 3 rounds of 5Meo to his clients, not 3 inhales at once... you'd be gone after 1 anyway.... when you come back, take another, and then another. He says the magic is in the process of dis assembling and re assembling the ego, so 3 is better than 1. Also some energies need more goes to be fully released in some cases.

Ego can be said it is the repeating pattern for energy, if reactions to situations happened a certain way in the past, they tend to go the same way. It has some inertia, the pathways took years/decades to form, it will take some time to re-form. Only a matter of practicing every day , re-enforcing your realizations, and the patterns will slowly change

In like flynn

Sounds like 5 Meo